Adulting

Scotty’s story

I think I’m gay and I just want to believe god doesn’t hate me. Seth’s words hit home for every one of us sitting at that table. We had all struggled with accepting who we are and reconciling that with what we were taught to believe. The silence was deafening as we each empathized with Seth’s dilemma.

Brad spoke first “you’re a brave guy Seth, god absolutely loves you and so do I.” The rest of us agreed and told him how proud and honored we were that he had the courage and trust to share his secret with us.

“PLEASE don’t tell Brian and Eli yet. I’m not ready for that.”

“This is your information to share not ours, buddy.” Brad said in a reassuring voice as the others at the table nodded their agreement “nobody here will say a word.” Just then the table went silent as Brian stepped-up to take our order. As always he joked with us as he went around the table, then disappeared off to the kitchen.

“Listen, baby boy” Mauricio said “You can talk to any of us about anything. We don’t judge each other, we just love each other.” Suddenly, the sweetest, most sincere smile formed on Seth’s lips as he realized he was among kindred spirits in a safe place. All the shy nervousness about him seemed to disappear and his demeanor changed completely. He seemed genuinely comfortable in his own skin, like the world had just been lifted off his tiny shoulders.

“So Cam huh? I like Cam. Does he feel the same way?” I asked.

Seth nodded “He’s gay too, but hasn’t told his parents. He’s the only person I ever talked to about this until now. It’s been nice to talk about it.”

“So are you boys… you know…” Mauricio leaned over the table and asked with a gossipy tone in his voice that said “dish it gurl”Seth was mortified.

“Huh… Oh… NO! NO, not any of that… we… I um. No I’m not ready.” Seth said turning beet red at the mention of S.E.X. and trying to avoid the topic.

“Well, before you do, you learn about safe sex. You be smart. You can ask anyone here for ANYTHING and we will help” Mauricio offered as he looked at Brad hoping he hadn’t overstepped his bounds.

Brad nodded and said “When you’re ready, please just ask us. We love you and want to make sure you stay safe and healthy. Okay?” Seth nodded, he was embarrassed, but he understood that our intent was good.

That was it for the gay talk. After that we talked about school, video games, dinner at Kev and Randy’s later that night, just normal brunch talk. Nobody made a big deal about Seth’s announcement, we just accepted it. From that point on Seth came alive, his personality was shining through and he carried himself with confidence.

When we got home he jumped on the couch next to Eli and played video games, when Eli started giving him shit he gave it right back. There was instantly a noticeable difference in him, a freedom I hadn’t seen before. Brad and I went out to the front yard to continue digging and working on our yard project, we were putting in a flagstone walkway from the driveway to the front door. “Wow. I didn’t see that coming” Brad said. “No wonder he’s had such a rough time adjusting. That poor kid!”

I was raking the hard, clay-like dirt to level it out and said “Poor kid? He just hit the jackpot!” Brad looked at me as if I was insane. “Think about it, you went through the same crap, in the same household with the same father. Think back to when you were struggling with your sexuality in your father’s home… what if a gay older brother appeared out of nowhere and brought you to live with him and his gay husband, surrounded by their gay friends and family all of whom actually understood what you were going through and accepted you unconditionally. How would that have changed your world?”

Brad chuckled a little “I didn’t really think about it that way. He’s definitely surrounded by love and experts on the subject of being gay. I hope he sees it that way”

“It’s obvious he does or he wouldn’t have come out to us all the way he did. The second he told us, his whole demeanor changed. He needed some support and he found it.” I said “I wonder how Danny and Ann are going to be with Cam being gay?”

“I have no clue. I know nothing about the people beyond the fact that they almost walked in on me bent over a sawhorse with your dick up my ass.” Brad said as we both laughed. “Should we tell them?”

“HELL NO!” I yelled “We can’t out Cam to his parents, that’s not our place. The best we can do is accept him and treat him like any other friend your brothers bring over.” We talked more about it as we worked in the yard for the next several hours. When we were done in the yard we went to dinner at Kev’s as usual. I loved Sunday nights at Kev and Randy’s place. The seven of us hanging by the pool, then working together to get dinner on the table. That night Seth was especially talkative and animated. He had us all laughing and smiling. E ven Eli and Brian noticed the change in their little brother.

“You’re on fire tonight squirt” Brian said right after Seth made some wiseass comment that had us all rolling.

“Yeah, you’re happier than a pig in shit tonight” Eli commented. I’m a little embarrassed to note here that Brian, Eli, and even Seth were all swearing a hell of a lot more since they moved in with us. But with my “potty mouth” as Mom calls it, I really have no credibility in correcting them.

Seth looked at his two brothers and said “I’m gay and I feel good about myself.” The four adults at the table exchanged glances before looking at him with smiles of encouragement. This brave little fuck just came out to his two big brothers. The two people that gave him more shit than the rest of the world combined.

Brian looked over at Eli and said “Now do you believe me? Everyone in this freaking city is gay!” And we all started laughing out loud, even Seth. Then Brian said “I was wondering about that, buddy. I’m proud of you and love you no matter what” Then he took a huge bite of his brat.

“Me too” Eli offered “And if anyone gives you shit, we’ll take care of them. Only we get to give you shit” and then shoved almost half a burger in his face and scarfed it down like it was nothing. I was really surprised at how much of a huge deal this wasn’t. This family that was raised by a religious zealot and taught to hate gays just accepted their two gay brothers unconditionally. We talked and ate some more like we did every Sunday night, then lounged out on the patio. Eli and Brian took off early to head back to the neighborhood and play basketball with their friends and Seth hung out with us “old people.”

“I can’t believe you did that, I thought you weren’t ready for those guys to know” Brad said to his baby brother.

“Father told lies and kept secrets and I’m done with that crap. I don’t like secrets, I don’t want to lie and I don’t want you guys to have to lie for me. You guys made me feel safe… so I said it.” It was obvious he hadn’t planned it, it just happened.

“Damn I envy you” Kevin said “I was almost twice your age when I finally had the courage to come out. I lived in fear for all those years and hated it.”

“Me too” Randy added “you’re a brave little dude and you know we all love you no matter what, and we’re here if you need help or have any questions.”

“DUH! Why do you think it was so easy?! You guys are all here.” Seth said like the little kid he was “Did any of you even know a gay adult when you were my age? Heck, I’m surrounded by gay dudes.” We all just looked at him smiling and chuckling. We were hanging on his every word. “Just a couple of months ago I spent all day fearing my father would figure out I was gay, and spent all night praying it would just go away. I even thought about killing myself, but that just meant eternity in hell. At least if I stayed alive maybe I could fight it and make god happy before I died.” I was dying inside as this kid spoke, and I’m pretty sure the others were too.

“I prayed and prayed for god’s help. Today I went to church today with a bunch of gay people” Seth continued, “And it was awesome! Everyone there was hopeful, happy, joyful even… nobody cared who was straight or gay. It was so different from the church back home. The smiles were real and the people were nice. I think god answered my prayers by bringing me here.” He paused and looked at Brad “Father is full of total horse shit, isn’t he, Brad.”

Brad smiled and said “I’ll tell you what I told Brian when he asked me the same question. I personally think so, Seth. But you’ll need to decide for yourself.” I could tell, Seth had already decided.

After dinner the three of us went home. Eli and Brian were still down the street playing basketball with Dane and their friends at Danny and Ann’s. Seth ran over to join them. I assume he was hoping Cam was home.

The one thing I loved about our new house was the split floorplan. The master suite was away from the other three bedrooms and gave us a little privacy, but not much. Privacy was pretty much a thing of the past in our lives. The boys were smart and respectful enough to stay out of the hallway to our bedroom if the door was shut, but I still always felt like the walls had ears. So, on the rare occasion when we were alone in the house, we went for it.

We went into the bedroom with Brad leading the way. As soon as I got into the room I shut the door and flipped the deadbolt (We put the deadbolt on the second we moved in). “Get naked and get that fine ass on the bed I said in a masterful tone.”

“I need to piss first” Brad said as he went into the bathroom. I took the opportunity to go into the closet and open up the toybox. It had been sitting in the closet collecting dust since Brian moved in with us a few months ago. I grabbed some restraints, a blindfold, and several other things. I put the restraints in my pocket and quickly hid the other things in the nightstand before Brad stepped back into the room.

“Now what were you saying?” He said with a grin as he shed his clothes and laid on the bed buck naked and hard as a rock. I moved up and laid on top of him putting my full bodyweight on him. He let out an “oof.” Then I reached for his wrists, pulled them together and wrapped thin over his head with one of the restraints catching him totally off guard, then with another swift movement I used a second strap to tie his wrists to the head board. “Hey!” What are you doing he said with a grin on his face knowing he was in for some fun. He pushed his legs up trying to get free… that was a waste of his time. All he did was expose his sweet asshole and make it easy for me to tie one leg to the headboard. He was kicking his other leg making it difficult to restrain it, but I finally overpowered him and tied his second leg to the headboard. He was on his back tied to the bed resting on his shoulders with his ass up in the air and ready for business.

“Fuck” I said in a breathy tone of lust “Look at that fucking hole” Then I shoved my face deep into his crack and licked up and down, within seconds my tongue was buried deep into his pink pucker. He was writhing, moaning, bucking, and begging for me to stop and go at the same time.

“What if the guys come home?! You gotta stop, Scotty.”

“Stop?! Fuck no” I said “We’re not stopping until I shoot my load in you and you shoot yours all over your own face” I said forcefully as I pushed my face back into his incredible ass and ate him out like there was no tomorrow. Then I looked up again and said “And the door is locked, so if the boys come home, they’ll get the hint.” Then I went back down on his ass.

I reached over into the night stand and pulled out a nice sized dildo and the bottle of lube. I held up the dildo so Brad could see it. “Where the fuck did that come from?” I just laughed and told him I had stashed a few things from the toybox in the nightstand “Tell me you put a bottle of poppers in there” He said. After I lubed up the huge dildo, I pulled the bottle of poppers out and held it under his nose so he could inhale the fumes, then I moved it to his other nostril.

“You ready for this” I said holding up the big dildo as I moved my hand up and down, lubing it up thoroughly.

“Fuck yes” Brad said in a breathy tone. I lubed up my finger and started to loosen his hole with it. His sphincter seemed to bite my digits and throb around them, exciting me even more. I was rock-fucking-hard as I played with his hole making him writhe and moan in anticipation of the invasion. After a few minutes I pushed the big head of the well-lube dido against his hole.

“Here it comes” I said as I got up on my knees and bent over to kiss him while my right had pushed the toy firmly and forcefully into his asshole. I looked down to see his manhood had turned almost purple and was rigid as fuck. He was loving this. “Push out, baby” I whispered into our kiss. He pushed and moaned into my mouth as he wriggled around. Suddenly the dildo breached his hole and entered him.

“FUUUUUUUUUCK!” He yelled. If the boys were home, they undoubtedly knew what we were up to. I continued to steadily push the girthy toy into his passage as his mixed pleading of stop and go continued. Finally I had the entire ten inches buried in him. “Oh my god, It feels so fucking awesome” Brad said with a quickness and desperation in his voice “Fuck me with it, Scotty” He said trying to lean up from his restraints to kiss me “ Fuck me hard with it. No fucking mercy. PLEASE!” He was fucking begging for it like a man possessed. I pulled it out and pushed it in hard “Yes!” he screamed. I did it again “Yes! YES! FUCKING YES!” He wailed louder than he had in months, uninhibited, loud cries of lust. We were oblivious to everything around us for the first time in a long time and just enjoying the lust-filled moment.

I pulled the dildo completely out of him and he whimpered in disappointment until I mounted him, shoving my cock all the way into him in one fluid motion. His eyes popped open and he wailed again “YES! YES! FUCK ME SCOTTY FUCK ME HARD” I obliged. I fucked him with all my might, standing above him, bent over supporting myself with my arms extended on either side of the love of my life. My hips were moving in and out with a fury of lust as my pelvis bumped against his crack and my balls slapped his ass. I was moving in and out quickly, fucking him with all my strength. He was moaning, screaming, and begging for more.

His ass was raised in the air and his cock was aimed at his own face. “Fuck! I’m gonna shoot” He said without even touching his cock. Suddenly his semen erupted from his engorged member, spewing all over his face. I reached down and pointed his spewing cock at his open mouth and he tried to catch his own seed. Fuck it was hot! I moved even faster and started to shoot my load into him, breading his beautiful ass as I leaned in and licked his cum off his face. The sweet scent of sweat and cum filled my nostrils. It was so fucking incredible! It felt so great to be loud in my own bedroom and not give a fuck. I collapsed with my cock up Brad’s ass which was still in the air.

“This hurts like hell! Untie me” Brad said from below me as he pulled on his restraints, snapping me into reality. I chuckled a little as I started to untie him. Within seconds his arms and legs were free. I laid on him again kissing him with passionate abandon. I loved this man and sex with him was other-worldly for me. We caught our breath, took a quick shower to clean up, then I put the toybox away to collect more dust. We walked into the living room and thankfully the house was still empty. “That was so fucking hot” Brad said as he came up behind me and put his arms around me. Just as all three boys entered.

Eli entered first and yelled “More gross crap” back to Brian who laughed and Seth who smiled.

“Did you guys have fun?” Brad asked.

Eli grabbed a Coke out of the fridge as he told Brad about the basketball game. Then he said “Yeah, and Danny told me to tell you to give him a call.”

Brad and I looked at each other, then over at Seth who just smiled and shrugged his shoulders. “Is there anything I need to know?” Brad asked his youngest brother.

“Nothing I didn’t tell you earlier.” Seth replied with a knowing smirk “oh, other than Cam told his parents he was gay.” He said “And that he liked me.”

“Seth!” I said “You could’ve warned us.”

“Well, I didn’t plan on it, it just happened.” Seth said knowing he pretty much just unleashed a shit storm on us. “They seemed cool about it” he added. Well, that was some consolation I guess. It was obvious that Seth was on a roll. He came out and was accepted, it felt so good to get it off his shoulders that he apparently decided to tell everyone.

“Let’s walk over there” Brad said. So we headed out the front door and over to Ann and Danny’s Seth started to follow us “You stay here, buddy. We’ll call you if we need you.” He nodded his head. They lived just a few houses down, when we got there the two of them were sitting on the front porch. “So, I heard you got a little news today” Brad said.

“You too” Danny replied. “Can I get you guys a couple of drinks before we get into this?”

“Abso-freaking-lutely” I said. Ann stood up, hugged us and welcomed us. Like I said, we had become fast friends.

“You okay with all this?” I asked her as Danny came out the door with our drinks and we all sat down.

“Yeah, just caught off guard.” She said. “I mean, I knew he was gay, the kid shares our computer and isn’t exactly good at erasing his browser history. But I didn’t expect him to come out. And honestly, I had no clue Seth was gay. I just thought they were buddies.”

“For what it’s worth…” I said, “I’m a man married to a man, my older brother is gay and married to a man, most my friends are gay, I work at a gay resort, and I had no freaking clue whatsoever!” Ann and Danny both laughed.

“So now what?” Danny said.

Brad looked at him and said “what do you mean? I guess we just treat them like we would anyone else.”

“That’s just it” Ann inserted “I guess technically they’re boyfriends now. That’s different than just friends. We should probably set some ground rules”

“She’s right, If Dane goes into his room with his guy friends I don’t think twice, but house rules are no girls in his room.” Said Danny.

“I didn’t even think about that” Brad said “This parenting shit is hard.” We all laughed at that, “so what do we do? You guys know more about this shit.”

“We agree to rules for both of our houses and show a united front at all times” Ann said. “If they’re in a bedroom, the door is open. I’d say one of us has to be there, but since I go between both houses when you guys are at work I think they’re aware that I can walk in at any second and won’t do anything stupid.”

“We also have to make sure they know that we’re here to talk to” I added “Honestly, if they’re going to do shit, they’re going to do shit. My bigger concern is that they’re smart, safe and stay healthy.” I said sounding like a true parent. They all nodded. “We already opened the door for Seth to talk to us about that stuff… of course he turned red and claimed they weren’t doing anything yet.” Danny and Ann both seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.

“So, we’re all on the same page” Danny said, “We support them, we’re okay with them dating but no closed doors, and we want them to be safe and free to talk to us? Does that sum it up?” He got another round of nodding heads.

“Why don’t we talk to the two of them tonight. I’ll call Cam out here and you guys tell Seth to come over” Ann said. “By the way, Dane already knew. What about Brian and Eli?” Brad told them all about Seth’s big day of coming out.

“Damn, those guys are pretty gutsy” Said Danny “You guys rally the boys, I’ll get us all more liquor” He said heading into the house again.

Brad texted Seth, he replied instantly and was on his way. I’m sure he was watching his phone waiting for us to reach out. Danny went to get Cam, of course Seth already warned him via text. Within about five minutes the two boys stood in front of the four of us as we sat poised with fresh drinks in hand ready for ‘the talk.’ “Sit down” Ann said motioning them to the two empty chairs against the railing and started the conversation. “I want to start by saying that we’re all glad you guys decided to be honest with us. And the four of us support you.”

“But this changes some things” Brad said. “You’re more than friends, and that means the rules change.” Brad and Ann took the lead while Danny and I sipped our drinks and provided moral support.

“Your brothers can’t have dates in their rooms with the doors shut. Same rule applies to you two.” Ann said.

“And we need you to be safe and smart. If you have questions, ask us, don’t take risks.” Brad added.

“You guys need to know that we love you both and want you to be happy, safe and healthy” Ann said “Do you guys understand the expectations?” Both boys nodded.

“Any questions?” Brad added

“So, I guess our sleep over next weekend is off” cam said. We all chuckled a little.

“I’m fine with it, but you sleep in the family room in separate sleeping bags” Ann said “Brad and Scotty, your thoughts?”

We looked at each other and nodded “We’re good with that” Brad said. “You guys can pretty much do what you’ve been doing, just be honest with us, and mindful of the fact that we’re watching and talking to each other.” The guys nodded. I noticed that Cam had grabbed Seth’s hand about halfway through the conversation and they were still holding hands when we finished. They let go of each other’s hands and stood up and left, thanking us as they did.

“HEY!” Ann yelled to them as they walked away. The boys stopped and looked back at us, “we’re proud of you guys.” Cam walked Seth back to our place. “so, how do we all feel?” Ann asked the group.

“Like a fucking parent” I said making the others laugh.

“I think it’s good they know we support them” Danny said.

“Even better that they know we all talk to each other” Brad said.

“Fear is an awesome parenting tool boys” Said Ann “Why do you think I show up unannounced at your house a couple times every day?” We all chuckled again.

We were doing what we thought was best. But full disclosure; I had no clue if we were doing the right things, or if the boys would even listen to us… I guess that made me a parent.

To be continued…