Jordan

That night I saw my girl. Even though we got together and fucked basically every night, tonight in my head I was doing it because Jordan had told me to.

Damn. I was not gay. But I was crazy in love with this guy.

I not only hid my feelings for Jordan, but went into overdrive telling my girl what a great friend Jordan was, as I proceeded to give her the kindest fuck I had ever given anyone. She had no idea I was thinking all the time of Jordan, and whether he would be pleased with how I was listening to him.

Fuck. I even made sure I kept the condom, and made sure I tied it up so I could give my cum to him.

After I dropped her off, I drove around for a while.

I stopped in a quiet place where I could see Jordan’s house, and even watched as his bedroom light went out.

Damn. I wished I could be there, quietly crawling into bed with him. I even quietly cried in my truck at the thought of how wonderful it would be to be naked with him, all night long. Fuck. I never cried. Ever.

But the thought of just hugging him, naked, kissing him, submitting to him, all night long, just the two of us, overwhelmed me. I had never done anything but get serviced, in my whole life, but I knew I had to figure out how to go down on him. I needed him in me somehow. I wanted so badly to be one with him.

I sighed, and quietly headed home.

How would we make sense of this? As I undressed, still wishing it were him slowly undressing me, even holding my tied up condom, looking forward to giving it to him. To show I had listened to him, as I drifted off.

God I wanted this to work out somehow.

As I slept as peaceful as I remember sleeping for a long time, quietly saying his name, quietly trying to figure out how much I loved him, as I drifted off…

Of course I had some crazy dreams. In one Jordan was a girl. In another I was a girl. Others were just like a blur. I wanted to stay in each of them forever.

And before I knew it it was morning.

I hadn’t cum in my sleep for years, it seemed, but I suppose it shouldn’t have shocked me to wake up to what seemed like an enormous puddle of cum.

“You fucker,” I thought. I even quietly asked myself out loud how the hell he was doing that to me.

Damn. How could I have woken up loving him even more than when I fell to sleep last night?

I checked to make sure I still had the condom of cum for him. I even tasted a bit from my puddle. Damn. I had never done that before, as I thought of how effortlessly he seemed to swallow me. Fuck. I swear if he could swallow me whole I felt like he would happily do it.

I couldn’t help but wonder what he would taste like.

I had to distract myself at least a bit. I tried to feel embarrassed at how I cried alone in my truck last night.

I really couldn’t wait to see him.

So I headed off early.

And of course he wasn’t there.

Did he stay home? Was he sick? Had I fucked him too hard? Even as I told myself it was entirely his fault. He was the one that fucked himself, just using my cock. Damn. I hoped my big cock wasn’t going to cause a problem here. As if that had ever crossed my mind before.

I even thought about his cock. Shit. I am certain I had never done that before.

Where was he?

I checked my pocket to make sure I had his condom. Damn. I missed him. I desperately hoped I hadn’t been too rough, even as I was shocked that that thought even crossed my mind.

I saw my girl. She was ridiculously happy. Even she asked if I had seen Jordan yet.

I did my best to hide my real thoughts. Fuck. I certainly didn’t need any help thinking of Jordan.

And then she told me she had seen him. My heart skipped a beat. I tried so hard to be casual about it. I was doing ok, right? Jordan had asked me to fuck her, right?

I did my damnedest to be casual when I saw him. But my eyes were on fire, and both my heart and mind were racing.

Why the hell was my cock not also hard?

His blue eyes seemed a bit wet as I did my best to crawl inside them.

Fuck. I had to control myself a bit better, but I also had to have at least a few minutes with him.

I thought about that downstairs restroom. That should be quiet. I pulled myself together. Asked as casually as I could if he could possibly see me there in a few minutes.

My heart sighed relief when he said of course. Damn. I could listen to his voice forever. But mostly I didn’t want to have to crawl out of those fucking blue eyes of his.

I was hoping he wanted to see me even half as much as I needed to see him.

I was trying so hard to be casual. I am almost forgot to give him the condom.

Would he even know what it meant?

I sure as hell wasn’t going to tell him about watching his bedroom light go out.

And the few minutes took forever to go by.

But finally there he was.

I melted in his arms, even though I tried so hard to make sure I was hugging him tighter.

I was so happy and peaceful as he slipped down to his knees in front of me. So glad he still wanted me.

How did he do this so well?

My cock was so relieved as it entered his beautiful mouth. As I started shooting. All over him.

I wished so bad that I could cover his whole body with my seed. As he just kept kissing me. Making love to me from my cock. Fuck. I wanted it all over his heart. All over his brain. All over his soul.

And he just kept kissing me and kissing me, even as he lapped up my cum, and as he kept going and going, making me cum a second time in just a few minutes.

And he still kept kissing and kissing.

I was so damned relaxed. I knew he wanted more. I knew I wanted to give more.

Fuck. It was like he was milking everything I had out of me.

And before I knew it I started pissing.

Fuck.

Piss?

I had never thought of anything like that before.

As the adorable fucker just kept kissing. And swallowing.

Damn.

I was hoping like hell he wouldn’t be angry somehow later.

My hands were tied in his beautiful brown hair.

Fuck.

He even clenched my ass so I couldn’t get away.

How the hell did he make this so damn sexy?

I submitted.

I knew I would have to find a way to go down on him.

As we made love by my letting my piss go into his mouth, down his throat, into that belly.

Fuck.

I wanted to make him pregnant somehow.