From Campus to Camera

Stuck Between Pleasure and Confusion

I get to the studio at about 10:30 as the guys are just wrapping up some social media content with some of the other guys as today is the first time I get to meet Bennett in person because he’s flown over from the San Diego base for today and I surprisingly recognise him from the gym.

“Hey Jordie, how’s it going?” he says which throws me off for a moment but then I just nod because I realise that it’s all back using the porn name again here and that’s who basically everybody knows me as these days here. “Good bud,” I say as we’ve both seen each other in the gym before and he seems surprised that it’s me. 

“Seen you around the gym heaps, never expected it to be you” I say as he just laughs as I assume that he gets that all the time. “Yeah, I get that all the time you know, just because I’m so big and brash I suppose but yeah I run the shop these days,” he says as I smile and shake his hand and head into the kitchen to have a coffee before things and sit there waiting for the man of the moment.

I check my phone and surprisingly I haven’t heard anything from Tyson as the guys are surprised that he’s late but just as they start to get worried, in comes this stud wearing his Chicago Bulls jersey which I know he just has for fashion sense rather than any sort of team support despite the fact that he can actually play ball pretty damn well, despite saying he hates sport.

“Sup boys,” he says as there’s a group of guys sitting on the couch that I haven’t met yet and I know that I probably should introduce myself to considering what we are going to do later on but right now I just want to get into that zone which pumps me up so that I’m ready as Tyson gives me the bro hug.

“So you two spent any time getting to know each other?” Bennett says as I hear Cam laugh nearby “What’s so funny about me asking that this time?” Bennett sounds confused by our humour by the innocent question about spending any time.

Cam looks at him “These two are our new Colin and Josh” he says referring to two of their former stars which Tyson tells me about how close they were and that there were rumours after they left doing porn that Josh had left his girlfriend so that he and Colin could live closer together before one of them went back to their ex-girlfriend.

“Oi, come on now that was something totally different to what we’ve got going on, we’re just friends and nothing more,” Tyson says as Bennett. “Do you guys just wanna head downstairs, put some clothes on and we can take some photos and then do the shoot with some more photos?” he says as we both agree and head downstairs to the clothes.

I have a look through what’s there and it’s meant to be just a more casual theme between us so I pick a white T-Shirt with some dark shorts whilst Tyson goes for a polo shirt and denim shorts that show off his chest and muscular body. We sit there waiting for our cues to go upstairs and have the pictures taken which we seem to wait a while for everything to be in order as they organise things for us.

Cam comes down “We’re gonna be ready soon, Tyson knows the score with the fact that the two of you will essentially be fucking twice, once for the photos and then once for the hardcore video, so what we’ll do is get the pictures first which will just be the sitting together and a couple of kissing and oral shots, then go back to the beginning and just play it out naturally and take the photos as you do it,” he says as we both nod and I feel Tyson squeezing my hand as he says we’ll be good into go in about 10 minutes.

I get up and pace about the room as Tyson rubs my shoulders “You got this remember, you should be used to the kiss” he says as I just smirk and nod as Cam gives us the cue to come upstairs in a minute as we take a second. “I’ve got this,” I say as I pull Tyson in for what he thinks is going to be a hug but I kiss him.

Heading upstairs, we’re in the same bedroom where we had our photoshoot together as we sit back on the bed as Cam is doing the directing again as I smile for the camera and the photographer takes a few photos of us. Standing there Cam quickly looks at Bennett and whispers something as they nod “We’re just gonna go straight into it, we can get the shots while you're doing it” he says as we smile and get ready.

“So today with got one of our old boys in Tyson here and with got Jordie and it’s a big day for him because you’re gonna fuck a guy for the first time” Cam says as I nod “How does that feel?” he asks me as I just be honest.

“Well it’s kinda nerve-wracking but exciting at the same time because I haven’t done this and to get probably the king is pretty exciting,” I say as Tyson blushes and Cam turns his attention to him. “So Tyson, you were at me for so long ever since Jordie came in, what makes him so special because I know you’ve got high standards”.

Tyson smiles and pulls me in even tighter “You know everything about this boy is so amazing, naturally, I noticed the hair pretty early but then the smile and body plus that ass is just so nice and everything is perfect” he says as I’m now blushing for all the compliments he is giving me.

“Now I know you two guys have got on like a house on fire since Jordie and this is gonna be pretty special right Jordie?” Cam asks as I nod my head. “Absolutely, we don’t look like natural buds but we have clicked and just spent so much time together because he’s so fun,” I say as we are just about to kiss again.

“Well you two are barely able to keep your hands off each other so I’m gonna shut up and let the magic happen” he says as he nods and I feel Tyson pull me into kiss me deeply. This is the deepest kiss we’ve had yet and for as much as it feels really weird it also feels pretty right as my hands explore his body and his firm smooth pecs underneath his t-shirt.

Tyson warned me that kissing was one of his favourite things to do and he wasn’t wrong as we continue to make out and I feel his tongue pushing into my mouth as I moan into his mouth and his hands start to go down my body and lifts up my shirt as he takes it off and smiles at me as he takes it off and gives me a reassuring nod.

The kissing between us feels like weeks of sexual tension are just being released like we have both wanted this to happen even though I’ve never really thought of anyone this way. Tyson pulls my shirt off and pushes me down onto the bed so that he is on top of me and all I can do is his just keep kissing him as he takes off his shirt now and we are pinned together our smooth bodies up against each other.

The feeling of his smooth body against mine feels amazing and yet somehow different to when he was on top of me for the other photoshoot. This time I can feel so much more connection in the kiss right now which is understandable given how quickly our friendship and bromance has blossomed. 

As we keep making out, Tyson slowly moves down my body kissing my neck as I close my eyes and just get sent to a whole new world of pleasure as he knows all the spots that turn me on as I feel my cock bulging in my shorts. Tyson comes back up my neck to kiss me again as we continue to make out before he goes down my body again this time past my neck “Fuck you are so smooth and sexy” he says as his big hands run themselves over my pecs massaging them and then running his fingers over my nipples before I feel his tongue swirl around them.

I’ve never had my nipples played with before even when I jerked off I’ve never done anything with them so already I’m being taken to a new place as his tongue slowly goes around each one. Moving around in circles, I feel him starting to suck on each one slowly which makes me moan so loudly as I feel his hand moving down my abs and reaching under my shorts as he grabs hold of my cock with pulses with the first touch of his hand.

The feeling of having another guy's hand on my cock doesn’t feel anywhere near as weird as I thought though I think in my head, the fact that it’s Tyson means that it’s not as weird as if it was one of the other guys. I moan as he goes onto his other nipple and I hold his head totally in a zone forgetting that 4 or 5 other people are watching right now taking pictures and filming all this.

Tyson whilst still sucking my nipples slides my shorts down and springs upwards and in all honesty, I feel harder and bigger than I have ever been before as he kisses down my body bypassing my cock and starting to suck on my balls and licking my sack.

No girl I’ve ever been with has given me this much attention and I’m in a sense of heaven right now as he does that and I just moan and continue to leak pre cum out of my cock. I grip the pillow next to me as I lay there and look at this stud of a guy right now just sucking on each of my balls before going up my shaft licking it with this natural sense of knowing what will turn me on.

The slowness that he does everything is what turns me on the most as I open my eyes again and see Tyson sucking on my head and going deeper makes me moan “Oh fuck that feels good” I say as I can see him looking at me going down further taking my whole cock down his throat with simple ease as I feel frozen in both nerves as the thought of a guy sucking on my cock feels better than I ever imagined but then also loving how good it feels.

Feeling the speed pick up with suck, I see my cock going in and out of my mouth sucking it harder and faster than I could have imagined. I watch Tyson pull himself off my cock as this time we stand up and make out again and I slide his shorts down and feel his hard cock up against mine as we make out with so much passion that it has turned from two guys just having sex on camera almost to making love to each other.

This time it’s my turn to kiss down his body and the firmness of his chest and abs are so different in this situation as I run my tongue down his perfect six-pack which makes him moan loudly before I put my hand around his cock. Any sort of nervousness has disappeared as I slowly run my tongue down his shaft and he throws his head back.

Our moans fill the room as I lick around his shaft and my hands explore around his balls as I move my mouth over his cock and take a deep breath before putting the head in my mouth. The taste of his cock isn’t what I was expecting nor the feeling either but nonetheless it feels really good as I start to slowly suck on his cock.

There are no expectations on me to deepthroat but I go further down slowly taking more and more of his cock down my throat almost to the point where it’s all in there without gagging and feels natural. “Fuck you’re a natural” he says to me as it boosts my confidence to pick up speed a fair bit although now I start gagging as the speed picks up.

Tyson holds my head as he starts to fuck my mouth slowly and as I’m on my knees in front of this six foot two muscle stud that has been with so many guys and the fact that he is moaning so loudly right now tells me that I’m doing an amazing job and I keep it up.

Sucking on his cock, my head is now bobbing so fast as I’m just going backwards and forwards with it right now and the taste of Tyson’s pre-cum on my tongue feels good. After a few more minutes we crash back onto the bed, not saying anything but letting our connection do all the talking as he flips me over and spreads my cheeks to rim me.

This is the first time I’ve ever been rimmed in my life and the feeling of Tyson’s tongue on my smooth pink hole feels better than anything I’ve experienced in my life which is hard to believe given the new levels of pleasure that I’ve experienced today.

His tongue going to work on my hole is absolutely magical as he kisses back up towards me and whispers in my ear “I can’t wait until it’s my turn for your hole” he says as I smile and kiss him as he mouths something to Cam and I notice Cam nod as I look at Tyson.

“I want your raw cock inside me so much right now” he says as I smile and totally forget that this is meant to be a condom scene but with the rawness and passion of our sex so far it feels wrong to wrap things with a condom.

Tyson lays over the edge of the bed as I spread his butt cheeks and start to go to work to lube up his hole with my tongue which is so soft and smooth and nothing like what I imagined. Starting to rim this meaty ass, Tyson is again moaning as my tongue goes deep into his hole and his hand comes around and holds my head as I keep tonguing his pink hole.

After rimming him, I put some lube on my cock and his hole as I stand here about to put my cock in a guy for the first time and especially someone I’ve become so close to as Tyson is. “You want my cock don’t you big boy,” I say almost getting dominant right now as my cock slaps against his hole.

“Fuck yeah baby, I want you to fuck me so deep and I want you to own me” he says as has this submissive side that I’ve never seen before. Despite being fucked so many times, Tyson’s hole is so tight as I push in and I feel my cock stretching his hole and it feels so good.

I get my cock all the way in and I feel his hole tightening itself around my cock as I start to get even deeper inside his ass. I slowly push in and out getting used to the feeling and as much as there is a size difference between us, I feel Tyson’s body pulsating as I can feel the impact that my raw cock has it hits his prostate.

Picking up speed I hear him moaning so loudly “Oh fuck yeah S…Jordie, fuck my hole baby” he says as I pick up the speed and start to fuck him hard as my cock is feeling thicker inside his hole as each of the moans turns me on more. I pick up the speed and now I’m a cocky little fucker literally “You love my raw country boy cock fucking your prostate don’t you” I say as yet another sense of confidence comes over the top of me as I’m dominating Tyson right now.

Holding his shoulders, my balls slap against his ass right now as I pick up the speed and the power is rippling through his muscles right now as I continue to fuck him hard, gripping onto his bulging arms.

Pulling out for a moment, Tyson lays on his back as I put his tree trunk thighs on my shoulders and start to push my cock back into his tight hole and I can see his eyes rolling back into his head right now as his hole has wrapped itself around my raw leaking penis. I push back in slowly at first getting Tyson used to having it back in there right now as I go slowly deeper against his prostate.

Bending over him to stay deep inside him and fuck him, we make out right now as he moans into my mouth as our bodies are together both dripping in so much sweat as I keep pounding him hard now as my cock is leaking so much cum right now through his hole as we are just so connected right now.

The fucking between us is something and as I can see that in his eyes that right now the passion between us is the proof of the lust and love that Tyson has for me and I have to admit that the feelings of lust and if not more that I’ve had with Tyson as well which makes me smile.

I’m pounding him hard right now as I look across at Cam starting to nod which gives me the clue that I don’t need to control myself anymore and it’s not long before I feel myself about to cum and want to know where he wants my cum and he tells me to creampie him.

“Oh fuck I’m about to cum” I say as he nods at me as I keep pounding and finally blow so much cum into his hole right now as I continue to fuck him deep pushing it before I pull out and fall back on the bed next to him panting as Tyson climbs over me and jerks his cock “I’m gonna cum so much” he says as I feel his cum all over my abs and even spurting up to my face as he licks it off my chin and then keeps making out with me as I feel his hand running through my hair and just smiling and I hear him whisper in my ear “That was better than I could ever imagine”.

Pulling up, I look at the cum all over my body as the photographer takes some shots and of the cum on our bodies as we lay there and Cam wants us to do our interviews right now as we sit there close in naked together both still panting hard.

“So we are here with Jordie and Tyson and wow boys that was one passionate fuck, especially for first-timer Jordie” he says as I smile and just nod as I feel Tyson put his arm around me. “Tyson, you’re one of our studs that’s been with us for a while and broken in plenty of newbies, how did Jordie sit?”

I notice him look at me and smile “The best ever” he says which is a big wrap from Tyson and how many guys he’s been with. “Wow the best ever, that’s a pretty big compliment considering all the people you’ve had sex with both on-camera and off-camera,” Cam says as Tyson nods.

“Yeah, Jordie just knew what he wanted and was confident about it plus helps that we’ve bonded so much over the past few weeks,” he says as I smile and nod. “What about for you Jordie? It seemed like the minute your lips hit each other any boundary or sense of consternation was gone” Cam says as I nod again.

“Yeah pretty much, I mean I was nervous because you’ve got all this stuff going on in your head about whether is this really what I’m into and then to be with the legend that is Tyson is pretty big stuff for your first scene,” I say as Cam keeps going with the questions.

He looks at the both of us “One for both, what was the best part?” he asks as I answer first “Probably the rimming to be honest, I’ve never been rimmed before so was a surprise although straight up raw fucking and blowing a load inside someone is amazing” I say as he nods.

“The domination, Jordie looks like that nice kid at school you know is popular but doesn’t really say a lot and seems pretty calm but fuck I think we’ve got ourselves a little alpha beast that is gonna break some hearts for sure” I laugh and wink to the camera as Cam wraps things up and we get our cue to hit the showers as they want to take a few pictures in there.

Tyson gets up to say something to Cam “Mind if we have a few minutes?” as Cam nods and the guys clear out as he closes the door behind them for a minute. “I wanted to see how you really felt because I know with the cameras you’re not gonna say you hated it,” he says as I just sit there.

“Even without the cameras I’d still say that it was the best sex that I’ve ever had” Tyson smiles as I say that and he puts his arm around me, his naked body dwarfing mine but even still just a perfect match together as we kiss again. “Damn, I knew there was another side that had to be smashed out of you and I’ve seen bits but I know it now,” he says as I don’t say anything more because in my head right now I’m a mess of what to think.

We get up and Tyson gets Cam to take some post-scene shower shots as my mind is so clouded with everything because I knew that how I feel about Tyson was different to anything and I thought sex would make it awkward but if anything it’s made us even closer. I wander into the shower, pretty confused and stand there quietly as we have the photos and then get given our space where Tyson notices how quiet I am not really looking at him.

“You ok? You seem really distracted” he says as I don’t even hear him just struggling with everything going through my head now. “Huh… oh yeah I’m good you know, just thinking about things” I tell Tyson as I was my body and he rubs my shoulders.

“That doesn’t sound good, you’re regretting everything that happened between us aren’t you?” he says as I shake my head. “Hell no, I loved that in there and it was the greatest sexual experience that I’ve ever it’s probably just complicated,” I say as he keeps rubbing my shoulders and washing my back before I turn around and help him with his and clean up his ass that still has all my cum on it. Tyson looks at me “Why don’t we talk about it back at my place over Pizza and Drinks?” he says as I say that I’ll think about it which I know that I will but my head is just so confused about it all.

We get out of the shower and dry off as Cam comes in and tells us that he’s got plans for a celebration tonight if we want to come with some of the other guys to a party tonight at a club downtown as Tyson says that he’ll pass because he’s doing a wedding tomorrow.

“What about our new star?” Cam asks as I shake my head which as much as it would be cool I’m just not mentally up for anything like that tonight. “Nah I can’t, I probably need to catch up with my mum and talk to her for a while tonight about things,” I tell Cam as he nods.

“Does she know anything about the porn or is that what you are talking about tonight?” he asks as I shake my head. “Nope on both counts, if I told her then there would be more problems and honestly, with the stress in my family, I just hope that she never finds out though I suppose that one day she might,” I say as Cam nods.

“We got some new stuff if you boys wanna have a pick, it’s all promo stuff and we get enough of it so I’d let you two have first and only pick because it was your day,” Cam says as he heads off and Tyson and I raid the new Underwear supply as he picks out a couple of jocks and some briefs.

He grabs me some jocks and briefs “These’d be good for you” he says as I laugh and look at the jocks and just shake my head. “I can’t wear that man,” he says as he looks at me. “Surely you’ve worn one before,” he says as I shake my head.

“There’s still plenty I need to work on then,” he says as we get dressed and he reminds me that the offer still stands about Drinks and pizza tonight. I head home, just chatting generally about things with the Uber driver and heading upstairs where police are door knocking because apparently this morning there was another disturbance.

I lay on my bed for a while, just scrolling on my phone looking at Facebook and Instagram with every boring bit of life back home and at my cousins celebrating all because their kids rode the tractor for the first time, or doing something on the farm. 

As I lay there, I quickly realise that none of that is what I want in my life these days at all. I know that I still want to be a doctor and give back to the country town but I see how sheltered their lives actually are you with everything because I know that for some of my family, a trip to the Gun Range is a weekly highlight.

My family and I probably disagree on that fact and it’s sort of a weird one because I’ve always had this fear of even holding a gun even though I’m trained up because it was something that my Dad had believed that we needed to do when we got invaded. The politics of my family is something that I strongly disagree with and I know that there would be issues about things if they found out about my porn career, but I know that I just have to keep going with it.

I’m video chatting with Mum for a while as she talks to me about how Dad’s going which is slightly worse than he has been but the Doctor that comes in a fair distance because we still don’t have anybody local is happy enough with things. I learn how all my second cousins are going and how Helena is having her christening and how Mum is so excited about it as I just nod not wanting to disappoint her and say that I don’t even remember which one Helena is.

As we keep chatting, I have to step away for a few minutes as the police want to ask a few questions about what happened earlier and then about the other day as I just tell them that I heard some yelling and screaming which is nothing unusual, glass smashing which again is nothing unusual before saying that I wasn’t home today which Mum hears me say.

“So who was all that at the door?” she asks as the sound of our talking at the door was pretty audible given how small my apartment is. “It was the cops, there’s regular disturbances downstairs and it took a nasty turn over the past few days” Even though I say that it’s downstairs Mum is quick to jump to conclusions.

“I told you not to get yourself in trouble or do anything desperate with the car problems, I can send you what you need for a new car,” she says as I sigh because she is just not listening to me although I do have to admit that she is right about going to desperate measures.

Sitting there I raise my voice slightly “MUM… I’ve done nothing it was about downstairs, it’s always a problem because they are just those kinds of people like the Hill’s that took over the Brooks’ farm” I say having to use a hometown analogy so that she understands the situation.

I hang up from her and just lay there relaxing about things, thinking about Tyson’s offer of moving in with him and then everything that I’m feeling about where we sit. I know that I really enjoy his company but for me it’s weird right now because whenever we are together I feel so different and just enjoy being around him. Laying there, I’m just in this state of utter confusion because I’ve never felt like this about anyone though every fibre of my body keeps telling me that I’m straight and it’s true because I don’t really have any attraction to another man.

But with Tyson, everything feels so different because I think that I’m actually really into him more as a friend but as much as the sex today was one of the best feelings I’ve ever had, I just don’t know whether it’s something I really want going forward. Laying there, I know that I’m just going to keep thinking about it as I go downstairs and do some work for Sharon on her garden as she talks to me about how this doesn’t compare to my life back home on the farm.

As she says that I quickly realise, that I need to make a decision so that I just don’t find myself in the situation of my brother being 25 like Tyson but in his case married with 3 kids already and the same as my cousin Tim. 

I head back upstairs and grab my phone “Are the offers still open?” I text as I sit there and it’s like he must have been sitting there waiting for the text message. “Never closed, I’ll pick you up in half an hour or however long it takes,” he says as I smile feeling comfortable about the decision.