Discovering The Real Luke

The week here with AJ is amazing, just spending time together not doing much and just enjoying the company with him even if we aren’t having sex. Laying on the beach AJ looks at me and smiles “You having a good time this week?” he asks as I nod not worried about anything in life at the moment whether it be the stress of school, family or most recently the OnlyFans threat.

I’ve had a good chance to reflect on things and I realise that I’m happier than I have ever been and every decision I have made since deciding to move to Westvale. I have tried to keep up with what’s going on in Franklin, although not much ever changes at all and everybody is in the same old same old.

“When we get back home, I want to go up and visit my family,” I say looking across at AJ who looks surprised about what I want to do. “Is this to do with the message?” he says to me as I shake my head thinking that it’s not but in the back of my head.

I look across at him “I am in a happy place and I think now is a good time as any to go and visit them, I know that I’ve got enough support and I can stand up for myself if shit goes bad” I say knowing that it will.

AJ looks at me sensing that this might not be the greatest idea but supports me nonetheless “Well I’ve got to go up to my family in a couple of weeks, maybe we can go together?” he says as I look surprised about him wanting to go with him there and realising that AJ might want to make this a lot more serious than we’ve had it.

Laying on the beach, I kiss him before he gets up and tells me he booked a surprise for us this morning and needs to get back to the room. I head back up thinking that there is something special going on until I get up there and AJ gets changed before he tells me that he booked us on a rock-climbing adventure because he loves to go and do it every time he gets home.

The rock-climbing isn’t exactly my sort of fun but doing it with AJ is fun enough and I can see that he has a good time bringing me into his world and everything that he gets up to. We finish climbing to the top of the peak and look out at the view just sitting there for a few minutes together as I put my arm around him.

“Call me misguided or probably putting my foot in it,” I say looking at AJ who puts his arm around me and his head onto my shoulder as he looks a bit worried. “Was this trip meant to be something more than just being brofriends… at least for just this week?” my stomach churns as I quickly realise that I shouldn’t have asked this question because it’ll make things weird.

AJ looks across at me and doesn’t directly answer the question but still gives me the answer that I was looking for when I asked the question “This is just about us spending time together and just turning off from everything, you’ve had school and plenty of filming, I’ve had so much design work to do so I just needed a break and spend some time with you.”

Looking at him, I realise that it’s hard for him to let out his emotions and we’re in a good place together how we have our situation because neither of us really wants to make things serious this early into our friendship but we are always honest that both of us have feelings for each other.

Sitting up on top of the cliff for a few minutes, I look across at AJ “So why did you never tell me about the rock climbing?” I ask as he looks at me sort of confused. “Wait you didn’t know I went Rock Climbing, I’m pretty sure I would’ve mentioned that’s where I was going”.

Shaking my head, I look at him “Nah, you just say that you’ve got your usual thing with Billy and Jess and head out” I say as he laughs not realising, he’d never told me about it.

We’ve got about 20 minutes up here alone as I look at the view “How can everything be so calm and peaceful here but down there it’s nothing but chaos” I say as AJ looks at me and strokes my cheek.

“That’s the world we live in sadly but at the end of the day, we control how chaotic we make it,” he says as I look at him and kiss him as he kisses me back. The complications of the world always just seem to disappear when AJ and I are together as I look across at him “I am so glad that you didn’t kick me out of the apartment when I made you meet my parents” I say as he laughs.

AJ laughs and shakes his head as we think about the time that my parents wanted to meet him before I moved in with him “Honestly, you booking me for that night was probably the thing that saved you” he says as he opens up about his feelings because we’ve never really talked about it.

“Had it just been meeting for the roommate on the Saturday and then the whole meeting your parents’ thing, I probably would have cancelled the deal just because I didn’t need the stress that your parents would have brought and I could see them just being around so often” he says as I nod, not sure how to feel.

AJ looks at me “Don’t take it that I had anything against you because I didn’t that day even if we hadn’t met, I just didn’t want some immature kid around just adding to the stress, but talking to you that night and how you handled yourself made me realise and every day since that you’re actually a very mature young man”. I see the smile on his face and see that he is proud of me which is a big thing for me.

“Don’t underestimate everything you’ve done Luke” he says to me as he keeps looking at me “You’ve moved from a small country town into the big city where you knew nobody, you took a chance at doing something that you wanted and you’ve embraced every challenge and look you’re happy and successful” he says smiling before adding “for now, remember you slack and it goes away”.

AJ always reminds me to keep the focus on everything which I appreciate so much because I probably would have gotten caught up in other things had he not been around for me which is why I’m glad I wanted the roommate.

“So, what exactly is your story about moving into the city? You gave me the 30-second version back at home but I want to know more about Alex becoming AJ” I say as he laughs and tries to change the topic back a bit but then relents and realises that I won’t let it go.

“There isn’t really a lot that I like to get into you know,” he says as I squeeze him as he looks at me and then looks out at the view. “If you don’t want to talk about it then you don’t have to, I shouldn’t have put you on the spot,” I say to AJ as he shakes his head.

“Nah, you didn’t put me on the spot at all, I just never really talk about it that’s all,” he says as I sit there and smile at him reassuring him as he sighs and thinks about things for a minute. “Honestly, my story isn’t really that much different to yours, I was about 16 or 17 when I first knew that I wasn’t straight but never thought I was gay because I had a girlfriend that I cared for about a lot and I was attracted to,” he says nodding thinking about my relationship with Hayley back in Franklin.

Sitting there, I nod totally understanding how that feels because that is how I felt about things with Hayley in that I loved her and was attracted to her but couldn’t see a future with her because I only saw a guy in my future.

“Yeah, I cared a lot about Lily and she was always desperate for us to take things to the next level but I was never interested in having sex with her and I think she always knew there was something more to why despite telling her that I wasn’t ready,” he says as I nod, not quite understanding that part given Hayley wanted to wait until we were married until we had sex.

AJ sits there as he talks more about his life “So I didn’t know whether I was straight, gay, bi-curious or anything like that because I didn’t know and I never was really that into sex” a shocked look comes over my face as AJ laughs.

“I was a late bloomer alright,” he says as we both laugh before he gets into the story again “So I was at footy training one night, the Under 18’s had just finished training and I was in the change rooms getting changed and I was sitting there going slow because Dad was picking me up and he was late so I was sitting there and Nick Walker came in and he had long hair at the time… you remember Nick right?” he says as I nod, having met Nick for about 20 minutes when he was visiting AJ because they’re good friends still.

“At that time, Nick was totally ripped and I saw him as I went to have a shower and getting my first look at a guys butt for the first time, really awakened something in me where I just had the urge you know where I wanted to go more,” he says as he smiles thinking back to his first real sexual attraction. “Nick was 20 or 21 at the time and he just had the most amazing body then and even though he’s not as ripped now, he was just perfect and his thighs were nearly as good as yours are now he says” rubbing my leg as I laugh.

“It was watching him get out of the shower that it both told me that was how I wanted to look and the kind of person that I was attracted to and just made that decision,” AJ says as he smiles clearly reminiscing about seeing Nick naked back when he was younger. We sit there just talking “Well, I quickly realised that I was gay and from there I started watching porn and just being more into guys until I was 20 when I took a trip down to the city and I went out one night and just hooked up with a guy confirming everything to me”.

I nudge AJ for more information as he just laughs “I don’t remember much about him in all honesty you know because I had a lot to drink and it was nearly seven years ago” he says as I nod although I wish he did remember about it.

“I went back home and put it in the back of my mind because my Dad was sick and we needed all hands on the farm because Mum had to work an extra job because they couldn’t afford anything and the farm was in danger so I just went back on that and was doing Online college because I had to be working and I was just struggling,” he says opening up about his life back home in McKenzie Falls and how much that we actually had in common.

Our ride from the top of the cliff picks us up and AJ talks more about what he’s got planned and wants to do much later on in the afternoon without finishing off his story I can totally understand because I get how tough it is.

We get back to the resort and just order lunch for a while as we just put MTV on the TV and listen to music as AJ gets his laptop out to check through his emails as I walk over to him and close it. “You told me not to worry about school or anything so what are you doing?” I say to him as I kiss his neck and he kisses me back looking over his shoulder as I rub his bare shoulders.

“You feeling ok after everything after going climbing?” I ask him as I don’t know whether he felt upset by me asking those questions or whether he had a sense of relief which I think might actually be the latter, having it all bottled up for most people he talks to. “Honestly, I feel better for telling you that first part of my story, I keep it bottled up for so long that I have AJ and then I have Alex if that makes sense,” he says as I nod because that’s how I am about my life.

Our room service lunch gets delivered to us as I order Singapore Noodles and AJ just has a Chicken Wrap and we go out and sit on the balcony. “Guess you probably want more of what happened back home?” he says to me as I nod but reassure him that it’s up to him what he tells me.

“Well Dad had a stroke and then all sorts of complications with that and he couldn’t work, at the same time I was doing work on the farm probably from 5 am to 7 pm or basically before Sunrise to beyond Sunset to keep things going with my brother,” AJ says to me as I see him getting emotional.

I sit there listening further “I knew that I was gay and that as much as I cared about the farm, it really wasn’t what I wanted to spend my life doing, I wanted to explore the world and I knew that I wasn’t going to be happy unless I was living as an openly gay man” as he temporarily stops telling the story having lunch.

“I knew that I was gay but even though I was confident about being gay, I just knew that I couldn’t live in McKenzie Falls because it’s such a conservative place you know, it’s not as fanatically religious but still” I sit there nodding, because I doubt there is anywhere as religious in the country as Franklin in all honesty.

“Really it was getting tougher because I was working harder every day, adding into the College stuff online that I was doing and I was burning myself out so much that I couldn’t give my all and I just really wasn’t happy” AJ is quite calm and I can see him actually relaxing as he talks about it all because I can feel the pressure just flowing out of him right now.

“I had to spend some time down in the city to do on campus stuff for my work, so I spent more time exploring and quickly realised that I needed to make the change because on the few days that I got in Westvale, I didn’t have any pressure on my shoulders at all and I realised that I needed to make a change like you did” AJ sits there and looks at me and puts his hand on mine on the table.

“That’s why I liked you from the instant that we met, was because you reminded me of me at your age,” he says as I smile, taking that as a compliment as we sit there. “Dad wasn’t getting any better and had to go back into hospital so things weren’t great on the home front, so I felt plenty of guilt worrying about my state at the moment when things were so tough,” he says as I can see the pain of the situation now coming over his face and tears coming to his eyes.

Sitting there, AJ wipes his eyes as he keeps talking about things as he looks across at me “Sorry” he says as shifts the tears away which are noticeable as I tell him to not worry so much about the story but he wants to keep going.

“So yeah, I couldn’t be doing both the farm work and everything and I hit a breaking point where I just felt that I was going to push myself into a state where I was breaking so I eventually told Mum that I needed to leave because I was gay”. Getting into AJ’s life history, explains a lot about why he wants to push me into studying at the same time as doing what I want to do because he’s been in my situation.

“Mum didn’t take it too well that I wanted to leave because Dad was still sick and she felt that I was abandoning the family when they needed me but like I told her, if I didn’t do this then she was going to lose me too” I nod getting everything AJ means. “I found an apartment that was a bit like the one you showed me, it was essentially one room that I could afford and found some work just packing boxes at a factory and putting up some designs online,” he says as I nod.

“That lasted a little while and I realised that I needed to make some more money so that is why I started escorting because I thought that I enjoyed sex so why not do that,” he says as I nod and he laughs. “That was an interesting experience for the first few times that I got so nervous but eventually it was good fun, got to experience the good and bad in people as I took control of the situation and then found OnlyFans and just started making stuff and in a matter of months, I was struggling to pay the $300 a month rent to making the money that I do know,” he says as I nod knowing how good the money is.

“What happened with the family?” I ask AJ as he looks across at me because I know that he talks to them but he’s also said that it was a while before they talked to him. “Yeah, they wouldn’t talk to me for a long time despite me wanting to stay in contact, I always thought it was because I was gay but it turned out that it was because they felt that I was abandoning them,” he says getting annoyed and I can understand why.

“It took nearly 2 years before anybody talked to me which hurt me because I was always close to everyone and thought that they would be a lot more understanding than they were but thankfully they never told Dad the reasoning why I left, just that I got an opportunity because he kept telling me that I had to take every opportunity,” he says with a smile.

I sit there and rub his arm “You made the right choice, you wouldn’t be the most amazing guy that you are, you know that right” I say as he smiles and nods at me. “It was about 6 weeks before Dad passed away that Mum finally called me back, I went back up there and it was tense and it’s still tense when I visit but it made me who I am,” he says looking at me as he gets serious about it all.

“That’s why I push you as hard as I do, because I never took control of my life until it was nearly too late and I found out what it is like to live under expectations and not be who you want to be,” he says to me as I nod. “You are just an amazing guy Luke and I want you to be happy like I am now”.

Kissing AJ back, we finish off lunch and just take the rest of the afternoon to relax as we go down to the pool. Sitting there as he has a beer and I have some fancy cocktail, not sure exactly what it is we just sit there feeling good about being together and I get a much better understanding of AJ’s life although I still have one question that I want to ask him about moving down here.

“Look I’ve got one more question about your past and moving to the city,” I say to him as he looks across at me concerned about what it is going to be as I just smile and wink. “Why AJ exactly?” I ask as he laughs and lets out a sigh thinking it was going to be something serious.

He shrugs his shoulders as he looks at me “Not sure, thought it was close enough to BJ for blowjob and you know how much I love them” he says laughing as I punch him. “I wouldn’t say no to one you know, but come on there’s got to be a proper answer,” I say as he nods.

“Really it’s nothing more than Alexander James,” he says as I laugh not even thinking that it would be something as obvious as the first letters of his first and middle names. “It’s not really that creative I know, but it just sounds better than Alex and much better than when people use Alexander,” he says even though he uses Alexander on his design portfolio and on his business cards for his graphic design work.

“The other thing though that I wanted to ask was, what made Nick that guy that you wanted so badly?” I say because even though I’ve met Nick, he’s quite a solid guy now, not by any means fat or overweight, but at the same time, not the ripped specimen that AJ wanted as an 18-year-old.

Grabbing his phone and showing me an old photo on Facebook, I see what he is talking about, Nick had long shoulder length hair which is now gone to a buzz cut to stop people from knowing that he is balding, and the abs on the guy put mine and especially AJ’s to shame and the pecs were just amazing and there was something about how fuzzy they were that turned me on as AJ looks down at my bulge.

“See why Nick had that effect on me now?” he says as I can’t take my eyes off the pic before AJ puts his phone down and looks at me “Stop lusting over Nick when you’ve got me,” he says as I laugh. Even though Nick is hot, I still think of AJ as my perfect guy and I get giddy when he says that I’ve got him as my guy.

“Those thighs though,” I say as AJ lets out a sigh thinking about those thighs agreeing with me “Oh fuck, those thighs are what I guarantee that is what turned me,” he says laughing. “Oh you were a bloody big queen before then” I wink at him as we sit there and I look across at him.

“I really appreciate you telling me everything about your past and everything that happened because I know how hard it must be,” I say as he really looks across at me and smiles. “I wouldn’t have said that at all to anyone unless I cared about them” as he starts kissing me and making out with me as I kiss him deeply moaning into his mouth.

Even though we’re outside in the pool, we’re lucky that we’ve got a wall around the pool so nobody can see us as I slide off my swim shorts and chuck them wherever as I straddle AJ’s lap and kiss him deeper. Moaning, my cock grows so much harder as I straddle him and he moans into my mouth as we kiss and our tongues wrestle in each other’s mouths as we keep kissing.

I help AJ take off his speedos and throw them over the edge of the fence not realising that I’ve done that as we keep making out. Going over to the sun lounger, I lay back as AJ climbs on top of me as he plays with my chest, making me moan with his tongue going over my nipples and sucking on them as the sweat from the heat of the sun runs down my chest as AJ’s glistens in the sun.

Kissing down my body, AJ moves to my cock and jerks it slowly as he licks down my cock onto my balls, as he licks around each of my balls making me moan before I pull my legs up so that he can run his tongue down to my hole. Getting his tongue down there, the feeling of being rimmed is more amazing than it ever has been because it’s AJ doing the work for the first time.

Running his tongue over my hole feels good as he lubes it up and I moan as his tongue opens me up and makes me feel good about it. I don’t know how long AJ is lubing my hole up with his tongue but it feels so good as I close my eyes just in a whole new sense of wonder and lust for him.

Climbing over the top of me, AJ starts to suck my cock as he feeds me is and I open my mouth sucking and moaning on his cock as we 69 together for the first time. Both of us lubing each other up, moaning with desire because we both are just so into each-others bodies and in love with each other even if we aren’t ready to say it to each other in person. Sucking each other, I move my finger and start pushing it into AJ’s tight hole as he moans.

Loosening him up, AJ moans as he gets himself ready to take up my cock which he does as he slides down onto it. I moan as he does as I see his face enjoying my cock going up inside his tight hole which makes me smile.

“Fuck your hole feels good on my cock” I say as he starts riding me “Yeah, your cock feels so good in my hole babe,” he says as I let him adjust to my cock as he starts riding me and bouncing on it. Going up inside him, I feel fuck him hard as my balls slap up into his ass.

Pushing my cock deep, AJ lets out a very big moan “You like my cock up inside you don’t you AJ” I say to him as he nods and I get all cocky as I keep fucking him hard. The balls slapping on his ass turn me on so much as this 95kg muscle god submits himself to my cock.

Laying there, as he bounces on my cock milking it with his tight hole as I keep going harder and harder inside him. Feeling my pre-building and leaking inside him, his moans keep turning me on as I look at him “Want my cum in you again? Proving how your hole is mine?” I say smirking at him as he nods and rides my cock more, begging me to fill him up.

“Oh yeah Luke, make my hole totally yours,” he says moaning as I blow my first load up inside him as I hit his prostate and I can feel his pre-building in his balls. Quickly after blowing my load inside AJ, he pulls himself off my cock and grabs hold of my legs and puts them on his shoulders, now taking control.

I feel him taking control of me “If you think that you can just own my hole without earning then there’s another thing coming” he says as I smile as he pushes his cock straight into my begging hole. Stretching me out, my moans are so loud that I’m sure everyone can hear them but I don’t give a fuck because I want the world to know how much I love AJ’s cock in me.

“You fucking love my big cock in your tight hole don’t you,” he says as I nod begging him to go harder “Oh fuck I love you fucking my tight little hole,” I say as I want him to go harder and he does. His thrusts move the lounge as he fucks me and I both grimace and smile as I feel his whole size going through me as my body shakes and pulses as he fucks me.

Hitting my prostate, I shoot out another two big loads of cum, that spread all over my chest and face as I feel AJ get faster inside me somehow. “You’re such a slut for my cock aren’t you,” he says going into full dom boss mode on my hole and me as he twists my nipples as he keeps fucking me hard.

I smile and feel his load fill up my hole and even though he blows inside me, I can keep feeling him fucking me hard with no let-up in the power that he wants to put through my body. Eventually, after making me cum a third time and him blowing a third time, he falls onto the lounge next to me panting and exhausted.

“Fuck that was amazing,” he says as he struggles to get a word out as I struggle as well to get my sentences out as everything hurts but in such a good way, the burn is just amazing as I lean over and kiss him. I can feel us both wanting to say that we love each other but we don’t want to change the status quo where we are now.