That kiss had been so intense, just a shame Ron had been there, for if he hadn’t I would have laid Raven on the ground and made out with him for hours. I had one thing clear: I was gay, well bi, but man oh man did I feel the need for some gay old time.
I stopped for a second and realized why Ron had left in a hurry, could it be that he had a problem with this. Well that his problem I thought and continued walking. I was feeling so good after that kiss. I went to the great hall in a state of euphoria. I sat down and sighed as the food appeared in front of me. I ate a little but mostly I just sat there thinking if I should tell Raven I wanted to be with him or if I should wait and try to be more certain that I really was gay. Well, becoming hard from a kiss with a guy made it quite clear: I was gay.
I went on and walked through the castle, I loved Hogwarts, it was my true home. It started to feel more secure yet a lot of people here had their eyes and ears open, still a bit on edge. I did not really look where I was going and bumped into Ginny.
“Oh hi Ginny” I said.
“Hi Harry, what's up?” She asked.
“Well a lot, I’d just like to ask you a few things if that's okay?” I asked.
She said it was fine and asked if I wanted to go to the Quidditch pitch. I smiled and we started walking, I was quiet for the most part and listened to her speaking about the teams and the world cup. I had a hard time figuring out what I should ask her, or rather how I should ask her. We went and took a seat at the benches, I sighed as I sat down.
“So what did you want to ask me?” She said, getting directly to the point.
“Well I wanted to ask you if I was a bad boyfriend.” I said.
“No Harry! Never think that.” She said and grabbed my hand.
“Well, was there something wrong?” I asked.
“No, but I always wondered why you never seemed to be in the mood to… you know.” She answered.
“Oh” I answered and she smiled. We were quiet for some time, I tried to find something else to say, but I guess I had asked everything I wanted.
“Is there something more you want to tell me?” She then asked.
“Well, just that I think I'm gay, or at least bi.” I replied.
She told me that explained the way I sometimes acted, she told me she too thought I was Bi.
She rose up and said it's a good thing we decided to break up so we could figure things out. She left and that's when I saw Neville meeting her giving her a kiss on the cheek, did they date now or something? I wondered. I walked back to the castle and went to the common room, no one was there. I took a seat in the huge sofa that was deep green in color. Good thing it was not made of leather as most of the things in the Slytherin common room. This was still a mixture of all the houses.
I pointed my wand at the fire place.
I said and sparks of fire came from the wand and kindled the wood in the fireplace.
I laid down still thinking about everything. Feeling unwell, lost in feelings I drifted off and fell asleep. I was awoken by someone running up the stairs, it was probably Ron, it sounded like his clumpy steps. Typical of him not to wake me up, now I started feeling anger. Why the hell was he so upset? I knew the reason he was probably a homophobe. I stood up and walked to the window. Looking out, seeing that autumn had arrived; it was the end of September and almost all the leaves in the trees had changed color and the wind once outside felt a bit chilly, some leaves had even started to fall. I sighed and thought that time seemed to move so fast at times. Just a week ago we had started teaching again, Raven had become very good and I could almost say I was proud of him. I smiled when I thought about him.
I looked at the clock and seeing that it was late and went to grab something to eat in the great hall.
I thought the whole way there, I needed to know more about these feelings, but still I was hundred percent sure I was gay, well bi. Grabbing a quick snack I left the hall, and went outside. Needing some fresh air I went down to the lake. The wind was chilly and I took in all the freshness, breathing deeply
“Hi Harry.” I heard a familiar voice.
I looked down by the rocks seeing Neville.
“Hi Neville, what are you doing?” I asked.
He told me he had collected some herbs for class. Yes, he too had become a teacher, but only for two classes a week, so he did some studying too. One of the classes he taught Raven and the second class he helped other students to catch up or just brush up on herbology. I sat down and talked some more with him, but I did not dare to ask if he was dating Ginny, I knew he and Luna had split up, but still I didn’t dare. He was soon done and then went to the castle but I remained by the lake, breathing in the fresh air.
After some time had passed I waved my wand saying “Tempus Memoria” and a faint light of numbers levitated at its tip. The clock had just passed 23.30 I stood up, turned to walk back to the castle. I needed to get some sleep.
Back in the common room I went up to my room, this year was good for everybody had their own rooms and that made me happy. I was really happy when the clock still moved and I found myself still awake, not being able to sleep would have disturbed many roommates. I laid in bed and looked up in the ceiling, I tried counting sheep and even tried a few spells but nothing seemed to work. I turned around, and looked at the wall, the wall to Raven’s room. His room was besides mine and across from Draco's.
I grabbed my bulge in my pyjama bottoms, thinking I might as well jerk off. I had heard that could help you sleep. I rubbed the outside of my pants and got hard. I let one of my hand glide down and grabbed my hard pole, starting to move my hand up and down.
I moaned and stopped for a second as I realized I was thinking about Raven. I continued, moaning and jerking my cock still thinking about Raven. I came fast and hard, I panted and looked over at the wall. OMG he had gotten me so hard and horny that I had cum all over the place! I cleaned myself up with a simple cleaning spell but still had to take of the pants tossing them on the floor and turned over, finally relaxed. I fell asleep.
I woke up and stretched out my arms and back still lying in bed, sat up and put my legs at the side of the bed. I looked down and saw that I was naked. Oh that's right! I remembered and shifted my gaze to my pyjama bottoms that I had tossed on the floor after the nights jerk off session.
I went into the tiny bathroom and took a shower, trying to remain calm, I was totally Bi. I had made it very clear to myself. I loved thinking about Raven's mouth and ass around my cock. “I need to stop those images coming to mind” I said out loud as I felt my cock twitch. I got out of the shower and picked out some fresh clothing. A pair of beige pants, a brown belt and a red jumper, that was a stiff combo and could be seen as something a fifty year old teacher would wear. “Whatever” I said and dressed myself. I walked down to the common room and met Hermione on her way down too.
“Oh hi” Hermione I said.
“Hi Harry, good morning.” She replied.
“Is Ron coming down?” I asked.
“No he has already gone to the great hall.” She answered.
“Harry he is just confused and needs time.” She said giving me a hug and left.
He told her about it, not that stupid is he. Well if he needed time he would get it but he could act like as such a child at times! By Merlin’s beard! He could be so stupid, and it often made me mad. I walked down to the great hall and went to my spot, next to Ron, who was about to leave.
“Don't bother, I was just going to get a plate then leave.” I said.
I grabbed a plate and placed some food on it then left taking a seat in the huge staircase outside the great hall. I ate my food in a hurry and almost barfed trying to force the food down. How long was he going to act this way? I cast a spell and the plate, now empty, levitated back to the great hall. I stood up and took a breath. Well screw him! I have classes to hold.
End of chap 4.....
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