Exploring My True Self

I lie there helpless. There’s no doubt Alex saw the terror in my eyes as he lubed up his beautiful cock. “I’m not gonna force you,” he said with empathetic eyes, “But you moved here to discover, and open yourself up to new experiences. I can tell you that there is no greater experience than having an experienced dick breed your ass for the first time. I want to do this with you.” With the ball gag firmly in place, I couldn’t use my words, but it didn’t matter because I didn’t know what to say. Tears started to roll down my face as I thought my options were taken from me. He removed the gag, pulled the back of my head up, leaned in close and said “This is your choice. You have one chance to say no. but, you can trust me.” Then he kissed me softly.

I was not prepared for this, but here I was. I cleaned myself out earlier assuming I’d have a tongue or a couple of fingers up there, but the 8” thick, beautiful cock attached to one of the hottest men I have ever met? I didn’t see that coming. I looked into those green eyes and decided he was right. This is why I moved here.

“Okay, but please, PLEASE be gentle.” I murmured, still unsure.

The smile on his face was intoxicating. He beamed as he kissed me deep, hard, and long. “This is all about your pleasure. Nothing else matters”

He got into position as he grabbed the little brown bottle off the nightstand and held it under my nose pinching one nostril shut, I inhaled deeply before he moved the bottle to my other nostril. I was as ready as I would ever be.

He took a couple of whiffs from the bottle, then lined his beautiful manhood up with my virgin hole. He rubbed the well lubed member around my ring making it contract and release. It felt good and excited me for what was to come. He pushed lightly, and his head penetrated my well lubed hole with little resistance. My eyes shot open. The ecstasy was greater than the pain. Alex stopped with his eyes locked onto mine. He let me get used to the new sensation, and the girth of his cock as he soothed me with his voice, “That’s it, just let me do all the work, you’re doing great.” I instinctively gripped his cock with my ass pulling him deeper inside of me.

“Oh my god, you’re so fucking tight” he whispered in my ear as he cradled my upper body and his cock naturally moved in deeper “your ass was made for my cock.” He hit bottom and the sensation was fucking awesome! He slowly pulled back leaving just the head inside, then slowly he pushed back in. I was in heaven as he repeated his movements over and over, slowly fucking me, letting me revel in every sensation along the way. Finally, I yelled like a man Possessed “FUCK ME, ALEX!” He leaned back and smiled down on me. Damn, that smile!! “Are you sure?” he asked “Damn sure! Fuck me.”

From that point on it was all a blur. He pistoned in and out of me over and over ramming my prostate with his thick cock and sending me into oblivion. I have never felt this much pleasure in my life, I didn’t want it to end, I was in another world.

“I’m so fucking close” he grunted and brought me back to reality. “Breed me” someone screamed – shit it was me. I wanted him. Every inch, every drop. This ginger stud was mine and I was claiming him, or was he claiming me. It didn’t matter, all I knew was I wanted him.

My own balls were boiling with excitement as he kept pounding away. My eyes intently looking into his as I tried to see through to his soul in the dim candlelight. Our moans and groans were growing louder and louder, drowning out the techno beat coming from the speaker. Then it happened, that incredible moment when we came together, him shooting in me, and me shooting everywhere. The sensation of his warm semen filling my virgin hole was indescribable.

I thought last night at the bathhouse was intense. It was nothing compared to this. Alex fell on top of me, the leather straps of his harness rubbing against me. I quietly said, “Can you please release my hands and feet, this is killing me”

“Oh shit,” Alex laughed, “I forgot you were even tied up.” He quickly released the restraints rubbing and kissing my ankles and wrists as he did to help ease the pain. He laid next to me and held me. I had never felt closer to any human being than I did to Alex at that moment.

“Are you okay” he asked, meekly this time. “I’m fan-fucking-tastic” I replied with a huge sigh of contentment, “But who the fuck was THAT guy? That’s not the Alex I just had dinner with.” I turned back and looked at him.

He beamed as he said “Just me. There is no more powerful feeling than controlling the pleasure of another person.”

“You know you scared the hell out of me at first.”

“Fear makes the pleasure more intense. Seriously, that was the best fuck I have ever had, you kept gripping me and pulling me in deeper. It was awesome.”

“If I had a clue it would be this great, I would’ve bottomed years ago.” We both laughed.

“THAT’S the pleasure I wanted you to discover.” He said as he softly kissed my neck.

Alex got up and went to the bathroom. He came back naked, no harness no nothing, just his glorious self. “Let’s take a shower. You want to spend the night? It’s already 1AM.”

“What? We’ve been going at this for like what? Over 4 hours??!!” I asked in shock. Alex smiled and said, “I don’t do anything half-assed.” I got up and joined him, and we headed to the shower.

I was too spent to cum again, but that didn’t stop us from exploring each other under the warm water. He got on his knees behind me and started to rim my hole again, within seconds he was eating out his own cum. “Push it out” he said, and I did as commanded. He continued to eat me clean. He then stood up, turned me towards him, brought our lips together and we shared his sweet cum. I was beginning to love the taste. We soaped each other up, my hands moving down behind him, teasing his hole with my Soapy fingers. They danced around his hole and occasionally I slipped one in. He moaned lustfully into my mouth. We stayed like this until we started to prune, then we dried off and went to the bedroom.

“Is the invitation to stay still open?” I asked. He pulled me to him and said “absolutely, But I get the left side of the bed.” We jumped into the bed and he spooned me. I felt safe and drifted off to sleep.

My morning wake-up call came in the form of Alex’s hard on pushing against my asshole. I rolled over to face him and rubbed my own morning wood against his. Neither of us gave a damn about morning breathe as we deeply kissed each other good morning. It was awesome waking up next to somebody, feeling the heat from someone else’s body against mine. After all the incredible sex I had over the weekend, I was still hard and ready to go, and so was Alex. He moved under the covers and put his mouth over my hard cock. Once again, he swallowed it all the way down. Oh my god, I wasn’t going to last long.

He lifted his right leg to roll on top of me and wiggled us into a sixty-nine. Once again that sweet little pink hole was inches from my face. This time I was free to attack it. I stuck a finger in my mouth to wet it then started to play with his sweet hole while I deep throated his already hard cock. I inhaled his scent coming to the realization that I couldn’t get enough of this guy. I reached up, grabbed his ass and pulled him as deep as I could down my throat. I reveled in the feeling of the head hitting the back of my throat. He moaned deep onto my cock, and the vibrations intensified the situation. I moaned back. He lifted off my cock and whispered, “Oh God, I’m coming,” then went back down and quickened his pace. We came together again. Moaning onto each other’s cocks and coming down each other’s throats. What a way to wake up!

We spent a couple of more hours in bed, and I went home about noon. I invited Alex over to my place for dinner. It may not sound like a big deal, but I never did that before. When it came to guys I always played it anonymous. Always. Now this guy knew my real name, had my phone number, and now was coming to my house.

He arrived about 6:00, I had just finished making dinner. After he mocked me for living in the perfect little cookie-cutter family neighborhood suburbia, we sat down to dinner. Nothing fancy, just parmesan crusted chicken breast with asparagus on the side. It was easy, but it impressed him, and he gave me credit for the effort. After dinner we watched a movie, and then grabbed a couple of beers, stripped, and went to the backyard to hit the hot tub.

It was nice sitting next to him, naked, with our knees touching and the jets bubbling around us. We talked, drank, and occasionally copped a feel. This guy was sex personified, but I was really starting to like hanging out with him too. He put his arm around me and leaned in for a kiss. His tongue invaded my mouth and tangled with mine. My hand went right down and grabbed his dick, it was soft but started to grow instantly in my hand. He returned the favor and reached for mine. We were getting kind of heavy when I heard someone clear his throat and say “Um. Hi Kevin, um…what’s going on?” It was Randy. SHIT!

Randy was a guy I kind of knew from college. He was a year younger than me and we had a lot of mutual friends and went to the same parties but never really hung out. In fact after I graduated he moved in with my roommates Matty and Jeff and took my old room.

He had moved to the area a few years ago, and I looked him up when I got here, and he was showing me around. I was being more adventurous and more honest with myself about being gay since I moved, but I still played it pretty straight at work, on the phone with my family and with the few friends I did have in town. Randy was one of those friends. I was busted.

We sat there in total silence for a minute, the only sounds were the bubbles of the hot tub. Then, Randy broke the silence and said, “I’ve been trying to call for the last couple of days but couldn’t get ahold of you, so I thought I’d stop by and see if you wanted to hit the bar for one tonight” He paused to assess the situation. Alex and I still had our arms around each other, “But it looks like you have other plans.”

I was paralyzed I had no idea what to, Hell I didn’t even know if I could speak. My ears were ringing as I felt the walls of my world close in on me as my two worlds collided. I was truly dumbfounded. Shit! I let my guard down and got caught. Randy will tell our college friends, then word will get back to my family…shit, shit, shit! The three of us just sat there, silent, for what seemed like an eternity.

Then Alex spoke up, “Hey, I’m Alex, wanna join us?”

To be continued…