Helping a friend figure things out

About me, my name is Lorenzo and I am currently 31 years old. I recently found a box of old journals I used to keep when I was in my teens and twenties in my attic. I was super into writing everything down then. When I was reading through them I came across a bunch of entries that I thought would be fun to share. I did change the names and remove specific locations to give anonymity to anyone in this story. I also didn’t realize how long it was until I typed this out, so sorry if it drags.

I just came back home after the spring semester of college. It is bittersweet being back in my hometown. On one hand, I am back with my best friend who I haven’t seen a lot over the past year. On the other hand, I am back in my parents’ house in our small rural ass town. I’m sure some people love it, but I will never understand why my family moved here. The whole reason I went to a large school in another state was that it could get so boring in this town. I love nature and all, but the place shuts down at like 8 pm. The best you could hope for is someone throwing a party in the woods somewhere, or something going on a few towns over. I planned on spending my summer lounging around with friends and getting high with my best friend Joel.

A little about me, my name is Lorenzo but everybody calls me Renzo or Renz for short. I am 20 years old, 5’11”, lean/fit build, olive skin tone with medium length dark brown hair and brown eyes, and a slight Italian accent. I was born in Napoli in Italy and lived there until I moved to the US the summer before I went into 7th grade. I am bisexual, but not really out to anyone from my hometown. The only person that knew I was bi was Joel. I assume any guy or girl I was dating/hooking up with thinks I am straight or gay. I’m not looking for anything serious so I don’t know if it’s worth it to explain every single time.

Joel’s family was one of the first ones I met when coming to the US. We were both in the concert band at school and after our winter concert, I heard his grandmother speaking Italian to his mom. I immediately went over and introduced myself. Before coming to the US I learned English at one of those “Cambridge type” institutes so my English accent was weird, it has since gotten very American. I spoke English well (sometimes too formal) but I was much more comfortable speaking Italian. Joel and I have been friends since 7th grade and we were almost inseparable. I spent so much time at his house over the years, it was like a second home. He lived with his mom and a younger brother.

We both went to different colleges and I couldn’t wait to be back in the same state as him again. Joel is a little bit shorter than me, olive skin tone too, curly light brown hair, brown eyes, and he had a more athletic body type. I thought he was cute but nothing ever happened between us. I mean, one time we were dating these girls who were friends, we played strip poker once and saw each other naked. We kissed one time on a dare, but I knew it was better not to ruin that friendship by trying too much with him. Joel only knew I was bi because he happened to see my ex-boyfriend and me at an unpopular park making out in a dugout. He was going there to smoke weed, and when he walked in and saw us on each other he just said “Whoa sorry!” and left quickly in his car. I called him later and we talked about it, being raised in a small rural town he was surprisingly cool with it. That was years ago and it never affected our friendship.

Anyway, this story isn’t really about Joel and me, it has to do with his younger brother Noah. Noah is only about a year younger than us, he and I would hang out occasionally. Not as much as Joel and I, but there would be times when Noah would hit me up to chill without Joel. Like when Joel was out with his girlfriend or whatever. Noah is 19, short 5’6”/5’7” max, olive skin, trim build, short straight light brown hair, and green eyes. I would be lying if I said I didn’t think he was cute too. I have always had a soft spot for guys that are shorter than me. I always saw him as innocent and naive even though he isn’t much younger than me. I feel like I am a bad influence on him too. I’m pretty sure I gave him his first cigarette, and beer, and got him high for his first time too. He and I used to drive around and have “heart-to-heart” talks a lot. We all just found out recently that he just knocked up his girlfriend, and she is due in January of next year. It is early summer, late May, and I got a text a few nights ago from Noah saying:

“Wanna hang out?”

I wasn’t doing anything that night so I said, “Sure, want me to meet you somewhere?”

“Nah, I’ll come pick you up. I’m out anyway”

“Not in your truck!!!”

“Yeah buddy!”

Noah has this ridiculous lifted pickup truck. In our town muddin’ is the thing to do. On the weekend people will take their lifted trucks to the woods and just drive in the mud. Not my scene but whatever. Idk if it’s because of how short he is, but this truck was too tall in my opinion. The tires came up to my chest and he had stepladders to get in.

In a few minutes, I heard his truck roaring down my street. I grabbed my pack of cigarettes and left. As I climbed into his truck I heard country music playing and thought -Jesus fucking Christ, what am I getting into tonight.

“Where are we going?” I asked

“Idk man, I just need to drive and vent. This baby shit is stressing me out.”

We talked about it as we drove towards the woods. I knew exactly where he was taking us. There were a few lakes in town that you could only get to by hiking or truck. When we hung out in high school he would go there because he had this monstrous truck. We would smoke cigarettes in the bed of his truck and bullshit. I was almost sure that was where he knocked up his girlfriend because that was Noah’s spot.

On the way out there he was venting about how things were going with his girlfriend.

“Nicole and I broke up finally.”

“What? What are you planning to do about your kid?”

“I’m still going to be a part of it, but we are just not good together. We weren’t good before she was pregnant, and knocking her up made it 1000 times worse. The worst part is I think she dumped me. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy to be out of that relationship. Her parents kept pushing us to get married because it is ‘right for the baby’. Neither of us really wants that. We both think we can parent better without being together. I must have been driving her crazy though dude.”

“So that’s it…Are you okay with that? Are you worried you won’t get to see your kid?”

“I am fine with it, I didn’t like her that much before we had sex. I was going to break up with her but she told me she was pregnant. We were still trying to figure out what the best option was going to be. As far as seeing my kid, I just spent most of today talking with her, her parents, and a lawyer about child support, custody & visitation. There is a whole plan in place already. I want to be a good dad, but that can’t happen with Nicole.”

“So what happened, why did she dump you?”

That was when we got to the lake--I fucking knew it-- and Noah said “I’ll tell you in a sec but first can I bum a cig?”

I passed him a cigarette and took one for myself as we both got out and hopped into the bed of his truck. He had lawn chairs back there, and he laid down some blankets he kept in his cab to keep the chairs from sliding all over the bed. I lit my cigarette as I sat in the chair and passed him the lighter. I asked him again “So what was the last straw with you two?”

“She kept saying I wasn’t putting in any effort, or my mind was always elsewhere. It was…so you can’t say she wasn’t right. I just didn’t think she would notice, it wasn’t like I was ever putting much effort in the first place.”

“Damn dude, what was on your mind? Being a dad?”

“Honestly no. I mean in some parts yes, but after finding out I was going to be a dad I started thinking a lot more about things that I used to just ignore. Could my life be different? Am I missing out?”

“Missing out on what?”

There was a long silence as he took a drag and I crushed the end of my cigarette into the ashtray.

“How did you know?” Noah asked.

I didn’t know what he meant so I said “How did I know what? That you were going to this lake? This is like your spot.”

“No,” he laughed, “how did you know you were bi?”

I was a little shocked because I didn’t know he knew that about me. “How do you know I’m bi?”

“You’re my friend and you have been best friends with my brother for years. Do you think I couldn’t hear you guys talking when you would hang out in the middle of the night playing Xbox? You weren’t quiet.”

He had a point we did talk a lot when we stayed up late playing video games, and his room was right next to the living room.

“Haha, well shit. I guess I thought nobody was fucking listening Noah! So you knew I was bi all these years?”

“Yeah, you guys always talked about who you were dating or hooking up with and you talked about that guy Leo for like a year straight. Plus I asked Joel if you were gay and he told me you were bi.”

“That mother fucker.”

“It’s cool I’m not judging. I am just curious how you knew you were bi and not straight or gay.”

“Idk from a young age I knew I found guys attractive and I felt the same way about girls. Just like how some people know they are straight or gay. I felt like if I said I was straight I would be lying to myself, and if I said I was gay I would also be lying to myself. I heard someone say it really nicely at a party. They said something like ‘If they’re pretty, I’m in.’ I don’t know, it kinda fits me. Outer beauty, inner beauty, whatever. I like pretty people and if they like me it’s a win-win.”

“And you had sex with both a guy and a girl?”

I had a feeling I knew why he was doing this but I played along. “Never together and not that I think it matters but yeah. Do you have something you are trying to say Noah?”

“Shit Renz, is it that obvious?”

“It wasn’t until you started asking me about liking guys. Do you like guys Noah?” I was half kidding when I said it because I really didn’t know how he would respond.

He let out a big sigh and frantically said,

“Idk man! I think so but I also don’t know. I think I like guys, but it’s really just one guy, does that count?”

“Of course that counts, why wouldn’t that count?”

“I still like girls, but I keep thinking what my life would be like if I acted on the thoughts I have about this guy. That’s why I think Nicole dumped me, I was always thinking about if I would be happy with this guy instead of her.”

“Did you talk to this guy, no offense but he might not be into it. It’s better not to get your hopes up. If you think you can talk to him about it, do it. If he says no, then you can put that shit behind you. Are you looking to date this guy or just want to experiment?”

“I am about to be a dad paying child support, I have enough drama without a relationship. I think I just want to see if I am into it or not.”

“So go for it. What’s the worst that happens, he says no, stops talking to you, and hates you forever. Big deal! On the upside, you might get to suck some cock!” We both laughed and it helped lighten the mood a bit.

“So who is the guy Noah?”

He was flustered which was cute “What!? I mean IDK if I should tell you. I have had a crush on him for a while and it might come off as creepy.”

“Why creepy?”

His face was now bright red, I could almost feel the heat coming off of it from my chair. He was looking down at the bed of the truck as he said “Idk..I have like pictures…of him…on my phone. Not like sneaky pics of him! Just pictures where we are in them together, or from a party or something. We hang out so it’s not like I’m in the bushes by his bedroom window or anything.”

“That doesn’t sound that bad. Can I see thought is he cute? Holy shit is it Leo!?”

He took another deep breath and got out his phone. He was searching around for the pics while he was looking I said, “Just show me the creepiest one so we can get that out of the way and I can decide if I think you’re a super creep or not.”

“Oh fuck…alright!”

He handed me his phone and then buried his head in his hands screaming “AHHHHH! I can’t believe I’m showing you this. Fucking kill me!”

I didn’t look yet and said “I don’t have to look, you can keep it a secret if you want. I won’t tell anyone.”

“No, it’s fine just do it before I change my mind.”

I turned his phone over and looked at the picture and I knew this picture really well. It was a picture of me after Joel’s graduation party where I maybe had drunk a bit too much and passed out early in my boxer briefs on the floor of their guest room. A bunch of “friends” came in and drew all over my back and legs. This was a picture that our friends would send to someone if you were getting too drunk or messed up at a party. Just me passed out covered in curse words, dicks, and boobs. At first, I thought he was just messing with me so I laughed and said “For real though, who is the guy?”

He just looked back and said, “Keep scrolling.”

I did keep scrolling and it was just more pictures with our friends in them, and some with just Noah and me. I don’t know what it was, but it took me painfully long to realize what was going on. When it finally dawned on me I looked up at Noah and said “Ohhhhh, is it me?”

“Wow, I thought you were supposed to be some smart college guy now.”

“Can we get back to this,” I said waving his phone around.

“I’m so sorry I know exactly how it looks. I told you it was creepy. Is this where you tell me to fuck off and never talk to me again?”

I took a minute to think about how to respond. To be honest I didn’t think it was such a big deal. It felt like a schoolboy crush. So he saved some pictures with me in them, that is literally what photos are for. There is nothing embarrassing about that. I scrolled back and forth through them one more time and then I think I figured out why he was embarrassed about these pictures. It wasn’t that he had them, it was what he did with them that was embarrassing. I was looking at a few pics of us at the beach from last summer and I turned the phone to face him and asked,

“Are you embarrassed because you do something while looking at this photo specifically?”

His whole body must have been red because even in the moonlight I could see his face glistening with nervous sweat.

“Fuuuuuuuuck!” he yelled into his hands.

I couldn’t help but mess with him. “Noah you little perv. I mean it’s a good pic but jerking off to a picture of a close friend like that…”

He shot back a “Fuck you!” and laughed.

“If you play your cards right you might get to.” I winked at him. Now his face perked up.

“I’m not mad about it, it is a little creepy but I get how it feels. Is that all you did or was I blind to some more nonsense?”

“You remember those few times I walked in on you while you were showering at our house? Those were not on accident.”

“Dude! You have it bad huh?”

“So I’m gay right? I have to be! I’m fucking obsessed sometimes, Renz!”

“That’s not really for me to tell you, man. The good news is I don’t think you’re a total creep and I think you’re really cute. So how bout it, wanna see what you’ve been fantasizing about?”

He looked up at me smiling and stunned. “Are you for real?! Like right now?”

“Depends, do you somehow have lube in your truck?”

He dug around in the cab through the back window for a backpack. When he pulled it out he was frantically digging through it and eventually pulled out a small bottle of lube with a huge grin on his face. I smiled back and laugh “I never had sex under the moonlight, should be very romantic”.

Then I got out of my chair and over to Noah and kissed him hard on the mouth. His lips were tight at first but they relaxed and opened up as his tongue slid out to meet mine. That kiss had a lot in it. I felt so much of his emotion that he had bottled up, and the yearning he felt just all coming out at once. We broke briefly and I said, “You already kissed a guy, do you want to do some more?”

He quickly nodded and he came back in for another kiss but before he did I stopped him “I’m going to take the lead. If it starts to be too much we can stop anytime, I won’t be mad. Cool?”

“Just shut the fuck up and kiss me again,” he said as he got out of his chair and pushed me down onto the blanket in the bed of his truck. He got on top of me and we were making out again. I put one hand on the back of his head and grabbed his ass with the other. Instantly, I felt something poking me in the leg and couldn’t help but smile.

His one hand had drifted down to my crotch and just kind of froze there. “It’s okay,” I said, “go for it.”

He started to fumble around with the button to my pants while trying to still kiss me. Eventually, he gave up on kissing my lips and pulled my head back by the hair on the back of my head, and started kissing/biting my neck. I was rock hard and dying for him to get that fucking button open! I felt my jeans loosen and then his hand was in my pants caressing and feeling my hard dick.

He tugged my jeans down to around my knees and started moving his mouth down my body. When he got to my waist I lifted up to let him pull my pants all the way off. This was the first point I sensed any hesitation in his actions. I could tell he was nervous and didn’t know what to do. I sat up and said to him “Do you want me to go first? I can help you get nice and relaxed.”

He looked me in the eyes and nodded. We stood up in the bed of his truck, I moved him towards a chair and got down on my knees to undo his pants. They were down in an instant and there he was standing in front of me in his boxer briefs with a raging boner. Even though it was dark I could still tell there was a large spot of pre-cum soaking the front of his underwear. I caressed his hard cock through his underwear and felt the wet spot where the tip of his dick was. I looked up at him and our eyes met as I mouthed his dick from outside his underwear. He looked back and nodded as he bit down on his lower lip. I wanted his first time with a guy to be good, not just like good sex but done at his pace. That way if he didn’t like it, it wasn’t because I rushed him into anything. If he did like it, I was pretty much guaranteed a summer fuck buddy at least, right?

I yanked down his boxers and his cock sprang back slapping against his body. His dick was average, probably around 6 inches, circumcised, his pubes around it were trimmed short but his balls and ass were covered in thick coarse hair. Some people don’t like hair, but personally, I don’t mind it. With his pants and underwear still around his ankles, I pushed him back to sit in the lawn chair. I started lightly licking and teasing the tip of his penis with my tongue. He was quietly moaning to himself and slightly arching his back trying to get more of his dick into my mouth, but it was too much fun to tease him a little longer. After a minute or so I wrapped my lips tightly around the head and took it all the way in until I felt his short pubes on my lips. I could taste the pre-cum dripping out of his dick and kept bobbing up and down as my mouth dripped endless amounts of saliva. I took it out of my mouth and licked down the shafting as I started to suck on his balls. I kept lightly stroking his cock while licking and sucking his nuts. Noah loved it, he was moaning and arching his back more. I could feel the steam coming off of his body. I pulled myself closer by putting one hand on the small of his back. I could feel the tiny droplets of sweat forming right above his round, firm ass. I went back down on his cock, really trying to make him cum. Just tons of spit, taking it deep as much as I could and running my tongue up and down his cock. His hands were now on the back of my head, not forcing me down, just grabbing fistfuls of my hair as if he was holding on for dear life. It was then I heard him say, “Wait…stop.”

I stopped and said, “What’s wrong?”

“You’re gonna make me cum and I don’t want to do that yet. It’s my turn, you sit down.”

“Do you want me to tell you if I’m going to cum?”

“No”

My dick was throbbing that entire time and I know the front of my underwear was essentially drenched in pre-cum. I sat down and he knelt in front of me. This time without any hesitation he pulled my underwear to my ankles and started licking up and down my shaft. My dick was about the same size as his, nothing impressive 6.5 inches, circumcised, I kept the pubes around it clean shaved but my balls and ass also had coarse black pubes in them. It was too much effort to shave balls and an ass in my opinion. He stopped licking and put the head of my dick in his mouth. He tried to do what I did and take the whole thing down on the first go and immediately I heard a loud gagging sound. He backed off and coughed I laughed and said, “You think it’s that easy? Just take your time, don’t do too much, and please watch your teeth”.

He smiled back at me and tried again. This time only going down a little bit at a time and using his tongue a lot. For a first-timer, he was doing better than I thought. He was really getting into it, slurping as he went up and down. He was massaging my balls and I could feel the drool spilling down my shaft. I looked down and watched Noah going down on me under the moonlight. I could just barely make out his face, with his lips wrapped around my dick as he took it as far as he could into his mouth. I couldn’t help but let out a few moans. I didn’t want him to ever stop, but when he took my dick out of his mouth and stroked it with his hand to take a break I knew he was getting tired. As he went back down on me I ran my hands through the hair on the top of his head and lightly pulled him off my dick and up to my mouth to kiss me. His lips were much plumper now and I could still feel the heat on them as we kissed.

“Do you want more?”

Again he looked me in the eyes and nodded “I’m down for whatever, you lead the way”

“Okay, have you ever had anything in your ass before?” I knew it was a dumb question, but I was trying to really go easy with him.

He shook his head. I pulled my shirt off and reached out and pulled his shirt off over his head and said, “Okay just lay down and do what I do.”

We laid down next to each other on the blankets in the bed of his truck, and for a moment I remembered we were doing this outside in the back of a fucking lifted pickup truck. I searched around for his pants, took the lube out of the pocket, and then lay back down next to him. We were positioned in a sideways 69. I figured I didn’t have to tell him what to do because he started sucking my dick again right as I settled in next to him. I did the same, but I spread his legs apart so I could reach his ass. While he was going down on me I grabbed his ass hard and pulled him in closer. He had a small ass but it was muscular and firm. I grabbed the bottle of lube and squirted some into my hand and liberally rubbed it all over his hole. I gently rubbed and massaged his asshole with my lubed hand to get him to relax. After a minute or so I lubed up my middle finger and passed the bottle down to Noah. He grabbed it and started doing what I did to him. I gently pressed the tip of my finger up against his asshole and kept pressing until I was able to get it in. I could feel how tight he was and knew this wasn’t going to be easy. While I left my finger in there I started going down on him to try and get him to loosen up. As I was sucking his cock I could feel him start to relax and I started to slowly move my finger around inside his hole. First, just kind of wiggling it and then slowly moving it in and out. He did the same to me and I could feel the hairs on his legs standing up and a slight tremble in his body. Idk if it was nerves, the cool air, or the excitement but he wasn’t stopping me so I kept going. I knew we didn’t have all the time in the world so I tried sliding in a second finger relatively quickly. His body jerked at first but he started to relax and I got it in there. We had both given up on sucking each other off because we both knew what was coming next. We lay there fingering each other until I said to him “Are you ready?”

“Fuck, I mean yeah…but who is doing what?”

“You’re gonna fuck me, and then after you finish I’m gonna fuck you. Where do you want me?”

He pointed right in front of him and said, “Bend over.”

I couldn’t believe this was actually happening now. Short, cute, little Noah was ordering me to bend over in front of him so he could fuck me and it was fucking hot. I got down on all fours in front of him and rested on my elbows. He got up behind me, slapped my ass, put some more lube on me, and lubed up his dick. I felt him pressing the head of his dick up against my hole. As soon as he got it inside I felt him slowly press all the way in until his hips were up against me. He started moving back and forth slowly at first. Then he started going a little harder and faster.

He grabbed my hips firmly and really started getting into it. He was thrusting as deep as he could go and all you could hear was the two of us moaning/grunting, and slapping flesh. He tried leaning forward to kiss the back of my neck but he was too short to reach. He laid his chest on my back and lifted his knees off the truck and started going faster. I could feel the sweat on his body and his breath panting on my back. His balls were slapping up against me and I almost couldn’t take it anymore. It didn’t take much longer as I felt his body tense and he was cumming inside me. His cock was pulsing as he slowly pumped his cum into my ass. My legs were shaking and my arms were weak as hell. After he pulled out I collapsed down onto the blanket. Noah collapsed down next to me. He was out of breath and dripping with sweat. I rolled over and whispered in his ear “Don’t think I forgot about your turn” and kissed him on the neck.

“Where do you want me?” He smirked.

I pointed in front of me and said “On your back.” He looked back at me confused.

“Yeah. On your back, knees up, and put some blanket under your ass. I want to see your face while we do it.”

He got on his back and I pulled him closer and lubed us both up. I pressed my dick up against him, and I could feel he was super tight. I kept pressing until I finally got the head inside him. As it popped in I felt him squirm a bit and his body jerk. I leaned forward, kissed him deeply, and said “Don’t worry I’ll take it easy on you.”

I continued to press into him slowly, every inch of the way I could feel his tight tense body. When I almost got my hips pressed up against his ass he said, “Please tell me there isn’t much more left”

I smirked and said, “Almost there big guy, just take a deep breath and try to relax.”

My hands were grabbing the tops of his thighs and I pushed the last bit of my cock into him. He grabbed my wrist, looked at me, and said “Wait…just wait a minute.” His face was a mix of pleasure and pain and I could feel his body quivering as I waited for him to be ready. His asshole was tight around my dick. It felt like he could crush it. As I waited, I ran my hands lightly across his body. Starting with his chest, down to his abs, lightly brushing over his cock that still had cum dripping out from the tip. From his crotch, I moved my hands around to the small of his back, around his ass cheeks, and up his thighs. I could tell Noah was getting more comfortable so I started to pull back slowly. He didn’t stop me so I started to push back into him. I kept pumping long, slow strokes deep into him. He closed his eyes and put his hands up by his head.

“That’s it, just lay back and enjoy it. Do you like it?”

“Mmm, mmhmm. More” he moaned back.

I started to pick up the pace a bit, going faster and a little harder.

“ Mmm, oooh…kiss me.” He whispered. I shifted forward, my upper body was hanging over his smaller frame. I kept pumping firmly and deeply into him as he stretched his head up to meet mine, and our mouths met again. He kept moaning as our kiss got sloppier and sloppier until he broke it off. He rested back down and said, “more…please…harder…” almost begging me.

I did as he asked and began to fuck him harder and faster. His moaning continued, a non-stop stream of “mmm…ahh….fuuuck” was coming out of his mouth mixed with the sound of my body slamming up against his ass. His arms were covering his face. All I could see was him twisting his body with mine, his cock bobbing all over as I continued fucking him. I kept driving into him until I was almost ready to blow.

“I’m going to cum in your ass,” I told him as I kept pounding his ass.

“Yeah, do it, do it, do it…” he gasped, panting and almost out of breath. He wrapped his legs around my body and I lifted him off the bed of the truck, cradling his ass him my arms. His hands were above his head and he arched his back “Yeah, fuck oh yeah, mhmm mhmm, fuck me” he whimpered.

I kept going until I couldn’t hold back anymore. I came so hard I felt it in my bones. I lowered him back down as I slowly pumped every drop of cum inside of him. He was still gyrating his hips around my cock, moaning very softly. I pulled out and laid down next to him my heart pounding and my body covered in droplets of sweat. He rolled over and put his head on my chest just saying “Wow”.

For a few minutes, we lay there silently, until I said we should probably get dressed and get the fuck out of there.

We got dressed and packed up the stuff from his truck in pretty awkward silence. Before I got in his truck I took out two cigarettes and lit both of them. I passed one to Noah and we both climbed in. In the light of the cab, I could finally see his face clearly. His cheeks were still red and he had that post-sex sweaty glow, his hair was a complete mess and he couldn’t stop smiling. As we headed back into town I asked him “So do you think you liked it?”

“Holy shit Renz, I don’t even know what to say! Like what was that? My legs are still a little shaky.” He paused. I was trying to fix my hair in the mirror so it wasn’t super obvious that I left to have sex. He stopped at a red light and asked “So when can we do that again?”

I smirked and replied, “I go back to college in late august so we have the rest of the summer.”

“I’m not your boyfriend though. We’re just friends who will occasionally have sex.”

“FUCK BUDDIES!” I yelled

We laughed and he said, “Yeah but can we keep it on the DL?”

I kissed him one last time and said “Your secret’s safe with me.”

He dropped me off at my house and drove back home. Maybe 20 minutes later I got a text from Noah reading, “Seriously though when is the next time we can do that?”

“I’m going to a party with your brother on Friday. I can crash in the guest room if you can keep it quiet ;)”

“Fuck yes!”

Noah and I hooked up a few times that summer. I am still really close with Noah and Joel. It got harder to keep up when I moved back to Italy for work 3 years ago though. Just last month Joel proposed to his girlfriend and asked me to be a groomsman at his wedding. Noah is his best man and he sent me a text saying

“Are you going to be coming in for Joel’s bachelor party?”

“Yeah, of course. Do you need anything from me right now?”

“Nah, just trying to figure out sleeping arrangements for the trip he wants ;)”

“You know I don’t mind sharing a bed."