Beyond The Blue

Connor grabs as much as he can from his apartment which is mostly just clothes and pictures of his family as he isn’t sure how to act as we are trying to put some of his things out which is tough to try and find a spot for him.

Taking out some of his photos, Connor has a moment as he initially puts the photo of him and Chase up on the fireplace next to the one with me and Harry before he takes it down and has a moment of doubt as he looks at the picture and I notice the self-doubt.

“Is everything ok man? I know this wasn’t exactly how you pictured things but I want you to just feel at home here with me man because I don’t want you feeling like a guest” I say as Connor nods and smiles as he tries to tell me that everything is fine.

“Look, I probably put…” he puts his hand up to me to stop me from talking as he puts the picture of Chase down on the coffee table and walks over to me. “It’s not that man, I’m glad you offered because I didn’t have anywhere else to go but I haven’t lived with anyone like this before you know so it’s just unusual you know and when I saw the picture of you and Harry it just hit me because I saw how much you loved him and it was the first time I’ve seen him,” he says as I realise that he isn’t having second thoughts about moving in with me but seeing the picture of Harry hit him hard.

I put my arm around Connor and look at him intently as he stands there “Whatever makes this easier for you is what I want ok? So if you need me to put the picture of Harry away somewhere then I can” I say as he shakes his head at me and looks almost offended that I asked that.

“Absolutely not, Harry is a big part of your life still and I know that he always will be and whatever happens between us I cannot ever ask you to put him aside that’s just mean,” he says as he smiles and looks at me as I kiss him.

I pick up the picture of Connor and Chase and look at it seeing it for the first time as Connor looks at me “You’ve seen that picture before, haven’t you?” he asks as I shake my head at him. “Nah, I’ve never seen this before you know,” I say as he smiles both realising that we’ve never seen the closest person to us that we’re away from.

Putting the picture of Connor up next to Harry feels somewhat surreal for me at least because it signifies something special for us both moving in together whether it be something that is only a few weeks or becomes permanent with the unknown timeframe that his apartment will be declared unsafe which by precedents around the city it could be quite a while yet.

“So what do you want me to do about rent or bills?” Connor asks me as I look at him and shake my head “Nothing, I own the place and the bills come directly out of my account”. Connor moving in with me doesn’t change my bills at all because I have everything organised cost wise and him moving in for however long won’t cost me more as I look at him.

“If you buy groceries and pay for the shopping then that’s all you need to do ok?” I say as he nods before I add “Plus don’t subject me to any Kings games, ok?” I say as he laughs and tells me that he can’t make any promises about it and, to be honest, I partly want to see him when he’s watching a game.

The overall feeling of having a second person living in the house is really warming because it’s been so long since I’ve had that feeling of just being with someone here after living alone for so long. That night, instead of cooking dinner Connor and I decide to get eat out and head to the Thai restaurant on the bay.

Connor gets into the shower and I’m trying to give him space without being too much of a helicopter around him but without expecting it, Connor calls out to me “You getting in here or what Trent?” I’m surprised at him calling out to me but quickly I’m naked and getting into the shower with him as I watch the water running down his silky-smooth muscular frame.

“Fuck you look so hot right now,” I say as Connor pushes me against the wall, the shower isn’t really big enough for two people but the lack of space right now makes everything hotter between us as our pecs press against each other as our lips meet and I start kissing him.

Our kiss is amazing right now, as our tongues go up against each other wrestling in our mouths and hands over each other’s shoulders as we make out letting the water run off our bodies as I run my hands over his back.

“This is just one way that I can repay you,” he says to me as I smirk and just look back at him to keep making out with this hot muscle stud in my shower that I get to sleep with every night because Connor has already established himself in my bedroom putting his stuff in there.

I turn the water off and pull Connor out of the shower and push him onto my bed still all wet with water all over his smooth body as I grind against him. Our bodies rubbing against each other as our cocks are now grinding against each other, getting so hard and leaking right now.

Pressing up against each other, I kiss Connor’s chest as my hands rub and twist his amazing nipples that make his cock twitch every single time I touch them. I start kissing down the chest, the smooth softness of Connor’s skin is just amazing and I cannot believe how lucky I am to be able to do this.

At the same time, Connor’s cock twitches and lets out more and more pre cum which I slowly move down to and suck out of his head enjoy, ing the taste of the muscle stud’s creamy load. I don’t know whether Connor has ever bottomed before because he is such a dominant force in the bedroom but I loved getting fucked by him so why risk anything.

As I keep sucking his hard cock, Connor keeps moaning loudly as I keep going down on his cock as he starts to thrust into my mouth. Connor is such a beast in the bedroom as he takes control of my mouth as he starts to fuck my mouth.

Gagging on his cock, Connor is leaking so much pre-cum and cum down my throat, I’m struggling to take it all but I don’t want to stop and lose this opportunity of having this hard piece of meat. It doesn’t take long before I pull my mouth off his cock and straddle myself on top of his cock.

I line up my hole which is still tight and go down, the girth of his cock is something that I wasn’t expecting even though it was only inside me the other day. “Fuck that’s big” I moan as Connor holds my hips as I slide down and eventually take all of it into my hole.

Letting my hole adjust to the size, Connor is surprisingly passive until I’m fully adjusted to sitting on his 9 inches before I start to bounce up and down on it. As I start to ride the cock, I can see Connor smiling at me and enjoying the feeling of pushing up into my hole.

Eventually, Connor starts to take control as he fucks me hard and starts doing all the work as he jackhammers up inside me hitting my prostate as my hard 8 inches of cock is now leaking profusely as I can’t do anything but moan. I never thought I would love bottoming as much as I do for Connor as he continues to push up into me hammering my hole.

Stretching my hole out, his pre cum is leaking into my hole which acts as a natural lubricant while he continues to fuck me hard. Every time he pushes deep into me I can feel the tension and desire that he has had ever since we met to do this which is the same thing that I had.

Riding his cock is one of the most amazing feelings as I can feel him pressing hard against my prostate which forces my cock to constantly leak cum. Looking at Connor I can see him intently focussing on fucking my hole as he grunts and his body is now glistening with sweat as I keep riding him.

Climbing off his cock, Connor lays me on the bed and puts my legs over his shoulders as I lay there and he starts to use his muscular frame to put more power into me again which I can’t believe he has. I groan with every thrust that he puts through my hole which makes my body pulsate with delight and my cock slapping against my abs as he leans in to kiss me.

Kissing Connor while he fucks me is just amazing, the combination of the muscles and power that he has but then at the same time the tenderness and romanticism of him turn me on so much. While he kisses me, his hand moves to my cock and it’s not long before I let out a massive load of cum that sprays up all over my abs and chest as well as both our faces and necks.

Connor pulls out of my ass and climbs over me as he feeds me his cock and it’s not long before he launches multiple loads down my throat as I struggle to take the sheer amount of cum that he produces. I jerk his cock more draining it and when I think that he’s empty I quickly realise there’s more and Connor lets out a massive moan as he shoots what is the biggest load yet.

I watch as he finally takes his cock out of my mouth and lays back next to me panting and exhausted from what we just did as I kiss him as he looks at me and smiles “It was the least that I could do for letting me move in” he says still trying to catch his breath.

Eventually, he gets up and has a proper shower this time although I don’t give him much space watching him shower as we just talk. Finishing up in the shower, we get dressed as Connor pulls out a pair of Hot Pink briefs with a black waistband that are nothing like what I thought he would wear even though I know his choice of underwear is out there when he’s not working.

“Fuck you are such a tease,” I say as I look at his underwear which is amazing once he puts it on and suits his body and makes my black CK boxers look boring in comparison. Connor gives me his cheeky smile and winks at me as I shake my head and he puts on a pair of red jeans and a tight black t-shirt while I just go with Chinos and a buttoned-up shirt.

We’ve got some time to chill because Connor booked us a table at 7:30 and it’s only just after 6 as my mind is both excited and nervous about this all because at the same time this is the first time we’ve gone out as a sort of couple even though we’ve not talked about it but at the same time I’m nervous because it’s the first time I’ve been on a date since Harry.

Connor uses the spare room for a few minutes to check in with Chase and fill Olivia in with the details of moving into my place with everything going on. I sit on the couch watching TV as I text Jess

6:06 pm: “Hey sis, Don’t yell at me but I need your advice about Connor, we’re going out to dinner and I don’t know whether it’s a date or not and I feel weird about it”

I know that Jess is probably working or having dinner with the kids right now but to my surprise my phone buzzes and see that Jess has already replied.

6:08 pm: “FFS Trent, you’re overthinking everything again; Just take everything in your stride and don’t overanalyse it”

Jess is right that I overanalyse things and I don’t know whether that’s just me being neurotic about things or the inner policeman trying to work out why. I know that this is probably no more than us just having dinner as a way to celebrate him moving in with me but part of me wishes it was more.

6:10 pm: “Who invited who to dinner and what’s the occasion?” 

Jess sends back because heavens forbid I don’t respond within 60 seconds which is a pet peeve of hers and is something that she is guilty of more than most about not responding. Reading the text, I quickly realise that I haven’t told anybody about Connor moving in with me which will probably take everybody by surprise right now.

6:12 pm: “Connor moved in with me, it’s a long story and I’ll fill you in later”

My text doesn’t really address what the reasons are but as soon as I put my phone back down it’s ringing with Jess’ name on the caller ID as I pick it up and answer it

Jess: “When were you gonna tell me?”

Me: “I was going to but it was all just a sudden thing, he lives at the Apollo Tower and you saw what happened on the news so I said instead of a dump of a hotel room for months that he could move in here with me”

Jess: “Which bedroom did he go into?”

I don’t give Jess an answer which confirms her suspicions right from when I said that he had moved in with me

Jess: “So this isn’t so much as getting a new roommate, this is having your boyfriend move in?”

Me: “Shut up, we’re nothing like that alright but yeah he’s sleeping in my bed with me, was just easier”

Jess gives me a suspicious uh huh before finally giving me the advice that I need right now with everything.

Jess: “Look, I know I’ve only met him for a few minutes the other day but the way you talk about him and from what I saw I can see how much you’ve fallen for him and I think the same applies to Connor but you don’t need to force anything, just take it at the pace you both feel comfortable with”

Me: “Yeah that’s what I was thinking but I was just thinking about whether I’m ready”

Jess: “Definitely and don’t blow it Trent because this is the most relaxed and happy I’ve seen you since Harry ok, this is meant to be little bro”

Everything Jess says to me resonates because I haven’t been this relaxed or carefree with anyone since I lost Harry and it’s not through a lack of trying either but honestly Connor just brings something out in me.

“Who were you talking to? Could hear your voice” Connor says after finishing talking to Olivia and Chase as he has a smile as well. “Just my sister, she just wanted to check in with me seeing it’s been a few days,” I say making up an excuse to not look like I’m getting relationship advice.

We head out to dinner, I don’t know whether it’s meant to be our first date or not but we don’t want to let on that anything is going on in case anybody we know sees us, especially from work because that could cause all sorts of problems. Having dinner is fun as we sit there and I can’t believe that Connor is such a master of chopsticks as we eat.

“You are a man of so many talents,” I say as he laughs as I struggle to use them before giving up and looking like a complete loser using a fork. “I studied Japanese during high school and went on exchange for 3 months as well” I shake my head as the talents of this hot stud seem to know no boundaries.

“Well, are you going to prove to me that you can speak Japanese or what?” I ask as he shakes his head almost instantly regretting telling me that he can do it. “I haven’t needed it or used it for years so I’m pretty rusty still,” he says as I keep nudging my foot under the table at him as I kick him trying to get an answer out of him as he gets all embarrassed and tongue-tied under the pressure of me forcing him to speak a foreign language.

Dinner is amazing before we leave and it’s only 9:45 as Connor looks at me and smiles, “Wanna go somewhere else I like to have fun?” he says and as much as I know that we should probably turn in because I have a morning start tomorrow, I’m too intrigued to let it go.

Connor takes me down a small alleyway into a bar not too far away which is a little Japanese bar in a pocket that I didn’t know existed despite being so close to my place. Wandering in, it’s an amazing little place and I learn that Connor has spent plenty of time here and it’s one of the places he goes just to escape and then sing Karaoke.

Pointing to one of the Karaoke machines, Connor looks at me and smiles as I shake my head “I’m not getting up there and singing” he says as I try to refuse but he pulls me up on stage. Connor scrolls through the songs and picks one of his favourites as I stand there almost petrified that he is going to choose something I don’t know.

Standing there Connor starts to sing the first lyrics and I smile once I know the tune because it’s one of my favourite songs and a song that is close to my heart as well.

“Can you hear me calling out your name?

 You know that I’m falling and I don’t know what to say

I’ll speak a little louder, I’ll even shout

You know that I’m proud and I can’t get the words out”

It doesn’t take me long to join in with him for the chorus as even though this is one of his favourite songs I get that singing it with me has extra significance especially when we sing the chorus and he looks across at me as I smile because the words always meant a lot to me every time I hear the words.

“Oh I, I want I want to be with you everywhere”

Singing that with Connor is really fun because I can tell that both of us are letting out how we feel about each other although we are both hiding it behind singing the Fleetwood Mac song that we both love that came out before we were born.

Finishing off the song, I smile and hug Connor in a way that probably is more romantic than what we were planning on but it was also fantastic to let out that emotion after something that felt special towards each other. We have a drink each and then head back home, stripping and getting into bed with each other as Connor is still wearing just his pink briefs and I’m in my boxers.

Cuddling up, even though this isn’t the first time we’ve done this in my bed everything is just feeling so perfect right now between us as things have gone to the next level and I know that I’m still feeling nervous about it, I know that I’m on the right path.

As I fall asleep, my arms are wrapped around Connor but all I can see is Harry there smiling at me with approval and joy on his face that I’m happy and found someone else as I’m moving on. “I’m so proud of you Trent,” he says as I wish that I could just touch him and grab hold of him but it doesn’t matter how much I wish I could reach for him he is just out of reach”.

“I’m so proud of you T for everything you’ve done and found someone really special,” Harry says to me as I lay there dreaming about him. “Yeah, Connor is amazing and he makes me so happy you know he has made me feel really special again although I hope you know that you’ll always be such a big part of my life,” I say almost proving to myself that I’m not hurting Harry in any way by moving forward with Connor.

“I know that T, all I wanted after I left was for you to find happiness and Connor does that for you which makes me smile because all I ever did was worry about you,” Harry says to me and I smile thinking about him and all our time together as I just wish that I could put my hand out and touch him or kiss him but I can’t because he’s just out of reach.

Before I can say anything more I wake up when Connor gets up to use the bathroom and I lay there feeling content about everything right now because even though it was just a dream, seeing Harry there smiling and happy for me help me prove that I’m making the right decision about where we are going with our relationship.

“Sorry for disturbing you, I just needed to use the bathroom,” Connor says to me as I rub my hand across his chest and kiss him “You’re fine, I just haven’t slept with someone for so long that I’ve got to get used to it,” I say laughing that even though it’s dark in my room, I can still tell when his amazing smile comes out.

“Yeah, I’ve gotta get used to it as well you know, well that whole living with someone thing as well,” Connor says as I get surprised but then given that we’ve only known each other in a work sense and the bare minimum of relationship history.

I look across at him and it doesn’t matter that we should be sleeping I’m intrigued by what he said because I thought he would’ve had a roommate or something at some point. “Of course, I’ve had a roommate in the past but nothing as fun as this,” he says snuggling into me as he kisses me on the neck and all the questions slide away as I run my hands over his chest.

Connor looks at me like a naughty schoolboy as if this is all our little secret which in a way it is but laying in bed together as he cuddles into me giggling away as I can’t help but smile back at him as he kisses me again “I can’t believe how much energy you have” I say now as he climbs on top of me making out with me.

I can’t help but run my hands over his body as he kisses me and lays on top of me, the lust and feelings we have for each other are undeniable and even though it’s dark and I haven’t had too many times where I’ve been able to feel his body next to mine but I know where every little ridge of his body is and the ripples in his abs.

“Do you ever top?” Connor whispers to me as I moan and start to wonder if I had actually heard him right or if this is all just a dream again. “What did you just say?” I ask thinking I heard him wrong but I clearly didn’t “I wanna know if you top… I wanna get fucked by you,” he says to me as I smile and look at him.

“Of course, I top but shouldn’t we be sleeping?” I say as Connor laughs and kisses me “I didn’t mean for right now I just meant for next time and your birthday which I know is coming up” he says smiling at me as I roll him back over.

I know that I’m probably an idiot for turning down sex with Connor but we both need to be up early and being at work potentially dealing with the idiots after a lack of sleep is something that I don’t want to put on anybody, especially Connor.

Drifting back to sleep, I quickly go back into a deep sleep and despite in my dreams trying to call Harry back he doesn’t appear which isn’t unexpected but I’m slightly disappointed even though I know how weird it will probably seem to everybody that while laying in bed with my new boyfriend I’m thinking of my old one.

The next morning, Connor is up before I get up but he wakes me up by putting a cup of coffee on the bedside table as he leans in and kisses me “Morning sexy, thought you’d want this” he says to me as I pull him onto me as he is still just in his underwear that he slept in with me last night.

Laying there, I kiss Connor as he tries to force himself away from me as the allure of my morning wood wants him back into bed but he finally pulls away from me though he gives me an amazing view of the firm muscular ass that he teases me with it. Still, I could follow him to the shower but I know that he needs to get ready for work.

I get up and watch Connor getting out of the shower with admiration at his body as I look at how smooth he is “What ever made you get so smooth?” I say looking at him as he puts it back on me “What made you stay so hairy?” he says as I just shrug.

“Either way, it makes you look sexy as fuck” Connor says to me as he runs his hands through the hair on my chest as I run his hand over his smooth body. “Well, the same applies to you, I just know to give you plenty of time in the bathroom,” I say to him as he laughs at me “You don’t need to worry, I get it either waxed or lasered,” he says as I laugh and shake my head.

Connor eventually gets around to getting dressed which takes him plenty of time although it could be from somebody continually wanting to feel up that smooth body of his. I make sure Connor has his own key so that he can feel at home and come and go whenever he wants.

Wandering downstairs, I make some breakfast as my sister knocks on the back door and I open it “Hey what are you doing here?” I ask as she looks across at me “What am I not allowed to visit my brother on the way past to the hairdresser?” I give her a glare knowing that her hairdresser isn’t anywhere on the way to my place.

“Jess, your hairdresser is like 10 minutes from your place so what are you doing here?” I ask as she hits me “Actually, Jody moved down to the new salon on Queens Gardens Road” I give her an inquisitive look to the point that she even grabs her phone to show me that it’s true and I relent.

“I only noticed one car, guessing Mr Sexy isn’t here?” she says to me as I shake my head “Nah, he has day shift and I’ve got night shift so we’re only seeing each other in passing for the next few days,” I say as Jess helps herself to my piece of toast as I look annoyed at her and she just smirks.

“What? Logan and Mia were being painful this morning and I didn’t get to eat my breakfast and Brody had to be out the door at 6 am because he’s flying to Hilldale to assess a job out there so had a 7:30 flight” she says as I just go and make myself another piece.

“Ask your questions,” I say to her as Jess looks across at me with an innocent look on her face as I know that she is only here to get the lowdown on how everything went last night with Connor.  “I know you want me to tell you about last night because this is the same thing that you did with Harry”.

Jess sits down on the couch after helping herself to my Orange Juice even though we haven’t lived together in years she has never lost that ability to be the most annoying big sister possible as I offer her anything she wants before sitting down and starting to fill her in on everything that happened last night.