Life Isn't A Fairytale

I get in my car and drive in the opposite direction to home before parking the car and heading towards a building that has felt close to me of late and head upstairs and take a massive deep breath before knocking on the door. I don’t know whether this is the right move I’ve made but I knock on the door and wait to see if there’s an answer. There’s no answer so I start to walk away before I hear it open and I hear the voice “Anyone there?” before I hear footsteps “Ben, everything alright mate?”.

I turn around and look at Josh, really nervously and just walk up to him “I just need to do this” before I start to put my lips to his and give him a strong but quick kiss rubbing my hands over his massive biceps and walking inside before I close the door behind me and keep kissing him, feeling him reacting by having some hesitation. I pull away after a minute and feel embarrassed as I look at Josh.

I just look away “I’m sorry… I just…” he stops me just as I start to turn around to leave his apartment. “Where are you going, Ben?” Josh holds my shoulder as I start to leave “I’m not angry at you… in fact, quite the opposite”. I turn back around to him “But why the hesitation then, did I do something wrong?”. Josh smiles and shakes his head again “It’s just I’ve never been kissed like that by another guy before” he says to me before rubbing me on the shoulder. I look confused because Josh is this masculine hot guy who surely would’ve had guys all over him both here and in Australia.

He looks at me “You know I’m gay but what I don’t ever tell anyone is that back home in Australia, I was married and have a daughter”. Josh looks at me “I’ve never really told anyone about this before but I did love Gabriella and care for her and Alex a lot and she and I are still close friends” He pauses for a minute, as I start to rub his shoulder “Ever since I was 15, I knew I was gay but growing up in my family meant that it was never an option, I had to choose between my personal life and happiness or potentially losing both my family who would have never accepted me as who I am or play sport professionally”. I sit there and put my head on Josh’s shoulder, I feel like this is the first time he’s ever opened up about this to anyone before.

I sit there for a moment, neither of us talking just taking in each other’s company before he starts to speak again “I got to do that for many years but ultimately I wasn’t ever happy so that’s why I quit playing professionally and got into Real Estate because there wouldn’t ever be any judgement and I could just be me”. I smile and keep rubbing his arm “I know that I’m still not exactly out so to speak but at least hear I’m without stress and can just live my life being the Josh I want to be”. He turns to me “That’s why I was nervous… because I’ve never kissed with someone, I’ve been this romantically connected to”.  

I start to smile and speak before he stops me “That’s why I gave you the advice you did, you can’t put other people’s happiness ahead of your own and I just want to make sure that you’re not going to be in a position where you regret anything”. I sit there nodding taking in Josh’s words for a minute as I rub his arm.

I sit there for a minute thinking about both what Josh has said to me tonight and in the past, what Dan, Dad, Marion, and countless other people have told me to not be drawn into other people’s problems and think that I need to take on their battles. I look across at Josh and move in for a small soft kiss on his lips “I came here tonight because I’ve been listening to everything everyone has said and I needed to take control of what I want and right now what I want is you, Josh”. I look at him “I know our friendship is only a matter of weeks old but just being around you and talking to you has made me realise that I can’t control everybody else’s life and if I do that then I risk out missing everything”.

I close my eyes for a moment, trying to think of the right words to use but before I can say anything, I feel Josh’s lips come on to mine, his beard rubbing up against my face as he starts to kiss me, I instantly kiss him back, pushing my tongue into his mouth as our tongues wrestle in each other’s mouths before he pushes me down and lays on top of me as we continue to make out.

We continue to kiss and his muscular frame is up against me as we continue to kiss before he pulls off me and sits up for a minute “Maybe we should go somewhere more comfortable?” he says pulling me up before taking off my shirt which while having its own pecs and abs are nowhere in comparison to the hulking frame of Josh.

He uses his muscles to scoop me up continuing to kiss me as we head towards his bedroom before he throws me onto his bed and starts to kiss me again before he takes off my pants and underwear before sliding his sleep shorts off so I can feel the heat coming off his soft but still meaty cock up against my own. We continue to kiss before I start to feel him kissing down my neck and then starting to suck on my nipples. I lay there moaning feeling the skill of Josh’s mouth as he sucks my nipples and licks around them getting them hard, that my cock is already building a load pre-cum that’s coming from the head. I rub his head and pull him back to kiss me, I’ve fantasied over this moment but can’t believe that it is actually coming true. I lay there before rolling him over and doing the same to him. Kissing down to his muscular pecs and then starting to suck on his nipples as I feel his hands start to massage around my balls which I can’t help moaning at. Eventually, I move down kissing down his abs before I put my hand on his meaty cock which is now fully hard at least 8 inches.

I slowly jerk softly, massaging around his balls before I start to lick his head before moving down with my tongue, teasing his cock making it twitch as I continue to get down and suck his balls, giving each one a moment. I start to take his cock head in my mouth before slowly turning my tongue around so I can give it pleasure before I start to go down deeper until I feel my nose touching the stubbled pubic hair he has.

I continue sucking, feeling his hand on my head guiding it up and down slightly gagging when I go deep on his cock before pulling up for a while and kissing Josh with his pre-cum on my lips. The next thing I know, he has swapped the positions round so that I’m laying flat on my back as he starts to put his lips on my cock which is leaking a major amount. I lay there watching as one of the most confident people I’ve ever met now looking nervous as he starts to suck my cock, tasting my pre that has built up. I hold his head as his head bobs up and down on my cock, sucking it deeply before pulling up. I close my eyes moaning feeling his tongue tease me to the point of climax before he pulls off me and starts to kiss me.

I keep feeling him kiss me before I feel his breath on my ear before “I want to fuck you, Ben…. But after you fucked me” I lay there moaning as I feel Josh go back to kissing me as I moan again. We stand up “Are you sure about this Josh?” I say as he starts to get into position “I’ve never been surer in my life Ben” he says smiling leaning over his bed, begging for my cock.

I find the lube in his ensuite but before I do it teases his smooth pink tight hole by pushing my tongue over it, hearing him moan turns me on even more so I continue to rim him and tease his tight hole with my finger, lubing his hole up and sticking a finger in which makes him twitch every time. I slowly line my hard cock up with Josh’s hole and push in, slowly going in so his tight almost virgin feeling hole can adjust to my piece of meat. I let it go in all the way before I start to pick up the speed.

Josh moans about how good it feels and I start to push in and out picking up speed so that he can feel me fucking him. I start to feel my balls slap as I hear him moaning and begging for me to fuck him harder which I do. I start to ram my cock in and out as I hear him moan before pulling out. “I wanna see your face while I fuck you” I say as he turns around and lays on his back so I can see his face enjoy the fucking. I slide my cock in and see the mix of a grimace from the pain but the smile that comes with the pleasure of having a hard cock inside you.

I pick up speed as I see Josh’s face as I continue fucking him, hitting his prostate seeing his already massive cock continue to grow makes me energised as I fuck him harder and before either of us expected, his cock blows two massive wads of cum hands-free as I continue to fuck him feeling his cum spraying both of our bodies and faces. I don’t stop fucking him as he pleads for me to continue fucking him hard and fast but before I know it, I blow my own load inside Josh’s tight hole and line it with my own cum.

I slowly pull out, panting from the effort, and fall back beside Josh breathing heavily, both of our cocks still hard as I look at him and start to kiss him exchange the cum on our lips as we make out both panting. “I think Round 2 has to wait a while,” Josh says to me panting “I’ve played tough games of Footy before but fuck….”. I laugh and kiss him before we head into the shower to clean each other off with a few kisses in the shower before we go back and get into bed together. I grab my phone just to tell Dad that I’ll be home in the morning. As I lay there and Josh turns off his lamp, I feel his frame next to me and his head resting on my shoulder as we both lay there, I feel him turn to me “I love you, Ben”.