Discovering The Real Luke

Breaking The Door Down

As we are outside Dad looks across at me “So how are things between you and AJ?” he asks as I get a bit surprised by the question. “Yeah, we’re all good, just friends and roomies,” I say as Dad looks at me and stops for a minute.

“Is that all you are?” he asks as I feel like this is an ambush but then as Dad keeps going I quickly realise that this isn’t the battle I thought it was about to be. “It’s just how when you were in hospital and weren’t awake, the way he talked to you and looked at you when I came up to see if he wanted anything because he wouldn’t leave your side,” he says as I look surprised at him.

“I… I…” I can’t get a coherent sentence out right now as Dad walks over to me and looks at me “I know you’re gay Luke and I don’t have a problem with it, because all I ever want is for you to be happy and I can see that when you’re around AJ” he says almost like a whole different person as I stand there surprised.

I put my arms around him to hug him “Thanks Dad, I never knew how to tell you or Mum” I say as he laughs and realises that telling Mum is going to be a bigger battle than anything I’ve dealt with so far.

Dad and I spend some good time together as we head back inside where AJ and Mum are still talking, it doesn’t seem so frosty between the two of them for now. “Where did you two get to?” she asks as she notices my tattoo because I forgot to grab my jacket from upstairs.

“What is that on your arm Luke?” she says quite annoyed “Is that a tattoo? Did you force him to get that Alex?” Mum starts to rant as Dad steps in. “Fran, it’s not a big deal because Luke told me all about it,” he says as we didn’t really discuss it other than the fact that he thought it looked good.

Mum is getting more annoyed by the situation because Dad isn’t fully backing her up which annoys her “You know that Luke will need to be rebaptised because he’s made such a sinful change to his body” she says as I shake my head.

The ranting continues and I tune out as Dad tries to step in “You want to know something Fran, this is why Luke didn’t want to have anything to do with us for so long, he is an adult and we want to keep treating him like a child” he says as I can’t believe that he is standing up for us.

“He came to visit us by choice and not by force, I spoke to him outside because I won’t lie, he is scared to talk to you because he feels like every conversation is a lecture” Dad is probably exaggerating a little bit but I don’t think he is that far wrong.

Mum gets up and heads into the kitchen to put the kettle on and I follow her in there leaving Dad and AJ to talk. “Mum?” I say as she just ignores me and the fact that I’m standing right behind her. “Are you going to talk to me or not?” I ask her as she keeps ignoring me until finally after a few minutes of nagging she turns to me and looks at me.

“What do I have to talk about with a stranger? That’s basically what you are nowadays because you’re not the Luke that I raised to be a polite, kind, courteous young man with the right values” she says as I roll my eyes.

Standing there I look at her “I am still all that Mum, but you have to understand that I am an adult that wants to make my own life choices and I’m doing that and I’m happy” I say as it doesn’t seem to sink to her head that I’m happy.

“Move back home and we can put all this nonsense back, Hayley is still single and you two would be perfect to get back together,” she says as I cannot believe that she is not listening to me.

“No, I am not moving back to Franklin, there is nothing in town for me because I am enjoying College, I’m sitting at the top of the class and I’ve made some really good friends,” I say as she seems to be in her own little world. “It’ll be good to have you back because an extra set of hands with the animals is always good”.

I wander back from the kitchen shaking my head “That was like talking to a brick wall” I say walking back out as Dad just nods and tells me to leave it because he will talk to Mum even though I’m not sure I that I want anybody else to say it for me. Walking out, Mum has Coffee for AJ and me while she has a Cup of tea and Dad just has some mineral water.

We sit there talking for a few more minutes as I look at both Dad and AJ as I decide to tell Mum “There’s something that I need to talk to you about in private Mum” I say as she looks across at me worried about, I wonder if she already has a clue but I don’t know and we head outside and sit on the back veranda.

“How are you doing Mum?” she says as she can’t look at me as she answers the question “Things are ok, the church is getting a new hall after we met our fundraising goal at the Bake sale last weekend, Hayley’s Chocolate Brownies were such a hit like always and I know how much you loved them,” she says to me still not looking at me.

Mum continues to ramble about things that I don’t care about before I stop her raising my voice “MUM” she turns towards me and looks up almost so that she cannot see my tattoo despite not really looking at my face. “I need to talk to you about something very important and it’s not moving home” her face perks up for a moment but drops once I say that I’m not coming home which upsets her.

She gets up “I need to go inside now,” she says as I try to follow her inside “Mum, we need to talk about this it’s important,” I say as we go back inside and she’s not listening to me. “Fran, hear him out,” Dad says as he nods at me to start talking almost acting as if he doesn’t know what I’m about to say even though he knows fully.

I rub my hands over my face, talking with Dad was easy because I didn’t have to bring up the subject but with Mum, I know that I’m going to have to say it. Mum sits down next to Dad and grabs his hand “You’re in trouble, aren’t you? It’s drugs” she says looking at me “I’m not giving you money to buy drugs and Alex shame on you”.

“FRAN” Dad raises his voice for the first time ever or at least the first time I’ve ever heard at Mum because I think he’s more frustrated about this situation than what I am. “Luke came all this way to visit us and share something that is very important to him,” he says to me as I nod and look across at AJ and then Mum and Dad as he gestures for me to speak.

I sigh feeling really sick all of a sudden as I look across at my parents “I came here to visit you because I wanted to see you again because I miss you but I wanted to say something to you and I know it won’t be easy to hear but if I didn’t tell you then I wouldn’t be fully comfortable with myself” I say as Dad gives me a nod encouraging me.

“The reason why I was so focused on moving in with AJ, was the fact that he gave me the confidence to be who I wanted to be and not live a life that I would regret,” I say as Mum starts to get annoyed but Dad reassures me. “The biggest thing that I realised when I moved to Westvale is that I’m gay,” I say as Mum lets go of Dad’s hand and stands up.

“No, no, no, I did not just hear you say those words, Luke,” she says as she paces around the room as her emotions start overflowing between a mix of frustration, and anger and I think sadness. “You moved to Westvale ok, you didn’t like being here under our thumb, you got your ears pierced, you got a tattoo… I get you wanted to be different and prove a point” she says as she picks up the cross off the shelf and holds it tightly.

“This isn’t you Luke, I know you wanted to be different but saying that it’s too far, we’ve brought you up differently, we brought you up to not be that kind of person,” she says as I shake my head and look across at AJ.

“Mum,” I say as she ignores me and gets down and starts praying.

“Dear Lord, please forgive me for my sin of one of my children straying from your path and please show Luke the way back to your path and live free from sin” she continues as I tune out and tell her to get up as I look across at Dad and AJ not sure what to do.

Mum finishes praying and completely ignores me as she tells Dad to get up but right now he is my biggest ally in the conversation. “Fran, calm down this doesn’t change anything about us or Luke,” he says as Mum looks at him annoyed.

“You knew?” she turns and looks at me and then him as he nods and AJ looks surprised at me. “How did you know? You knew and you didn’t tell me?” she gets annoyed at Dad because he didn’t tell her which he didn’t actually know until we went outside.

“At the hospital when you and I were at the Café, I went back up to see if AJ wanted anything and I saw him sitting at Luke’s hospital bed saying how much he cared about him and holding his hand,” Dad says as AJ didn’t realise that anyone in my family saw anything.

Dad lets out a deep breath “Then when we visited him, I could see the way they looked at each other and spoke to each other, they weren’t just friends there was more to it” he says as I smile and squeeze AJ’s hand which Mum notices.

“Mum, yes I look different but that’s all it is, looks,” I say to her trying to make a point about being the same kind person that she brought me up to be. “The only thing that changes about me is that sometimes I have blonde hair, I have my ears pierced and I got a tattoo which if you can see it, is an Owl just like Hooty, ” I say as Mum looks at it for the first time.

I sit there for a minute “I don’t take drugs, I don’t drink” I say which is half true in that sentence, “I’ve missed one class all semester and that was because I had the physio appointment” my point I think is making very small dents into my mothers hard exterior even though it will take time.

“Luke volunteers for a local kids group where he’s helping coach a Soccer team of underprivileged kids because he wants to give back,” AJ says as Dad smiles and nods as mum gives a little smile but still is not fully accepting of me.

Mum turns and looks at me “That’s nice of you to say and Luke’s always been like that but I just don’t know, there’s too much of Luke that I don’t know about and he’s a total stranger to me these days and I just don’t know if I’m ok or like the person he has become these days and the I don’t know if I can ever trust you at all for what you have done” she says as she looks at me and then to Dad almost trying to get his approval for what she just said.

“I am thrilled about Luke being gay? Is it what I pictured as being the right thing to do? No, I’m not, I’m honest about that BUT at the end of the day, Luke is happier than I have ever seen him and if this is what makes Luke happy then who am I to stand the way in front of it” he says as I smile almost giving me the approval of my choices.

Mum looks across at Dad and looks across at me and AJ sitting there as she just shakes her head “I’m sorry but I can’t be ok with this, you had a perfectly good life in Franklin before you were corrupted by the devil and I don’t think there is any coming back from this or me or anyone in the family” she says as I look across at her almost upset as I nod and get up.

I start to speak but Mum stops me “It was good to see glimpses of my Lukey today but that boy has gone forever and I need to talk to the Pastor about some things for the service tomorrow and hope that we will be allowed to go to Church tomorrow and in the future without being rebaptised,” she says as I get up.

“I’m sorry you feel that way Mum but I didn’t choose to be gay, that is how God created me and how he wanted me to help people, I’m sorry that you have a problem with it but at the end of the day, I’m happy in my life,” I say as I pause and take a deep breath. “I hope that you can accept my happiness and that you accept that this is how I was meant to be and help people,” I say as AJ and I start to get up.

I look across at Mum in particular “I know you might think of me as a stranger now, but my door is always open for a visit from my family and one day maybe you can get to know this Luke” I say as we head out the door with Dad quickly following us.

Dad grabs my shoulder and stops AJ as well “I know what I said sounded harsh at the start but I mean it, all I want and what all parents should want is to have their child happy about things and that’s what you are, I can see it when you’re together” Dad says as I hug him tightly.

“I’m proud of you Luke, you had the guts to believe in yourself and do what you wanted to do, not what we wanted you to do,” he says as I smile and he hugs AJ. “AJ, whilst I might not have trusted you at first, I can see you really care about Luke and make him happy which makes me happy,” Dad says as he looks across.

There’s an awkward moment of silence between us before Dad starts again “I’m going to be your ally, Luke, if there’s anybody that needs to be stood up to then I will do it for you” he says as I smile and I look across at him “and I will tell your brothers and sisters your news if you would like me to” he says as I nod.

“Greg, I need you inside” Mum calls out from the front door as he shakes AJ’s hand and heads inside to deal with Mum as I chuck AJ his keys and head back inside to grab my jacket which I forgot and then let him drive.

Sitting in the car for a minute, AJ looks at me as I’m just drained both mentally and physically after all that “Your Dad knew about us the whole time?” he says to me as I just nod. “Yeah, when we went outside, he brought up the topic and I didn’t really need to say anything because he knew and could tell everything about us,” I say as he leans over and kisses me.

AJ looks back at me after he kisses me “Well you’ve done it; you’ve officially come out to your parents” he says smiling as I give him back a smile. I know it should feel like there’s a weight off my shoulders but there isn’t because I know that there is going to be plenty of disagreement between my parents now about this.

The difference in opinions is going to split my family, I know that there are some pretty forward-thinking members in my family but at the same time, there are some conservative idiots as well. My parents are going to be an interesting battle going forward with the arguments set to ensue over the fact that Dad is accepting of me being gay whilst at the same time Mum is far from ok with it and her disapproval of Dad’s acceptance.

“Yeah, I guess I did but I don’t know if it will make things good for Mum and Dad because Mum is so set in her ways that Dad accepting me might drive a wedge between them and it’ll be my fault,” I say feeling a bit upset as AJ punches me on the arm.

I can see him getting annoyed at me “You cannot blame yourself for anything that happened in there and what your parents do, just like you they are grown adults that can make mature grown-up decisions like you have and if they can’t well most your mother then it’s your loss” he says to me as I nod.

“You sat there and came out to your highly religious parents and had a parent who accepted you for being gay, there are so many kids and grown adults that have never done that and they are out there suffering or worse,” AJ says to me bringing the cruel reality of the world to me. “You look up to me, right?” he says as I nod because he is the kind of person that I want to be being happy, smart, confident and sexy.

“Well, you did something that I could never do at your age despite knowing that I was gay, there are plenty of things to be proud of and I’m as proud of you as possible,” he says to me as I nod. “You remember that Luke, ok?” he says to me as we drive off and I give him directions back to the main road so that we can go to McKenzie Falls.

The car ride is pretty quiet other than the radio because there isn’t too much I want to talk about right now, AJ promised his family he would call into their place first but instead, we head to the hotel which is just on the other side of town.

McKenzie Falls is not what you would call a huge city as such but it’s still got a population of about 20,000 people that is still a probably four or five times bigger than that in Franklin and it’s a big tourist drawcard so why it’s more modern than Franklin.

AJ heads to the hotel to check-in and we pull up in the car park and head to the room “I know it’s not like where we went in Platinum Bay but we’re only here for a night” he says as we open the door to a room which is pretty good for the expectations of a country town hotel.

“So, you lied to my mother about us having separate rooms, I see,” he says as I lay back on the bed as AJ laughs. “What fork out money for a second room when at the end of the night you’d be asleep naked with your cock pressed into my ass anyway,” he says as I laugh.

“Excuse me, if I remember correctly the other night you were the one pushed into me” AJ shrugs as I say that and plays innocent.

Laying on the bed next to me AJ leans in and kisses me “Do you just want to stay here while I go visit my family?” he says as I shake my head. “Nah, I promised to come with you and you came with me to my parents and had to deal with all that nonsense,” I say as he laughs.

“True but hey, I at least agreed on something with your Mum,” he says as I laugh trying to think what it would be. “What would agree with her on?” I ask as he just smirks “The Royal Diaries and how we both hate Jacob” he says as I roll my eyes as I just couldn’t ever get into the show although Jacob is the good-looking devil.

I lay on the bed as AJ rolls me over for a moment “Lay on your front” he says as I do what he says as he strips me naked and I close my eyes. I feel his hands running all over my back, starting to massage me as his surprisingly soft hands run all over my body.

Trying hard to not moan as his hands do so much amazing work as he keeps massaging me as I wonder where this magic has been all this time. I don’t know how long he massages me for because I fall asleep feeling so relaxed as he massages my legs as he then goes up and plays with my ass.

I don’t know whether he actually massages my prostate or I’m just imagining it but the feeling of his finger going into my tight hole is amazing. Slowly feeling it stretch out I moan as my cock is rock hard underneath me as he keeps stretching my hole.

Pushing his finger into hit my prostate, I can feel pre-cum leaking onto the bed as I tell him to stop but he doesn’t care as he just quickly grabs a towel to put underneath me to cum into If I do it. He massages my prostate and immediately I can’t control it as I’m in a whole new state as even though his cock has hit my prostate so many times, he is just putting me into such a great state that I blow my load without even realising.

Rolling me over, AJ sucks on my cock releasing every last bit of cum that is inside me as he swallows it up as I finish blowing my load, panting at how good that massage felt and the extra treat at the end.

I go into the shower which is tiny compared to the one at home which means AJ and I can’t squeeze our big muscular frames in with each other but I shower and get dressed. Putting the same clothes on, AJ feels pretty cool and calm about the situation given the circumstances but I can tell deep down he’s nervous because he’s playing with his hands.

“You alright?” I say as he turns and looks at me “Yeah totally fine why?” he asks as I just look at him as he realises that he’s cracking his knuckles.

He looks down “Oh I’m cracking my knuckles aren’t I?” he says as I nod and smile at him reassuring him that it’s fine. “It’s not like it’s been years since you’ve seen them or talked to them and I managed to handle my parents today,” I tell him as I nod not expecting him to come out with what he is about to say next.

“Yeah, I know that but I’ve never introduced my boyfriend to them before,” he says as I’m surprised, he said boyfriend because we weren’t letting things get too serious. “Wait, you’ve never introduced anyone you’ve dated to your family?” he says to me as he shakes his head and lets out a nervous chuckle.

“Can’t ever introduce someone that doesn’t exist” he says as I look across to him surprised that I’m his first proper boyfriend as he looks at me embarrassed. “It’s just that I’ve never fallen for anyone like you and I know we call ourselves brofriends but at the end of the day, you’re the first person that I’ve had feelings like this for and had sex with multiple times not just because I’m being paid for it or doing it in front of the camera,” he says as I put my arm around him.

I smile and kiss him “I don’t care what we call ourselves these days whether it’s fuck buds, brofriends or boyfriends, I love you so much AJ,” I say going back to kissing him not realising that it is the first time that I’ve told him those three words.

“Did you just say what I think you did?” he says to me as he puts his nose onto mine before kissing me again. “Of course, I did, why does that sound like a surprising thing to say?” he kisses me again before we embrace each other.

Noticing the alarm cock on the other side of the bed, AJ sees the time and says that we need to get going to his family’s farm for dinner. I follow him out and he shows me around the town as he drives slower than the speed limit which is a highly irregular thing for him to do.

We get to his family’s farm and park with the other cars, he notices a lot of the family there already not expecting the number of people to be so large. Getting out of the car, I notice a figure that’s a couple of inches taller than AJ but not as big in size coming towards us as their smile grows.

“Bro you made it, Mum wasn’t sure if you were coming,” the guy says as he hugs AJ and I quickly guess that this is one of his brothers although I don’t know which one. “Oh Tommy, this is Luke, Luke this is my younger bro Tommy” he introduces us as he laughs.

Tommy looks at me “So this is the boyfriend?” he says laughing looking at me up and down and shaking my hand as I feel a bit embarrassed. “Damn, I knew you said he just started college but I never expected this,” he says laughing making me feel comfortable.

“Where’d you get the notion that we were boyfriends?” AJ asks his brother who just shrugs and smiles “Mum said that you were bringing someone special so we naturally just assumed that it was your boyfriend, so what you two aren’t dating?” he says as he realises he may have put his foot in the situation.

“Luke’s totally straight,” AJ says teasing his brother as I just smile and play along with him as Tommy backtracks a bit and stutters over his words as AJ laughs at his brother’s embarrassment. “I just assumed given…” AJ finally lets his brother stop stuttering and tells him the truth.

“Of course Luke’s gay, why else would I be bringing him here tonight for dinner if not to introduce him,” he says as I smile and we head into the house. Sitting there, I see AJ’s older brother and sister there with their kids playing in the living room, his grandparents are there as well.

AJ and I walk in as everyone looks and they’re surprised as we walk in, Tommy agreed not to tell anyone until AJ says so if he doesn’t decide. “Alex it’s so good to see you and this is your friend?” his mother says as she welcomes me in.

“Yeah, this is Luke, my roommate,” he says as he introduces me as his roommate rather than his boyfriend which is cool because I can see how nervous he is. His Mum introduces herself to me as Alison before his other brother tells me his name is Brad and his sister is named Hannah.

It’s not long before we sit down for dinner as his family have all cooked their own bits and we both get into trouble for not having enough food on our plates as AJ’s grandmother piles her Potato Bake onto our plates.

Sitting down, I enjoy the dinner as AJ gets bombarded with questions about what he’s doing at the moment which is the usual family stuff which I enjoy seeing him struggle to answer all the questions about things and the fact that even though they aren’t exactly pleased with his life choices, they ask him about his escort work although not in full detail plus his day job as a graphic design artist.

Little do I expect to have my turn at the table “So Luke, Alex says you’re in college?” his mother asks as I nod “Yeah I am, I’m currently studying at College in Westvale and I work in a Health Food shop part-time to cover costs of living in the city”. His mum just nods and seems genuinely happy that I’m here “Luke said that you made this a joint trip because you were visiting, your family here as well?” she asks.

“Actually, my family lives in Franklin where I grew up so we stopped in there to see them today which was interesting just to see everyone again,” I say as I hear AJ’s grandfather pipe up with some crack about Franklin which isn’t necessarily wrong but still hurts about home.

We finish dinner as AJ wants to show me around the house and I walk past pictures of this scrawny kid working on the farm with his dad. “That seriously you?” I say as he is probably 16 or 17 with next to no muscles at all on his body as he laughs.

He shows me his room which has been converted into a guest room which is where his grandparents are staying the night but still has all the charm of his old bedroom. Sitting there in private as we know that we aren’t going to get interrupted because his grandfather is smoking his pipe while having a glass of whiskey outside and his grandmother is helping do the dishes.

AJ sits there and looks at me intently for a minute “I know you’ve had a stressful day and so much has happened but I want to tell my family about us” he says as I look at him and rub his hand. I sit there not sure what to think but remind him how proud he is of me, is how proud of him as we sit on the bed together as he gets the courage to do this.

Looking across at AJ nods his head “Yeah because my family are going to come down and visit us and I don’t want to be acting again, I did it for so many years with my parents trying to suppress who I was that I never want to do that again” AJ says as I nod understanding his point.

Sighing, I quickly realise that most of the nerves right now are from me and not AJ because the thought of telling someone that I’m in a relationship is nerve-wracking. After all, there are going to be so many expectations on us and how potentially serious this relationship is. AJ looks at me “You’re not ok about me telling them we’re together?” he says as I shrug not sure about it.

“It’s not that I don’t want you to tell them but does it make what we have a lot more serious?” I ask as he looks at me almost like I’m a child that gave a dumb answer. “Of course, it doesn’t Luke, just for my family that I get to be more honest; We’re not going to change anything that we’re going to do and we’re still brofriends unless you don’t want to be,” he says to me as I smile realising that AJ only wants to change things on the outside and we’re still going to have our open relationship.

AJ and I hug for a minute as we agree to tell everyone which is a big step for him as we get up and head out of the room “I’m proud of you for this” I say as we go to head out of the room back to his family.