Be My Companion

Julian

I took a perverted moment to enjoy the view of Alexis's naked body as he tiptoed over to the towels in the corner of my gym room to collect one. The sway of his hips, coupled with the fact that his butt would jiggle with each step, almost distracted me from my next task.

I was going to come out to my publicist, in preparation of coming out to the world. I was breathing heavily as the weight of my decision finally hit me in the face.

This was it.

Alexis threw a towel at me and I quickly wiped my sweat and Alexis's cum off my body and watched as he did the same. He also wiped the gym bench down with some disinfectant spray, and we both got dressed back into our clothes. I had hopes that Frank wouldn't suspect a thing when we inevitably left the gym, but given how loud we were when Alexis gave me the green light to fuck his brains out, I had zero hope that we were the slightest bit discreet.

I sat down on an upright bench and leaned back into it, holding onto my phone tighter than what was necessary. Suddenly, I had second thoughts on making one of the biggest decisions of my life.

Alexis must've sensed my apprehension; he made his way over to me and straddled my lap, wrapping his arms around my neck.

"Are you okay, darling?" he asked me sweetly.

I nodded my head. I would always be okay if he called me darling.

"You don't have to do this now, you know." Alexis kissed me on my forehead.

"I know, but I want to." I blew out a deep breath and looked up into his eyes. "Was coming out this hard for you?"

Alexis pressed his lips together and nodded his head. "I had a fairly warm reception from my family and friends; some distant relatives seemed to have an issue with it. And I know that there are others who aren't as fortunate as me, but it is a big step for anyone to take, regardless of the circumstances. So I understand why you might be struggling right now, but just know that I am here for you, and your family loves you just the way you are."

I contemplated his words, and the mentioning of my family made me think about Estelle and her coming out as trans. I thought I understood how difficult it was for her back when she first began the process of transitioning, but now as I faced my own closet doors, I could truly empathise with how she must've been feeling.

I took a resolute deep breath and nodded my head. I was doing this for myself, I was doing this for my sister, I was doing this for my family, but most importantly, I was doing it for Alexis.

I scrolled through my contact list and tapped on Vanessa's name and immediately put her on speaker. My heart was still thumping out of my chest, but feeling Alexis on my lap and his arms snaked around me helped to keep me grounded.

"Hey Jules," Vanessa greeted me. "How was your trip?"

"It was great. Listen, I need your help on something."

Vanessa snickered, and I knew she was rolling her eyes as well. "What did you do this time?"

"Ye of little faith, Ness. I didn't do anything. Actually, I wanted to get your help on something to best control the situation."

Alexis leaned into me and rested his head on my shoulder. Even though he was in my lap, I felt as if he was the one supporting me through this conversation.

"What is it?" Vanessa asked.

I bit my lip as I tried to form the words in my head. Alexis pressed a silent kiss against my cheek, which was enough to help me power through this once and for all.

"I want to come out to the world that I'm dating Alexis."

As expected, there was silence on the other end of the phone. I felt Alexis's grip around my neck get tighter as we waited for Vanessa's response.

"I see," she said finally. "Sorry Jules, you just completely caught me off guard here. I guess I read the situation wrong beforehand."

I ran my free hand up and down Alexis's back, hoping that it would comfort him as much as his touch was comforting me.

"What do you need me to do?" I asked her.

"Nothing so far. Personally, I am very happy for you because lord knows I'm sick of dealing with wild bachelor Julian Ambrose and know that you deserve happiness. Professionally, sit tight while I come up with a game plan so we can attack this in the best way possible, okay?"

I let out a sigh of relief, and I heard Alexis do the same. "Thanks Ness."

"You know that this would probably mean the end of Alexis's career, right?"

"Yes. We're well aware."

"If you're prepared for that, then okay." Vanessa's business voice disappeared and the human in her came out. "Really Jules, I'm very happy to hear you've found someone."

"Thanks Ness." Alexis pressed a kiss against my cheek which made me smile.

"I'll call you later," she said finally.

After I gave my farewell to her, I hung up the phone and placed it back into my pocket.

"Do you feel better?" Alexis asked me.

I nodded. "I feel like a weight's been lifted off my shoulders."

Alexis placed his hands on either side of my face. "I can feel that weight gone from your shoulders as well, Julian."

I caressed my palms down Alexis's side and rested them on his hips. He leaned down and kissed me gently on my lips.

"Baby," I whispered.

"Yeah?"

I squeezed his ass cheeks. "You reckon we can go for round two?"

Alexis laughed and pushed my shoulders. "At least take me to bed, you savage."

---

Alexis

Julian telling me that we had his publicist's blessing would've been one thing, but actually hearing it in her voice over the phone was an assurance I never knew I needed.

We had emerged from the gym room like guilty children and looked around sheepishly. Julian motioned for me to follow him to his bedroom quietly, and with my hand in his, we quietly tiptoed across the hall.

"Have a good talk?" I heard Frank say.

I let out a yelp and let go of Julian's hand as I spun around to see Frank cleaning up the kitchen with a grin on his face.

"Yes we did," Julian said, his voice stiff.

Frank smiled knowingly. "I thought so."

I wanted Julian to pick me up and carry me away from this crippling embarrassment. Not only had Frank walked in on Julian balls deep inside of me, he had now heard the unapologetic lovemaking noises we had shared together.

My god, I could never look this poor man in the face ever again.

"I'm almost done and I'll be out of your hair," Frank added.

"Appreciate your work as always, Frank," Julian said with a quick wave.

Julian seized my hand again and pulled me into his bedroom, not before I heard a low chuckle coming from Frank in the kitchen. With my hand in his, Julian spun me around and pulled me into his arms, easily hoisting me in the air as if we were recreating Dirty Dancing.

"I feel so... liberated!" he exclaimed.

Julian lowered me down and I wrapped my legs around his waist, locking my fingers around his neck.

"We're just one step closer to being together for real, Julian," I said, looking down at his sparkling blue eyes.

Julian sighed. "I wonder if this is how free Estelle felt when she first came out."

"Probably. Getting to live life in your truest self is a freedom that one can't really describe."

I leaned down and kissed Julian's lips quickly.

After my engagement with Charlie ended in such a horrific fashion, I threw myself into my work and convinced myself that professional success would be the thing that keeps me happy at night. Being one of the most sought out sober companions in all of California was something I wore with pride, and I had every right to be proud of it.

But being great at my job didn't keep me warm at night, and it didn't look at me the way Julian looked at me.

Falling for this man who held me in his arms wasn't something that I had planned for, expected, or even wanted. But as I spent more time with Julian and discovered how much I subconsciously craved the affection of another human, I realised the happiness that my career gave me had a plateau, and no amount of professional success I achieved could make me feel what I felt whenever Julian held me, kissed me, made love to me.

And now, my shot at forever happiness seemed like it was an arm's reach away. Being public with my relationship with Julian.

The thought of freely holding hands with him in public, kissing him in a corner of a restaurant, or even getting him to piggyback me around the park without rampant speculation from the public enticed me like never before. To be looked at as Julian's partner, as his companion.

Ugh. It sent a shiver down my spine.

As if Julian read my mind, my handsome client opened his mouth to speak.

"I know we haven't really discussed anything official yet, baby, but..." Julian paused and pressed his lips together.

"Are you asking if I want to officially be your boyfriend, Julian?"

Julian's cheeks reddened, which seemed like such a farfetched thing to happen to such a large, intimidating man, and he nodded his head.

"Well, go on," I teased him.

"Come on, Lex," Julian said with a playful pout.

"I want to hear you say it, Julian."

Julian sat down on the edge of the bed and I straddled his lap, staring into his eyes.

He let out a deep sigh and smiled. "Do you want to officially be my boyfriend, Alexis Mendes?"

I barely let him finish his question before I drove my lips into his, slipping my tongue into his mouth. His firm hands caressed my back and my sides before settling onto my hips, giving them a gentle squeeze.

"If that wasn't clear, the answer is yes," I said breathlessly.

Julian grinned and pulled me back in for another passionate kiss. He fell back onto the mattress and his hands began exploring my body underneath my shirt and my pants.

I came up for air briefly and looked down at this man, whose eyes shone with an insatiable lust. Julian wanted to celebrate our newly defined relationship, and the beginning of his coming out journey, and I knew exactly what he wanted to do to celebrate.

"How do you want me, Julian?" I whispered.

Julian hooked his arms around my body and quickly shifted our bodies around until I was underneath him. He almost growled as he looked down at me with a primal instinct, ready to devour me.

"I want to fuck you hard, Lex," he said, his voice darker than usual.

I nodded. "I'm yours, Julian."

---

Julian

The second Alexis whispered 'I'm yours, Julian', I knew it was game on.

I went into a sexual overdrive, and feeling Alexis's body pressed so tightly against mine, an insatiable hunger almost took over me.

Fuck. I needed to hear him say it again.

I interlocked my fingers with his and pinned his arms down onto the mattress.

"Lex, tell me again," I whispered.

"I'm yours, Julian."

I let out a guttural growl and dove into Alexis, firmly pressing my lips against his in a hungry kiss. My impatient hands grabbed at the hem of his top and tore it off his body, the ripping of the fabric sounding throughout the room. Alexis's moans entered my mouth as I found the top of his pants and pulled them down in one swift movement.

"Julian," he whispered.

I pulled my shirt over my head and threw it away. I looked down at Alexis's naked body underneath me; his smooth skin was covered in goosebumps underneath my touch, and his cock was already rock hard.

"Hold your ankles back, Lex," I commanded him.

Alexis obeyed my command and folded his body in half, presenting his beautiful pink hole to me. Without any warning, I dove into his ass and began tonguing his sweet skin, licking and lapping at his opening hungrily.

"Oh fuck!" Alexis exclaimed.

"You taste so fucking good, Lex."

The scent of me still lingered inside of him after being freshly fucked an hour ago. That claim of ownership I had on the most private part of him brought my cock to life, and with my free hand, I quickly fished it out of my pants and began stroking it. I knew eating Alexis out and jerking myself could easily make me cum, so I made sure to go slow and enjoy the tease of dancing near the edge.

I spat down on his hole and began working my saliva inside him with my fingers. Alexis's body writhed in pleasure in between my tongue and fingers pleasing him, and his moans encouraged me to take control of Alexis's body and make him mine.

"Julian..." Alexis moaned.

"Yes baby?"

"I want to suck you."

I grabbed Alexis's ankles and spun him around until his head was next to my crotch. Without a word, I positioned my cock next to his mouth and thrusted it inside.

Fuck. His warm, wet mouth felt so good wrapped around my manhood.

I willed myself to hold out as I continued to facefuck him. The sounds of him slurping and gagging on my length as he took my inches inside him, coupled with the feel of my balls slapping his face, wildly turned me on. The way his head was bent over the bed allowed me a deeper access into his throat where he was able to take all of me.

"Fuck, Lex." I pulled my cock out of his mouth, panting for air, and leaned down to press kisses against his tight abdomen.

"Feed it to me," Alexis whispered.

"I need to slow down, baby. I want to fuck that sweet ass of yours."

Alexis turned himself back around on the bed and reached his arms up for me. I leaned down and thrust my tongue into his mouth. He ran his hands up and down my bare back, exploring every inch of skin his fingers could find as we passionately embraced each other on the edge of the bed.

"Fuck me," Alexis whispered.

"I'm going to fuck you so hard, baby," I responded.

I positioned myself at his entrance and pushed in, immediately feeling the tightness of his hole engulf my cock. Alexis's body tightened upon me entering him, so I began kissing his lips, his jaw, his neck in an effort to help him relax.

"Tell me when to go," I whispered.

I pushed further into Alexis until I felt every inch of me inside of him, and he let out a deep moan that made his eyes roll in pleasure.

Alexis nodded his head, encouraging me to use his body.

"I need to hear it," I breathed.

"Go," he relented. "Fuck me, Julian."

---

Alexis

Julian took my greenlight and pulled back just to forcefully thrust himself back inside of me. His cock slammed into my prostate and I felt my eyes roll to the back of my head.

"Fuck, you're so fucking tight, baby."

Julian gripped my shoulders in his large, capable hands and began jackhammering my hole. The sounds of our fucking bounced between the walls as his hips collided with mine with each desperate pump.

THWAP! THWAP! THWAP! THWAP! THWAP!

I felt every inch of Julian inside of me with each thrust, and each time he slammed my prostate with his hard cock, I found myself getting closer and closer to orgasm. I opened my mouth to tell Julian to slow down, but with the immense pleasure he was giving me, all that could come out was incoherent moaning.

"Put your arms around my neck," Julian ordered me.

I acquiesced and locked my arms around him. In an effortless manner that only Julian could muster, he lifted me up off the bed and began fucking me mid-air. The clapping sounds my cheeks made as they collided with Julian's hips almost drowned out my cries of pleasure as I bounced on Julian's cock in mid-air.

I had never entertained the idea of the stand-up position with anyone before, but I knew I was safe in Julian's arms.

"Fucking hell, you feel so fucking good," Julian exclaimed.

Julian leaned his head down and kissed me sweetly, which seemed like such a hard contrast to the damage his cock was doing to my hole. I bit at his bottom lip lightly and tugged at it with my teeth, which only seemed to encourage him more to fuck me harder and harder and harder.

My cock was leaking out precum, and I knew that if Julian kept pounding me like he was, it was going to be over for me very quickly.

"Julian... slow down..." I breathed.

Julian slowed his pace down and carefully placed my feet back onto the floor.

"Sorry baby, I was getting carried away," he said sheepishly.

"By all means, get carried away." I stood at the edge of the bed with my back to him and propped my knee onto the mattress. "That wasn't a painful 'slow down', that was a 'this feels so good I don't want to cum yet slow down'."

"Lex, baby, you're so fucking sexy." Julian stayed still and his eyes travelled up and down my body. "Stay like that. I want to appreciate your sexy fucking body for a second."

I flicked my hair over to one said and looked over my shoulder teasingly, winking at him in the process. Julian stood away from me, slowly stroking himself as he drank in the sight of my naked body partially bent over his bed, yearning to be loved by him and him only.

Fuck. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Fuck me, Julian. I want to cum for you."

Julian closed the distance between us quickly and I soon felt his inches inside me once again. He gripped onto my hips tightly, so tight that I was sure he was going to leave prints on my skin, and began jackhammering me again. The unmistakable sound of his balls swinging and clapping against my skin filled the air.

"Julian!" I screamed.

He leaned forward and began biting at my shoulder and my beck. "Tell me when you're about to cum."

I nodded my head obediently. "Yes darling."

Julian let out a soft growl and reached forward to stroke my length in a steady rhythm as he fucked my hole relentlessly. If I wasn't close enough already, Julian's hand pleasuring me as his own cock filled me up was going to push me over the edge very quickly.

Oh good lord. Good fucking lord.

"Julian... I'm... I'm..."

"Ask me permission."

My body was writhing in pleasure, and I didn't know if I could control anything that was about to happen. But if there was anything that I wanted right here and right now, it was Julian's permission to cum.

"Julian... ugh... can I cum? Please?"

Julian kissed me on the cheek. "Yes baby. Cum for me."

As if on command, I let out an inhumane shriek and shot out a huge load with my cock still in Julian's hand. My body shook with my climax and I had to lean forward on both hands to steady myself.

"Oh fuck baby!" Julian called out.

I looked over my shoulder at him and, with sweat dripping down his face, I could tell he was about to finish.

"Give it to me Julian!"

Julian closed his eyes tight as he kept fucking away at my hole. Soon, he began letting out his own inhumane grunting noises as I felt his cock twitch inside me, filling me up with his load once again.

His body collapsed on top of mine and, given that I had just experienced an out-of-this-world experience in the form of a superior orgasm, my body couldn't support him and we ended up falling onto the mattress.

"Baby, that was amazing," Julian whispered in my ear.

"I don't think I can walk for the rest of the week," I said with a single laugh.

Julian kissed me behind my earlobe. "That's okay, baby. I'll carry you wherever you want."

Julian pulled his softening cock outside of me and pivoted so he was lying on his back next to me with his legs hanging over the side of the bed.

"Hey," I said, placing my hand on his arm.

Julian looked over at me in question.

"I love you," I said simply.

Julian closed his eyes, still panting for breath, and smiled.

"I love you too, baby."

---

Julian

It was a wonder that I was able to fall asleep after having such a nerve wracking evening, but after fucking the absolute daylights out of Alexis - my new boyfriend - and shooting possibly the biggest load I'd ever mustered, it made sense that my body was too exhausted to be excited for my future.

My eyes blinked open the following morning, and I felt the familiar sense of relief when I felt Alexis's body pressed up against mine. He had his head on my chest and had one bent leg hiked up across my lap. I leaned down and inhaled the sweet scent of his hair before pressing a kiss against the top of his head.

"Good morning, baby," I mumbled.

Alexis raised his head off my chest to look up at me and smiled. "Good morning, darling."

I cuddled him closer to me and let out a deep sigh. "We have a training camp today and then I'm helping out at the soup kitchen tonight. While you're still employed by me, do you need to come to both?"

Alexis shook his head. "I don't have to, but I want to. Unless you're sick of me by now, of course."

"I could never get sick of you, Lex."

Alexis pressed a kiss against my chest. "Then it's settled."

"I did want to spend all day in bed with you though."

Alexis rolled over until his body was completely on top of mine. "We have the rest of our lives to do that, Julian."

 

I walked into the locker room with my teammates and even though nothing had changed, it felt like I was a completely different man in here. No longer was I just the reliable defensive end that had the most sacks in the league. I was now Julian Ambrose, defensive end, and madly in love with Alexis Mendes.

I wondered if me coming out would make anyone else on the team uncomfortable. No doubt the dynamics would change, even if slightly, but would these men that I relied on suddenly feel like they had to walk on eggshells around me? Or that they had to cover up when I walked into the locker room? I'd like to think I knew my teammates well enough to know that none of them were overtly ignorant or bigoted, and a lot of them treated Estelle with the respect that she deserved, but I couldn't be so sure if it directly involved me.

Some of the guys were standing around half-dressed, engaging in basic locker room talk, while others were busy padding up for training. I caught a glimpse of JT, who stood shirtless with a muscular body to die for, and wondered if I could look at him the way I looked at Alexis. And even though I acknowledged and appreciated his physique, it didn't stir the hunger or lust inside of me like Alexis's body did.

"Sup bro," JT greeted me. "How's everything with the sober companion going?"

"It's good. I'm staying out of trouble, so it's working."

JT laughed and clapped me on the back. "That's good to hear, Jules. We need you out there on the field."

My eyes darted around to the other players on my team, and I had a very similar reaction to them as I did with JT.

Maybe after all, I really was Alexisexual.

"You've got something on your mind, Jules?" JT asked me.

I blinked and shook my head.

"You're not on this planet right now," JT pressed me.

Of everyone on the team, I was probably the closest to JT. I knew JT would do anything for me, and he knew that I would do anything for him.

Maybe if I wanted to gauge what the reaction from the entire team would be when they found out, I should test it out with one player that I trusted the most.

"Gear up," I said with a sudden surge of bravery. "Let's go for a quick run before everyone else."

Like he silently understood the seriousness of it, JT nodded his head and quickly got changed into his training gear. He followed me out of the locker room and we ran onto the field in a steady jog next to each other.

"What's going on?" JT asked me.

I kept my head forward as I felt an anxious weight sit in my chest. I kept my fitness up even during the off season, so I knew it wasn't the slow jog we were going on that made me feel like this.

"I'm telling you as a close friend and asking you as a close friend to keep this to yourself for now," I began.

"Yeah bro, of course."

I glanced over towards JT and he had his attention solely on me.

"I'm dating my sober companion," I confessed. "And I'm actually really fucking in love with him."

JT's expression was indecipherable at first, even though he kept his steady pace up to match mine. Finally, he stopped and grabbed onto my arm to freeze me in my position.

"Jules, that makes me so fucking happy to hear," he said.

"Really?"

JT nodded. "You being with anyone would've made me happy, but to hear you're being true to yourself is really fucking heartwarming, bro."

He quickly pulled me in for a hug and, after a brief hesitation, I returned the sentiment.

"He's a lucky man," JT added.

"I count myself as the lucky one to be honest."

JT held me at an arm's length distance with the warmest smile on your face. "Your secret is safe with me for now, Jules, but if you need help or any support coming out, you let me know."

"Thanks man, I really appreciate it."

---

Alexis

The Sharks management team had allocated a nice bench for me to sit on while I watched the team warm up and train on the field, not knowing that sitting down on a hard surface for me right now was a somewhat painful sensation. Every now and then, someone from the coaching team would come by and offer water, coffee or tea for me while I watched.

"Catering is just that way as well," the friendly man had said to me on a couple of occasions. "Help yourself to anything in there."

I pulled my laptop out of the bag and opened my notes on Julian's case, which seemed like such an odd thing for me to do now that we were dating and my career was going to come to a halt any time soon.

Taking my personal opinion of Julian out of the equation, I began taking notes on Julian's progress to sobriety. Writing down how far Julian had come in his sobriety made me realise how far we had come as a couple.

It seemed like it was only yesterday that I had met Julian for the first time in a restaurant and had an immediate distrust for him. We had gone from strictly professional, to being something that resembled friends, to being in total lust with each other, and ended up falling head over heels in love.

I looked up from my laptop screen and saw Julian doing quick sprints across the field, swinging his arms by his side. When he had finished his drill and began walking to the back of the line, he looked over at me and the biggest grin spread across his face.

My phone began vibrating in my pocket, and for a moment, I wanted to ignore it so I could continue staring at Julian's beautiful smile as he looked at me on the sideline. But against my better judgment, I fished it out of my pocket and answered it as respectfully as I could.

"Hi Alexis, it's Vanessa. Are you with Julian right now?"

"Technically, yes, but he's training right now and I'm sitting on the sidelines watching. Do you need me to pass on a message?"

"That's okay. I needed to talk to you actually."

Uh oh. I never liked it when Vanessa wanted to specifically speak to me.

"What's up?" I asked, trying to keep my tone cool and casual.

"Keep in mind that what I'm doing is for the best interest of my client and does not reflect my personal view or opinion of you."

I held my breath as I waited for Vanessa to finish her sentence.

"I need you to break up with Julian," she said finally.

I stared blankly at the space in front of me, wondering if I was on the receiving end of a cruel and vicious prank.

"Sorry?" I said.

"You need to break up with Julian. I've done my own calculations of how this could affect his career, and in no way will he come out of this a winner."

"With all due respect, Vanessa, this isn't your call to make. You work for Julian, and this is the decision that he wants to make."

Vanessa cleared her throat. "I didn't want to do this, Alexis, but you leave me no choice. I was in contact with your ex-fiance who told me about the night that you allegedly went out and cheated on him with several different men. And trust me, when I want to find something out, I find it out."

She wasn't going to... there was no way.

"I've seen the photos and the videos, Alexis."

My heart sank deep into my gut.

"I'm sure seeing photos of you drinking until you were blind drunk would damage your reputation as a sober companion, but how do you think Julian will react when he sees videos of all of these men running a train on you? Especially when you claimed that everything Charlie said was a lie."

Suddenly I felt dizzy, nauseous, faint, and like I was going to collapse any second now. I wanted the earth to swallow me up and never spit me out.

"You need to break up with Julian, and you need to tell me once it's done. And if you don't, I will have no choice but to leak this to the press and to Julian himself."

"How could you?" I managed to spit out.

"It's nothing personal, Alexis. I'm watching out for myself and for my client, and in the most respectful way possible, you are no good for him." Vanessa paused momentarily as I choked back the tears that were threatening to explode at any point. "Let me know when it's done."