Exploring My True Self

Well, after saying the words “wow. This is a lot of money” several times, dad approved the contract with a few tweaks and I signed on the bottom line. The party on Thursday was great. Bill announced my promotion along with a few other well deserved promotions. For the most part everyone was happy for me with a couple of exceptions…they’d have to get over it.

Randy was by my side, and I introduced him as my boyfriend without hesitation. Nobody gave it a second thought. It felt so good not to hide. Like a cloud had been lifted. Everyone loved him, especially Bill. They must’ve spent an hour talking about financial stuff. “I hope you guys celebrated your promotion” he said “Absolutely Randy made me and incredible dinner with an awesome ginger dessert” I said as Randy almost spit-up his drink.

“Hang onto this one, he’s smart.” He said to me as he put his hand on my shoulder. He slyly reached into my sport coat with is free hand and slipped something into my inside pocket, smiled down at me and said, “enjoy your weekend and be ready to kick ass on Monday,” patted my shoulder and walked away. I gave Randy a “WTF” expression as I reached into my pocket and pulled out the piece of paper and looked at it. It was a deposit stub for $25,000 with a note on the memo line that read “performance bonus.” I was in shock and handed it to Randy “holy fuck” was all he could say. “You’re investing this as soon as we get back.” He hugged me hard in front of the entire agency and I didn’t give a fuck. I kissed him smackdab on the lips in the middle of the crowded room. A little later I thanked Bill and said, “see you on Monday” and we went back to my place.

The next morning we boarded the plane to Wisconsin for a long weekend of family and friends. We were both wiped out and wanted to sleep, but there was a lot to discuss.

“So, you’ve successfully avoided the topic for a couple of weeks. Are your ready to come out this weekend?” Randy said with a look on his face that told me he expected an argument.

“Absolutely.” I said as I looked at his sweet face and grabbed his hand in mine.

His eyes lit up and his grin took over his entire face “Really? You sure?!”

“Yup. Last night was so freeing. No secrets, no hiding who I am. Just being me…with you.” I said

“It fits you.” He said as he leaned over to give me a subtle peck.

“When we go to see my parents I want to come out to them too. Are you okay with that, you’ll be with me?” I said

“That’s a new idea.” He said, then stopped to think for a minute or two “This is about you. I’m ready if you’re ready. God I’m glad my parents already know.”

I just smiled, squeezed his hand and gave him a quick peck “Do they know about me?” I asked

“Yup. Mom’s pissed that we’re not coming to see them while we’re in the area and wants to make a trip to Phoenix to meet you. I was saving that news until after your pitch” We just laughed

My parents lived about 45 minutes from the airport. My plan was to go see them in the morning, then head to Jeff and Sarah’s to let the festivities begin. Randy was game for anything. As for coming out to our friends we were going to wait for the right moment and come out as a couple.

Randy was sitting in the window seat and I was on the aisle, the middle seat was empty. “I gotta hit the head” Randy said. I got up to let him out and he whispered “give me about a minute, then come to the bathroom. You’re about to join the mile high club” and down the aisle he went. Was he serious? What about the other people on the flight? What about the attendants? Would they arrest us?My head was spinning, but damn I was turned on. The bathroom was just a few rows up, and most of the plane was asleep. I decided to risk it.

I walked to the bathroom pretty much undetected with the exception of Ariel, the very cute, Hispanic flight attendant sitting on the jump-seat. He looked up at me, smiled knowingly as I entered the tiny room, winked and went back to his book.

When I got into the room Randy was sitting on the toilet seat with his pants to his knees. I locked the door and he grabbed my waist and instantly went to work on my belt and zipper, pulling my pants to my ankles and engulfing my still soft cock. I started to grow the second I entered his warm mouth, he licked and sucked as he squeezed my balls hard. I started to scream in pain and he covered my mouth, so I didn’t wake the whole plane, but didn’t relent on my balls. It was in severe pain and it intensified the pleasure. When he finally let go of my balls I shot a huge load into his mouth, he didn’t swallow. Instead, he turned me, got up, and bent me over the tiny metal sink. He spit my load into his hand and used it to lube up his cock and open my hole. Oh my god, it was dirty and slimy, and felt dangerous with like 500 people just outside these walls that were too flimsy to even contain my screams.

He stood and entered me and immediately hit my prostate, he was getting to know my body so well. It felt awesome. He didn’t make love to me, he knew our time was limited. He plunged in and out, pounding me hard. The room felt like it was going to collapse, and I was convinced everyone could hear my muffled cries of pleasure. After just a few strokes he shot his batter deep inside me. After he came, he quickly pulled out and we fumbled, and tripped over each other trying to get dressed and reassemble ourselves before exiting the room.

I walked out first and was looking straight at Ariel who smiled huge and gave me a little golf clap in appreciation. I turned left to head back down the aisle and all eyes her on me. I got back to my seat about a second before the door opened and Randy came out. Eyes shifted from my shame to his and I heard one passenger let out a “whoop-whoop,” and a few others giggle. The cocky goofball I was falling in love with smiled, extended his arms and took a bow. When he got to our row his face was red and he was stifling a giggle. I let him in, we both sat down. A few minutes later Ariel came up to us with a couple bottles of water and said, “I thought you could use these,” then he winked and said, “welcome to the club boys.”

We tried not to laugh and kept a low profile until the end of the flight. When we exited Ariel thanked us for the entertainment and told us to enjoy our trip.

We landed about 11:00AM. We deplaned with our bags in-hand and started heading for the rental car counter. When someone yelled obnoxiously “RANDY AND KEV YOU DUMB BITCHES!!!” and came running at us. It was Matty. His plane from LA had just landed. He dropped his bags and lifted me off the ground spinning me around (the joys of being the small guy in the group). He roughly put me down and grabbed Randy into a huge bro-hug. They had been friends since high school and I know Randy missed him “Are you guys here for the party? Are you staying at Jeff’s?”

“Yup” Randy said. “I had no idea you’d be here.”

“Of course you didn’t because you never call me anymore, probably spending all your time with some bitch” Matty spit out, his excitement in seeing us was obvious.

“Yup. I have been (I’m sure he felt my eyes burning through his skull). You wanna grab a Bloody Mary and catch up?” Randy asked

We found a nearby bar and ordered a round of drinks. Matty was telling us all about his PR job and living in LA. He seemed happy. Then he asked us about our jobs, Randy told him all about his job and then started to brag on me like a proud parent. “It’s so awesome you guys live by each other. Do you guys hang out much?” Matty asked. Neither of us answered at first, we just kind of looked at each other trying to figure out if this was the right moment.

“What…?” Matty asked

“Well….” I took a breath and said “We hang out a lot, whenever we can”

“We’re gay, Matty. Both of us” Randy chimed in

Matty laughed thinking we were putting him on and then he looked us both in the eyes and realized we were being serious “You’re fucking serious, aren’t you?” He kept his eye on us for any signs of flinching “Holy shit! That’s awesome” he practically dove over the table to hug us “Wow! I had no clue. Are you a couple?” It was clear he had a million questions.

“A new couple, but a couple.” I said

“I’ve wanted him since college….took me ten years to land this queer” Randy said grinning at me “You okay with all this, Matty?”

“I’m seriously great with it. A little caught off guard, but I think its awesome you guys found each other. I feel really stupid since I didn’t have a freaking clue about either of you.” He said genuinely embarrassed.

“Good. Then my plan to stay in the closet until I was ready worked.” I said

“damn, how did you both figure out the other one was gay? Did you just know? Like gaydar or something?” he asked genuinely interested.

“Yeah, we just knew” I said quickly

“Well, the fact that I walked in on him making out with a hot, naked, muscle ginger in the hot tub a couple months ago helped me figure it out” Randy threw out there, I shot him a nasty look.

“Ooooh my goddddd you guys!” Matty laughed, “Seriously?! What the fuck did you do?

“Two can play this game,” I thought to myself and said, “He stripped naked and climbed in the hot tub with us of course.” Matty laughed so loud it echoed through the airport. We told him the whole story, probably way more than we should have, but it felt good to be able to share it and laugh about it with a friend. Matty was on the edge of his seat the whole time and asked a million questions. Randy reached for my hand under the table and held it on his knee as we continued to catch up. It was nice to be ourselves. When we were done we all started heading towards the rental counter.

“Are you guys heading over to Jeff’s now? Matty asked

“Nope, going to meet the parents” Said Randy

“We’re going to go visit my folks and then go to Jeff’s later today” I said

“So, your parents know?” Matty asked

“They will in a couple of hours” I said, “and they’ll be meeting my boyfriend too, they just don’t know it.”

“Can’t wait to get drunk tonight and hear all about it. Oh my god, I wanna be there when you tell Jeff, Sarah… and Jesus of course– since you know Sarah and Jesus are best friends. She’ll LOVE this” He laughed

“Thanks for the support, dude, and don’t say anything. Let us tell them” Randy said.

“Hey! You know me better than that, I got your back, besides, I really want to watch this show. See you guys tonight…I’m really happy for you.” With that Matty turned to meet his Uber and we moved forward towards the rental counter. We heard him yell “See you tonight, bitches!” As we walked away.

We picked up our butch SUV and were driving to my parent’s house in no time. It felt good to be back in familiar territory, everything looked the same as we drove in to my home town.

“You can still back out” Randy said as we were about to pull into the driveway.

“So can you”

“Nope. I’m here for the show” he said with a dopey grin on his face as he watched me drive.

I pulled the SUV into the driveway and didn’t even get it into park before my mom ran out of the house and pulled the door open “There’s my bigtime executive son” she yelled for the whole neighborhood to hear as she reached into the vehicle and hugged me with all her might. I didn’t even have the seatbelt off. “I’m so happy you’re here.” “She looked past me to the passenger seat “You must be Randy, I’ve heard so much about you. Thank you for showing my little executive around Phoenix.” She said to him as if he were my babysitter. Randy of course was loving the show and just sat there with that adorable, goofy grin on his face.

“Mom at least let us get out of the car” I said. She got off me and stood there waiting for me to get out, so she could hug me. She held me tight for a couple of minutes with tears in her eyes, so happy to see her baby. “Come in, come in, I made lunch for you boys.”

My dad came out of the side door as we started towards the house “There’s Mr. Executive” he said as he came in for a bear hug. Then he turned his attention to Randy and introduced himself and also thanked him for taking care of his apparently helpless son in the big city.

We went into the house where mom already had lunch on the table “I didn’t know what you boys liked so there’s a little bit of everything,” she said. And there was. She could’ve fed 70 people with that feast. Which was a good thing since she kept telling Randy he was too skinny and scooping more stuff onto his plate. Mom and dad spent the first ten to fifteen minutes grilling Randy on where he was from, what he did, how he liked his job, how he like Phoenix, and then the conversation turned to me.

“Am I allowed to talk about the details of the new J -O – B in front of Randy?” My dad asked me quietly

“Yes dad, he knows the details, and he can spell too.” I said

“Good. You better not blow this. They’re just throwing money at you, you better keep them happy.” And the conversation went on from there. I told my dad all about it, I even told him about the bonus check and he turned to Randy and said, “help him invest it, don’t let him blow it.” Randy smiled and said he was already working on an investment plan. That earned him huge brownie points. Mom and dad asked us both a million questions for a while, then conversation slowed a bit and there was a lull…I ceased the moment.

“Mom and dad, there’s something important I need to talk to you about.” I said meekly

“You obviously don’t need money” dad said.

“You’re not sick, are you? “ mom shot back

“No, I’m fine, everything is awesome. I love Phoenix, the job is going better than I could’ve ever imagined, and… I’ve met someone special.” I said. The room went quiet, mouths stopped chewing an all eyes were on me waiting for the rest of the announcement. “Mom. Dad. Meet Randy, my boyfriend.” Randy looked at me giving me a look like “hey that was a novel approach.”

After about 20 very long seconds of silence my mom got up, got behind Randy and I and hugged us together with her head in the middle “I am so happy you finally figured it out and met such a handsome, smart young man.”

“Dad looked up and said, “I agree, we’ve been waiting for you to come out.” His words didn’t really surprise me, I always assumed they knew on some level, I was just glad they were cool with it. It was really kind of no big deal, the way I always hoped it would be. “You know your sister will be pissed that you got a man before her.”

“And such a handsome one too” mom added. We all laughed and that was pretty much it. I was out.

We spent a few more hours answering questions and being reassured that they still loved me and were so happy to meet Randy. We had to promise to come home for either Thanksgiving or Christmas, whichever Holiday Randy’s parents didn’t want. So basically, after a couple weeks of dating my parents had us married off. We decided to let it go and deal with it later…who knows what will happened by then. So we hugged and kissed goodbye, and mom handed me a care package of snacks and cookies to take to Matty and Jeff just like she did whenever I came home during college.

As soon as we pulled out of the driveway we both started laughing, and Randy said, “I’d call that a success” and we laughed some more. In the last twenty four hours I came out at work, to Matty, and now my parents. With each conversation I felt freer and more comfortable in my own skin. Jeff and Sarah were next.

We pulled up in front of Jeff and Sarah’s perfect home at about 5:00. Jeff and Matty were sitting on the porch drinking. We walked up the walkway to the porch and I tossed Jeff the package from my mom and he started to laugh. “I KNEW she’d send me cookies! I love your mom. Damn, it’s so good to have all you guys here.” We hugged, and were all a little teary eyed, it felt good to be among friends.

“Where are Sarah and the boys” I asked.

“At her sisters, she didn’t want to subject the kids to you hoodlums and our debauchery. She’ll be back tomorrow morning to get ready for the housewarming party.

Jeff broke open the cookies while Matty reached into a cooler by his side and threw us each a beer and said, “You bitches got some catching up to do.” And catch-up we did. We devoured the cookies and each downed three or four beers in less than an hour while we sat on the big porch talking about everything and watching all the hot college students walk by the house. Just like old times.

We talked about everything. Jeff talked about his kids and Sarah, Man he sounded miserable. Matty went on about his life in LA, it sounded like he was doing great. Then the conversation turned to me and Randy reconnecting and hanging out in Phoenix. Every time Jeff made some comment about all the tail we must be getting, Matty would giggle. After about my eight beer and Jeff’s tenth mentioned of how much Pussy I must be getting I blurted out.

“Shut up with all the pussy talk already, Jeff. I’m not getting any pussy, unless boy pussy counts, I’m fucking gay as Christmas, okay!” I yelled

Matty burst into uproarious laughter and added “and Randy walked in on him fucking some hot muscle guy in the hot tub and jumped in with them, and now they’re dating!” By the time he finished his sentence his laughter was out of control

Randy just looked at me, shrugged his shoulders and grinned that goofy grin, and I’m pretty sure Jeff was having an out of body experience.

To be continued…