From Campus to Camera

Opening Up With Desire

It’s about 6:30ish before Tyson gets here and I’m waiting for him on my couch not sure what I want from tonight and the doubts about moving are there as he comes up wearing the same outfit he did to the shoot today. “Sup bro, you ready to go?” he asks as I get up and nod grabbing a change of clothes for the morning because I just want to try the apartment out.

“You look good tonight” Tyson says as I’ve got one of my Basketball singlets on and a pair of shorts that I’ve never worn before because I got them on sale and then when I tried them on at home they were shorter than I thought. We head down to the car and I can notice that already trouble is already brewing downstairs as we drive off.

Tyson looks at me “What happened in your chat with your Mum for the change of mind because I didn’t think you wanted to come over?” The question is a fair one because I didn’t really know if I wanted to chill with Tyson tonight because I thought it’d be weird because for my family it was always told to us that sex was the consummation of a relationship when you reached a point and that was how I’d always just naturally thought of it.

The other fact that was always pushed into us was that sex was for romance rather than just the physical outlay and I’d always like to think that I was a lot more open-minded but I quickly realised that my thinking has been more influenced by them.

“Just a combination of things you know, Mum talking about the family and everyone being excited because my cousin’s kids are riding the tractor, then the whole drama downstairs” I say as Tyson nods and looks at me. “Well if you want to talk about things more we can or just forget about everything?” he says without any pressure which is what I love about him and I just shrug and tell him we’ll see.

Getting to the apartment again, we head up there and I’m surprised at how big it actually is considering that my apartment is about eight steps across in width with a huge open kitchen/dining/living area which is still divided but more open than me having my dining table sitting in the middle of the living room which is also doubling as my coffee table.

Tyson gives me another tour and shows me what would be my bedroom would be and it’s nearly the size of my apartment. “Honestly, how the hell have you been able to afford this?” I ask as Tyson orders the Pizza and then makes his own homemade equivalent of a Margarita as he keeps showing me around.

“My grandparents were rich and I don’t mean like just a little bit rich, I mean they were megarich and had left me and my cousin a huge sum of money that we could access when we were 25 to cover for our families when we had them and considering that I’m not going to be a Dad I wanted to splurge and in a way give a big fuck you to my parents,” he says as I just nod my head with surprise about that.

I sit down on the couch “So with the whole walking out and all that wouldn’t your parents try to get access to it and everything” I ask as Tyson nods. “Nah, my grandparents knew what I did and whilst I didn’t have contact with them other than the occasional accidental meeting,” he says with air quotes which tells me that it was done in secret.

We sit together just listening to music for a bit as I have a look at the bedroom I’d stay in “Don’t think that I’m pressuring you into anything but I’m not actively looking for a roommate so you don’t need to rush into a decision but I just thought this is a better spot for you to live than out there and much cheaper” Tyson says to me as I nod my head.

“Yeah, I’m definitely thinking about it because I know that the travel and the cost are too much going forward especially using the buses,” I say as Tyson can sense a but coming.

“But…” he says as I look at him and don’t really know what to say about anything right now. “I’m going to sound really stupid but I just don’t know how to feel about everything you know, like I’ve always grown up learning that sex is the consummation of a relationship and I don’t know things in my head should be awkward you know”.

Tyson looks confused but nods his head “Nothing says it has to be awkward, we’re just chilling pretty normally aren’t we?” I nod my head as he says that. “I get how you’re brought up but sex is sex at the end of the day, there’s lovemaking and then there’s just animalistic fucking you know because we’re humans and I could walk past guys in the street that I’ve had sex with and not even recognise them,” he says as I just laugh and believe that for Tyson given what I know of him.

The relaxed nature of how we are chatting makes me feel a lot more comfortable about things “Yeah I guess so, I think that for as modern as I wanna be that dumb country boy still dominates over the top of me at times” I say as Tyson hits me and just shakes his head.

“You’re not dumb, the progress you’ve made in just a few weeks is phenomenal and honestly there’s nothing wrong with thinking about things that way because for a lot of people that’s how it is and it’s not wrong” he says as I find myself cuddling into him right now as he puts his arm around me. “So tell me how you actually feeling now, away from the set and just sitting here with me?” he says as I smile at him.

“It doesn’t feel any different you know, like I know we fucked today but our friendship doesn’t seem different to me” Tyson looks at me with a smile and kisses me on the cheek as the doorbell goes off with the Pizza arriving as he brings it in and puts it on the bench.

“See what I mean, awkwardness only happens when you make it and I can see on your face that you don’t feel awkward about it right?” Tyson always knows how to make things better between us and I’m always feeling special when I’m with him.

We sit there with the margaritas and pizza just chatting about things as I want to probe more into his life “How did you know that you were gay?” I ask Tyson as he just laughs at my question.

“Honestly, I’ve always just known you know, like it was something that if you asked anyone who knew me as a kid and said that Frankie was gay as an adult there’d probably be nobody that would be truly surprised,” he says laughing as I still can’t really imagine him as a kid because I’d always picture him as being the flirty confident guy that he is today when he was anything but.

“You know you’ve never actually ever told me what your old name was until then,” I say as he doesn’t even realise he said it. “Yeah I guess I haven’t, I’ve just been Tyson so long that I barely use it more even when talking about my life as a kid” he says with the casualness that he doesn’t mind telling me when I know he hates talking about it.

“So Frankie was the old name?” I say as he shakes his head and talks with a mouthful of Pizza “Worse, Francis” he says as I just nod my head and think that Tyson is much hotter than being named Francis.

Tyson puts on the TV and we watch the Simpsons for a bit before he looks at me as we cuddle into each other just watching the TV which probably gives him the sense that there is a lot more at play right now as I feel him stroking my hair and this feels nice.

“This feels so good with you,” I say as he smiles and I look across at him “Can I be honest about something?” I say as I just think that I need to be honest about how I’m feeling especially after our conversation earlier about things.

Tyson looks at me and nods “Of course you can, I don’t want you thinking that you can’t ever be honest with me about anything” he says as I nod and take a deep breath before saying anything and I know that now it’s going to make things weird.

“There’s just a connection between us you know but it’s nothing like I’ve ever had for anyone before but I just don’t know where I sit internally with this because when I think about it, I’ve got so many feelings of attraction to you like but then I just don’t find myself gay” I say as I get worried that Tyson is going to be weirded out by me saying that.

Instead of being weirded out, Tyson puts his arm around me tighter “You know how I feel about you Scotty and honestly when I said that I like you because I like you the person not just the fact that you’re hot it was true” he says as I smile.

“Honestly, I know that I’m gay and about a 20 on a 1-10 scale but labels are just utter nonsense in the world when it comes to sexuality” he says to me as I nod my head. “Love is love and if you feel a connection to a person then there is nothing wrong with it, if you’re a guy that always has an attraction for women but find something with another guy there’s nothing wrong with that at all, it’s just how you feel about yourself that is more important”.

Tyson’s words hit me strongly as I realise that is the situation that I find myself in right now especially with him because I don’t know what level of attraction that I have because as much as Tyson is so hot, I just find our connection more special at the emotional level of things more than anything else.

“Yeah, that’s what I mean you know, the sex this afternoon was so amazing and way beyond what I was expecting but with you, it just feels so different because of that connection you know,” I say as we sit there cuddling again as I feel myself kissing Tyson as I don’t know how he will react.

Tyson kisses me back again, this time making out and I can feel the connection coming through the kiss which even though we had that earlier, just the two of us together feels so much more special and we continue to make out. Tyson moans in my mouth as we continue to kiss and he pushes me down so that he is over the top of me again as we kiss.

I wasn’t expecting this tonight but now that it’s happening I feel so good as rather than just doing it for the camera where even though we released passion, this feels so much more intimate than what it did as we keep making out until Tyson pulls away.

“Problem?” I ask as he looks at me and shakes his head “Remember how I said there was animalistic sex and then there was lovemaking?” I nod my head. “Today as amazing as it was and the passion that was there as we made out and fucked, that was raw animalism, that there was a lot more tender you know” Tyson says to me as I still don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.

He just smiles and gives me a quick kiss again “You don’t need to pull that face Scotty because it’s a good thing” he says as I just smile and let out a sigh of relief. “There is nothing wrong with not knowing what you want in life, especially with your sexual preferences and for the most part some people aren’t lucky enough to ever fully find confidence until it’s too late” he says to me as I nod and he rubs my shoulder as we sit there.

After watching another couple of episodes of the Simpsons, Tyson gets up and washes up before “I’m going to have a shower so you can put another episode on or hit the bedroom or whatever” he says with a wink at me as I let him get undressed for the shower. Sitting on the couch for a moment, I’m thinking about what he said to me and right now I don’t know if it is just the euphoria of the day or what but I give it a minute and find myself stripping naked and heading to the shower.

Tyson gets a surprise as I open the door and get in but he just smiles “I know I said you could do whatever you wanted but really I wasn’t expecting this” he says as I just wink. “Don’t ask me why but I just wanted to because it feels right at least for tonight” I finish that sentence with a kiss and he pushes me against the wall as the water runs down our wet bodies and making out as my cock is getting so hard right now”.

The kissing and passion in us whilst still animalistic feels more passionate than it did earlier in the day as I think now that I’ve got off my chest how I feel, I’m actually feeling more comfortable with things. 

Pinned against the wall, Tyson is kissing me automatically going back to the spots that turned me on when we were fucking on camera but this time with no time constraints, Tyson takes his time as I can feel my cock growing and leaking even more than it was earlier right now.

Kissing down my body, Tyson continues down my chest playing with my nipples like he did before but this time he goes straight to my leaking cock and starts sucking on it. The feeling of his tongue right now is like pure magic as it swirls around my head hitting all the right spots. I stand there just moaning loudly, really in the zone again with this muscle stud on his knees worshipping me right now.

Watching Tyson who could get any guy in the world he wanted with his charisma and looks makes me feel so amazing right now as all that he wants is me and to make me feel good especially now there isn’t a cheque involved. I hold his head as he goes up and down on my cock as I throw my head back and even though I hold his head, he is the one in total control right now as I’m just submitting to him.

Pulling him up to kiss him again, Tyson turns off the water and chucks me a towel and dries me off playing with my ass right now as he pushes me into the bedroom and bends me over the bed. I stand there as he looks at me “I want your first time to be on camera but is it ok if I…” he says as I nod my head willing to push my boundaries further, especially with Tyson.

I’m bent over the bed as he starts to run his finger around my tight hole that’s never had anything inside it before he again begins to rim me. I can feel his tongue going around my hole right now and there is something about it that feels more amazing than it did earlier today. I close my eyes and grip the freshly made bed as his tongue is pushing me to places in my head that I could never imagine.

The feeling of him rimming me so softly and tenderly around my hole is something that I can’t describe as even though at first it feels weird, it’s such an amazing feeling right now and turns me on so much as I moan louder than I did at any point during the filming.

Pulling his tongue away from my hole, I feel his finger swirling around my hole and eventually as it slides in, the first sensation of pain quickly subsides to something amazing and in total surrender to this stud. Feeling his finger go inside me is the most amazing feeling and again something I never thought I’d be remotely into but the feeling has already got me wanting to try so much more.

“Oh fuck that feels so good” he says right now as I can see Tyson smiling through the mirror right now and he keeps going for some time that I can’t even imagine because I’ve just been hypnotised by the feeling of having my prostate played with for the first time.

“Fuck I know why you love getting fucked” I say as Tyson smirks towards me as now he has flipped me over so that he could see my face as he takes his fingers out and reaches around to one of the boxes he has sitting in the wardrobe. Watching him, I notice him pull out a small purple dildo which frightens me a bit but he is eager about putting it inside me.

Laying there, I can see that he starts to suck on it and he tells me that he prefers the feeling of natural lube rather than anything else as I close my eyes waiting for him to put it go in. My legs go up in the air as I can’t see what is happening right now which makes things both more nervewracking and alluring at the same time.

My hole has already closed up in those few minutes so the minute the cold dildo hits my soft pink hole really makes me tense up and close my eyes as I feel it go in. The feeling hurts like hell with the stretching and even though I know that a real cock is going to be harder and thicker, this is hurting like hell at the moment.

Clenching my eyes closed, “FUCK” I say as Tyson doesn’t pull it out but just slowly pushes it in deeper right now which slightly gets better despite still hurting right now. Feeling it start to hit my prostate, the feeling changes from pain to an almost sensational feeling that is making my cock leak so much right now.

Tyson starts to suck the pre-cum off the tip of my cock as he continues to push the dildo deep in my hole as now I’m just moaning in pleasure with the pain almost gone and replaced by a sense of exhilaration that I have never ever felt in my life. Right now, I’m begging for the real thing but Tyson tells me that he wants to wait to do it on the camera because if it happens it could be even hotter than us doing it right now because even though he’s fit, he doesn’t have the energy to take advantage of my hole in the way that he would’ve wanted to tonight.

Climbing back over the top of me, Tyson kisses me before climbing further up and feeding me his cock which I take all of down my throat. The position that he is in feels awkward but having his cock going my throat doesn’t and I love the fact he is willing to try all these positions with me so early and the fact that I’m enjoying it.

As he fucks down my throat, I feel his tight ball sack sitting on my chin as he continues to ram his cock down my throat which I’m taking with ease as he continues to leak down my throat. I know that he doesn’t want to cum yet but I keep milking it with my mouth and I nod at him so that he knows if he wants to cum that I can take it all.

Tyson goes harder at fucking my throat with his thick cock and the hot load of cum is a weird feeling but tastes amazing as I gulp it down like an animal needing water. As the load continues to blow, I gag at how much there is before he finally pulls his cock out of my mouth and then goes back down and starts sucking me again faster.

I’m still laying there as he climbs back over the top of me and positions himself over the top of my hard cock so that he can start riding me. The feeling of his ass feels better than it did earlier as right now I’m not thinking about what if I’m bad or hate it, now I’m just thinking how in the studio my cock blowing a load was a down payment and now I’m truly going to ensure that Tyson’s tight fit muscled butt is all my property.

As I lay there, my leaking cock is being ridden by Tyson who is doing all the work right now as I can see his eyes rolling into the back of his head. Tyson continues to bounce up and down on my cock, as his hole wrapping itself around my shaft is now like a milking machine as I can feel my cock leaking and almost getting close to blowing a major load.

I grab hold of his hips and he stops bouncing as now he is letting me take control of that big ass right now. I jackhammer deep into his hole hitting his prostate as I can see his hard cock growing again and getting close to blowing a third load for the day right now. Continuing to fuck him harder, my cock is leaking “Oh fuck yeah Scotty I want your load” he says as balls slap his ass and it doesn’t take me long to blow another load inside his tight hole.

“FUCK” we both moan at the same time because it feels so good to be fucking him again and I feel his cum that is now blowing out of his cock without him jerking it going everywhere including up into my face. I look over at the clock next to his bed and realise that we’ve been going at it for well over an hour which is even more amazing and longer than I thought because even though our shoot today went longer, that was because we had to stop for the photos which even though it was still passionate, killed the moments.

Laying down next to each other, Tyson kisses me deeply as I kiss him back before he pulls away with a cheeky smile on his face “Well I don’t know what we call this but I enjoyed it and there is no way that with me about you can ever say you are straight” he says as I laugh and just nod.

Tyson gets up and goes and has his shower as I lay there thinking about everything that happened today because I didn’t even think that 2 weeks ago I’d be fucking a guy ever, I didn’t think that I would be fucking the same guy twice in one night and actually feeling an attraction to him.

It’s my turn to shower and despite having my own room, I just crash down on the bed next to Tyson which just feels right after tonight as we just lay there still naked as he has his arm around me “You are absolutely fucking amazing” he says as his hands explore my smooth chest right now.

Tyson turns off the lights because he has to do some work for a wedding tomorrow and I lay there with my eyes closed thinking about things. As I lay there my mind is a lot calmer than it was earlier in the day worrying about how I feel about things and I know that the second fucking probably doesn’t make things easier but right now I’m feeling so much more confident in myself.

“Labels are just utter nonsense in the world when it comes to sexuality, Love is love and if you feel a connection to a person then there is nothing wrong with it” Tyson’s words earlier tonight are rolling around my head right now and I realise that it won’t change the person who I am if I’m not entirely straight and that there isn’t anything wrong with me or the world if that maybe I don’t consider myself to be gay but just open-minded and love the person for who they are rather if they are necessarily a guy or a girl.

Starting porn, I never thought that I would ever question my sexuality because I thought it’d just be fuck and get paid but then I never thought that I would have anyone like Tyson come into my life. 

The next morning, Tyson gets up at just after 7:30 and he hits the gym as I lay there for a few more minutes before I hear him go out the door and decide that I want to have a look at some of the pictures that he has around the place. I quickly notice that there are very few old pictures of Tyson let alone even any modern ones but as I look about and see them mostly with friends or some pretty awesome-looking professional shots, I see one hidden behind his jewellery box and see a picture of Tyson as a kid with who I can assume is his grandparents.

Picking it up and looking at it, I can see that Tyson is probably about 14 or 15 and looks nothing like he does these days and I can sense that he wasn’t a happy kid but the admiration he has for his grandparents is so obvious. As I pick it up, a piece of paper stuck to the back comes off it 

“You are you, nobody controls who you are but you – Nan & Pa” 

I smile and remember that they are the same words that he said to me in the bar when he was talking about changing his life and the decisions that I make should be all about me and that life isn’t ever meant to be simple.