Helping a friend figure things out

Figured out

It’s late August and I’m heading back to university in three days. I have so much left to do, I haven’t even started to pack my things up yet. This is the first time since I started school that I wish I could stay home a little longer. It’s probably because I haven’t seen Noah in over a month.

For the last half of the summer, Noah has been extremely difficult to get a hold of. When we first started hooking up, after he told me he had a crush on me for a while, I assumed it would be simple and fun. It’s been a lot of fun, but nowhere near simple. We both still live at home with our families. His family went on a trip together for a few days. Right after they got back, I had family come and visit from abroad. They have been staying at our house for the last two weeks, so there hasn’t been much time to sneak out and see Noah. Take all of that, and add Noah’s work schedule, and we can’t figure it out. It’s not like we haven’t been trying. Two weeks ago, he texted me around midnight,

“Renz, I’m on my way home now. Go to the corner of your street, and I’ll pick you up. We can head out to the woods, and I can have you back in an hour, tops.”

If I was awake, I would have been there in an instant. I texted him a few days later,

“I’m by your house. If you’re alone, let’s fuck before you go to work.”

He was already at work, picking up shifts for some extra cash. It was dumb things like that back to back over a month.

Between our poorly timed attempts to get naked again, we texted. Mostly desperately horny texts about what we wanted to do with/to each other and the occasional nude. There were times, however, when we just talked. Even though his brother is my best friend, and I’ve known Noah for years, it felt like we were getting closer. I know it’s a foolish thing to think about a guy after being balls deep in each other, but it’s true. That’s why I don’t want to leave for school just yet. For fuck’s sake, we need to screw at least one more time before I leave.

I couldn’t put off packing any longer, so I started gathering my clothes and packing books into boxes, when my phone went off. It is a text from Noah.

“What are you doing tomorrow night?”

“Fuck all nothing. Are you going to be free?”

“Yeah, I have an idea too. Can I call?”

Before I can even reply, my phone is ringing.

“Hey...”

“I’m gonna have the house to myself tomorrow and I don’t have work. Can you come over?”

“Hey Noah, sure please call…What?”

“My mom is going on a trip with her new boyfriend. Joel is going to someone’s house, and I don’t have to work. What didn’t you get, college boy?”

“Oh my god you’re such a fucking prick,” I teased.

 “So…are you coming over or what?”

“That’s the dumbest question you’ve ever asked. Obviously, I will come over.”

 “Can you…stay the night?”

Noah’s voice had lost all of his confidence. He sounded genuinely nervous that I would turn him down. How can I say no to that? Of course I’m going to stay over, it wasn’t a question in my mind to be honest.

“Yes, you idiot. I’m all yours until Sunday morning.”

“Perfect! I’ll pick you up after everyone leaves.” Noah ended the call just as quickly as it started.

I finally had the inspiration to get all my packing done tonight. As I packed, I thought back to months ago when we first hooked up. I was naïve enough to think that I could keep this strictly physical and not get emotionally invested. I keep telling myself that it’s just a casual thing and not to get too invested in it. But then I’ll get a text from Noah and his voice will be reading it in my head. I’ll smell his cologne on someone else and start getting hard. Or worse, I’ll be hanging out with his brother Joel at their house and I’ll peek into Noah’s room as I walk by. I’m hoping he’s in there and I can say hi real quick, or at least smile at him as I walk by, but he’s never there when I am. I was completely enamored by him, and there was no way this was going to end well for me.

Friday night and Saturday flew by. I spent them frantically getting all of my stuff packed. Noah texted me a few minutes ago, letting me know he was on his way to pick me up. I am waiting for him down the street from my parents’ house. I'm a bit anxious for some reason, not that I don’t want my parents to see Noah picking me up. I couldn’t sit still in the house, so I went out and walked down the street. After a while, I arrived at the corner where I stopped and lit up a cigarette. A few minutes later, I saw Noah’s truck approaching me. He pulled over in front of, and I got in. My nervousness faded away when I saw him smiling at me. He had country music playing through his speakers and leaned over to kiss me hello.

“Sup buuuddy,” he said, half-jokingly.

I laughed because I don’t know how to react. I feel confused by the signals I’m getting. I know it’s because I’m over-analyzing him, but I can’t stop myself.

We BS on the way to his house, just catching up and small talk stuff. When we get inside, Noah calls out,

“Hello! Anyone home?”

We waited for a response but it was completely silent. He took his shoes off by the door,

“Just checking,” he said with a smirk.

I turned to close the front door and when I turned back around Noah grabbed my neck, knocking the hat off of my head, pulling my face down to his for another kiss. I savored the taste of his lips and pulled his body closer to mine as we kissed by the doorway. It was tender at first, but quickly ramped up to us ravenously making out against the front door. His one hand grabbing my ass as our bodies intertwined, his dick rubbing up against mine, both of us getting harder by the second.

Almost as quickly as it started, it began to end. Noah pulled himself away from me.

“Hold on one sec,” he said as he started to walk away from me.

“Where are you going?”

“I’ll be right back, don’t worry.”

“Fiiine, I’ll be here I guess.” I said with heavy sarcasm.

He turned the corner and headed down the hallway. I wanted so badly to follow him down that hallway, but I stayed where I was like he asked. I took my shoes off, put them next to the others by the door, and took a seat on the couch. It wasn’t long before Noah came back. I felt him place his hands on my shoulders from behind the couch.

 “Wanna move this to my room?”

I turned around, and he was standing there in his underwear, smiling down at me. I almost forgot how good he looked. His compact athletic frame, olive skin bathed in the warm glow from the incandescent light, the front of his boxer briefs displaying the most inviting bulge. Without words, I got up and followed him down the hallway to his room.

He opens the door, and it looks so different from how it usually looks. It actually looks clean. Not only does it look clean, but it smells amazing. Gone is the mix of old clothes and cigarettes, it was replaced with a mix of pine, citrus, and other spices. It was like being out in the back of his truck the first time we hooked up. The source of the smell was two lit candles, one on his desk and the other on his dresser. There was the dull sound of more country music coming from a speaker he placed next to his TV. He was definitely trying to set a mood, and it was working.

“Wow,” I remarked as I followed him inside, “this is…different.”

“Too much? I figured we should go out strong. We never had a proper night together.”

“I like it a lot. I just want to be clear though. What are we to you?” I asked.

I immediately regretted asking him that. I should have just said I liked it and got on my knees, but I couldn’t help it. I need to know what he thinks we are so I can stop overthinking everything. Without hesitation, Noah replies,

 “Fuck buddies, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be a bit more romantic,” he grinned.

God damn, why does he have to be so charming. He steps towards me and kisses me softly on the lips. He runs his hands up my shirt from my waist to my chest, effortlessly lifting over my head and discarding it on the floor. He directs me towards his bed, his kisses growing more intense. Our fingers intermingling on the button to my jeans, both of us trying to undo them as fast as possible. At the edge of the bed he drops to his knees, grasping my pants by the waist and pulling everything slowly off at once. His lips touring my thigh with soft kisses as he came up to meet my cock. He opened his mouth wide and stuck out his tongue, licking my balls with long firm strokes before gliding up my shaft to the tip, licking the tip of my dick lightly. He flicked his tongue all around it before wrapping his lips briefly around the head. He pulled back and pushed me back onto his bed, following me onto the mattress. I put my head back and closed my eyes as Noah dropped his head down and took my dick into his mouth again.

He started off shallow and slow, caressing it with his tongue on every stroke. He started to go faster and deeper, his lips dropping down to the base. The sound of him loudly slurping on my dick was music to my ears, his head bobbing wildly up and down.

He slowed down for a second to take my cock all the way into his throat, pausing at the base to hold all of me inside of him. He closed his lips around me to suck gently as he slid back up my shaft. I let out a light moan as he neared the tip and he plunged right back down to the base to do it all again. He gagged and took his mouth off of me, I was completely drenched in his spit. He caught his breath for a moment and went down on me again.

I opened my eyes to look down at him, he was laying on his side with his back facing me, his gorgeous round ass was begging to be touched. I ran my fingers down his back and slipped my fingers down the back of his underwear, grabbing a handful of his muscular butt with my hand. I let go to slide my hand down his crack, until I could feel his hot, tight asshole. Using my index and ring fingers to spread his cheeks apart, I took the tip of my middle finger and lightly massaged around the rim of his hole. Circling it with my finger before lightly probing it with my fingertip. Noah was pressing his ass back, aching to get my fingers inside of him, but I kept teasing instead. Grabbing his ass cheeks, spreading them wide open and running my fingers up and down his crack, brushing over his hole only to leave him wanting more. After having my fun for a few minutes I stopped and told Noah, “Get on all fours.”

He did as I asked and, got on all fours in front of me. I pulled his underwear down and off of his legs, exposing his ass to the warm candle light room. I could see his dick throbbing with anticipation underneath him. I knelt down behind him and spread his cheeks apart with both hands, kissing all over each one as I made my way down. Sticking my tongue out to lick his balls and taint from behind, covering every inch I could reach with saliva, I journeyed up further to see Noah’s tight hole craving my attention.

I pressed my mouth up against it and tickled the rim with my tongue before making long broad strokes with my tongue across it. I felt the peach fuzz on his ass stand on end.

“Oh…fuck…yes”, he whispered as he lowered his chest as low as possible onto his bed, his legs spreading wider and pushing back to let me deeper into his crack. My tongue darting into the center of his sweet hole, fluttering deeply, causing Noah to let out more moans of pleasure. I reached my hand between his legs to massage his balls, keeping my face buried in his ass. I took my hand slowly from his balls, up his cock to the tip of his dick, drops of pre-cum oozing out onto my fingers. I used his pre-cum as lube to start slowly jerking him off while I ate his ass.

I gave his hole a rest and moved down to sucking his balls again. I peeked through his legs to see his eyes closed, cheeks rosy with pleasure, biting his lips to keep the words in his mouth. I went back to his hole, driving my tongue as deep as I could into it still stroking his cock through his legs.

“OH MY GOD, fuck me already!” Noah begged.

I got up, grabbed the lube and covered my cock with it. I had been ignoring it this whole time, but I was dying to plunge it deep into his ass. I put more lube in my hand and inserted one finger in his ass, then two, stretching him out and getting lube deeper inside of him. The only thing on my mind is that if this is our last night together, I want to make it one we both won’t forget.

I take my fingers out of his ass, and lined my thick, round head up with his hole. I slapped my dick up against it a few times before pressing the tip inside. His snug hole taking in every inch of me as I slowly pressed further until the base of my cock reached his cheeks. I start pumping slowly, our bodies rocking back and forth in time with the music.

“Fuck me harder,” Noah asks as I thrust harder inside of him.

The music in the room was drowned out by our moans and the slapping of our bodies. I kept driving my cock into his wet hole, pounding him relentlessly while he let out oohs and mms. He spit into his hand and started to stroke his cock wildly saying,

“OH fuck yeah...Yeah… MHMM!”

He lifted his back up to my chest as I felt his body go stiff and his asshole spasm around my cock. I slowed down, going smoothly in and out of is quivering hole. I put my arm around his chest and pulled him closer to me as he shot his load all over his sheets.

 When he finished he sat back, pushing my ass onto my heels as he sank deeper into my lap. I could feel his ass pulsing from his orgasm. I turn his head to my face, his breath hitting my mouth as he leans back for a kiss. The hand that he was using to jerk himself off is now on the back of my neck pulling me closer. I grab his wrist as we break off the kiss. There is a string of pearly cum along the back of his hand and index finger. I lick it off, sucking his index finger into my mouth to not waste any of it.

I whisper into his ear, “We aren’t done yet...”

We smile at each other as I get up and pull his body to the edge of his bed. I stand on the floor behind him, and he bends over spreading his ass wide so I can see his hungry hole open and waiting for me to get back inside. I slide the tip back in and slam the rest in right away sending a shockwave up his back.

“Fuck…yes, more,” he whimpers.

I grab his hips with both hands, thrusting my cock up his ass unrelentingly. The items on his desk are rattling as I fuck him hard like he wants it. His dick is swinging wildly between his legs, more cum oozing out onto both of our thighs as it sways. I keep pumping, trying to keep the pace up for as long as possible until I feel myself about to cum. A few more pumps and I lean back pushing my cock as far inside Noah as it will go and shoot my load inside him. Every muscle in my body is clenched as stream after stream fills his ass.

I pull out and drop onto my back on the bed next to Noah. He lies down next to me and rests his head on my chest as we both try to catch our breath. My heart is pounding in my chest under his head, he looked up smiling at me and said

“Finally!”

It might have taken weeks to get together, but fuck it was worth it. He kept his head on my chest and I started to lightly comb my hand through his hair, massaging his scalp with my fingertips.

“Keep doing that, it feels amazing,” Noah requested.

I continued, and he let out a contented sigh, the room started to come back into focus, I could hear the music again from the speaker. We stayed like that for at least ten minutes before I felt I could get up. I looked down at Noah peacefully resting on my chest while I played with his hair, I didn’t want to disturb him but I was sweating my ass of still. I nudged his head and said

“Cig?”

He got up and walked over to his dresser and tossed me a pair of his gym shorts.

“Nah, I’m gonna shower. Join me when you’re done?”

“Fuck that, I’ll join you now!” I laughed tossing the shorts right back to him.

He blew out the candles and I followed him to the bathroom. It is next to his room, so we didn’t bother putting our clothes back on. It was a narrow bathroom with a small stall shower in the back corner. I watched Noah as he turned on the shower, thinking how the night was already so perfect and it had just begun. The water warmed up quickly and we both got in. Right away Noah poured shampoo into his hands and started working it into lather on my head. He stared up at me, and I found myself lost in his gaze. His eyes looked more vibrant than ever, like I was staring into a lush pine forest. His hands chased the suds down my neck, rubbing my shoulders and back as they made their way down to my waist. His strong, round fingers gliding down my soapy crack, caressing and teasing the rim of my hole. He pressed the tip of his finger against it, inserting it slowly deeper inside me as our faces crept closer together.  It was all ruined too soon when we heard three sharp knocks on the bathroom door, and someone on the other side started to push it open.

“Fuck,” Noah said in a low voice as he put his hand over my mouth.

 “Yo, Noah you didn’t respond to any of my texts. What’ve you been doing?”

It was his brother Joel. We were both too stunned to do anything. I nudged Noah because he had to say something.

“Don’t come in, I’m naked!”

“Okaaay…” Joel said, probably confused as to why someone in a shower would say they were obviously naked.

“Why does it smell like something’s burning in your room?” Joel continued.

It was the candles that he had just blown out. The smoke must have made it into the hallway. Noah was quick to respond,

“I snuck a cig in my room and lit a candle to cover the smell.”

“So you’re just in your room smoking cigs in candle light? That’s why you couldn’t answer your phone?” Joel knew something was up, but I don’t think he knew what.

“Yeah, is there a problem here? I thought I was going to house to myself tonight, so excuse me for having some fun.” Noah was trying to bluff his way out of anymore questions from his brother.

“Well, change of plans. When you’re done, get dressed and come have some drinks I invited some people over.”

Noah paused for a second and then answered, “Fine, I’ll be out in five.”

It seemed like Joel was satisfied with Noah’s answers and was going to leave us alone, but before he left he asked one more question.

 “Hey, have you heard from Renz at all today? I tried to invite him over but he didn’t get back to me either.”

“No, haven’t talked to him in a while,” Noah answered promptly.

“K, I’ll try calling him I guess.”

I grabbed Noah’s hand off of my lips and mouthed the words, “NO, MY PHONE IS IN YOUR ROOM”, as clearly as I could while shaking my head no. If Joel called it, he might hear it vibrate and go inside, that would expose both of us.

“No, don’t!” Noah blurted out.

“What? Why?” Joel asked, this is getting worse quick.

Noah looked at me and I looked back at him and shrugged. I didn’t have anything.

“I, uh, forgot I did talk to him earlier. He asked me to pick him up so he could come over, something about his car already being packed for school.”

I nodded frantically at him, it isn’t a bad lie. It doesn’t fix our situation, but maybe it buys us some more time.

“Ok, so where is he?”

I felt a chill go through my chest. Something told me that he knows what’s going on and is seeing if we will come clean.

“Did you pick him up yet?” Joel asked again.

“Oh…uh, no. Like I said I totally spaced and forgot until you said something. I’ll go right after I get out.”

“Ok cool. Thanks.”

Joel shut the door and a wave of relief washed over me. Noah turns to me breathing a sigh of relief,

“We’re still kinda fucked huh?”

“Could be worse right? At least now you can walk out the front door and act like you are picking me up. I can climb out your window and meet you around the corner.”

“Yeah, I guess it’s all we have. Or we come clean to Joel about you pounding the fuck out of my ass before.”

“Let’s hope it doesn’t come to that,” I joke.

We get out and dry off. Noah walks out first and stands down the hall from his room to make sure we are all good. I slip into his room as quick as possible, start getting dressed. He does the same and leaves out the front door. My shoes were still by the front door so I grabbed a pair out of Noah’s closet. They don’t fit great, but who gives a shit right now.

I hear his truck start up and that’s when I grab my hat and jacket, climb out the window, and walk to the neighboring block. I cut through a few backyards, and when I get to the other side Noah’s truck is there waiting for me. I climb up on the driver’s side to talk to Noah,

“Can you just park here and walk back with me?”

“Yeah, but why?”

I reach into the inside pocket of my jacket and pull out what I affectionately call my “emergency joint”. I could not think of a more fitting time to smoke it than now.

“So you just like, have a joint on you at all times?” Noah asked half-bemused.

“Basically…yeah.” I said as I drop off the side of his truck and start walking back to his house.

I hear him turn off the engine and he quickly jogs to meet me. We pass the joint back and forth as we stroll back to his house, not really talking at all. It has to be around 10 pm now, and it starts to drizzle as we are a few houses away, I can hear the faint rumble of thunder far away. I am feeling pretty high as we walk up the driveway to the front door. I didn’t notice how high we both were until I turned to Noah. He could barely keep his eyes open, and he had the biggest dopey grin on his face. He looks at me and bursts out laughing, I guess I don’t look much better. He reaches over and turns my hat around backwards, moving in closer to kiss me before we head inside.

Inside everyone is scattered throughout the main two rooms, there are maybe 10 people there max. There is music playing, drinking games, some people are playing pool, it is a pretty chill small party. Noah heads off to his room as I go over to Joel and his girlfriend, trying to act like nothing happened earlier. Noah comes and sits next to me, I don’t think either of us has said a word since we got in the door.

“You don’t think I know what’s going on here?” Joel asked as he pointed back and forth between me and Noah.

“Huh,” I said, trying not to panic.

“You guys are high as shit right now, you think we wouldn’t notice.”

A few people laugh and I feel more relaxed that he really doesn’t know where I was today.

 The night goes on, some people trickle off as it gets later. Others are getting drunk and deciding to stay the night. Around 2 or 3 everyone has either left or is staying the night. As they try to find a place to sleep for the night, I sneak down the hall and into Noah’s room. He isn’t in there yet so I quietly shut the door behind me, strip down to my boxer briefs, and climb into his bed. Seconds later, Noah opens the door, and smiles as he sees me half naked in his bed. He shuts the door behind him and said,

“I was hoping you would be in here.”

“I’m all yours until Sunday morning…remember?” I smirked at him.

“All mine? Does that mean you’ll do whatever I want?” Noah said as he slowly loosened his belt.

“Anything you want,” I said seductively.

Noah pulls his belt off and points to the floor in the middle of his room.

“Get on your knees and put your hands behind your back.”

He was never this dominant with me before, and I fucking love it. I got off of his bed and did as he told me. He got behind me and bound my wrists together behind my back with his belt, making sure to leave enough of the strap hanging so he would be able to get a good grip on it. He kissed my neck from behind and whispered in my ear,

“Please, stop me if you get uncomfortable.”

I don’t know what it was, but the combination of him bossing me around and then making sure I felt safe made me absolutely weak. I told him I would, and then he stood in front of me and dropped his pants to the floor. He put his hand on the back of my head and forced my face into his groin. I mouthed around the outline of the growing bulge in his underwear until he let go and push be back onto my heels.

He took the rest of his clothes off and tossed them on the floor. I tilted my head back and stuck out my tongue, eagerly waiting for him to get his cock in my mouth. He towered over me now, cradling the back of my head in one hand and his hard cock in the other. Before inserting it into my mouth he slapped my face with it playfully a few times. I smiled with my mouth wide open, still waiting to taste his dick.

He then rested the head of his dick on my outstretched tongue and I raised myself up off of my heels and swallowed his dick into my throat. I bobbed up and down, twisting me head, running my tongue along every inch of him each time. Noah breathlessly moaned as I went down on him. As I got to the base of his cock he pushed his hips forward, trying to get deeper down my throat. He did it again and I hummed quietly to try and let him know I wanted more. He took my hint and put both hands on each side of my head, holding me still so he could thrust his cock deep into my throat. I sucked my lips tighter around his dick and relaxed my throat as he started to thrust more rapidly into my face, his pubes crashed into my nose with each thrust. I moaned more and more as he fucked my face, stifling the urge to gag and cough. His balls making a wet slapping sound on the spit running down my chin and neck as he kept thrusting.

He let go of my head and pulled his cock out of my mouth.

“Get up against the wall,” Noah commanded as he pulled the loose belt strap around my wrists upward.

Again I did as he said and leaned my chest up against the wall next to his window. The wall felt ice cold on my skin as I rested against it. Noah dropped to his knees behind me and snatched my underwear down to my ankles aggressively. He quickly squirted lube into my crack and slid one finger, then two into my ass, getting it ready to receive his cock.

He got to his feet and lubed up his dick, and grabbed the restraint with his free hand. I arched back, spreading my cheeks apart so he could plunge his cock inside me. He quickly pressed the head of his dick against my hole and drove it as far as he could reach. My body jolted forward, pressing harder against the wall as he started moving in and out. He tightened his grip on the belt, arching my back more, as he leaned back grinding his hips against my ass.

“Mmm…Oh yeah!” I said before Noah reached a hand over my mouth to smother my moaning.

I forgot we weren’t alone in the house any more, but he never stopped fucking me and I continued to moan softly into his hand.

“If we go on my bed can you stay quiet?” Noah said.

“Mhm,” I hummed back.

He pulled out, and ushered me over to the bed still keeping my wrists bound behind my back. I knelt down on the bed and lowered my chest onto his mattress, burying my face in his sheets to muffle my voice. Noah got behind me again and thrust his dick back into my ass. I could feel pre-cum dripping from the tip of my dick as Noah fucked me faster, and I moaned as quietly as I could into his sheets. He let go of the belt and grabbed my hips with both hands, getting balls deep inside of me. Each thrust I could feel the pleasure building in my body until I was shooting cum all over his sheets.

Noah pulled out again and vigorously stroked his cock until he shot his load on my spread ass. He took his still throbbing dick and pressed some of his load deep into my ass slowly. I could feel him still pulsing inside me as he was pulling out again. He undid the belt and we both collapsed down next to each other on the bed.

Without saying a word he wiped my cum off of his sheets and pulled the comforter over our sweaty naked bodies. We must have fallen asleep like that because the next thing I heard was his bedroom door opening and Joel saying,

“Yo, wake up we have to clean before mom gets…What the fuck is going on here?!?”

I didn’t want to open my eyes because I so badly wanted this to be a bad dream. I knew it couldn’t look like anything else. Our clothes were strewn on the floor of Noah’s room, and I was spooning him in his bed, both of us still naked. I waited for the dream to change or for Joel to walk away but it didn’t change, and he wasn’t going anywhere.

“Fuuuuuuck…” I groaned as I opened my eyes to see my best friend looking pretty mad at the fact that I clearly fucked his brother.

“Lorenzo! What the fuck are you doing?!” Joel asked again. I knew he wasn’t happy because he almost never used my real name.

Noah sat up and said, “Do we have to do this now? Just go start cleaning, and you can yell at us in a few minutes when we’re dressed.”

“Fine, but just to be clear I’m not mad. I just don’t know what’s going on here,” Joel said as he turned and left.

There was nothing left for us to do but face whatever was coming to us. We got dressed without speaking, and headed out to the living room where Joel was waiting. Luckily, everyone else was gone by now and it was just the three of us. I started to clean to try and avoid the awkwardness in the room while Noah explained what was going on. He explained how he had a crush on me, and how we started hooking up, without going in to much detail thankfully. Joel was still confused because he didn’t know if that meant Noah was gay, and Noah didn’t know that for himself yet either. He kept saying how “irresponsible” we were being. Bringing up Noah’s baby mama, and how he needed to be acting more mature. I got yelled at for being a bad influence on Noah. To which I made it clear that he technically came on to me first, but that didn’t help. By the end of it Joel wasn’t upset anymore, I think it was more the shock of finding us in bed that made him react the way he did. Joel did take me home instead of Noah though.

The next day I left for school and didn’t see Noah until he visited me halfway through fall semester. We kept an on and off fling going for a few months, but it eventually fizzled. We tried dating a few years later, but that didn't work at all, we were always better fuck buddies than we were anything else.