Discovering The Real Luke

Nothing is ever just perfect

The fun and excitement of the first two weeks of being in Westvale, the next month or so has been pretty much about just getting settled and building connections in the city. I meet some really good people at the pre-college event which is good fun getting to know them and getting some new friends of my own other than AJ’s friends who have been patient with me but I know hanging around with an 18-year-old isn’t exactly their greatest idea ever.

I’ve got a job working at a Health Food store through one of AJ’s mates which has been a good addition to the income and helping him out with rent. In the six weeks since I’ve been in town, my family has kept trying to get in contact with me but I just changed my number so that I had plenty of space but there is plenty going through my mind that maybe I should have spoken to them at least once and I am surprised that they haven’t come to visit again.

The other big change since moving to Westvale is that I’ve been going to the gym on average twice a day and my body is much bigger and I’ve got a pretty nice six-pack developing which I didn’t have at home.  Getting back from the gym, I stand in the mirror and  I look at my body in the mirror and really don’t recognise myself as I compare it to the picture of my family that I keep amongst my stuff which sometimes makes me regret moving but then I think about my happiness.

“Hey man, there’s some mail here for you,” he says to me as I’m looking at myself in the mirror shirtless and just rubbing my chest. “Damn, you really are a different person now, I remember when you’d wear a shirt everywhere when I wouldn’t walk in,” he says as I laugh after now that I am not shy about being shirtless around AJ.

“I’m catching up with Nath and Tyler tonight, so if you wanna come next door just knock,” he says as I nod and say that I’ll think about it before he closes my door and heads next door. I look through the mail and see a letter and instantly recognise the handwriting on the letter and see that it’s from my mother.

I don’t know what I want to do with the letter as I sit on my bed just looking at whether I should read it because I’ve shut the door on life back in Franklin and everybody there because it’s just not the person who I am or want to be. However, I do miss them and knowing how they are and I realise that I can’t be the Luke that I am at the same time as having a relationship with my family at the same time.

Putting the letter onto my dresser, I think about whether I want to read it because I’m scared of what it says in the letter whether it be something positive or at the same time something negative that tells me that I’m dead to them or whatever else like that.

AJ comes in about an hour later to check on me as I’m just sitting on the couch watching The Simpsons trying to not think about anything too serious. AJ comes in with some Pizza that the boys ordered so that I’m eating something.

“You alright Lukey?” he asks as he sits down next to me as I don’t even realise that he’s come in with the food as he puts it on the Coffee table for me. “Oh I didn’t even hear you come in, yeah I’m alright I guess, just got a letter from Mum today,” I say as AJ sits next to me and puts his arm around me.

“What did it say?” he asks as I shrug not knowing what it said because I’m scared to know what is in the letter. “I don’t know, that’s my point I’m not sure if I want to read it because if I read it then it could be bad news like they don’t want to speak to me ever again, but if I do read it then I might question whether I’ve made the right decision or not,” I say to AJ who sits there and puts his head against my shoulder

“The only thing that matters is that you are happy with everything and I think that you are and you’ve established your life here, so what you are going to do is up to you,” he says to me as I nod and realise that I am happier than I’ve ever been.  AJ gives me a kiss on the cheek and then chucks me one of my black tank tops I bought the other day “Come next door and have a chill-out hey” he says as I get up and bring the pizza with me after putting my tank on.

Spending time with the guys is fun just taking my mind off things as Nathan talks about the next time he’s going to do a shoot with AJ, trying to get Tyler involved in doing OnlyFans as well but Tyler is well past that in his words. We sit there for a few hours, chatting and playing PS4 a while before AJ and I head back to the apartment.

The change of scenery for a few hours does me good and I totally forget about the letter as AJ steers the conversation into a direction I wasn’t expecting “I know this might be coming out of the spur of the moment but have you thought about doing some OnlyFans work yourself?” He asks me as I looked shocked by the question.

“That’s a bit random isn’t it?” he asks as I look across at him and shakes his head. “Not really, I mean you’ve become pretty handy behind the camera and helping me edit videos but thought you might be keen for some in front of the camera stuff”. AJ asks me that as I’ve been thinking about asking him whether I should do it to earn a bit more money for college to pay things off even though I do have a partial scholarship which helps cover things.

“I mean I kinda have thought about it but I don’t really know if I’ve got the look or personality to do the shows like you do or like Nath,” I say really not sure about getting into something like this “and what if people find out… like my family,”.

AJ sits down on the couch as he takes his shirt off “Who cares really Luke? If you’re having fun with it and enjoying it then do it and it only really matters what you want to do” he says reassuring me as I sit down next to him and put my head on his chest as he strokes my hair.

“I guess and I mean I don’t necessarily have to start off just solo do I? I mean I could do stuff with you, Nathan and some of your contacts I guess” I say as AJ nods smiling as I look up at him. “That’s what I want to hear, this confident city boy Luke that’s got more guts than I did at 18,” he says as I look at him.

“What do you mean? I thought you were 18 when you moved down to the city?” I ask AJ as he shakes his head, his relationship with his family is something that he hasn’t really ever touched on before and how much contact he has with them nowadays.

“Hell no, last week marked 4 years living in Westvale because I’m 27 now and was 23 when I finally made the decision to move down here,” he says to me as I look surprised by that because AJ is this confident and city wise guy that gave me a new look, brought to me this amazing attitude wasn’t too long ago much like this.

“I was 23 and knew a few people living here and wanted to move down to the city but I didn’t really have too much going for me at that stage but I wasn’t happy about things so I moved down here to a one-bedroom flat, a bit like what you showed me what you looked at for about a year as I worked two jobs before getting into escort work because I was always fit healthy and then started OnlyFans,” he says which surprises me.

I nod my head as this is the first time, I’ve ever seen a vulnerable side to AJ and although I knew that he was originally from the country like me, I didn’t realise that he had a massive identity crisis. “Got down here and changed my name really to AJ because it sounded better and it just stuck and I grew from there and I’m much happier and enjoying life here,” he says trying to wrap up the conversation before he looks at me.

“The reason why I’m so keen to help you and when I met you that first night and then when you came to view the apartment was that I see a lot of myself in you when I was 18 and you have the guts to do something I should’ve done long before I did,” AJ says as I rub his chest and just reassure him.

“Bro, I got lucky that I got to discover the person I want to be when I’m 18 because I forced my hand to the extent that I ran away from everybody and everything I knew, that’s not easy,” I say letting out my emotions a bit more now. “You love your family and if you didn’t you still wouldn’t keep in contact with them and have their pictures up on your wall… you found you’re Alex or AJ just as I found my Luke, we’re lucky because there are people who never get that chance,” I say as he smiles and nods and just cuddles into me.

As we cuddle into each other, I feel AJ kiss me on the lips which is unusual because any kisses between us are usually on the cheek. Kissing him back, there is a real romantic passion in it as we start to make out together. We’ve never really spoken about any sort of relationship between us other than being friends or roommates.

Making out with each other, my now more comparable size is able to match AJ in strength as I push him down and start kissing his chest. I don’t know if this is the idea that he had when we were sitting there but I slowly slide his pants and boxers off as his cock springs up.

“Fuck that feels good,” he says as my hand starts to massage his balls as he pulls me up and kisses me again as I feel his hands now starting to get me naked. Our naked muscled bodies now rub up against each other as I keep kissing him as my hands continue to explore his balls and grind against his cock making it hard.

AJ lays there moaning as I do all the work to pleasure him, as I again pull away from his kiss to go back down his body, letting my tongue work down the ridges of his abs as I hear him moaning as I kiss down and finally get to his cock. I tease him just letting my tongue work his slit teasing him for a while as I hear him moaning.

Feeling my own cock getting harder, I jerk it as I lick down AJ’s shaft and around his balls as my tongue runs over his taint which turns him on so much, finding that special spot that sends AJ into pure ecstasy is just what I wanted. Teasing his hole for a moment with my tongue, AJ’s body shudders and I can hear him moaning as his cock pulsates and I can see the pre leaking out of it.

I keep teasing him as I hear him begging me to help him out but I just run my finger along his cock, making it twitch and jump as he knows that he needs to jerk it, have me ride it or suck on it. I know that’s what he needs so I make him wait as I kiss him again before finally starting slowly to suck on his head.

Going down deeper, I feel AJ’s hand grabbing my head and holding it before pushing it down deeper so that I can take all of his 8 inches of uncut meat down my throat. My mouth going over it as I’m still not fully used to having a cock in my mouth, I gag slightly which I think turns AJ on even more as he starts to control things.

Pushing my head down deeper, I manage to take all of his cock down my throat and I can feel his balls so filled and ready to burst that I want to make sure he enjoys this but at the same time, want to make this last for as long as we can.

I pull off his cock for a moment and look at him “Want me to ride it?” I ask as AJ just smiles and nods at me. I look at his cock and get myself positioned over it, I’ve never ridden a cock before so it’s going to be interesting as I slide down, my hole as tight as it was the first time AJ fucked me and I grimace but enjoy the feeling of having his meat inside me.

I sit there for a minute, just letting my hole get used to the shaft of meat inside me before I start to ride AJ’s cock. Going up and down slowly at first, feeling his pre already lining my hole as I ride him and my tight hole milks his shaft up and down as I pick up my speed riding him.

Our moans fill the room, as I can feel more and more of his pre filling up my ass and I feel my own pre building waiting to explode out of my cock as I keep riding on AJ’s cock as it stretches out my hole. I can feel the warmth of his cum filling me up as I keep bouncing on his cock hard. Starting to take control, he holds my hips as he jackhammers my prostate as he blows his load inside me, sealing his mark inside me.

I moan as I keep riding him as he fucks the cum deeper inside me as I feel him hitting my prostate and eventually, I blow my load of cum up all over my face, all over AJ’s abs and the couch and pretty sure there’s some on the floor on the other side of the couch too.

Still sitting on his cock, I move back down and kiss him just taking in the moment as I finish bouncing on him to clean out all the cum. Sliding off, we get in the shower together and still can’t keep our hands off each other as we make out again, just kissing under the steamy water, his arms over me as we keep making out.

“You were cute before you moved in but now, you’re a prime beef stud,” AJ says to me as he continues to kiss me and we finish under the water, turning it off only drying ourselves off as he leads me to his bedroom where we cuddle for the rest of the night.

The next morning, AJ’s alarm goes off at 6:30 and we both wake up with his head on my shoulder as he kisses me “Morning sexy” he says as I just smile and kiss him back. Even though we’re not in a relationship this does feel very romantic together both just lying there naked.

Getting up, neither of us bother to put on any clothes as AJ makes coffee and I don’t care if anyone sees me as I go out onto the balcony to take in the morning sun. AJ brings me the coffee and puts his arm around me “About last night and this morning… I know it feels romantic and I can’t lie I think you would make an amazing boyfriend” he says as I stop him and interrupt him.

“But we’re not anything serious right? It’s all just fun between us and we’re just brofriends” I say as he laughs at my term. “Brofriends is a good term, nothing serious between us but we’re more than friends and having feelings for each other, right?” he says as I nod, laughing at the term I created the relationship status that we created.

Over the next few days, AJ and talk about the sorts of things that we could do for my OnlyFans channel and he said it would be good to launch it off the back of collaboration or promotion with existing performers which he films and films with me to promote my channel.

After getting the channel set up and putting up a few semi-nude pictures trying to get it all set up, I head back to my room and see the letter from my parents and after avoiding reading it, I decide that I need to read it.

AJ tells me that he needs to head out for a while which gives me a chance to read the letter in private without him telling me not to worry about it. Opening the letter I look at it and sit there for a few minutes as I just look at it and how long it is.

“Dear Luke,

The past few weeks have been so different without you here back at home and in Franklin and everybody talks about how much you are missed in town. There isn’t a single day where we don’t walk past your empty bedroom and wish that we could just talk to you and see your smile.

One of the things that everybody always says about you is how kind and courageous you are to always help someone in need and that’s true, that is why everybody adores you here in Franklin and why everybody misses you.”

I sit there reading the start of the letter and at first, I feel like it’s a guilt trip in trying to get me back home and I think about putting the letter down but decide to skim through the letter and find a little section that hits me.

“We understand how passionate you are to see the world and even though we were trying to protect you, it was your decision to make this move and you looked happy when you met Alex and saw a different side to you.

All we wanted to do was protect you and keep you safe from the dangers of the world but we should have handled this a lot better than we did and I know that you are a smart young man who will be able to keep his wits about him and being happy is all that we want.

I understand why you haven’t responded to our calls and texts because you needed space from us and we weren’t giving it to you. I hope that you read this letter and either at least ring us or send us a letter because everybody misses you and there are so many things we want to know.

We will always love Luke and miss you so much

Love Mum and Dad”

I sit there reading the letter and know how tough it would have been for them to write that, or mum because I can tell how much effort it would’ve taken for her to admit that she was wrong about something.  Sitting there, I take a few minutes as I read the letter again and think about what I would want to say to Mum and Dad if I go back to visit them or even talk to them on the phone.

It takes me a couple of days of thinking about what I would say to them as I don’t bother to call them or write anything back yet because I don’t know what I would say to them and am not really in the mood to face everyone back home.

AJ comes in as I look at the letter and he puts his arm around me “So you read it?” he says as I just nod and he gets the sense that I don’t want to talk about things. “Come on man, get dressed and put on your jock because we’re going out for a celebration tonight,” he says as I look at him confused about what we’re celebrating.

“We’re having our own launch party Lukey, you’re channel is up and running and your gonna film some stuff next week so the boys are gonna help you celebrate,” he says as I roll my eyes and see my intended quiet Friday night wiped out.

Getting dressed, I borrow one of AJ’s short sleeve button up shirts which he tells me I’ve got enough clothes now but I’ve always wanted this one and he never wears it with a tight pair of jeans that now hug my muscular legs and a pair of white shoes.

I take a selfie in the mirror and realise how much old Luke would be jerking in lust over what is in the selfie right now. “Damn, someone is looking fucking hot,” AJ says behind me as he kisses my neck and cheek before kissing me on the lips.

“I know right,” he says as I just kiss him back and grab my phone and wallet before heading up to the club with AJ. The launch party as he called it is just the usual bunch of friends that he has with a few of them having their own OnlyFans channel like Nathan as well as Zak Smith who is one of the hottest gay porn stars going around.

The party is pretty good fun, just chilling and having fun talking about guys and life in general which is good fun as we talk about things off-camera. Everybody breaks off into their own little groups as a handsome tall guy walks over to me “Hey… I know you’re with a group but would you mind if I bought you a drink” he says as I smile and get a vodka and coke.

Sitting there chatting with the guy, he introduces himself as Travis and tells me about himself how he’s just broken up with his girlfriend because she found him in bed with her brother which is no doubt going to be an awkward situation. AJ gives me some space as I’m there chatting things up with Travis for a while just looking at how good looking he is and how charismatic his personality is.

We must be sitting there for at least an hour just chatting as AJ comes over and tells me that everybody is heading off because it’s about midnight. I tell him that I’ll catch him at home because I’m still having a good time talking to Travis although I am bullshitting him a bit about things as I notice that my shirt has become more and more unbuttoned.

“Yeah, so I’ve always grown up here in the city you know, so all this isn’t anything that different for me,” I say with a cockiness that has started to really develop in me over the past few weeks as I know that I am looking good and guys want to flirt with me.

I look at the time and realise that I’m supposed to start work at 10 in the morning and see that it’s nearly 1:15 am as I keep sitting with Travis. “Shit man, I’ve gotta be at work at 10 so I better head off,” I say as I give him my number and start to head out of the club as my head is pounding from what I can only assume is having too much of a good time.

“We could share an uber or something?” he says as I shake my head “Nah, I’m all good I only live a couple of blocks down the road so I can walk man”. I say getting up and stumbling a fraction “I’ll walk with you man, you never know what’s waiting outside these days” he says as I nod and thank him for being kind and give him a kiss being flirty. I take a quick detour via the bathroom and head out of the club with Travis in tow with me. “Shit, I forgot my phone at the table,” Travis says as I start to walk slowly towards home as he goes in there and gets it from the table.

There is something about Travis that is just really nice, he’s got a personality that you just want to talk to and of course, there is no bother in the fact that he is absolutely hot as well with a tanned look. I stand up against one of the shop walls waiting for him because it’s a touch rude to leave him and any chance that I could actually get him up into the bedroom.

Standing there, my phone buzzes a few times and it’s just AJ checking up on me because it’s the first time I’ve been out alone at this hour after having quite a few drinks.

1:24 am: “Do you need me to come and get you, bro?”

I stand there as I struggle to get my fingers to work as looking at the brightness of the screen is hurting my eyes and everything is slightly blurry.

“Nno M0hter” I reply back as I put my phone back into my pocket and see Travis coming back up the street with his phone, texting someone.

“Got your phone ok?” I ask as he nods and kisses me and I sense the kiss is a bit awkward like he’s uncomfortable with it which is odd given how much he told me action he gets and how he was supposedly having an affair with his sister’s boyfriend. Wandering back home, my head is pounding harder than it has ever been and I’m feeling really sick and dizzy as I sit down at the Tram stop, my body is just not working anymore.

Travis sits there with me for a few minutes just talking with me and tells me that he will text AJ for me to tell him that I’m not feeling too well and need some help getting back up to the apartment. My head is spinning as I sit there and struggle to hold the conversation with Travis and try to just concentrate on stopping the pain that is in my head that I don’t even think about why it would take AJ so long to get downstairs to help me back up.

I sit there for a few minutes before everything goes dark and I fall to the ground, not knowing what the hell is happening to me right now as I’m now completely blacked out.