How we became self-sufficient

Chapter 1

Bertrand’s Drawers

-Sit down, dad, I wanna talk to you.

-Tell me, Gareth.

-It’s just that I’m dubious about something, something about you and I just wanna know but first let me add you’ll have my respect no matter what.

-Interesting, what do you wanna ask me?

-I didn’t know you were gay, dad.

-What? Why the fuck do you think I’m gay, Gareth. I’ve always told you everything, well, almost everything and if I were gay, I would have told you.

-Well, you’ve been absent for a week and…

My father, Bertrand Leake had in fact been a week away visiting his brother, my uncle Emil, who was depressed after his divorce. My father was 48, I should say he was a very attractive man at his age, and worked selling in a sports shop. And me, Gareth Leake, was 27 and was still studying physics at university and was hopefully about to finish my studies.

-Well, dad, you’ve been absent for a week, I was saying, and you know I love reading, especially theatre and I remembered you have some plays by Lope de Vega that I already read when I was a teenager and I wanted to read again, especially Fuenteovejuna, so I headed to your room in order to see whether I could find it.

-Well –I went on-, I did not find the books but I was looking in your drawers and then I found a really long black dildo that you have in there.

-Later, if you want I will tell you why I have that dildo, but I’m not gay but this conversation is gonna make me talk to you about sex, Gareth. Will you be comfortable talking about sex with your father?

-Yes, dad, why not?

-Go on with what you were telling me first.

-The moment I saw your black dildo I thought you were gay, dad. But as I told you, I’d love you just the same whatever you are. I only had to be sure, so I also entered your computer, forgive me.

-Go on, Gareth, I’m not angry.

-I was searching in your history and I found some porn, but all of it is heterosexual porn, so I was really wondering what your sexual orientation is.

-I’m heterosexual. I’ll explain to you later anything you want to know.

-So I admit dad, that I was really curious but the affection I felt for you was increasing. But I had to keep on looking in your drawers and I saw something more.

-I think I know what you found, Gareth.

-I found some Chinese balls. I’ve seen in porn what they’re used for: girls let them in their cunts or in their asses, but of course boys can also play with them, but only up their asses, of course.

-They’re in fact to stick them up my ass but I hope you can understand me later but believe me I’ve never had sex with a boy so far or even had the need to have gay sex.

-Well dad, now you tell me what you want but first I’ll fess up something. I’ve spent the week believing you’re gay and my affection for you has so much increased that I said to myself this: my father has some sexual toys in his drawers, what would it be like to play with them?

-And did you? You’re heterosexual, isn’t it, Gareth?

-I’m heterosexual dad, but I really felt like playing with your toys the way you must do, for even if you’re not gay, you must take them in your ass, isn’t it?

-I do; I’m sure now that a sexual conversation will be necessary in a short while.

-Well, I tell you clearly that nothing to be ashamed about. I’ve spent the week driving the dildo into my ass and even your Chinese balls and well, I’m not gay, but it was funny. And funnier to know that my father has sexual toys at home. Yes dad, I was having fun and I learnt then that you needn’t be gay to have fun with your ass. I can admit easily that letting things into your ass is funny and I thought I was just doing what my father does.

-Well, Gareth. I can understand that you’re curious after having found those toys in my drawers and let me tell you that you’re brave for having been playing with them. So now I’ll speak seriously with you and tell you more things. Well, I will start by saying that I’ve always had a serious sexual problem.

-What is it, dad? You can tell me.

-My problem is that I have a very long dick, really long.

-Now I know that’s hereditary, lol. I also have a very long cock and girls say that size matters but then do not do anything with my dick.

-Maybe they do it with long dicks and like it, but not with dicks as long as mine.

-Dad, would you say I’m too cheeky if I ask you to show me your dick? I could also show you mine. Since we’re having this conversation and we both know our problem is how long our dicks are, we’d better watch them.

-Ok, Gareth –and he pulled down his zipper and took it out. Instantly I did the same.

-Yours is still a big bigger than mine, Gareth.

-Yes, dad, maybe, but yours is too long. But what does all this have to do with dildos and toys in general?

-Well Gareth, since I have sex very scarcely, I got used to watching a lot of porn. You also do it, don’t you?

-Yes dad, and my sexual life is also scarce. It’s good that I can say this to my father.

-Of course, Gareth, anything you want and more now when I know your sexual problems are the same as mine.

-Go on, dad.

-Well, when watching porn, you know there are many trailers below the movie you’re watching and one day a gay scene appeared that caught my attention: it was a boy sucking his own cock: I never thought that could be possible but out of curiosity, I started to watch that movie and saw that it was possible. I thought then: could I be able to do the same? If I could, I would be, say, self-sufficient. If no girl sucked my cock, I could do it, a pastime for those moments I have no sex.

-And are you able, dad?

-I’ve seen many movies of boys giving themselves self-blowjobs and I copied their movements and yes, not only I’m able to do it but I can also lick my own balls. It’s a question of flexibility and some training, of course. So I can do it and I please myself really satisfactorily.

-Do you drink your own cum, dad?

-First let me tell you that I like the taste of my own dick and since it’s my own dick, I feel no disgust. And of course once I learnt to give myself self-blowjobs, I had to cum and the taste of semen… don’t know, wouldn’t do it with another dick but again since it’s my own semen and now I can get a blowjob whenever I want since I do it to myself, the taste is not really scrumptious but it’s not disgusting and it’s my own. In fact, I swallow my own cum four times a day.

-Four times? Oh, my God.

-Whenever I suck my own dick, I make myself cum twice and at nights in my bed I have a new self-blowjob with two cums.

-But what about toys up your ass?

-Well, Gareth, giving myself self-blowjobs, I’m not sexually frustrated for now I have one person, myself, who takes care of my sexual fun. But even so, I was not completely self-sufficient since I don’t have a hole to fuck. I started watching boys in porn giving themselves self-blowjobs and I stumbled upon another trailer and again I was astonished: a boy was able to fuck himself. Of course in order to fuck yourself you should first have a dick as long as ours. So the idea of fucking myself was not really appealing but I thought I would never fuck a hole properly unless I fucked myself. So first I wanted some anal training and bought dildos. Later I bought longer dildos like the black one you found. And I also trained myself with my own fingers and soon with the Chinese balls. And one day, I discovered I was also able to fuck myself, really painful at first but now it’s become pleasure. So now I have a mouth always willing to suck my cock, even twice a day, and a hole to fuck. Do you really understand me, Gareth?

-I do, dad, and I love you. Maybe I’ll never go as far as fucking myself but I wanna learn to suck my own cock. Dad, I know maybe I should not ask you this: but couldn’t you show me how to suck my own cock?

-Ok, Gareth, I think you might also become sexually frustrated unless I teach you. And if you have no shock for watching your own father sucking his dick or for having a dick in your mouth, your own, I can teach you.

-Thanks dad, so how shall we start?

-The first thing we should do, Gareth, is taking off all our clothes.

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