Beyond The Blue

I lay there looking at Connor and smile at him just admiring how amazing he is both as a hot stud and then as an absolute beast who won’t let anything stop him. Getting up off the bed, I know that I need to organise dinner or something which means that I should have a shower.

Connor joins me in there as he can’t keep his hands off me again as we wash everything off “You could’ve done this in there too you know” I say as he just smirks as he feels my still cum soaked hole and rubs it “Yeah I know, but something about you wet and in the shower makes you more perfect” he says smirking.

Getting out of the shower, we get dressed as I head downstairs to organise something for dinner while Connor takes control of cleaning up the spare room because heavens forbid I put something in the wrong place and the children get annoyed.

In the end, I just end up making some Hamburgers for dinner seeing that we had the meat and everything as we just eat dinner on the couch. “What did you need Jess’ advice on?” Connor asks me as we sit there watching Bob’s Burgers.

“Nothing, we just hadn’t had a proper catch-up and Mia had dancing down the road and Logan wanted to see you so we let you two catch up because Logan has been desperate for it and thought you’d enjoy it” Connor has a way of seeing right through me when I make an excuse but he drops the subject.

I really want to bring up the subject about Connor coming back to work and whether he wants to or not because I get the sense that whilst at the same time, he wants to go back to being a cop because he loves it, the circumstances of the past few weeks and months though makes me wonder if he wants to do it.

Connor looks across at me and goes to say something which makes me wonder if he is reading my mind but then I just roll my eyes when I hear what he has to say. “Did you cook extra Bacon?” he asks as I just nod my head towards the pan where there is a couple of other pieces in the pan which makes me life.

“Make sure you bring me a piece over and not hog it all for yourself,” I say to Connor who lets out a groan almost as if it’s a chore and that he knows the whole being shot thing is running thin with me now as an excuse. Connor thinks that he is giving me the worst bit when he gives me the crunchy burnt bit but it is my favourite thing about Bacon.

Sitting there, Connor does the cleaning up tonight as he has a look at me “You’ve got next weekend off right?” he says to me as I nod “Yeah, I’ve got Friday until Tuesday off; Why what do you want?” I ask as Connor looks at me.

“Well, the Kings are playing up at Avondale, would you want to head up there for the weekend,” he says to me which actually makes my plans of proposing easier of doing all this before everything hits the fan again because the start of the court cases will happen soon.

I sit there pretending to think about it for a while before I smile at Connor “I’ve already booked everything for that” I say telling him that I’ve planned this weekend to be all about him and that I am willing to sit through a Kings game just for him and then we can spend 3 days in Spirit Cove where I want to propose to Connor.

He smiles and I get the sense that now he thinks that this is what I must have been planning with Jess this afternoon but doesn’t say anything to me about it. The thought of proposing is both scary and exciting at the same time because it’s such a big decision but I know it’s something that would be phenomenal.

Cuddling up to Connor, I always feel relaxed with him and all my panic and stress of everything that happen is slowly fading away and I thought that I would be feeling more guilty of thinking about proposing to Connor so quickly when I was with Harry for so long.

I try to make sure that Connor has no idea of what I am planning to do because I’ve booked us a spot at Spirit Cove right on the bay that is secluded but has its own access down to the beach which means that Connor could actually teach me to surf. I don’t want him finding out because he hates when I make a fuss over him and even though he acts desperate at times after being shot he is back to being independent.

Thinking about how I want to propose to Connor, I don’t want to make it a big deal but want to make it special for him just in a way that would be us right now. I lay there trying to think of the perfect idea which I want to do and then think about the ring that I want to give Connor and what sort of thing that he would like.

Feeling Connor’s arm around me, he cuddles in tighter to me as I hear him snoring away which is nice as I drift away to sleep thinking about how lucky that I am.

The next morning, Connor is up before I am and I find breakfast already waiting for me when I come downstairs “Morning, I know that you probably wanted to be up earlier but you’ve got night shift tonight and I want you to sleep in because you’re all rush right now” he says as I sit down and look at him “You bought Coffee didn’t you?” I say as he just nods.

“Yeah, I still can’t get the hang of this machine because it’s either too weak or too strong,” he says as I have learnt that since moving in with me that Connor is a real coffee snub and it has to be just right otherwise, he won’t drink it.

“How do you not have the hang of it yet?” I ask because I have even made notes and left them for him to practice and he just hasn’t been able to yet. “I know that but it’s absolutely terrible, I just can’t get it right because it should be easy, I took every single step you left and it was like drinking water.

I roll my eyes and sit down, the Café bought coffee is always good though especially when Connor goes a distance to get it from The Steam Room. Sitting down and eating breakfast, Connor looks across at me “So with the Café at the gym if you want to go with that idea, would you think that Kelly would like to work with us there as well, she is the kind of person that would be good and her experience valuable” he says as he is coming up with ideas.

The ambition that Connor has for the gym project is something that I admire about Connor and it makes me think that with each day he works on it the likelihood of him coming back to being a cop is getting less and less.

So much of me wants to ask him the question but he is adamant that he will and I don’t want to push him too far and cause an issue because part of me thinks that if I do that, he will think that I don’t think that he would be able to come back but I know that he could do it more than anything.

Sitting down at the table, Connor is still working on the gym plans and looking at other property spaces on his iPad almost as if we can’t get this spot then there is another spot where we can do this as he builds his plans up.

“What are you doing, looking for a third space?” I say as a joke as Connor looks at me with a smile “Well, why stop at one if we want to make an empire?”

The enthusiasm in his voice makes me smile as Connor is just so wrapped up in these gym plans that I don’t know whether he is serious about that or not but we’ve got to at least get this space in the first place. “We need to get the first property first remember because we still haven’t got the space we want yet,” I say as Connor rolls his eyes as he thinks that I’m thinking negatively.

I finish up my breakfast and head down to the gym to get in a workout and see what pile of misery Joel has left for me to do. I get down there and there is actually nothing for me to do there because Joel has actually taken his role a bit more seriously and Connor has helped lighten the load.

It’s been a while since I had a physical workout like this which is something that I know that I’ve needed to have but at the same time, I’ve kept my workouts going which keeps me at the perfect look and strength.

Finishing up this workout, I’ve probably pushed myself way too hard and I feel like I could vomit as I grab a bottle of Gatorade and sit down in the office to give myself access to the air conditioning and just recover for a big.

As I’m sitting there, Joel comes in “Heard you were here which is good because can you let Connor know that everything worked out in trying to fix up the dramas” he says as I don’t know what happened but Connor has been doing my job for me which probably isn’t ideal but it is a blessing for me at the moment.

“How is it going with the other location?” Joel asks me as I sit there as I’m trying to still just get myself back into the real world after that workout. “Yeah, not too bad, it’s all just a waiting game really you know like we had with this place… you don’t have a problem with me and Connor doing this do you?” I ask worried that Joel would be annoyed that we used the name and the franchise to expand.

“Nah, I’m totally cool with it because we talked about potential expansion but I’m happy for you to take it over and look after it because I’ve got my hands full with Joey these days,” he says referring to his new baby.

“How are Joey and Amy?” I ask having not seen them for a while with everything going on “Yeah not too bad really, it’s a lot more work but it’s been so good just being a dad” he says as he shows me the same pictures, he puts up on Instagram every single day but they are always so good to look at.

Joel runs through plenty of stuff with me so that I’m caught up because he wants to get the bathrooms renovated because there were some issues with the pipes leaking out and then the tiles coming up. We had been planning on it anyway but it just pushes it forward and that I need to sign off on the work as co-owner.

“So, Connor is going to run the new gym full time hey,” Joel asks me as I look across at him a bit confused. “I’m not sure whether he’s going to be there full time or just look after it like I do here,” I say as Joel nods and then looks surprised.

“Oh I just thought that with everything and the plans when he got me to read them that he was going to run the show,” Joel says which really matches what I’ve been thinking but without Connor telling me what he’s doing I don’t know what it could be.

“He keeps telling me that he will come back to being a cop but honestly I don’t know that he will because he is so focused on this project and then I think not being around for Chase as he grows up is going to be a big deal for him because I found out that Connor’s dad died when he was Chase’s age,” I tell Joel who nods.

Joel sits there listening to me as I talk through things “He probably doesn’t know himself like when we did this we weren’t sure that this was the option that we should’ve taken to go independent and not open up another big chains franchise”. Joel is right it’s probably more that Connor doesn’t know what he wants to do and that leaving the force is such a big decision for him.

I still don’t know whether this workout was the greatest idea this morning because I can barely walk as I head out to my car. I stop off at the Fruit Shop because Connor is eating all my Apples when I’m at work which is annoying because I try to go and get one from the Fridge when I get home and he’s eaten them all which is just the modern version of Harry eating all the Strawberries that we used to get to put into smoothies and have for dessert.

Heading home, I put the apples in a spot where hopefully Connor can’t find them this time though the way he senses things I reckon that he would be able to. “What the hell did you do?” Connor says to me as I shrug ‘Nothing other than having a really big workout because it’s been so long”.

Connor doesn’t look impressed at me and doesn’t say anything because he knows that I know that it wasn’t the smartest idea especially now that I can’t walk or move once I’ve sat down. “Do you need me to ring them at work and tell them you’ve done something?” he says to me as I plead that I’ll be fine which I know that I will but god knows how I am going to get up off the couch.

“No, I’ll be totally fine alright now just shut up and let me think about how in 5 hours’ time, I’m going to get off the couch ok?” I say to Connor who heads into the kitchen and then immediately comes back from the kitchen with an apple I bought today.

“Where the fuck did you get that?” I ask annoyed as he just smirks at me as I look straight at him wanting answers. “I know every sound each one of those cupboards makes and I was standing there watching you,” he says with a wink that even though he frustrates me, I can’t ever be mad at him when he does that.

Sitting on the couch, Connor and I watch Netflix for a while before we make lunch as he works on some more gym stuff which proves to me that he isn’t going to be coming back as a cop and I’m ok with that even if it is from a selfish spot because I know I’ll never be able to lose him.

As we sit on the couch, my phone rings as I struggle to get up to get and answer it

Me: “Hey this is Trent”

Ange: “Hey Trent, it’s Ange I know you’re working tonight but is there any chance you can come in early because I just need to talk to you about something”

Me: “Is everything ok?”

Ange: “Yeah, everything is totally fine I just need to talk to you and Steph before I leave this afternoon”

I get off the phone and sit back down next to Connor for a little while “Everything ok there?” he asks as I look at him and nod. “Yeah, Ange just wants to talk to Steph and Me before she finishes for the day” Connor looks a bit confused at me wondering what it could be about.

“I don’t know what it’s about but she said that it wasn’t bad news,” I say to Connor who nods and then focuses back on the TV and his laptop.

Eventually, I struggle to get ready for work hoping for some kindness in what shift that I get because I can barely walk and it feels worse than what it did this morning. I shower hoping that I could’ve let the water go over my body to relax and let the muscles relax but it doesn’t work.

Getting dressed in the bedroom, Connor is now laying on the bed being more of a nuisance than help to me as he just wants me to stay naked and wants to tease me. I finally get dressed despite the wandering hands going all over my body.

I drive to work and even though I know that Ange said it wasn’t bad news there is always some sort of dread when you get called into the Inspectors office like you used to at school when the Principal would want to see you, which for me wasn’t what you would say as regular, but with a short fuse and a strong sense of right and wrong, I went in the wrong direction at times.

Heading up to see Ange, I can see that she is excited to see me and I mean if it is bad news then it’s a cruel way of doing it. “Steph texted me that she is running behind so I’ll show you,” she says to me as she shows me some designs of the garden space that they are going to have upgraded.

“We’re going to expand the outside garden space and make it a space where anybody can go just to escape like we all do and not smoke,” Ange says with a laugh knowing that it’s her secret space where she can have a cigarette where nobody knows it.

“Why I wanted to talk to you and Steph and then I know you’ll tell Connor is that we want to name it after Jamie, I’ve spoken to his family and they are all for it as well as there is going to be the Jamie Buxton Cup which is the state Police Rugby cup,” she says which I smile at knowing that Jamie would’ve played in that game.

Steph comes in a little bit later as Ange finishes telling me about the plans and then sends me and Steph off so that I can fill her in. That night, Steph and I are together on duty as I wish that she wasn’t in many ways because as much as I love her she is going to be nagging me about proposing to Connor and what the idea is.

We are parked in a side street assisting on RBT duty catching anybody who is trying to do a swifty and turn in the street before to avoid it but we’re part of the net. It’s pretty quiet and we’re just sitting and waiting to see if anybody comes down as we talk about things in particular about Connor.

“Do you think that he is coming back to work?” Steph asks me as I seem to be having this conversation with everybody these days who asks me. “No… honestly I don’t but as selfish as it is, I think that’s the right move for him,” I say as I expect her to argue with me because of our close our little group is.

“Good because I don’t want him to” Steph answering like that surprises me a lot because I thought she’d want him back to see him. “After what happened and with Chase, I think that is the right move for him, he’s happier now working on those Gym plans than I’ve ever seen him and if he goes back on duty, he’ll never be the same,” she says as I reflect on that point and know that she is right.

“Yeah, I know and he is really happy,” I say as I point out a car that we have to get back to work for and we pull him over. The rest of the night here is pretty quiet with traffic at a minimum but the questions don’t stop coming from Steph at all which are just general questions mostly about the wedding and everything.

After finishing assisting on the RBT’s Steph and I have a couple of hours to drive around and do nothing more than just traffic patrol for a while but the streets are pretty clear at the moment and it’s actually nice to be the one in control of the car.

“How does it feel to be the one in control?” Steph asks as we drive around the suburbs just making sure everything is calm at 4 am. “What in the car you mean?” Steph laughs as I realise now how she is going to take that question and run miles with it.

“So, Connor is in charge at home?” she says smirking to me as I just roll my eyes at her and don’t say anything about it and instead decide to pull over a random car that probably hasn’t done anything but I need to change the situation in the car.

Finishing up the shift, Steph won’t let go of what I said about the being in charge comment and I look at her quite pointedly “This is workplace bullying you know” I say as she brushes it off and just laughs.

“What are you doing for the ring at least?” she asks as we head into the station as I have an idea about giving him a ring that he said that he liked when we were out shopping one day and I want to get it for him.

“There was one that we saw when we were shopping one day getting a present for Mum’s birthday and he really liked it but wouldn’t buy it but I think that is the one that I want to get him,” I say as Steph gets excited and I have to deal with a nagging best friend and a nagging sister.

Steph is all excited about the wedding plans and I have to warn her that she has to have a battle with Jess to help organise all this. “This is my plan ok and you need to argue with Jess over anything because she’s been wanting this for years from when I was with Harry” I warn Steph who laughs and nods and tells me that she won’t overstep her boundaries though I know she’ll have some input.

Heading home, I’m exhausted especially after being away for close enough to 20 hours and the gym session from yesterday is coming back to me as I struggle to get through the door. “Damn what happened to you?” Connor says to me as I struggle to get into the living room and then eventually back on the couch.

“What did you do last night? Chase bad guys for a marathon” he says as I laugh and shake my head

“Steph,” I say as he laughs and rolls his eyes having been on many a night shift with Steph. “Nah, it was just the fact that I had that gym session yesterday morning which yes I know that I shouldn’t have done now,” I say as Connor is just giving me a knowing look like as if he wants to say I told you so.

Feeling exhausted, I fall asleep as Connor has the music going and I don’t know how long I’m asleep for but when I wake up, I find Connor has left lunch sitting on the coffee table for me as he leaves me a note telling me that he’s gone shopping.

I smile at how amazing Connor is that he went out to get me lunch and left a Chicken Schnitzel wrap that he got from the Café and left it for me. Sitting there, I eat lunch and then have a shower as I let the water run down my body as I try to think about how I want to get this proposal done.

Getting out of the shower, I dry my body off and just lay on the bed naked for a few minutes, enjoying just lying there doing nothing as I hear Connor’s footsteps downstairs as he realises that I’m awake and he comes upstairs and sees me naked laying there.

Connor doesn’t say anything as I lay there and he just climbs on top of me and kisses me as his mouth goes down my body kissing me before I feel his tongue starting to swirl around my head as he looks at me as I moan as he continues to go down on my cock.

Feeling his mouth on my cock is amazing, Connor continues to run his tongue down my shaft licking the sides and going around, teasing it so much as it pulses with every touch from his mouth. Connor teases me as he comes back up and kisses me as he runs his hand over my chest and nipples twisting them and rubbing his hands down my abs.

I can’t control how I feel as my cock leaks out pre-cum and I need to put Connor’s head down on my cock which he goes back down and licks my head again, lapping up the pre-cum and as he finally puts the whole of my head into his mouth sucking it before going deeper.

Laying there with my eyes closed, Connor is in the zone right now as he goes down on my cock, head bouncing up and down as he sucks me up and down. Connor is sucking me hard and fast now as he massages my balls and rubs my ass as well as he is in control of my body.

Connor pushes his finger into my hole and it’s tight as he goes in and I enjoy that feeling as I feel totally out of control right now and I’m all for it because Connor is just doing what he wants with my body right now. Stripping naked, Connor is now over the top of me as he continues to suck my cock and then climbs back over the top of me so that his soft muscular body is now up against mine as we lay there.

The sun shines into our room right now and I’m enjoying the feeling of the heat and the glistening sweat on Connor’s amazing body and I just love the look of him right now as the hair is growing on his body and tickles me but I love this look that I know he is hating. Kissing him we lay there and Connor climbs over the top of me and starts to push his cock into my mouth.

Sucking on his cock is always amazing as he pushes it into my mouth so that I can lube it up before he takes it out quicker than I would’ve liked but then he pushes me over and slaps his hard leaking cock on my crack.

Moaning I want him so badly to push it in but he keeps teasing me as I feel his finger go in before finally he pushes his hard leaking cock into my hole. The feeling of him going in makes me moan and my ass is still so tight haven’t only been fucked once in the past little while.

Connor going into me is stretching me out big time as he is cock is leaking inside me as he picks up the speed inside me. Pushing into me, Connor holds my hips and starts to thrust inside me as his hard cock hits my prostate and I feel my already leaking cock wanting to just blow a load.

The strength Connor has going through his body and his cock, in particular, is phenomenal as he continues to push it all through my body concentrating it on my hole. Connor’s strength seems to be back to levels well beyond what it was before he was shot and it amazes me how hard he fucks me and I’m sure that he is using this as part of his physio and recovery.

Slamming into me, I moan so loudly just begging for him to keep the speed going inside me. I don’t know how long he fucks me for but we are both in such a zone right now that we keep fucking and even though I feel Connor leave a load inside me, he keeps pounding me before flipping me over and then swallowing my cock the minute I blow so that he can take every little bit of the load that is spraying everywhere down his throat.

Connor pulls off me as we lay there and just cuddle into each other right now, my head on his chest and neither of us thought that our afternoon would have involved having sex but laying together we both enjoyed it and I fall asleep laying there with Connor just laying there with me as he lets me sleep on his chest after my long day yesterday and then work last night I’m exhausted.

I know that Connor would probably want to be up but the fact that he is happy for me to lay there says so much as I get to feel his body and my head resting against his chest as I just sleep against his chest.

A little while later, Connor wakes me up so that I have enough time to have something to eat before heading to work for another night shift which isn’t going to be fun but I know it’s what I chose to do and I love being a cop.

Looking at a naked Connor is always a good sight to see as he gets up and puts on his clothes again and organises some dinner for me before I head to work. The shift itself is pretty uneventful and it’s a good change to everything that I have had happen in recent times.

The next day, Jess and I head shopping to buy the ring that I want to get Connor which he said that he wanted that day but wouldn’t want to buy for himself. Going into the store, it feels weird the whole thought of buying an engagement ring and even thinking about asking Connor to marry me especially when I thought it was Harry who I would eventually marry not that long ago.

Heading into the store, the lady isn’t that much of a helpful person as she looks at me and Jess “Can I help you at all?” she says almost like she is thinking that we’re just wasting our time and her time as well.

“Yes, there’s a men’s ring in the window there that I am looking at as an engagement ring for my partner,” I say referring to a small black ring that I know Connor wanted when we looked in the window one day. “Here” the store assistant looks at me and tries to keep it at a distance from me like I’m about to steal it.

“This is one that Connor looked at the other day and he wouldn’t get it because he didn’t want to splurge and I want to spoil him,” I say as Jess smiles. “Yeah, that looks good and to be honest, it would be good when you two are at work because it’s a nice ring and the police force allow rings like that,” she says almost to make the point to the shop assistant that I’m not going to steal the ring.

I think about it for a minute and tell the shop assistant that I want this ring to give to Connor when we go away. I pay for the ring and take it home trying to find somewhere to put it where Connor won’t find it. Eventually, I put it down in the cupboard where I keep my gym stuff because that’s my drawer because even though there are shared spaces, we both have our own little private drawers and shelves.

Luckily for me, Connor is at one of the mandatory counselling sessions that he has to have as part of the police regulations after an event like this which he hates but is good for him so Jess and I can talk about what is going to happen when I propose.

“So do you know how you’re going to do it or do you need my help?” she asks thinking that I’m going to have absolutely no idea how to do this but I’ve got the idea all set out right now. “Actually sister, I have it all planned out because we are going to head up to Spirit Cove for a long weekend and I want to propose to him at the beach where it means a lot to us because that was a special spot and that is where that picture is,” I say to Jess who awws and smiles and rubs my arm.

“You know me, I don’t want a big show and dance somewhere Connor is going to feel pressured into saying yes or making a scene, I just want to be together in a peaceful spot,” I say as Jess nods and smiles and tells me that whatever I do will be perfect.

Jess is the most amazing person to talk things through with and I know it’s a big sister's job but she is always there for me when I need to talk to her and she helps me through everything. Jess and Connor pass each other as she leaves and he comes in and even though it’s only really a few months of knowing each other, he is family and they greet each other like that.

“How was your afternoon with Jess?” he asks as I know he is trying to pull information out of me about what I am planning because he knows that I am up to something but still can’t work it out.

“It was good, she just wanted to go birthday shopping for Brody and wanted my advice on things to get him and then we just got lunch and we bought some new clothes that are upstairs, that’s all it was,” I say to him as he gives me a suspicious look and then decides that he will believe me for now.

The next few days are just a holding pattern as I have day shift for the days leading up to us going away and I’m packing my bag trying to find a spot where Connor won’t find the ring as we have a bag each although we put things in each other’s bags.

It sounds stupid, I put the ring box in one of my shoes that I’m taking as I think that everything is ready to go. Inside my stomach, I’m nervous about this trip now all of a sudden because of what is going to happen if Connor rejects my proposal or we don’t get there.

Connor has a session at the gym before we go and we make sure that we have everything as I spot Connor hunting for something “Everything ok? You look like you’ve lost something important?” I ask as he looks at me surprised.

“Oh Nah, I just put my wallet somewhere and I can’t find it,” he says as I point to the fact that he has it next to his phone and his keys on the shelf near the front door so that he could grab them when we leave.

“The usual place?” I say as he looks distracted “Oh yeah right, well let me just do something and I’ll be out to the car”. Connor is looking for something as I head out to the car and Connor finally gets what he needs and then heads out to the car as we head up to Spirit Cove.