Jax's Journey

Bonds of Friendship

Sitting there we watch the Races on TV like I would do on a Saturday if I didn’t have anything on as I always did back at home although I also had Dad for company then. Tay is sitting there finishing off his KFC as he is just giving me unhelpful advice “That one you should have bet on” he says looking at me with a smile on his face.

“Great work genius, it’s some A-grade hindsight” I say as I look at him and he smiles “I am an owner so I know my stuff” he says as I laugh. “You own the equivalent of half a leg in your uncle’s greyhound that is lucky to beat anything home,” I say laughing as he looks at me smirking.

“I own more than what you do” he says as I just glare at him “Yeah, well you know how many Dad owns” I say as Dad and his business partner own a lot of racehorses because he thinks that it’s better than letting money sit in the bank for hackers to get their hands on and steal.

We sit there as I keep checking my phone and watch the races as he looks at me “What are you waiting for?” he asks as I tell him that Dad has a horse racing on the Gold Coast today making its debut.

“So if it wins, do we celebrate?” he asks as I look at him wondering what he means. “What are you thinking?” I ask because the last thing that he needs today is more alcohol.

“I’m not drinking anything else while I’m here but I don’t really know” he says as I laugh and look at him. “You can just ask for sex,” I say to him as he smirks and winks at me as I shake my head.

Tay has a smile on his face “I don’t want you thinking that I’m easy” he says as I smirk and shake my head. “Oh, you’ve passed the stage of me thinking that you’re easy, if you were gay I’d say that you were a full-on slut”.

As I say that, Tay laughs hard “From what I’ve learnt in the past few days, you’ve certainly become the expert in that over the past few days” he says as I roll my eyes but then he is probably right.

“You do owe me for last night when you were in bed begging me and then just fell asleep” I say as he doesn’t wait for the celebrations as he smiles and then climbs onto my lap to start kissing me deeply.

The two of us make out passionately as our skin presses against each other we rip our shirts off against each other as his arms go over my shoulders. I feel his tongue pressing into my mouth as they wrestle and we both moan loudly as the connection between us feels so strong.

As we sit there I can feel Tay’s hard cock in his pants as his hands start massaging my shoulders. The feeling of Tay’s soft hands on my shoulders makes me moan loudly as we keep kissing as he pushes me down.

“Damn you are so fucking sexy,” he says as he starts to kiss down my body as I moan feeling his fingers on my nipples brushing them to tease them rather than to play with them as he kisses my ultra-smooth chest.

Tay’s tongue runs back up my chest as he kisses me, pinning his slightly bigger frame on me as I cannot move but I wouldn’t want to anyway. I look deep into Tay’s eyes as he smiles at me before I roll him over so I’m on top now.

“I love that you have that strength now,” he says as I just kiss him again. There is a natural softness in Tay’s skin that always feels amazing as my hands run down his chest grabbing and squeezing his pecs.

His moans fill the room as I lift the waistband on his pants and put my hand around his hard cock which pulsates once I run my fingers down his shaft slowly and gently as I feel it jump and see the goosebumps on his body as I feel his growing cock as I start kissing his neck.

Kissing his neck, Tay is in the zone right now as I go further down his body, kissing his pecs before circling his nipples with my tongue and flicking them.

As I do that, I feel Tay running his hand through my hair which for some reason feels so hot to me. My tongue alternates between Tay’s nipples as he moans as I suck on them, each getting their own special attention getting them harder.

Kissing back up his body, I’m rock hard and leaking profusely right now as I kiss his soft lips and feel him moaning into my mouth as our tongues wrestle again as Tay takes over and pushes me back to the couch.

The control that Tay has over me is amazing as I just submit as he gets rough pinning my arms down as he grabs my pecs and twists my nipples as I moan loving the feeling.

“Damn, that feels so fucking good,” I say and moan loudly as Tay keeps going with his hands over my body before he starts to run his tongue over my nipples and then down my abs before he slides my pants off and my cock springs up.

The pre-cum is shining off the tip of my head as Tay licks the head tasting the pre on his tongue. “Holy fuck” I moan as Tay still has my arms pinned down and he licks the shaft slowly, more in a teasing fashion than anything else right now.

My cock is pulsating as he slowly runs his tongue down the shaft as I lift my legs a bit so Tay can run his fingers around my balls and hole which he does right now. Tay starts to run his tongue down and around my full balls as his finger goes around my hole and starts to push in.

Pushing his finger into my hole, I moan loudly as Tay fingers me and then starts to suck my hard cock. I close my eyes overwhelmed by the feeling of having both my hole filled and cock sucked by Tay right now as I look at him with my cock disappearing down his throat.

As he sucks my cock, Tay is taking it all down his throat, gagging as it disappears down his throat. Tay lets go of my arms and I instantly start to hold his head down as his nose hits my bare skin as he gags loudly as it hits the back of his throat repeatedly.

I don’t let up on the speed of fucking this throat right now as he gags on my cock as I keep leaking to the back of his throat. Tay pushes me off because he doesn’t want me blowing my load yet and he crawls up my body to kiss me and then feed me his cock so that I could lube it up for him to fuck me.

Sucking on his cock comes so naturally to me as I swirl my tongue around his head listening to him moan as he feeds it to me. Tay starts slowly before pushing his hard cock down my throat as I can tase the pre already leaking down my throat.

“Oh Jax, fuck” Tay moans as I slurp on it loudly as he starts to pick up the speed. I just lay there with my mouth open as if my mouth was a fleshjack for him to fuck. Tay fucks my throat hard as in the background, the TV keeps going on with the races on in the background.

What was meant to be a celebration fuck based on Dad’s horse winning just happened anyway as I’m laying on my couch, mouth open letting Tay face fuck me hard.

Tay keeps slamming his cock down my throat harder and faster than he did before as his balls slap my chin. As I feel him leaking more, I push him off me because I don’t want him blowing a load yet.

“What’s wrong?” Tay asks as I shake my head. “Nothing but thought you’d wanna fill me up,” I say as he just smiles as I tell him to lie down because I want to ride him. Tay does what I say as I climb over the top of him as I don’t know whether or not the couch was ever designed for two muscled adult men having sex on it but it’s gonna need to be strong.

Poised over his cock, I look at Tay “Ready?” I ask as Tay makes sure that he is in position so I can slide my ass down onto his cock. “OH FUCK” I moan loudly as I slide my tight hole over Tay’s hard cock which somehow feels like it is expanding inside me.

I breathe heavily as I try to adjust myself so that I can start riding him thoroughly. Tay just lays there so I can start doing the work. I start to bounce on his cock, doing the work as we both moan loudly. Even though I started doing the work, Tay can’t help himself but take hold of my hips and starts fucking me hard.

Tay has taken full control of me as he starts pounding up into my hole. “Oh fuck” I moan loudly as he jackhammers my prostate as I feel him leaking deep inside of me.

“My god that feels so good” he says as I feel him hitting my prostate hard as I can feel cum running through my hole as Tay is leaking inside me right now as his eyes roll into the back of his head.

“Damn, you’re leaking hard” as I moan loudly as he picks up the speed of the jackhammering as it goes hard at my prostate. Pushing me up, Tay rolls me over and onto my back and lifts my legs onto his shoulders and presses his hard cock on my twitching pink hole that is lubed up by his leaking cum from when I was riding him.

My muscled legs in the air as Tay continues to tease my hole with the head of his leaking cock. “Oh dammit Tay, get back in my hole” I moan as he keeps teasing me as he bends over to kiss me as we both moan loudly before he pulls back up and now starts to push back inside me.

I close my eyes as he starts going in slowly as his cock is stretching my hole again as he goes all the way in. “OH FUCK YES,” I moan loudly as I open my eyes and see the sweat dripping off Tay’s firm muscled body and down onto mine. The sweat now running down his abs as he picks up the speed of fucking my hole.

Tay pushes all of his power through my body as he grunts letting out his raw animalistic energy as the Alpha male shows who is the boss between us even if it is only temporarily me at times. The alpha male domination is a side of Tay that doesn’t come out all that often but I always love it when it does because he just takes control of my hole and body.

The force of each thrust from Tay’s hips goes right through my body as my pecs bounce as the power goes through my body. Tay slams his cock into me hard, pounding my prostate hard, I moan begging for his cock.

“Fuck me harder Tay” I moan as he smiles and the world around us feels as if time is standing still because as much as the noise of the world is going on around us, we’re completely oblivious to it.

“CUM IN ME” I moan as Tay doesn’t need an invitation to fill my hole but my begging turns him on further as he goes harder slamming into me deeply as I continue moaning and submitting to his bigger frame.

Tay continues to slam me deeply as I close my eyes and hear him grunting louder than I’ve ever heard him “Oh fuck yeah, take my cock” he says as I feel my own load about to explode.

“Fuck I’m gonna blow” I say as I see Tay smiling s without warning I let loose with two huge loads that fly up onto Tay’s face, my body, his body and all over the couch.

Tay keeps pounding me until without warning he starts to blow his own warm massive load inside me as it fills my hole as he fucks it deep inside me, still thrusting before finally pulling out and kissing me before falling to the floor exhausted.

Laying on the floor, Tay looks at my TV as the races are still on and he sees that the next race up is Race 7 from the Gold Coast as he looks over at me “What race was the horse in?” he asks as I’m still flat on my back recovering.

“4, 1200m Maiden,” I tell him as he laughs at me as I say that. “What is so funny?” I ask as I don’t realise how long we were at it for then.

“They are up to Race 7 and it was the third when we got back” I just shake my head still recovering as finally I get up, my body exhausted and cum soaked right now. “I thought that we were gonna do this as a celebration if he won” I say as Tay laughs and shrugs as he is still on the floor as I lay next to him and rub his chest.

“Something came over you that I have not seen in so long” I say still rubbing his chest as I smile and he looks at me.

Tay kisses me then looks at me as my head goes onto his shoulder “It just felt like what we needed or at least what I needed” he says as I laugh and nod my head because even though I’m now almost the same size as him and how different the sex is now compared to the old times of Tay being so dominant.

“It’s always so amazing when we go back to the good old days, that straight hard fucker days” the two of us just lay there naked as I wish that I could just keep him here but he needs to be back home with his Mum.

“Should you check how it went so we can celebrate?” he says as I look at him because I thought that was our celebration. “What sort of celebration are you thinking this time?” I laugh as he shrugs and I check my phone for the results.

“Guess our celebration was a bit premature” I say as Tay shrugs “Well that was a good premature unlike other things” I laugh as I read the results. “Scratched at the barrier, got kicked by another horse,” I say as Tay looks disappointed. “Can’t even say we celebrated it racing” I say as he starts to stroke my hair as we lay there.

“I love having you around so much,” I say as he kisses me and looks at me. “Same here Jax and I love you too,” he says as I’m surprised as he smiles but I know what he means.

I look into his eyes “I know you do but just in our weird bromance way” I say as we get up and have a shower. Tay gets out of the shower and looks at me “I hope you don’t mind but I just wanna go for a walk and ring Mum to talk” he says as I nod and tell him that I didn’t want to be clingy or smother him as he shakes his head telling me that I’m not.

Taylor gets up and has a quick shower before chucking on a short pair of shorts that he bought the other day that show off his legs and his white Calvin Klein T-shirt and heads out for his walk so that he can go shopping.

After Tay heads out, I grab my journal and sit on the balcony as I start writing about how I am feeling because it has been a few days. As I sit there thinking about things, my mind is overflowing with emotion thinking about how much Tay is struggling even though he hasn’t wanted to really open up.

“Thinking about these few days, Tay being here has made me think about what the situation would be like if the roles were reversed” I’m thinking about how much Tay has helped me in the past and that right now I can’t be there 24/7 like he was for me.

I sit there thinking about the night Tay with me up the mountains when I didn’t think that life could go on anymore.

Things hadn’t been going well at work when my office was being bought out and I was one of the first that was made redundant and it felt like my life was unravelling with all my efforts being for nothing.

It’d been a few weeks since I was getting job rejections left, right and centre and it was just getting too much for me to handle because I’d already fought myself out of one pit and I had just felt that there was no point because I couldn’t do it again. That night, I sat down at my desk and just wrote a note which I still keep to remember where I came from.

“Dear Mum and Dad,

I’m beaten, I fought the battle and when I thought I’d won it, the war is still going.

The thought of fighting any more is too much and I’m just mentally exhausted and I don’t have the energy to put into the fight anymore.

Please don’t blame yourselves because you did more than you ever could and what I expected but there are some wars out there that are just never won and sadly this is one of them.

I appreciate the love and support you both as well as the love Benj gave me when I came out, I could never pay it back to you.

Whatever you do, please don’t be sad as hard as that will be but be appreciate the good in my life and that I’m not out of pain.

I love you all so much but it’s time to end the pain and when we meet again, I’ll be waiting for you

Love Jax, xxx ooo”

I left the note on the dining room table where no matter what day it was, we all had breakfast together and held so many memories together.

After leaving the note on the table I wander back to my room and put on my footy jersey and grab my bear Patches that I got on the day that I was born and still have to this day sitting on a shelf in my bedroom.

I grabbed my stuff only taking my phone and wallet up to the mountains as I parked my car and wandered to the lookout. I sat there for a few minutes before I took a picture of the lights in the distance and sent it to Tay with the caption “It’s time” which I think he understood.

I just sat there trying to come up with something I could leave Tay but was speechless because I felt it harder to talk to Tay about him what happened.

As time went on, I needed to take my time just to make sure that I had everything solved as I was sitting on the other side of the guard rail when I heard the screech of brakes and saw Tay still in his PJs running towards the barrier.

“DON’T DO IT JAX”.

I still remember that in the middle of Winter, Tay wearing an Adidas gym singlet and red checked PJ pants not caring about the minus three temperature as he got there. Where I was had to be at least an hour's drive from Tay’s place but it had only just been over 30 minutes from when I texted him.

“I didn’t want you here for this, so just go” I say as with no hesitation he climbs the guard rail and sits down on the edge of the cliff which is a couple of hundred metres below us as he sits down next to me holding my hand.

Most of the morning was a blur because I don’t know what happened but I know that Tay sat with me in the freezing cold for 4 or 5 hours just holding my hand trying to make sure that I didn’t jump.

What Tay did for me that night is the reason I’m still here and why I am forever in his debt and makes me want to be there for him the same way he is for me.

I finish writing and head back in and watch the Women’s cricket on TV as I’m sitting there waiting and worrying about Tay. It’s just after 7 when he gets in “Got lost” he says carrying in Nando’s and putting it on the kitchen bench.

Smirking, I have a look across at him “The city is literally a grid, you have ZERO reason to get lost” I say laughing as I still can’t get over Tay’s lack of directional sense.

I watch him and see that he is feeling much better “You feeling better?” I ask as he nods.

The big smile coming over his face is a big relief for me as I can tell how happy he is “Yeah, talked to Mum for quite a while about everything and I was honest with her about how much of a struggle that it has been for me even though it probably seems selfish but she just told me that it was natural to be scared but not to let it consume me.”

I nod and let Tay talk through everything and see that he feels better which is good because he just needed to get it out. We watch the cricket but more just joke around together as we cuddle up and he has his head on my shoulder before I get up and have my shower.

I get out of the shower and walk into the living room completely naked “So what’s happening tomorrow” I ask grabbing a pair of shorts out of my washing basket.

“Not sure, I’m on the 6 pm flight so can take things easy,” he says as I nod.

“You know that I can’t drive you to the airport right?” I say as Tay nods and smiles at me. “I know that because of your new life, you’re so eco-friendly now” as he jokes at my new metro lifestyle when really I just didn’t bring my car because of the cost of petrol and not having much idea of what parking there was here.

“Haha very funny,” I say as I sit there next to him and we start to watch a movie together. Tay falls asleep as he lays there peacefully with all his dramas at home beyond him right now at this moment.

I get up and stand again on the balcony taking in the lights and pondering what my next move is going to be so I can think about how to help Tay.

Sitting back inside, I grab my laptop so I can look at flights to Sydney as Tay wakes up and sees me sitting there. “What do you think that you are doing? Tay says as he sees what I’m doing and the dates that I am looking at tickets for.

“I don’t want to leave you alone, I’m not going to feel right having you go through all that without me,” I say as Tay grabs my mouse and closes the tab of the booking website.

“I keep telling you that what I need from you is to be here and happy” I try to argue with Tay but he puts his finger on my lips. “You being back in Sydney doesn’t help anyone and we talk and text as much as we always did plus I’m gonna need somewhere cheap to escape to” he says before kissing my cheek.

I nod and smile at him as he says “I know but I owe you so much and I want to be there for you like you were for me” I say as Tay grabs my shoulders and looks directly at me.

“If best friends owe each other debts then they aren’t best friends” he says as Tay tells me yet again that his theory to his closest friends is that he thinks the only thing owed is the friendship itself and that we don’t do things to call in favours later on.

I nod and accept what Tay has to say as we go back and watch another movie before bed.