Beyond The Blue

Hey everyone, the next chapter a day early because I'm away for a few days and wanted to get the next chapter up. I hope you enjoy this one as much as I enjoyed writing it for both the happiness and the emotion I felt writing it.

Tough Questions

Connor gives me his number which I wanted more for the fact that I could text him whenever I wanted to because just spending time with him and talking to him just makes me feel good. Heading home, I get a few hours of sleep before Jess and Logan turn up, I’m just in a pair of shorts as she rolls her eyes “Hey Loges,” I say as he just runs inside as Jess gives me his bag.

“I worked last night remember,” I say as I rub my eyes still exhausted after working and only getting 2 hours of sleep. Wandering and sitting at my table Jess looks at me “You didn’t have to do this, he could’ve gone to Darcy’s” she says as I shake my head.

“Leave Logan there with the girls? No way I’m doing that, especially with Bailey at a sleepover with his friends” I say enjoying the time that I will have with my nephew tonight.

“Did you tell him about the surprise tonight?” I ask as Jess shakes her head before I get up to make us both coffee. “Nah I didn’t but why are you going to see the Kings and Jets game of all games, it’s not like it’s our boys playing,” she says as I shake my head.

“My mate Connor from work had the tickets and his family couldn’t fly down for it so had the spare tickets so he asked if I wanted to go and he said it’s fine to take Logan,” I say as I sit there. “So Connor is a good one?” she asks as I sit there and nod and tell my sister about the first day.

“Yeah, I’d had such a shit first day you know and I was getting changed and Connor came in at the same time and was talking to me, introduced himself and we actually went and had beers and dinner over at the Empire cause he actually just lives at the Apollo”, I say to Jess as she sits there nodding.

“We got to know each other really well he told me all about how he’s gay but has a son that he doesn’t get to see too often, plus because he only lives a few blocks away we get coffee together in the morning which is a nice start,” I say as Jess looks at me smiling.

“You have a crush on Connor don’t you?” Jess says getting up as she comes over teasing and nudging me as I shake my head. “Of course not, but I mean it’s nice just talking to him and seeing him because he gets me and I get him,” I say as I realise that I am falling for Connor deeply and that I haven’t felt this sort of energy for anyone since Harry.

I make the coffee as Jess looks across at me “You really do have a crush on him, you talk about him the same way that you did with Harry”. Standing there passing it to her I look at her and realise that my sister reads me like one of the kids' books “Yeah alright, I just haven’t felt this way about anything since Harry and well he doesn’t know that I’m gay or anything” I say as she looks at me confused.

“You, the guy who would sneak into my room when I was at work just to look at my League Legends calendar?” she says teasing me because I never knew that she knew about that.

The League Legends was an annual calendar released featuring 12 footy players each season that would get naked all bar some cleverly placed props covering their cocks to help raise money for charity and my sister had all four that were released and all 4 had my first ever crush Max Gregory in it.

“You knew about that and never told me?” I say feeling embarrassed as she just keeps going “2012 Max was Mr May, 2013 he was September, 2014…” she says teasing me as I put my hand up to stop her. “Alright I get the picture, but why did you never say anything?”

She looks across at me “Because it wasn’t my place to do that and well you were pretty comfortable walking into the house after that night out and just going “yo everyone, I’m gay,” like nothing had ever happened then going in to have a shower,” I laugh, forgetting how I came out and I was pretty drunk that night when I said it.

Just laughing I remember how awkward it was the next day when I had to answer the questions about what I said. Jess finishes her coffee and heads off as I spend a few hours with Logan just talking to him before we get ready to go to the footy.

“So did Mum tell you where we are going tonight?” I ask Logan as he shakes his head, more interested in watching TV than talking to me. We both get ready as I put on a dark blue pair of ripped skinny jeans that show off my legs and ass which might be a little intentional to get Connor’s attention with a grey tight long sleeve shirt and a black jacket.

I finish packing Logan’s bag and we get in the car as he wants to play 20 questions about where we are going but I still don’t tell him as we drive through the city to get to Andromeda Stadium which is the newest stadium in the country. We get close to the stadium “There’s where we are going” I point out to Logan as we get near the carpark at the ground as he gets all excited but then adds another question to the thousand that he’s had since we got in the car.

“Why are we coming here? The Panthers played last night and won versing Bears” he says to me as I nod to him. “Yeah, but my friend had tickets and thought me and you might want to come with him” my explanation still is weird to him but I think he’s just excited to get to the stadium.

Holding his hand is a good little experience with my nephew because we don’t get to do this too much, wandering in he spots the area where there’s a jumping castle and I let him go and play for a bit as I hold his bag.

“You must be a great Dad, he has really polite manners and adores you” I hear a lady standing next to me as I’m waiting for Logan to have his ten minutes on the jumping castle. “Well thanks… but he’s just my nephew,” I say looking at the lady who is just a fraction older than me as I think she’s flirting.

“Well, he adores you at the very least,” she says as she introduces herself as Holly and starts talking to me. As the conversation continues, it’s very one-sided dominant as I’m trying to keep my eye on Logan as well as how the reserve team match is going. I feel her flirting with me and normally I would just come out and say that I’m gay but since almost going back into the closet at work I find it harder to say it out in public too.

“If you come here regularly for games, I’ve got seats up in the Chairman's Lounge where you can come up for VIP treatment she says, I can give you my number” I look across at her, I know that she’s flirting with me but she doesn’t scream total slut either.

“Thanks for the offer but I’m meeting my partner so he’ll be here shortly,” I say as she nods, looking rejected but still keeps chatting to me about things as Logan finishes his ten minutes on the jumping castle.

We find our pretty good seats and sit down to watch the last 20 minutes of the reserves game which is not long before Connor gets here. I watch him come up to where we are sitting, for the first time in fully casual gear as I realise that he actually has ears pierced normally and a nose ring which is not what I expected.

I look at his outfit ironically in the exact same jeans I’m wearing whilst he has his Kings jersey on over his long sleeve t-shirt as I sit there laughing “Cannot believe that you walk around in public wearing that” I say as he laughs and sits down next to me.

“What can I say, I’m never going to be called a glory hunter,” he says taking a dig at me as I introduce him to Logan. “Loges this is my friend Connor,” I say as Logan high-fives Connor before looking at him. “Uncle Trent’s a policeman now” which is his new fact that he tells everybody so proud of it as Connor laughs.

“Is he really?” Connor says as Logan tells him all about me being a policeman as I go off to get us something to eat and drink, Logan and Connor are having a great conversation when I get back which makes me feel glad I came with him.

“You two had a good conversation I see?” as Logan’s eyes light up at his hot dog and I give it to him as I sit next to Connor as the two of them still haven’t finished talking. Watching them talk reminds me of the close bond that Logan and Harry used to have when they would hang out together and just talk about things.

Spending time with Connor like this, I get to see a new side of him which makes me fall for him even more considering that he didn’t need to put up with talking to Logan and easily could’ve said no to bringing him. Sitting before the game, Connor and I just talk about things in general mainly about the game until it starts and then I see how animated he can get at the footy and how passionate he is, mostly about how bad the Kings actually are and how useless the players are.

I was expecting through the game for Logan to talk my ear off but instead, he’s more interested in sitting next to Connor which I feel bad for him having to deal with Logan but as the night goes on, I see him enjoying the company.

At the end of the night, the Kings lose 48-6 which saw most fans leave early and disappointed, I can see that Connor had a really good time as I got to talk to him a lot more and then him talking to Logan. “Do you want a lift home or anything?” I ask Connor as he looks at me surprised that I’m offering.

“Nah, you’ve got Logan and I can walk back down to the station and get the train home,” he says as I shake my head insisting on taking him home because it’s not that much of a detour. In the end, it takes some nagging to get him in the car with me as it would probably take as long to walk to the station as it does us getting out of the car park.

As I get out of the car park, the radio comes on and the Backstreet Boys are playing “Seriously? The Backstreet Boys?” Connor says to me as I laugh and shake my head. “It’s just what’s on the radio bro,” I say as he gives me that nod sure.

I look at the backseat and see Logan asleep already as I look across at Connor “Sorry, you had to put up with Logan all night rambling at you” I say as Connor shakes his head not worried about talking to Logan all night.

“Don’t be sorry man, I had a lot of fun with Logan tonight, reminded me of hanging out with Chase” he says referring back to his son for the first time other than mentioning that he has one. Sitting in the car I look across at him “How often do you get to see Chase?” I ask as I don’t know if I’m pushing the boundary, but I want to get to know him a lot better.

He looks across at me as I realise, I may have overstepped the boundary “Sorry, wasn’t my place to ask” I say as Connor shakes his head, telling me that it was fine to ask. “Don’t be sorry man, I only get to see him three or four times a year, mostly in the school holidays but then it means I have to fly there rather than he coming to see me” he says as I get the sense of disappointment in his voice.

Even though Connor only has a son through a one-night stand from when he was 17, he really cares about his son and wants to have a lot to do with his life, but doesn’t get to see him enough or talk to him as much as he wants to.

Driving home the conversation talks about what we both get up in our spare time, I pretty much don’t have much spare time because I’m always at the gym either working out or just working. “Pretty much I’m just at the gym in my spare time or I love to go hiking or down to the beach and try to go surfing but after plenty of lessons, I still don’t get it,” I say laughing as Connor laughs with me.

“I’ll have to take you some time and get you learning,” Connor says as he winks at me and we just keep talking until I pull up outside his apartment tower. I wish he could kiss me but he pats my shoulder and says that we have to catch up more as he gets out of the car.

I don’t realise Logan has woken up as we drive away from Connor’s place “Where are we?” he says groggily as I smile. “We just had to drop Connor home, we’ll be home in about 10 minutes,” I say as he just nods before asking me a question that I definitely don’t expect.

“Is Connor your friend like Uncle Harry was?” he asks as I nearly choke as I take a drink from my bottle of water that I’ve got in the car, surprised by the question and not sure how to react. “Nah, he’s not like Uncle Harry, he’s just my friend from work like your friends from school,” I say trying to settle the conversation down.

We drive back and I keep the conversation on the footy until we get home because I don’t need to be questioned by a 9-year-old about my relationship status right now. Heading inside, Logan heads straight up to the bed in the spare room and gets into his PJs and falls asleep as soon as his head hits the pillow.

I take a quick shower and in the shower, all I can do is think about Connor and just how hot he looked tonight with his piercings and especially how hot his nose ring made him. Standing in the shower, I let the water run down my body thinking how much I would love to have Connor in here with me right now.

Getting out of the shower, I go from the ensuite straight onto my bed and go under the covers as I close my eyes and realise how hard my cock is thinking about Connor and just how charming he is.

Moving my hand over my chest, rubbing it as I think of Connor kissing my chest, going down my body as his muscled strength climbs over the top of me, dominating me as he pushes me down on the bed.

I lay there, my cock so hard that it is leaking so much pre-cum right now as I move my hand down my body and onto my shaft as I slowly jerk it. Closing my eyes, I picture Connor starting to suck it, taking the head slowly in his mouth, the head disappearing as his tongue laps up my pre that is leaking out of my cock head.

I get out of bed for a moment and grab my small black dildo and lube it up as I go back and close my eyes thinking about Connor going deep on my cock, taking it all into his mouth as he just slides down as I fuck his mouth as I pick up the speed of my jerking imagining his mouth getting fucked by my big cock.

Moving my hand towards my hole, I grab the lube and run it over my hole before pushing my finger in as I think about Connor playing with my hole as he sucks my cock. I moan as I push it in, trying to stay quiet as possible as I do that pushing it in moaning and stretching my hole out.

I let my finger loosen me up a bit before I imagine Connor’s hard cock running itself against my crack as I grab the dildo and rub it against my hole before sliding it in. I can feel the pain because it’s been so long since I’ve been fucked but the dildo feels so good as I imagine Connor’s 8 inches sliding into me.

His sweaty, smooth body is on show as he starts to pound my hole, my hole stretching out as the power goes into my hole and I moan as I feel the dildo starting to hit my prostate. I lay there, sweating and so damn horny wishing that I could have Connor’s cock inside me fucking me hard.

I keep jerking and eventually blow a massive load of cum all over my chest and abs as I lay there with the dildo inside me moaning loud enough that it’s good but not loud enough so anybody can hear it.

Pulling the dildo out, I continue to head back into the ensuite to take a quick shower to clean off all the cum which normally I would just fall asleep but I need to make sure that it’s cleaned off for the morning.

That night all I can do is think about Connor and how amazing he is especially with how engaged he was with Logan when I knew that he could have been doing other things. The whole situation with me and Connor is a tough one because he has very quickly become one of my closest friends and he has always been honest with me about his life about being gay, having a son and how much he misses him.

Comparing that to how I’ve been with him, I’ve never told him that I’m gay, let alone told him anything about Harry which admittedly I don’t tell too many people about what happened because it’s both tough to talk about and I found people treated me differently.

I know inside that Connor wouldn’t treat me any differently and he would be the right person but talking about Harry is like a brick wall in front of me. The next morning, I’m up early because I’ve got to drop Logan off at Darcy’s before heading to work.

Getting Logan up, he doesn’t want to be up early but the promise of a rare Maccas breakfast once he gets to Uncle Darcy’s gets him moving and I have a shower and get ready for work and as we drive across town to Darcy’s, Logan is still full of questions about Connor.

“So did you have a good time staying with uncle Trent?” I ask him as he nods because I know he had a good time last night although I think it was more talking to Connor rather than being at the game. “What was your favourite thing?” I ask him as he tells me that it was talking to Connor.

“Uncle Trent? Can you stay friends with Connor, please? He is really funny and nice like Uncle Harry” I don’t know why but having Logan’s approval of Connor makes me tear up a bit because Logan loved Harry and those two had a bond that was so special and Logan adored Harry.

I don’t know what to say as Logan continues to leave me speechless “You know I miss Uncle Harry and his visits, why did he have to get sick?” he asks which again hits me hard because I miss Harry so much every day too. “I miss Uncle Harry too,” I say as we get towards Darcy’s place as I pull up in his driveway.

I ring the bell and he answers it “Morning bro” Darcy is always too excited early in the morning especially on a Sunday as he notices that something is bothering me. “Hey Loges, Aunt Sally is in the kitchen ordering breakfast,” he says as he closes the door as Logan runs in there and he tells me to sit on the front bench.

“What’s the matter bro?” he says as I start to answer him “Don’t answer me, nothing bro, because I know when something is bothering you,” Darcy says to me very sternly.

I sit there and sigh because it’s just ridiculous to be bothered “Just last night Logan and I went to the footy with Connor and I had a really good time and so did Logan with Connor” I say as Darcy knows what I’m starting to get to.

“You’ve been thinking about Harry again?” he says to me as I nod but then shake my head because it’s complicated. “Well kinda, it wasn’t actually me it was Logan who brought the discussion up because he asked me if Connor was my friend like Harry was” Darcy laughs as I say that and rolls his eyes at how many times Logan says the tough things.

We sit there for a minute as Darcy looks at me “Logan was right though in a way wasn’t he?” he says to me as I don’t say anything which is more than enough for my brother to know that I have feelings for Connor as more than friends.

“Fuck man, you need to be honest with him about everything that happened” not just because you like him but you’re going to come across a case or somebody that needs your help and Connor needs to know what could affect you whether it be good or bad.

Darcy pats me on the back as Sally comes out to double-check what he wants for breakfast and offers to order me something which is fine because I ate on the way to work this morning. I head in and say hello and goodbye to the girls and then as well to Logan who tells me to say hi to Connor for me.

“I think someone is a bigger fan of Connor than you are,” Darcy says to me as I head off to work stopping to get a coffee on the way. Sunday shifts are always interesting because it’s usually a mix of different people all being put on the roster from different units and shifts depending on what is happening.

As I head in there, another new face I don’t recognise is handling the briefing and he is very stern and swift about what we will be doing. “The public order division is short-staffed today due to illness so there has been a request for some of you to partner with them today,” he says bluntly as I notice Reid walk into the briefing room.

“Kingston, Granger, Dalton, Brown and Hannan please remain behind as you will be briefed by Acting Sergeant Wilson,” he says as I’m happy with that hoping that I get put with Reid. After the briefing, Reid starts to fill everyone in and leaves my name last “Probationary Constable Hannan, you’ll be with me today” he says with a playful roll of his eyes and muttering probationary under his breath like he’s not thrilled.

Everyone leaves and I wait for Reid to finish up doing what he’s doing “Was it deliberate that you chose me out of all the others because I thought you wouldn’t be allowed to pick a Probationary officer to partner with you” I ask as he laughs.

“Nothing in the rulebook says that I can’t, and when I see a familiar face I’d rather just pick them because I know what I’m getting… and with you, it’s a bit more than everyone else,” he says laughing and winking alluding to the showers incident.

“So what are we doing today?” I ask as we head out to the four-wheel-drive and get in it as Reid decides to head inside and grab out a Public Order squad shirt for me so that we look like we match and are meant to be together.

I change into it and the different uniform makes me feel more important and we head out and just drive around for a while. “Are we going to do anything this afternoon?” I ask him as he shakes his head and smiles.

“Hopefully not you know, there’s not much happening this afternoon so doubt that anything will need us and I can just assign any other unit if it’s not really needing me,” he says as I laugh that he wants to make this afternoon just about the social factor rather than working.

Sitting there we talk about footy and there’s plenty of banter about him being a Bears fan and how the Panthers beat them on Friday night. “How have things been going since the first few days?” Reid asks me as I nod and smile.

“Really good, I’ve actually had some really good partners and got talking to some really good people and become really close friends with some,” I say as Reid smiles and looks at me “Hope I’m on that list,” he says as I just nod.

There is a flirtatious charm in Reid which is just confusing because on the outside he’s a totally straight guy, Rugby playing, footy-loving dude into cars but then when he’s with me he gets all giddy and flirty which always throws me because from what I gather he’s married or has a girlfriend.

“You definitely are in the good camp so tell me more about you,” I ask him wanting more information into his personal life even though I might be pushing the boundaries of friendship. “I’ve been a cop for 10 years, pretty much went straight into it from school, been acting Sergeant for about 3 months after being in the Public Order Unit for coming up to 2 years,” he says as he tells me about his work life.

“That’s all interesting but what about in your personal life? I mean you’re not averse to flirting with guys well at least me” I say as Reid laughs kind of embarrassed right now by it. “That’s true, well I’m engaged to my girl Bree for the last eight months and been together 4,” he says which makes me wonder whether Reid is actually a closet case.

“And I know what you’re thinking about the flirting, it’s hard to explain really because I would probably describe myself as being Pansexual, I’m romantically more into women though sexually I’m more into men,” he says opening up about himself in a way that I never thought that he would when I asked him the question initially.

“So, what does Bree think of it?” I ask as I realise that Reid doesn’t have too many boundaries whilst he is talking about all of this. “She’s totally cool with it; we knew each other and I was actually dating a guy when we first met”.

The afternoon with Reid is so much fun because he doesn’t want to work and we just talk as he tells me all about his life “So tell me about you Trent, I mean I know about your history after putting my foot in it the other day” he says as I shrug with there not being much to tell in my past.

“Well, you know about Harry, but otherwise there isn’t much going on never really had anything more than a couple of flings before that you know, nothing too serious,” I say which is true even though I had a sort of regular thing going on with a guy that I had met online.

Reid sits there nodding as we head out to one call out just to oversee things but at the end of the day neither of us were really needed much. Wandering back to the station after a good day with Reid, Connor is getting changed and again I can’t help but admire how hot he is with his smooth tanned body and amazing blonde hair.

“Oh look at you, getting a promotion already?” Connor quips as I wander in wearing the other uniform that Reid got me. “Shut up, Reid just wanted me to look the part,” I say as Connor laughs and rolls his eyes.

“Daddy is a big player and of course, you get promoted up” Connor chirps back in a tone that seems a bit spiteful as I get a bit confused. “Dude, I’m still…” I start as Connor loses it laughing hysterically as he had me going.

My face looks confused as he laughs “Come on man, I know the situation I was just messing about, fark you’re gullible” he says as I shake my head and punch him. “Pub?” I ask as Connor’s face lights up “Definitely”.