Losing My Religion

Seth’s story

It was early Saturday morning, and I was fast asleep with Zach in my arms and a satisfied smile on my face when I heard ‘tap, tap, tap.’ I ignored it and tried to fall back asleep, again, ‘tap, tap, tap.’ I looked around; it was coming from the window. I pulled myself out of bed, went over to the window, and peaked through the blinds. There was Cam waving and smiling at me. I pulled on some shorts and a sweatshirt and went to the sliding glass door in the family room to let him in, leaving the cute as hell Zach snoring away in my bed.

“What the fuck are you doing here? it’s barely 6AM!” I said in a whisper as I let my friend in.

“I couldn’t sleep, I’ve been sitting in your backyard for an hour” Cam whispered back. He wreaked of cigarette smoke.

“Were you smoking?” I asked

“Yup, I’m a bundle of nerves. I can’t go back to Chicago, dude. I fucking hate it there. Yesterday with you guys, I found myself again. It felt so good to be me. I missed me” he said on the verge of tears with a weak smile that was filled with sadness.

I hugged my friend and said “I missed you too” then went into the kitchen to start the coffee.

“I’m sorry for waking you up, I hope I didn’t wake up everyone else” he said, his tone more hushed now.

“it’s just me and Zach. Scotty and Brad are at The Resort for their anniversary, and Eli is partying on campus with Brian” I said. I wanted to tell him what happened last night, but I didn’t want to make him feel worse about his situation.

“You and Zach finally got some alone time!” he said as his sad smile turned into a happy, mischievous one. “I’m sorry, I hope this doesn’t offend you… but your boyfriend is hot as fuck! Seriously! He is so goddamn beautiful.” I couldn’t help but beam with pride, I was in total agreement. And, since HE brought it up…

“He gave me his virginity last night” I whispered.

“NO FUCKING WAY!” Cam yelled with a huge smile, then realized Zach was still asleep and calmed himself down. It was so awesome to see him so animated again. He was sitting in a barstool across the kitchen Island as I stood on the other side by the coffee maker.

“Shut up” I whispered in a hushed voice, looking toward the bedroom to make sure he didn’t wake Zach. I heard a faint snore… the coast was clear. “Shhh, keep it down…” then I proceeded to tell him story of our love life. From our first kiss to our first date at McDonald’s, to Zach coming out, to me losing my virginity, and then last night. All the shit I’ve been wanting to share with him for weeks! I kept most of the intimate details to myself, but in truth I shared more with him than I had with anyone else. It was so incredibly wonderful to talk to my best friend, like a best friend again. He hung on every word with wide eyes, as he leaned over the counter giving me his undivided attention. The coffee finished brewing and I poured us each a cup.

“I am so fucking happy for you! You’re living the life I wanted in Chicago. But it’s the wrong fit for me.” I felt bad, almost like I was flaunting my happiness, then Cam added “Seeing you gives me hope. You guys made me realize that what I want is attainable, I think I’m just in the wrong situation, so… I need to fix that. I’m not going back next semester and my parents will have to deal with that fact.” Cam said with half-confidence, and a tiny sparkle in his eye. Like he had just decided, and the burden of his unhappiness was starting to lift off his shoulders. He looked up, smiled wide, exhaled “Fuck” he said quietly, “Sounds like I just made a decision.”

“Huggable moment?” I asked.

He snorted a quick laugh “Yup! Hug me” I went around to the other side of the Island and hugged my best friend from behind as he sat on the barstool.

“Ahem” said a voice from behind me. I looked back to see Zach in his boxers and a T-shirt, his hair messed up in the perfect ‘I just got fucked’ do. “So, this is what you do when I sleep, hug hot guys?” Cam and I both laughed as I switched from hugging Cam to hugging Zach.

“Cam just decided he’s leaving school at the end of the semester” I said. I could tell that Zach wasn’t sure how to react as he lifted his brows in a ‘tell me what to say’ expression. “Oh. It’s a good thing” I said, “but he still needs to tell his parents.”

Zach smiled and approached us “Good for you, buddy. That’s a big decision.” Cam smiled at him as I poured a third cup of coffee and we hung out talking like friends. I could not have been happier that these two guys liked each other. I KNEW they would get along, but seeing it warmed my heart. We hung out for a little while then decided to get dressed and get rolling, we had to take Kev’s Jeep back this morning. Cam got up to leave, he was headed home to talk to his parents, and planned on meeting us later at The Resort. We wished him luck and said our goodbyes until later that day.

I drove the TT, Zach followed me in the Jeep, and we stopped at Jordy’s for breakfast on the way. When we walked in, we saw Kev & Randy and the boys sitting with Scotty & Brad. They all yelled when we came in and all eyes turned to us as we blushed and made our way to their table. Jordy came over and started pulling another table over as Baby Scotty reached up for Zach, and Matty tried to get my attentyion. “How was your night?” I asked Brad and Scotty.

“It was fun” Brad said. “Did you guys miss us?” I just smiled while Zach blushed, the other guys snickered at us knowingly.

“Hey Kev, we’re on our way to your place to drop off the Jeep” I said. As Baby Scotty focused on Zach and demanded his full attention. Zach loved it.

“Hey, why don’t you guys take Scotty and Matty to the Phoenix Z-O-O today? Kev asked as he looked at us and spelled the word ‘zoo’, so the boys didn’t get too excited.

Zach looked at me with raised eyebrows and a tilted head and said, “I’m game, it sounds like a gas!” He actually wanted to hang with me and two babies, god this guy was too good to be true.

“That sounds like fun” I said.

“They won’t last more than an hour or two” Randy said as he wiped the syrup off Matty’s face.

Kev added, “you guys can take the Range Rover with the baby seats, and we’ll drive the Jeep home”

“Zach followed me in the Jeep and I drove the TT so we’d have a ride back home” I said.

“I call dibs on the TT” Randy said with a grin. “I’ve been dying to get my hands on that little roadster, but Brad never let me.” Brad just laughed.

“So, are you guys up for it?” Kev asked, “We’d appreciate the break.”

I looked at Zach, he was smiling and nodding his head furiously. He really wanted to do this. So, we did. After breakfast, we packed the boys into the Range Rover and the four of us were off to the zoo. We had the best time! Zach pushed Baby Scotty in the stroller while I tried to stay ahead of Matty, damn that kid was full of some insane energy. But they were both so much fun. Baby Scotty was into the elephants, he would’ve stayed there all day if we didn’t pry him away and got to the petting zoo. Matty LOVED it there, he bonded with a baby goat and wanted to take it home with us. Zach took like a million pics of the four of us and was texting them to his mother, she was loving it. I was so impressed with how his parents embraced him as an open gay man so quickly and accepted us as a couple. After about an hour and a half Scotty passed out in his stroller so we packed him and Matty into the Rover and took them home. By the time we got to Kev and Randy’s they were both passed out and cute as hell. Of course, Zach took a couple of pics of them sleeping and sent them to his mother who loved them. I think this trip was opening his parents’ eyes to what could be for their gay son.

We dropped off the boys and put them in bed for their nap. As we were about to leave the house, Kev and Randy asked us to sit down and talk for a minute. “We heard you plan on going to The Resort tonight” Kev said. Zach and I glanced at each other then nodded sheepishly. “That place can be a lot of fun” he continued, “a LOT of fun, and you’re both smart guys.”

“I don’t mean to sound like the creepy old guy, but you’re both extremely hot too” Randy said, “and you’re gonna have every guy in that place all over you. Bringing others into your sex life… even if it’s just watching… can be incredible, it can also fuck things up.”

“We think you guys are awesome together and just want to make sure you know what you’re getting into” Kev said. Then the two of them started to tell us about some of their exploits together. “We had some great times, and even made some great friends along the way.” They told us they had met Alex and Adam at a bathhouse. A freaking bathhouse! They also told us that they had met Darren and Mauricio at a wild New Year’s party they had in Vegas that basically turned into an orgy. I couldn’t believe what they were telling us. They were treating us like adults. Like friends.

“Listen,” Randy continued “We’re telling you this because we get it. We know what it’s like to be curious and want to explore, it’s fun as hell! But it can also come with conflict, confusing feelings, guilt, arguments, jealousy.”

“Seth, we love you, and Zach, we think you’re awesome and we love the two of you together” Kev said. “We just want you to be smart, and don’t want you to do anything tonight that you’ll regret.”

“And talk. Talk about fucking everything” Randy said. “Set limits, talk about what you’re comfortable with, make rules, agree to stop if one of you gets uncomfortable.” Zach and I looked at each other, he nodded at me.

“I love Seth. We’re also both extremely inexperienced and curious. We just want to see what goes on” Zach explained. “We’ve already talked and set some guidelines and agreed not to do anything unless we’re both completely comfortable with it.” Then he paused before continuing “I am so… impressed, and… and grateful that you guys care enough to sit us down and be so frank. Thank you both. I hear what you’re saying to us.”

“So do I” I added. “Thank you guys for always being there for me, and now for us. We promise to be smart. Okay?” Randy and Kev nodded. They said what they had to say, then hugged us goodbye. We promised to see them at breakfast before we left. That was the thing about the adults in my world over the past few years, they were honest with me, guided me, but let me make my own decisions. On the way home Zach went on about how impressed, and envious he was that the adults in my life were so open about sex and so involved in my life.

“They told us about their sex life!” He laughed. “I can’t believe that! My parents would never do that. WOW!” he laughed again, he just couldn’t believe our discussion.

“Well, your dad kind of did the same when he told you he was bi. Just like Kev and Randy, he shared private things about his past when he thought it would help you” I said. “That’s pretty impressive too.” Zach nodded in agreement. The rest of the way home we talked about our decision to go to The Resort and what we were comfortable with. We were going to satisfy our curiosity. We were young, and our relationship was strong enough to handle it.

When we got home, we took a little nap. Matty and Baby Scotty wore us the hell out! After about an hour we got up, showered, and then headed off to The Resort, but not before Scotty and Brad sat us down and had a discussion with us. It was pretty much a rehash of the conversation we had with Kev and Randy. We heard what they had to say, and thanked them, then we were finally off to the resort.

We pulled into the parking lot and found a spot. I looked at Zach and gave him a kiss “Are you sure about this?” I asked. “We can still turn back.”

“I know you don’t wanna turn back, you’ve been thinking about it for three years” Zach said, “plus, after the other night, I am so fucking curious!” He said with a devilish grin. “And you know it’s gonna be fun. If I get out of my comfort zone, I’ll tell you. You promise to do the same?”

“Yup. Promise” I said as I kissed him. Just then Cam’s old white Fiat drove up and parked next to us. We got out of our cars and talked for a while. “How’d it go with your parents?” I asked before he even shut the car door.

“Surprisingly good” He said. “I haven’t officially convinced them yet, but we opened the discussion, they listened, and we’re gonna talk more before I leave.”

“You feel good about it?” I said.

“Yup, it’s like a big weight has been lifted” He said smiling.

Then we talked to him about all our conversations with each other, and my family and made him promise to let us know if he got in too deep. He promised. We all took a deep breath and entered The Resort through the spa entrance off to the side. The attendant had Zach and I on the guest list, Cam bought a day pass. He gave us wristbands and told us that we were welcome to use any of the spa amenities but were not allowed in the bar or hotel areas. The three of us entered together. We went through the beautiful atrium and into the guest locker room where the three of us undressed. It had been a couple of years since I had seen Cam naked, he had bulked up a bit and it looked awesome on him. He was always a little too skinny, the extra weight served him well. Neither he nor Zach had ever seen each other naked. They were doing their best to be sly about it, but their curiosity got the best of them, and their glances were obvious. They both looked over at me before we wrapped all ourselves in towels, I was semi-hard… so were they.

“Well, are you guys ready?” I asked with a nervous smile on my face. The other two donned nervous smiles too and nodded. We walked out of the locker room, through the big metal doors and into the pool area. Damn! There were hot naked guys everywhere. We scoped out a couple of empty lounge chairs in an alcove off to the side, Zach found a third lounge chair and pulled it over. I looked at Zach and Cam and said, “well here it goes” then dropped my towel and sat in the middle lounger, propped up so I could watch the action. The other two dropped their towels and sat down on either side of me. For the first several minutes we all just scanned the area and noticed that we were the center of attention, the twink, the twunk, and the beefcake… all barely legal in a spa full of hot naked guys.

Our eyes were wide as we looked around and took it all in. I was glad that no one I knew was there, I was so afraid we’d run into some of my brothers’ friends, they all had memberships. But I had a feeling they all knew we were there and were giving us our space. My eyes were drawn to a younger couple sitting on the edge of the hot tub. They were in their early twenties, one had very curly blonde hair and a very toned body covered with a perfectly trimmed dusting of hair. His companion had a slightly darker complexation, with a similar build and light brown hair. What got my attention was that they were stroking each other’s hard, girthy dicks and looking right at the three of us as they did.

I had been curious about that place for almost three years and had waited over a year to get in, now that I was there, I was nervous and intimidated. Maybe it was a mistake to bring Zach there. I mean, c’mon… he was the prize. He was the one that everyone was looking at. As I was lost in my own thoughts, I felt Zach’s hand on my cock. I looked over at him in surprise. There he sat, mischievous grin on his face, warm hand on my cock. I grinned back at him and reached for his manhood.

“Ahem” Cam cleared his throat. I looked to my other side and saw him stroking his cock and staring at our hands on each other. He was bigger than I had remembered. He looked up at me then started to reach over to join his hand with Zach’s on my manhood. I shook my head no. That was against the ground rules, and I knew if the three of us did something together it would be a disaster. Cam pulled his hand back as his face turned red, he knew he was about to cross a line. Zach didn’t see the attempt, and it was soon forgotten as we looked around and realized that all eyes were on us and a lot of the guys were stroking themselves. We had started a chain reaction around the pool.

“I need to go take a piss” Cam said as he jumped off the lounger, threw his towel over his shoulder, and let his erection point the way to the bathroom. We just sat there mindlessly stroking each other as we looked around and waited for Cam’s return.

“We have an audience” I said.

“Maybe we should put on a better show” Zach said with the devil in his eyes.

“What are you thinking?” I said with a tilted head and knowing grin. Zach’s grin grew wider as he took his hand off my cock, got off his lounge chair and moved in front of me. He pushed my legs to either side of the lounger and sat at the foot of the chair. Looking me in the eyes he went down and took my cock in his hand, then he bent down and licked it, starting at my balls, and going up to my piss slit with one long lick. Then he took me down his throat in one huge gulp. I was self-conscious with all the eyes on us, and nervous that Cam would come back, I was also a little shocked (and impressed) that my recently closeted boyfriend was being so bold.

Zach continued to give me an incredible blowjob, moving his mouth and his hand up and down my engorged shaft. Oh my god it felt incredible, and the fact that there were several hot guys watching us and getting off on it just cranked up the hotness to the Nth degree. Zach’s blowjob started a chain reaction, there were at least three other couples having oral sex around us. The hot, younger couple sitting on the edge of the hot tub got up and started to walk over to us. I whispered to Zach “the guys from the hot tub are on their way over.” He took my cock out of his mouth for a moment and said “Bring ‘em on.” His words shocked me. What did he mean? Did he just want them to watch, or did he want to engage with them? What if Zach thinks they’re better than me? Oh my god! I’m the one who had pushed this, but now that we were here, and it was happening I wasn’t sure what my end game was. What did I want from this? I had no clue, I was thinking with my dick, that’s how we got here. Now that it was happening my head was taking over and my brain wasn’t wired to handle this kind of crazy, kinky, group sex. I was starting to panic a little as Zach calmly gave me the blowjob of my life.

He must’ve sensed my panic because he came off my dick, kissed me, then whispered in my ear “If you’re not okay with this, we can stop.”

I thought for a minute as I looked into his eyes, “I’m okay” I said. “Just a little overwhelmed. I’ve wanted to come here for so long, and now that I’m here I’m not really sure what to do.”

“How about you just try to enjoy being the center of attention while I pleasure you” Zach said in a seductive voice as he moved back between my legs, then pushed them up so he could get access to my hole. I sat there in the middle of the spa area with my legs up in the air and stretched far apart, and my hole exposed. He started rimming me right there in front of everyone as he did his best to maintain eye contact with me. The couple from the hot tub came and sat down, on on either side of me, taking over the lounge chairs vacated by Zach and Cam. They were stroking their beautiful, uncut pricks as they intently watched Zach eat me out and work my cock with his right hand, stroking me up and down.

The man with the darker complexion reached over and tweaked my right nipple, startling me. His friend did the same to my other nipple. They both started moving their hands south. Zach took his hand off my cock and slapped their hands away “Sorry, guys. That’s all mine. But you’re welcome to watch.” Zach said with that amazing grin of his. The guys went back to watching as they tweaked my nipples and stroked their cocks. Within a few minutes Zach had me ready to shoot.

“Oh fuck, I’m gonna cum, Zach” I moaned as I thrashed my head from side-to-side and pushed his face deeper into my ass crack. God, it felt amazing having his tongue in me, his hand working my shaft, these two hot strangers tweaking my nipple, and god knows how many others just watching and getting off on it. It was so erotic, so carnal, so dirty, so… so… not me. But lust was in control now and I shot my load. Zach scrambled to change positions and take it down his throat. I shoved his head down hard and lifted my hips shooting everything I had down the throat of the man I loved. He gladly swallowed every drop. Just as I was basking in the afterglow of my public orgasm, the two gentlemen by my sides started to groan in ecstasy warning everyone of their orgasm… and believe me, everyone heard. Hot guys gathered around us jerking off, their loads landing on me. ON ME!!! It was disgustingly erotic and so hot.

Zach stood up and I leaned forward and took his cock in my mouth, I grabbed his ass cheeks pulling his full length deep into me, then I shoved a finger up his hole. That did it. I was rewarded with a load of Zach’s Jism. I swallowed every drop and licked his cock dry as he moaned in pleasure. He smiled down on me when he finished, and the spa area was filled with applause and whistled. We both turned bright red, but dammit it was hot.

The crowd soon dispersed, we both stood, and Zach kissed me on the lips “So, was that hot enough for you?” he asked.

I just snickered and let out a “damn” under my breath. Then I realized Cam had been gone for a while. “Hey, where’s Cam?” I asked.

Zach looked around the spa area and said, “the last time I saw him he was headed to the bathroom.” We put our towels around our waists and walked through the crowd of knowing eyes, and lust-filled smirks to the showers. After we cleaned up, we went looking for Cam. We scanned the pool area again, the hot tub, the sauna… no Cam. Then we went into the steam room. We made our way through the huge, curvy, mazed area. The steam was thick, but we could make out silhouettes of naked men sitting on the tiled ledges lining the walls, some set back in alcoves. Although I couldn’t see much through the steamy darkness, I could hear the unmistakable sounds of sex around us.

Then I heard Cam’s voice “You like that?” then I heard a slap “Take it! Beg me for more, fucker.” He yelled. We followed the sound of his voice. We turned a corner and there was Cam with his back to us. There was a man on his hands and knees on the tile platform in front of him. Cam was buried balls deep in the guy’s ass and he was pounding him hard and smacking his ass. I had never seen him look more forceful or in command. Cam was a meek, sensitive guy; this was a new side of Cam. It was like he was fucking away is frustration, the phrase ‘fuck the pain away’ popped into my head. I tried to see the man he was fucking, but couldn’t see much through the steam. He looked to be in his mid-twenties and muscular. I couldn’t make out his face, but I thought it was a guy I had seen earlier by the pool. If it was who I thought it was, he was hot as fuck. Zach and I exited the steam room and went back to the spa area, leaving Cam to have his fun.

When Cam came back to the pool area, we were naked, satisfied, and in our loungers sipping our Cokes. We had ordered an extra for Cam. “Where’ve you been?” I asked.

“Just looking around” he said, then looked at the extra soda sitting on the table between me and Zach and asked, “Is that for me?”

I handed him the glass and he took a sip and I said, “You like that? Take it, beg me for more.” And Zach broke into a fit of laughter as Cam blushed with embarrassment.

“Oh my god! What did you see? He asked as he fell back into the lounger chair. We just laughed, then told him about our experience, and what we saw. Then he told us all about fucking the guy in the steam room. We were all excited and in awe of our experience. It was just wild enough for all of us. We finished our drinks, then jumped naked into the pool and splashed around as the other men looked on. It was a fun afternoon, and it satisfied our curiosity.

The three of us left The Resort and went out for sushi at my favorite place in Scottsdale. It was Zach’s first-time having sushi and the look on his face after the first bite was priceless, Cam got a great pic! We had a lot of fun together that night, and I felt like I had my best friend back.

It had been an awesome trip, and we were all a little bummed out that we had to head back to school the next day, but we still had the rest of the evening to revel in our friendship and enjoy each other’s company.

To be continued…