Exploring My True Self

Randy and I both expected the next morning to be extremely awkward. We got up before the other two and went into the kitchen to make breakfast. Sarah had stocked the fridge with enough bacon, eggs, sausage, etc. to feed and army before she took the walk of shame out the door. Randy and I went to work creating a feast. We had never really cooked together before and it was nice. We both knew our way around the kitchen and worked as a well-oiled machine. I made a frittata while Randy fried up bacon and sausages and made blueberry pancakes.

As we made breakfast we worked on our “This doesn’t mean you’re gay, guys, it’s totally natural…” speech figuring we’d be calming the guys down and talking them off the ledge over breakfast.

We were in the kitchen about 45 minutes when we heard Matty bounding down the old staircase taking two steps at a time and yelling “It smells good down there, bitches!” so loudly the entire neighborhood could hear. Jeff was running right behind him with a smile on his face as he said, “Damn it does smell good in here.”

When they came into the kitchen Jeff went right to work setting the table while Matty started another pot of coffee. Randy and I exchanged cautious glances and I decided to open the can of worms and very carefully said “hey guys, you good with last night?”

There was zero hesitation. Matty instantly retorted “No. I’m not good with it. I’m freaking great with it!” Not the reaction I was expecting “I mean, c’mon I’m not gay or anything, but that was the most intense experience of my life,” he continued. “I wouldn’t go out looking for that, but I’m damn glad I did it, and with my best friends. Not a single fucking regret.”

“Same” Jeff interjected, “I needed an escape and that was it. My mind wasn’t on anything but the insanity going on. I needed this so bad. Seriously, this may be an overstatement, but you guys saved me. I’ve been on the edge for over two years now.” Randy shrugged at me like “what the hell, don’t question it” and we just kept going about our business.

Breakfast was ready. The guys finished setting the table and started filling their plates. We all sat down and just talked bull shit like we used to. Last night was a memory and today we enjoyed being together again. We had a few hours before the three of us had to head to the airport. And we relished every second with Jeff. We hung out at the table talking and laughing until it was time to pack our bags and leave.

Jeff walked us to the car and pulled the three of us into a bearhug burying all three of our faces into his massive chest and said “I love you guys. I’ve missed you all so much.” He was tearing up. We set up a weekly Zoom call for Wednesdays and swore we would keep in closer contact. Now that we’ve all reconnected we intended to stay that way.

The three of us jumped in the rental car and headed towards the airport to get back to our lives. Jeff jumped in his car to go pick up his kids and the pieces of his life. He was going to be okay. He had a plan, a good support network, and three friends that would drop everything and come running if he needed us. We parted with Matty at the terminal and boarded our plane. Back to reality.

As we got on the plane we were greeted by none other than Ariel. “Back for a second show fella’s’ he said as he winked. “Nah, I said, we’re too tired this time.” We all smiled, and Randy and I found our seats. Again we had an empty middle seat between us, so we stretched out and got ready for the long flight home. As soon as we were in the air we both pulled out our laptops, connected to the free WIFI and were checking work e-mails in hopes of getting ahead of all the crap that awaited us in the morning. Ariel came by with the drink cart and flirted with us a little, handing us a couple of cocktails on him. At one point he slipped me his cell phone number and told me he was in town several nights a week if we ever wanted to get together with him. We just smiled and thanked him, I guess I was getting better at flirting.

Most of my e-mails were from Katie, the woman who was promoted to my old position when I was made VP. She was reviewing resumes for the open positions on our new team. We had a total of eleven positions, with four still needing to be filled. The most urgent need was Katie’s old job and she already had thumbed through a bunch of resume’s and homed in on her top three favorites. She put interviews with all of them on my calendar over the next couple of days. I reviewed the resumes, she made some good picks. They all had great experience and brought something to the table. I actually was looking forward to the interviews. It would be a relief to have the positions filled. I responded to a bunch of e-mails from Jordan and Bill and then put my laptop away. We were just starting to descend into Phoenix. I looked over at Randy, he was fast asleep, snoring away. Damn he was cute. He woke up when Ariel made the “Please stow your tray table and move your seat into the upright position …” speech signaling the end of our trip.

We were back at my house about 7:00PM. We picked up tacos on the way home, ate, and were in bed before 9:00. It was a long trip and we both had big days of catching-up ahead. Randy said, “you know, I haven’t slept in my apartment in over two weeks.”

I just cuddled him and said “good, I like having you here every night.”

“My lease is up at the end of November, and I WAS thinking about looking for a house, but now I don’t know…” Randy said stopping mid-thought.

“What are you thinking?” I asked, half-knowing the answer.

“Well, I’m never at my apartment, I’m always with you. Why buy a house if I’m never there?”

“Well….I know this is a little soon, but we’re both thinking it.” I said and kissed him

“Are you asking me to move in?” Randy said. Then he started to think, and when Randy thinks, Randy babbles. “We could live here or find a new place together. If we lived here we could put my rent money away every month into a joint savings account. If we got a new place maybe, we could move closer to the city or maybe a little further out and get a little land without Bonnie living two feet away or we could….” I put my forehead against his and kissed him softly to shut him up.

“I think living together would be great. We’re practically doing it now. I just bought this place a few months ago and the neighborhood is getting hotter, it’s probably better to hold onto it for a while.” I said trying to rationally talk through this “There’s enough room for both of us, you can move in here and if everything works out and I don’t kill you, then we can start looking for something together.”

Randy smiled and kissed me softly “So, are we really talking about moving in together. That’s a huge step.”

“It’s a little quick, but doesn’t avoiding each other for almost a decade count for something?” I said, “I really do love you, you know.”

“I know. I love you too” he responded. Then our lips touch again, and we started to kiss lightly. Soon our tongues found their way into each other’s mouths and we were kissing passionately and grinding the growing bulges in our boxer-briefs against each other softly at first, then harder with more yearning and desire.

Randy started at my neck and moved to my chest licking and biting my nipples, then followed my happy trail down to my still mostly soft cock. He didn’t engulf it like he usually does, instead he covered it with tiny kisses, up and down and back again. It jumped at his touch and started to stiffen. He started to massage my balls lightly with his right hand as he grazed the fingers of his left hand up and down my body from head to toe, stimulating my every nerve, and driving me mad. As tired as I was my body was coming alive.

I pulled him back up to my face and kissed him gently. It felt wonderful to just be with him, holding him, having him all to myself. I moved down his body stuck my face in his arm pit and inhaled deeply taking in his scent. His incredible man musk. I couldn’t get enough of it. My dick continued to stiffen until it was hard as concrete. I reluctantly pulled my nose away from his armpit and started licking his nipples, toggling between the two and playfully biting them every once in a while. I was just reveling in the smell and taste of my lover. Thoughts of us together were going through my mind as I licked my way down his body. As I put my mouth over his perfect manhood I was thinking about him moving in with me, and us starting to build a life together. I took him deeper knowing that this was something more than sex. It was a truly deep connection, it was love. I loved everything about this guy. My thoughts continued as I moved my mouth up and down his cock, working my tongue in circles around it. I massaged his balls letting my fingers massage his taint and circle his sweet, pucker making it contract. It was still a little loose from all the activity this weekend. Jeff’s huge tool really did a number on his hole.

I moved my mouth down to his balls, working my way to his hole. I shifted my body and lifted my leg over Randy’s face, straddling it. He instantly went for my tight hole. We ravaged each other’s sweet boy holes, our tongues darting out of each other, both of us holding onto each other’s asses, pulling them down tight onto our waiting tongues. I ate his as for a long, long time. This had become my favorite vice. Eating ass. Whenever I got a sweet hole in front of me, I was a man possessed. I lost touch with the rest of the world. It was my escape. Some people do drugs, some people drink, some people indulged in fatty foods. I eat ass.

After what seemed like an eternity of indulging myself in the euphoria of Randy’s sweet hole, I moved on top of him, face to face. We kissed lovingly, tasting our own musk on each other’s lips. As we did, I lifted his legs and pushed the head of my dick against Randy’s waiting sphincter, then pushed in. He was still loose from our weekend with Jeff and It slipped in with no resistance. I kept pushing slowly until my balls were pressed firmly against his butt cheeks. Randy moaned as I hit his prostate. His dick lay between us, hard and veiny, testing the limits of its skin. I slowly pulled out until just the tip of my head was still engulfed in his tunnel. Then slowly back in until my balls were once again touching his ass. I repeated this over and over, all the while kissing Randy softly while he moaned passionately into my mouth. His canal gripped me tightly and sent incredible sensations through my entire body. We were making love and the intimacy of it all was overwhelming.

As we continued to make love, our bodies melded into one, and I was building our life together in my mind. All my wildest dreams seemed to be coming true. I tried to get out of my head and back into the moment as Randy continued to moan into my mouth, his ass welcoming every movement of my throbbing cock. He wrapped his legs around my body encouraging me to quicken my pace. Our bodies were heaving and covered with sweat as our breathing got heavier and our kisses became more impassioned. Our love making became lust driven and it was wonderful. Our sex was emotional, meaningful and overpowering, there is no way I could ever experience this with another human being. Sex was great, but this. THIS feeling was reserved for Randy.

I pushed into him and he pushed back, our bodies working as one in perfect rhythm, intensifying the sensations and working us both towards intense orgasm. I could feel it building in my balls as Randy held me tighter, pulling my body closer to his, pushing his tongue deeper into me and groaning uncontrollably as our tongues explored each other with passion.

“I love you, Kev.” Randy Whispered as I thrust into him, I said it back and he repeated it again. His words pushed me over the edge.

“I’m cumming,” I whispered

“Cum in me, Kevin, give me all of you.” He said. And cum I did! I Pushed all the way and shot stream after stream into him. While I was unloading into his hot, tight ass he pumped his cock between us and shot his hot cum between us hitting us both in the face with most of it landing on his chest. I licked up what I could then kissed him again.

I rolled off him, got behind him and held him until we both dozed off. We were home.

The next morning I made us a quick breakfast and we talked a little more about moving in together and decided to move into my place for now. We had a little over a month before his lease was up and he was going to start gradually moving his stuff in a couple boxes at a time. My house wasn’t huge, but neither one of us had a lot of stuff. My third bedroom was empty, we’d move Randy’s bedroom set into there and turn it into a guest room. The rest of his furniture would pretty much fit, we figured we would have an extra couch and a couple of end tables, his were nicer so we would get rid of mine. By the time we finished breakfast, and both headed off to work, we had a plan and it was official. We were moving in together.

To be continued…