Alliance of Gay Students

Spencer looked at Alvin and then me.

“You’re in love, aren’t you?” Alvin said, more as a statement than a question. “And you guys have done it.”

Alvin hugged me and whispered into my ear. “I’m so happy for you, and thank you for not sleeping with me. Todd was my first, and it was really special.”

I hugged him back. “This is Spencer. Spencer’s my boyfriend. And this is Al. He’s my best friend.” The two men shook hands.

Spencer whispered in my other ear. “It feels weird to be called your boyfriend, but I like it.”

I squeezed his hand. “Let’s get some dinner.”

We made our way through the line and gathered back at the table. I introduced Spencer to everyone; we chatted and before we knew it, it was over. Al left to go see Todd; Theo and Steve probably went back to Steve’s room, and Spencer and I headed back to Spencer’s room to finish working on his math assignments.

As we walked, Spencer told me about his family. He had two older step-brothers. Their mom had been killed in an avalanche. I wanted to know more about that, but I didn’t want to interrupt him. He had a sister Margo. He seemed rather ambivalent about her, and he was pretty sure she would stand against him when he decided to come out to his parents. He wasn’t sure how they would react, so he had kept it from them. “Until now,” he said, “it didn’t matter. Now that you’re in my life, they’re going to have to know. I don’t want to keep you a secret.” He interlaced his fingers in mine. “If it comes to it, I’ll choose you over them.” That remark sounded very serious, and I wasn’t sure I understood it.

“I hope you don’t have to,” I told him. “But I’ll stand by any decision that you make.”

A mild rain began to fall, and the wind picked up slightly. We were almost to his dorm, but ran back the rest of the way. We stopped a few times on the way to his room to kiss. I resisted grabbing his cock. I knew we had a little more math to do, and I wanted to make sure there was nothing hanging over our heads in case he asked me to spend the night.

We were in the middle of the last problem in today’s assignment when the thunder and lightning began. We had put the work to the side and opened the curtains to watch the dark sky illuminated briefly by the flashes when the lights went out.

“The blanket’s a little crunchy,” laughed Spencer as we adjusted ourselves to look out the window. With my arm on his back, and my hand on his shoulder, I snuggled next to him. The sky was partially blocked by the trees around the building, and as bolts of lightning lit up the sky, eerie shadows formed. The sky opened up and a thunderous roar rattled the window. “Let’s get under the covers.”

“I should remove my socks,” I said. “I never wear them under the covers, even when it’s freezing out.”

“I usually sleep without any clothes. I use my sock in case I need to masturbate. It keeps me from making a mess.” His grin was visible in a lightning flash. He turned over and pulled me to him, kissing me.

“So we’re going to sleep now?”

Spencer rolled over onto me. “If that’s what you want.”

“You know it’s not.” I poked him in the side.

“Then what do you want?” he asked.

“You’ll think I’m weird, but I want to feel the weight of you pushing down on me as you make love to me. I want you to come inside me. I want to wake up tomorrow with a sore ass so I can remember how you fucked me with every fiber of your being.”

“That’s not weird.” He reached down and grabbed my dick through my pants. “I want you to come in my mouth so I can swallow your seed. That way, you’ll be with me even when you’re not around. You know, Ryan, I’ve seen people in love, but I never knew how crazy it could make you inside your head. I want to be inside you. That sounds like I want to fuck you, and believe me, I do. But I want to be inside you in a way that’s not possible.”

“I know it sounds crazy, but it’s not. I have feelings like that, too.” I felt him try to unzip me with one hand. “I think I want you to gently make love to me and then at the same time, I want you to pound my ass.”

“Yeah. I used to think that when I watched porn, and two guys were just fucking as hard and fast as they could, it just meant they were horny. But maybe they just can’t get enough of the other one because of love. Fuck! What is wrong with this zipper?”

I started to laugh. “Let me help you.”

Spencer looked at me and started laughing, too. He slid down so his knees were on the floor and he pulled me to the edge of the bed. “You need to wear sweatpants or sweat shorts so I can just pull them off.”

“I could just go around with no pants on. That way you can blow me anytime you want.”

“Ha. Ha. Ha.” Spencer jerked my pants down and stuffed my dick in his mouth. He had just got me nice and wet when there was a knock at the door.

“Mr. Greene. Your guest needs to leave now.”

“What the hell?” I whispered to Spencer. “How do they even know that I’m here? I didn’t see anyone in the hall.”

“Zip your pants up, and let me talk to him.” Spencer went to the door and opened it.

A man in his twenties and wearing a security uniform stepped in. His flashlight scanned the room and landed in my face.

“We were studying together. Why does he need to go?” Spencer’s tone was definitely demanding and slightly defiant.

“Your father doesn’t want any overnight guests, and it’s nine o’clock.”

“But it’s raining.”

“Sorry, Mr. Greene. He needs to go back to his dorm, and it’s not that far.”

“You know where I live?” I asked.

“You’re Ryan Cooper. You live in Quad C.”

I laughed. “And my major is?”

“You’re a physics major. You and Mr. Green have calculus together.”

“OK, Spencer. That is fucking creepy.” I stood up. “I’m going to go now because I don’t want you to get in trouble.” I stuffed my stuff in my bag and walked up to him.

The security man spoke up. “Please, no public displays of affection. I’m required to report those. That includes holding hands in public; although, I’ve decided to give a warning before reporting that.”

“I’ll see you at breakfast,” Spencer said. By his tone, I could tell he was pissed.

“Seven o’clock.” I walked out.

The security man followed me to the door. As I was stepping out, he whispered to me. He’s under constant surveillance. Be careful.”

I walked slowly back to Quad C. Even though it was a short trip, I was drenched. ‘What else did they know?’ I wondered. ‘And why was he under constant surveillance? What had he done? Who the fuck had I fallen in love with?’