The Counselor

'Come on people move, move, move!'

'His vitals are dropping, bring in the carts!'

There was a weird charging noise and then I felt a sensation, an almost deafening noise filled my ears.

'Clear!'

The sensation was back. I couldn't take it anymore, I had to let go'

I opened my eyes. Everything was calm around me, but I couldn't really move. I didn't feel sore, I just felt really tired and dissonant from the world. I looked around the room; I saw balloons and get well signs everywhere.

'HE'S AWAKE!' A girl shouted, it sounded like Cynthia. I looked at the door to see my mom, dad, and Cynthia rush to my bed side.

'You scared the shit out of us, asshole!' Mom said. She was crying and looked like she hadn't slept in days.

'What happened?' I asked, my memory was still jumbled. The last thing I remembered was going to the party.

'We aren't sure. I got up late two nights ago and found you convulsing on the floor. The doctors said you overdosed,' my dad stated, he looked worried, 'what happened Chris?'

I sat up and thought for a few minutes. I realized what happened. Tears came to my eyes as I thought about Drew and what he had done. I looked up at my mom.

'Honey, are you alright?' She asked. She put her hand on my cheek.

'Yeah, I'll be fine.' I said.

'Okay. Visiting hours are almost up, so we're going to go home. We'll be back tomorrow, okay?' Dad said, resting his hand on my shoulder.

'Okay.' I shook my head.

'Oh, and Alexia, Joe, and Steve stopped by. They said they'd be back after school tomorrow.' Cynthia said. She was quiet most of the time, almost like she was hiding something.

'Thanks. I love you all. Goodnight.' I looked at all of their faces.

They said goodnight and left. I rolled over on my side and looked out of the window. I was four stories up and could see the street and parking lot out of my window. As I laid there I thought of everything that happened. 'Things aren't ever going to be the same.' I thought to myself, silently crying. I fell asleep, dreaming of a different outcome.

I stayed in the hospital for another day and then was released. I went back to school Wednesday, the news had gotten around.

'Chris! Wow, I heard.' Amy said. Amy was my ex before Drew.

'Yeah, along with everyone else in the school. What's knew right?' I laughed. She giggled and we walked down the hallway talking.

'So, how've you been? Joe told me you had a new girlfriend'' She eyed me as we made our way past the gym.

'Yeah, that's over. Long story.' I said. I didn't want to go into details.

'Okay. Well, give me a call sometime; we'll hang out or something.' She smiled and hugged me.

'I will,' I whispered into her ear, 'thanks Amy.'

I looked over Amy's shoulder to see Drew standing a couple feet from us. He looked shocked, almost as if someone had punched him.

'Alright kids, let's move along you're going to be late.' He said, making his way over to Amy and me.

'Oh, sorry Mr. Stevens,' Amy said, turning around, 'I was just going to class. I'll talk to you later then, Chris?' She asked, half smiling.

'Yeah.' I said, looking at Drew.

'Okay.' She walked past Drew and hurried to class. The whole time I was trying not to cry. I hated this entire situation, I hated being weak.

'We need to talk.' Drew said, motioning me to follow him.

'No we don't. Stop Drew.' My voice was cracking.

'Now.' He kept walking. I followed him and we entered his office, he pointed to a chair across from his desk.

'Want to tell me what happened?' He asked, his voice was very teacher-like.

'Oh, which part? The part where I overdosed because of you? What do you want to know about that Drew?' I said. My anger was showing.

'Because of me?' He raised his eyebrows, 'and how is that?'

I couldn't believe he was acting stupid. I wanted to beat the shit out of him, 'oh I don't know Drew,' I gave him a dirty look, 'maybe because you raped me. Yeah, that's probably a good reason.'

He stared at me for a while. His hands were shaking and his eyes were watering.

'What, you don't remember?' I said, looking him in the eyes, 'give me a break.' I stood up and walked towards the door.

'Chris, wait.' He said, he stood up. Tears were leaking out of his eyes. 'I-I didn't know.' He walked around his desk, 'I didn't know I swear.' He collapsed on the floor. His body shook with the emotions that came out of it.

As much as I wanted to hate him I couldn't. I couldn't let myself be mad at him anymore. I walked over to his side and sat down, rubbing his back.

'A-all because o-of m-me'' He sobbed.

'Drew, I'I didn't, it's nothing.' I couldn't come up with the right words.

He raised his body and looked me directly in the eyes, his face inches from mine.

'When I watched you walk away from me I remembered the promise I made to you.' He said, he was still crying.

'Promise?' I didn't remember him making any promises.

'Yes.' He said, his lips brushing against mine, 'never again would I watch you walk away from me.' He kissed me.

My mind stopped, I flashed back to the day at the boardwalk. I loved Drew, I couldn't help it. We kissed, and he leaned me back so that he was on top of me, kissing my neck.

'No,' I pushed him off of me, 'no, we can't.' I got up and walked over to the door.

'I-okay.' He stood and walked over to me. 'Talk to you later, then?'

'Yeah, later.' I opened the door and walked out.

The day went by slowly, and I had an awkward feeling in the pit of my stomach. Something told me that I didn't want to be with Drew, something deep inside me told me to stay away from him. I didn't know what was going on, half of me wanted to be with him; that half was in love with him, but the other half hated him so much. It was confusing and I was relieved when I got home that day. I went to my room and slept, I avoided everyone on my way to my room.

I woke up to my phone ringing, it was Drew.

'Hello?'

'Hey, Chris, we need to talk. Now a good time?' His voice was anxious.

'Uhm, yeah I guess. Do you want me to drive over to your house?' I was looking at the time, it was around seven.

'Yeah, that's fine. See you in ten?'

'Yeah,' I called into the phone as I hung up. I didn't want to talk to him anymore, the situation was tiring.

I drove to Drew's house and parked in his driveway. I sat in my car for a few minutes and then decided to get out. I walked up to the front door and knocked.

'Since when do you need an invite?' Drew asked, he had an awkward smile on his face.

'I don't know, I just felt like I had to.' I said. I wanted to leave, the situation was getting harder.

'Well, aren't you going to come in?' He motioned for me to walk in. I walked past him and into the living room. We sat down on the couch in silence. After a while Drew turned to me and spoke:

'I missed you, Chris.' He grabbed my hand, I turned to look at him.

'Yeah.' I said. My eyes started watering, I hated being like this. This situation was making me so sensitive and I couldn't take it.

'Things haven't been the same since you left,' he squeezed my hand, 'I want you back, babe.' He leaned in and kissed me. As much as I wanted to pull back, I didn't. I was lost without any hope. I fell backwards and he landed on top of me, each of us caressing the other's body. I broke the kiss.

'No,' I said; he got up with a confused look on his face, 'no, I can't do this.' I stood up and turned to walk towards the door. He grabbed my hand and spun me around.

'I'm still in love with you Chris.' He pulled me down so that I was on his lap. We made out, out tongues exploring each other's mouth. He stood up and laid me on the couch. The seconds his body was away from mine were too long, we were ravishing each other. Our clothes came off, and I found my way on top. My tongue explored his body, licking his nipples all the way down to his belly button, and then to his now fully hardened cock. I engulfed it, taking it to the base. He pushed my head down, I started to gag.

'Yeah, baby, right there! Oh fuck!' I held my head there for a second then came off. He moaned and I made my way up to his face. He wrapped me in a tight hug, his lips meeting mine. We kissed for what seemed like an eternity, our hands running over each other's. I straddled him, exposing my hole to his nine inch cock. I lowered myself on it until finally it was all the way in, I let out a moan.

'Fuck Drew, it's so big!' I began to ride his cock, he had his hands on my waist and would lift me so that he could fuck my tight ass.

'Urgh here it comes!' He shouted, I felt his dick spasm and then I felt hot cum flood my insides. I came at the same time as him, my cum landing on his chest. I collapsed on top of him and just laid there. After a while he fell asleep, his chest moving in a rhythmic order.

I got up and walked over to the end of the couch, my heart was racing.

'It was just a fuck.' I whispered to myself, my eyes watering. 'Nothing else.' I felt unclean, dirty, as if Drew used me.