My Freshman Year

After the hike, We headed back to his house picked up take out on the way, he offered once again to spend the night, which was an unnecessary question, as I said yes of course. We ate at his kitchen island, we each had a beer, while his parents asked about our day hiking while they watched TV in the family room. We went upstairs put on our tight beige almost see through Speedos and swam in the warm pool and sat in the hot tub, sipping a beer when we weren’t kissing, I have to say I carried a towel  to cover up with so as to not be embarrassed as we passed his parents, and it was very weird getting sensual kisses from Josh knowing his parents were about 20 feet away, he on the other hand had no problem with any of it, in fact he handled it as if it was the norm and not unusual.

Around 10 we headed up to bed, his bed again, where we stripped off our wet suits, did a simple pat dry, me with my raging hard on we climbed under his covers where he spooned me with one arm over my side as he mischievously fingered my dick until we fell asleep.

We woke about 7am showered ate a quick muffin and coffee and headed out to psychology 101 our only class we take together. I sat next to him all class that Monday, not believing the past 2 days I’ve spent with him, after class we both walked toward our next class, before we split paths, he leaned in giving me a quick kiss on the cheek, saying see you tomorrow. At the end of the day I headed back to my dorm, I hated that place especially seeing my roommate Jim again, where it appeared he was existing in a pig sty, clothes all over and a strong smell, I felt like crying.

I continued seeing Josh in class every morning, oddly we spoke as friends rather than intimate sexual partners, I can’t quite say lovers yet, but it was odd, I was beginning to get concerned that I may have just been a weekend fling, one of his many conquests he easily bragged about, it did it mean anything to him, perhaps I was that bad, and he just made me feel good about myself. I was lost, should I say something about it, rather than small talk? By Wednesday I got there very early and picked a new seat this time on the side rather than middle center. I watched as josh entered looking towards our usual seat, he worked his way to it while scanning the room, I guess the good news was he was looking for me, and could he be concerned as to why I wasn’t there. He sat, and as the room began to fill he kept looking and becoming seemingly more agitated as he pulled out his phone and texted me, I got up and hurried across the aisle and joined him as if I were late in our usual spot, a bit of relief but still unanswered questions.

After class, as we walked, I asked him if anything was wrong, he looked at me very puzzled, why he asked, I told him he seemed to be acting……. He interrupted saying acting like what? Like we acted prior to this past weekend? He continued, I’m acting like we were classmates. I said but this weekend was special to me, it changed me, didn’t it change our relationship, he replied of course it did but school isn’t the time and place to have a relationship 1 to 2 hours a day, our paths only cross during first class every day. I still walk with you, I think we have something that could be special and I really like you, let’s give it time, he continued, how bout we do it again this coming weekend, you’re invited to spend it with me, only thing is my parents are home, I’m good with that if you are. I replied yes yes I don’t care I just want to be with you,

Upon my return to my dorm, I informed Jim he had the room to himself once again this weekend, he smiled and said you’re ok Dave I’m going to text my girl right now. Shit that’s all I needed to hear, but I suggested he do some heavy duty cleaning up both before and after, he smiled and replied why the fuck for? I said cause you and this room smell like my high school gym locker, as he grabbed a pair of socks from under his blanket and sniffed them. How did I ever wind up with this gross pig?

Thursday class and Josh brought me a coffee and apologized, hoping it would make it better, it was just what I needed and smiled, he reached across the seat arm and fingered the back of my hand, looked at me and smiled. I put my hand on his knee and gave it a squeeze.

Friday I asked him what clothes I should bring and he said just the same as last week, if we need anything else I probably have something for you, he told me to meet at parking lot 6 at about 3pm he’s near the fire lane 3rd or 4th row. At the end of the day I raced to my dorm, the door was locked and Jim had the sock on the door, shit! Fuck! He’s already blocked me out, could he already be going at it? How was I going to get my stuff, I knocked and got a Fuck off! Shit I texted Josh and told him what happened, he said fuck it, just meet me at the car, I can find you something from my closet. I quick turned in my tracks and darted across campus to meet in the parking lot, met up with Josh and off to his house, my resort, for the weekend, I’m so, so anxious to get this thing, whatever it is started.

Josh’s mom and dad were still out when we got there, I found out, his mom works in town at an accounting firm and is usually home by 6, and his dad works at a law firm in the city, if he drives he’s usually home by 6 if he commutes on the trains it it’s more like 7 pm. Josh dragged me upstairs and quickly put together a pretty fancy (at least for me) outfit for me and sent me off to my guest room to shower and dress, as he did the same in his room, he said we’re going clubbing tonight. I soon became concerned as I wasn’t sure how old Josh actually was, but I’m still 18 and reminded him so, he laughed and said “how old do you think I am? “I’m only 19 buddy, but don’t worry, I’m confident the place were going we’ll get in, even if you still look kinda young and immature, ha, ha, as he put his hand to mess up my hair, saying now go set dressed”

I showered and began dressing, I felt a bit weird putting on Josh’s underwear, crap his naughty bits have been right here touching were mine are, I had to go back to his room to see if he had some deodorant and hopefully some hair gel. I headed over wearing only his briefs, He was still showering, I entered and saw his gorgeous image rinsing through the clear glass doors against the white marble walls as the soap slithered down his body with traces arching off his slightly curved downward penis, I immediately became hard as he shook his head of excess water, I spoke asking him, as he turned to see me in all of my hardness. He laughed and called me a horny son of a bitch pointing to my confining tented briefs, as I reached down adjusting them, then grabbing my package and shook it at him saying, “but wouldn’t you want to have it right now”? He laughed grabbing a towel and pointed to the shelf for the items I needed. As he got out of the shower still a bit wet grabbing me, as he pressed his soft dick into my brief covered ass crack wiggling back and forth, as he hugged me across my chest and nestled his mouth into my neck. Reluctantly I broke away finished and hurried back to my room to finish dressing, although I really wanted to just take him right then and there. As I dressed I realized, that was the closest I’ve come to having a dick in my ass, at least it’s the closest I’ve ever come to it.

After dressing, we grabbed some snacks and a soda and we drove toward the city, but Josh pulled into a diner were we grabbed a quick dinner, about 8pm we were back on the road, we stopped short of the city and parked at a club called Mr. Big Stuff’s. As we walked toward the door, I reminded Josh that I might not get in, he said “no worries, are you ready for this”? I replied I guess, the bouncer at the door knew Josh who flashed his license as he waived him in, then asked for mine which I pulled out and showed him, the guy just waived me in not even looking for the birth date on my out of state license. As we entered Josh said just a formality for the cameras, Hank knows me and it’s never a problem.

After sweating that ordeal out, I got a chance to see and hear the beating music and flashing lights, then I realized it, holy fuck this is a gay bar, disco music, guys dancing with guys,  guys with short shorts, guys in leather and chains, and most of all scantily dressed bartenders, and some topless sweaty dancers as well. At the bar were guys hugging and kissing, a couple on the end was grinding pretty good, there were some booths and high top tables. I’m not one to be into disco music but this place was so full of energy, and dancing and jumping and sky high fist pumps, it was hard not to be involved, and within minutes, Josh and I were out there, I swear jumping 10 feet off the floor, pumping our hands over our heads toward the distant ceiling, mirror disco balls and laser lights flashing all over, when the fog machines started up covering the dance floor at least waist high, we were hot and sweaty we bumped into other people, they bumped into us, and there was a lot of copping a feel going on as I got touched on my ass and crotch several times. Other guys worked their way between us and tried to dance picking either of us and a few times both of us up. It was hot, my hard on was obvious, I was thankful for the fog. By midnight we were exhausted and hadn’t even had a drink, so we worked our way toward the bar and got 2 beers as we settled and because of the noise level just smiled and pointed since we couldn’t talk, hell I was even singing at the top of my lungs to the crappy old disco songs.

Somewhere about 2 am Josh said we should go since we wouldn’t get home till about  3:30 or so and didn’t want to waste our Saturday. We stumbled into his house, we weren’t drunk, we only had a few beers, but exhausted from life. I followed Josh into his room we stripped and cuddled under the blankets spooning naked, falling asleep literally within minutes.

Well tonight was another night and another first for me, actually several firsts, Underage I got into a drinking bar, and gay bar no less, I danced and sang in public and with another guy, I had a great time that I never ever thought I would have, and I was out and proud in public with others like me, but mostly I was with Josh and man I was falling for this guy, fuck I wasn’t falling I jumped off the cliff, I just haven’t hit the ground yet. All in all I guess I consider tonight as our first official date, last weekend was getting to know us better, and best of all I’m not disappointed our night didn’t end in sex.

Josh woke me about 11 am his parents were gone, he dragged me to the shower, where I wanted to get frisky, he allowed me only to go so far, but stopped me short of completion, boy I was horny as hell and he knew it. He said we were starting at his gym then from there to where it takes us. I’ve come to the conclusion Josh is taking me too slow, I want him and I want him now, he’s making me wait.

We arrived at his gym, we signed me in as a guest, again I’m wearing shorts and sweats that are not mine, warmed up on the treadmills, I’m ashamed to say I could barely keep up, we moved to the track upstairs did a few laps, went to press some weights on the weight machines, again he put me to shame, but what does he see in me, he can out do, and perform me in everything, even dick size and sexual experience, sometimes he baffles me. We signed up for a racquet ball court when we came in, and finally our number was called and I escaped the arm lifting session. To the courts with house racquets, it took me a while to catch on but finally I was beating him at something, I was all over that court. Josh’s white shorts were so sweat soaked by the end, I could see the perfect outline form of his dangling dick, almost see through, I grabbed my borrowed sweat pants from the corner quickly covering up my raging hard on, as we headed back toward the locker room.

Josh suggested a sauna, what the hell another first for me, I said sure, we stripped down, grabbed some extra large towels (thank god) and into the large room, humid as hell I could barely breath, I thought to myself what the fuck do people do this for, I swear I didn’t think I could stay in there, as my eyes adjusted to the darker room and the steam, I noticed 2 others in there, Josh and I took some seats adjacent to them but leaving enough space, shortly one got up and left. As we lay back towels covering our spread legs, head tipped back and arms spread behind us I rubbed Josh on his right shoulder and he returned the motion onto my left. I wasn’t sure if I was massaging his sweat or the condensing humidity but it was a sensational sensual feeling. My hair was running into my eyes as he raised his other hand to carefully slip it out of the way off my forehead, he glanced into my eyes and leaned in for a kiss. With that the other guy got up and left, leaving us alone.

Josh spread his legs further and allowed his towel to slit open, exposing his beautiful rigid dick as he grabbed my hand and began coaxing me to jerk him, but believe me I didn’t need much coaxing. My eyes toward the windowed door, I began working him, ever so concerned we might get caught, as he tipped his head back thoroughly enjoying the moment. Now I wanted to finish him off, but here in the sauna? I was concerned with not only getting caught but the actual semantics of doing this in a public space. Today I was in charge, I started the events, I was in control. I wasn’t being touched, I wasn’t trying to copy what he previously did to me. At one point I wanted to take him into my mouth, should I? Could I? Do I get down on my knees? Then my back would be toward the door, I can’t see and Josh’s head is back looking at the ceiling, oh hell I’m doing it, and I did, as he pulled the towel completely off his thighs. My head leaned in as I consumed that hot sweaty sausage as deep as I could, and his hands moved to my head and he lifted me up and down to his most pleasurable rhythm. I was building up a sweaty sweat but my mouth was drying out, and my jaw began cramping, I suddenly felt him tense up and quite relieved I was getting him close, an intense effort on my part to complete him, when he suddenly erupted in my mouth with most of his cum slipping out of my mouth dripping to the towel on the bench between his legs. He raised his head looked down at me and I up to him, with a smile on his face, saying “perfect”, he grabbed me by the neck under my chin pulling me up towards his face where we kissed. Just then the door opened, I was blocking Josh’s naked body, as I pulled off him, his hands went to his sides pulling the towel back over himself securing it. The guy took a seat looking at the ceiling totally ignoring us, but I was sure and self conscious that he knew, but look at me, did I care? Frankly, no I really didn’t.

We hit the communal showers, we both shared a shower tree facing each other as we basically rinsed ourselves, grabbed another towel and dried and dressed. We headed back to Josh’s house. Josh’s mom texted Josh inviting us to a family dinner tonight, Josh asked if I cared, as it’s now close to 4 pm, what? I said 4 hours at the gym, why I’ve never spent so long at the gym before, as Josh said, “yeah but we had fun didn’t we”? Damn right I replied, maybe I’d be in better shape if I spent 4 hours a week in the gym, Josh jokingly asked me if I knew how many calories were in cum, ha ha.

We got to his house and his mom said we’d eat about 7 but dad and some beers only if we were staying in were out on the pool deck. We headed out, his dad was lounged in a lounge chair in a cabana tent with the propane heater going sucking on a beer. We each pulled up chairs popped open a beer. You could tell fall was rapidly approaching as the sun was low in the sky and the afternoon heat waned into a cool breeze, but the cabana tent with drapes closed and heater on made it cozy and comfortable. His dad asked how our day went and we told him we spent 4 hours in the gym, and he asked where we went last night, I looked to Josh who openly told his dad, we were at Mr. Big Stuffs, and he immediately said you weren’t drinking were you? He replied we only had 2 each and we got there at 8 and left by 2-2:30 or so, his dad said reassuringly just you remember I don’t ever want you caught drinking and driving, let alone it’s bad enough you’re underage at that sex club, Josh protested Dad it’s not a sex club, it’s a dance bar. I admired the open relationship and truth telling atmosphere his parents have created.

With that out of the way, his dad began grilling me, as Josh smiled at me and looked on smiling between sips of his beer, he had a you’re in for it now shit eating grin on his face. His mom the joined us, as he asked me where I was from, I explained a small Midwestern town, a small 2 bedroom house, with my parents, I owned a beat up old Honda Civic but cars aren’t allowed for freshman let alone it probably wouldn’t make the trip. I immediately began to think crap I’m broke ass scum from bat shit nowhere compared to their success and my thoughts again lead to what dose Josh see in me? He asked what my parents did, I continued my day runs a feed store, that took a big hit when a tractor supply opened 2 towns away, but our customers eventually came back because of the personal attention and credit terms he offered, let alone delivery and local support of school and sports teams, I told him I spent every summer working there since I could remember, I looked at Josh and told him my workout was throwing feed bags around all day. I told him my mom was a receptionist at a doctors clinic in town. His mom asked why New York I replied, man this place has so much for me, and I broke down and opened up to them, I’m gay and gay don’t work in Springdale after the past few weeks here with Josh I think I decided this is where it is for me.

His mom asked if other than gay did I think I fit in, I said I really didn’t know that yet. She asked what we did and day to day life, I told her our house and property was small but parks and farms were plentiful, we’d play in the fields, we had swimming holes and horses, cows and chickens, I could go to the jones farm and ride their horses any time. I was driving a tractor through town when I was 10. Suddenly Josh and his parents looked on with envy, and Josh asked if I could bring him there, it was then and my country descriptions that made me realize it was home I could excel against Josh, I could ride horses and tip cows and everything farm, heck I found out he’s never been out of upstate New York 2 hours from the city. He’s all city boy and I’m all country boy, opposites do attract. His mom pointing out the real issue is gay, she didn’t get it, gay, straight, be happy, no one questions straight walking down the street but gay is a stigma, she said, why is it acceptable more in some places than other, gays are everywhere, they don’t need to hide it, why is it such a big deal, no one asks me or judges me for being straight, what the difference with you as gay, you’re not doing it in the street neither am I, it all just doesn’t make sense to her, and in her own confused way she was right.

We ate a great meal, home cooked, I even mentioned I miss that, Josh’s mom beamed with pride that she at least pleased someone at the table tonight, Josh and his dad giving me the evil eye. I felt welcome, they were my family away from family. Then I thought how would mom and dad treat Josh, would they be as welcoming, a thought I would struggle with until the day actually comes, if it comes. I got to thinking what’s the average number of partners do American couples have before finding the right one, as far as I was concerned I found mine, but I had to be practical, Josh has already had several, he’s my first, will there be more, and will we have what Josh and I have now? Perplexed, Josh excused ourselves as we headed upstairs.

I was more honest with Josh as we sat tossing a football across the room to each other, letting him know I envied what he had, he in turn envied what I had. We became more serious as I began asking questions about his past and his relationships, his coming out. We were dead serious with each other, and I admired his truthfulness even more, this guy couldn’t disappoint me. I then asked about taking sex further, I mean we’ve been through body admiration, kissing, sensual touching and blow jobs, do we go further like ass play, he said we’re working toward it but taking time, saying I’m really not ready yet, but we touched the topic, and he asked if I thought I was a top or bottom or maybe even verse, but I really couldn’t answer, telling him I’ve fingered and ass played myself but never really got into it. He said enough talking let’s head to bed already.

Laying in bed with my warm rock beside me, I felt warm and relaxed as Josh hugged me poking his bent flaccid dick into my ass crack, wiggling from side to side as he reached over and fingered my hard dick and abdomen with his fingers, gently stroking the shaft changing his pressure. In the dark I thought of the sexual sights and sounds of last night and today especially the sauna, as I tensed and moaned trying to conceal my noise as to avoid waking his parents 2 walls away. I quietly asked him to stop as he gripped me with determination and began speeding up and I rolled to my back as he flung the covers off and entered me in his mouth, he finished me off it’s my bursting my globs of cum into his throat as i screamed in ultimate joy, surely waking his parents as he began giggling shhhhushing me with his hand to my mouth as my dick continued to dry spurt in his mouth as he swallowed around my dick. I was cum dry and still my dick was trying to continue to pulsate, in minutes I began to sensitively soften as I forced him to release his grip on me allowing my dick to hit the sheets dribbling some remains to the sheets below, we continued to fall asleep naked and blanket less the rest of the night. I know my mom and dad would never permit Josh in my bed should the occasion ever arise.

Sunday morning and it was raining, after breakfast we hit the video games in the family room, before the football games started and Josh’s parents joined us, 3 football games later, snacks, beer, pizza for dinner and the late game, the weekend was drawing to a close, after the late game we headed to bed knowing class was earlier than we wanted. Once again we lay naked as I forced Josh into the small spoon position for once and I got to nestle my dick in his warm crevasse and wiggle it around, but that’s as far as we went tonight, asleep we went together again no real sex but fully satisfied.