Adulting

Chip’s story

It had been a great week so far. I LOVED staying here with Alec. He was everything I had hoped for; a genuinely good guy and I was falling for him hard. I had a job possibility in the works and my dad and Brendon were doing their damnedest to convince me I belonged in St. Louis. Brendon even offered his condo to me if I decided to move back. I was excited about the probability of moving home and working towards a life with Alec. Alec seemed excited too.

It was New Year’s Eve and we were going to a party downtown at Alec’s friends loft. I was excited to meet his friends and he seemed excited to show me off. I was in the shower getting ready for the party when the door opened, and a hard, naked Alec jumped in with me. As soon as the door shut, he moved his muscular frame behind me and his hardon rubbed against my wet ass cheeks. FUCK it felt so good. His lips touched my neck and shoulder and he whispered “how about we send the year out with a bang… literally” I laughed as I reached back to stroke his huge member. He pulsated in my hand and every throb sent shock waves through me sending the blood to my hardening pipe. I was hard as concrete within a minute of him joining me. He soaped up his hand and reached around to stroke me. Slowly he moved his big hand up to the tip of my penis and played with my sensitive head. Then he moved his meaty hand downward stimulating my shaft until he reached my balls. Up and down he moved. Teasing and tempting me.

After several long, slow strokes he grabbed my balls tight and shoved his tongue into my ear driving me fucking crazy with desire. He pushed his throbbing tool against my wet, tight hole. I put some soap in my hand, reached around and lubed his beautiful manhood thoroughly. He moaned with each stroke making my eardrum vibrate. The water cascading over us, the vibrations in my ear, the feel of Alec’s throbbing member in my hand... total over stimulation. Every nerve was on edge and I was in pure ecstasy when I felt his huge cock penetrate me “Fuck” I said under my breath as I braced myself against the shower wall and looked at the floor. His veiny shaft rubbed the inside walls of my tight passage stimulating me even further.

Oh my god he was hitting the perfect spot inside me as he stroked my cock up and down with his soapy hand. I was pushing back into him, fucking myself with his cock. With us both pushing, the thrusts were powerful as fuck and his balls were slapping against my wet butt cheeks. I was moaning from my gut, each sound echoing a combination of pain and pleasure through the tiny bathroom. I lifted my head, turned back and started kissing Alec passionately almost sucking the tongue right out of his hot, wet mouth. “Fuck me harder” I whispered into our kiss “fuck me hard” I couldn’t get enough of him as I pulled his head face tighter against mine by the back of his head.

“I’m gonna cum. I want to shoot in you” He said into my mouth as he continued to kiss me hard as the warm water cascaded over us.

“Do it. Fucking breed me!” I said back pushing my ass hard against him squeezing my sphincter around his shaft, coaxing and milking it, begging for his juice.

Moving his mouth t my ear he breathlessly moaned “Fuuuuuck” then thrust as hard as he could into me. I pushed my ass out to meet him feeling his mushroom bottom out deep within me driving me to ecstasy as he shot his load into my bowels. His hand was moving at lightening sped on my engorged manhood and I shot stream after powerful stream onto the tiled wall in front of me. “Goddammit” “FUCK” “SHIIIIIT!!!!!!!!!” I screamed from deep within. Alec turned my head back shoving his tongue down my throat in an attempt to quiet me. I grunted and groaned into his mouth as my one hand reach back to pull his lips even deeper into mine and my other hand clawed his perfect wet ass like and animal in heat.

We pawed and sucked on each other well after we had spent our seed. Our lust was in control and neither one of us wanted it to end. He kept thrusting into me as his cock started to soften inside me and I kept pushing back to meet his thrusts. The pace slowed and eventually his spent cock slipped out of my well used ass. Cum dripped onto the shower floor as I turned to face him and kissed him lustfully. He reached around me and opened my hole, so the shower stream could wash me clean. I pushed his cum out of me, onto the floor and down the drain as I soaped up my hole and cleaned myself thoroughly. Through all of it, our lips never parted.

We finished our shower than stepped out and toweled each other off. I got every drop of water off of his hot, muscular body. When he was dry I just looked at him. Drinking in his beauty. Damn he was perfect, and he was mine!

“C’mon, let’s get dressed” he said as he slapped my ass playfully with his towel “We gotta get moving.” We went into the bedroom and dressed. Alec took all of two minutes and looked absolutely fucking hot. Me… I primped for forty five minutes and still wasn’t happy with how I looked when Alec dragged me out the door.

We drove the ten minutes to downtown and parked a few blocks away from his friends loft. It was cold out and we could see our breath as we walked down the street hand-in-hand. Downtown St. Louis was still adorned with Christmas lights n festive decor, it was a beautiful night. We were just a few hours away from the new year and I felt incredible. The new year held so much promise. Moving back home was a definite possibility, I had a solid job prospect, my family was behind me, and for or the first time ever I was spending New Year’s Eve with someone special. Everything was lining up perfectly for me.

We walked up to the building of his friend Zoe and he buzzed us up. Alec and Zoe had been friends since high school, they dated for a while, but it didn’t amount to much according to Alec, they were better as friends. “Hey Rusty!” Zoe yelled as the elevator door opened into his loft. I looked over at Alec with a raised brow when I heard the nickname. He shot back a look that said Don’t EVER repeat that. I smiled and filed that away for later. Zoe’s loft was beautiful, high ceilings and a wall of huge windows. It was basically one huge room with a granite island separating the kitchen from the rest of the space and a spiral staircase made of metal leading up to a loft bedroom above the door. There was a hall to the left with a bathroom and utility room… other than that, one huge room, and it was full of people. Almost all of them men in their twenties. I assumed they were pretty much all gay except the one guy hanging in the corner looking scared and holding tight to a beautiful young blonde woman. “That’s Riley, Zoe’s straight brother” Alec said when he saw me looking at him thoughtfully. “RILE’S” Alec yelled across the room as he pulled me towards the couple. He introduced us and started to catch up with his friend. I Went to the bar and got us a couple of drinks. My first one went down fast. I was out of my element here. I knew no one, and frankly the only way I knew how to mingle was by hitting on hot guys, obviously not the best strategy if I wanted a future with Alec. So… I awkwardly stood next to Alec and slugged back my drink.

Alec was still milking his drink but mine was long gone, so I snuck back to the kitchen for round two. While I was pouring my drink I noticed a guy staring at me from across the room. He was kind of dirty looking with a scraggly goatee and longer, unkempt hair. He wore a long black, unbuttoned trench coat. Underneath he wore fade, ripped jeans, a Tee-shirt and a loose neck tie. He was definitely unique, definitely eyeing me up, and totally not my type. I slugged back my second drink, poured myself a third and made my way back to Alec feeling a bit buzzed. By now he was holding court. He was surrounded by beautiful men, all of them old friends. He was in his element for sure, his smile beaming ear-to-ear as he laughed and joked with old friends. He saw me walk up and called me over “Chip, come here and meet the guys” He said reaching out his hand. When I got over to him he introduced everyone. They were all extremely nice and seemed genuinely happy to meet me. Most of these guys were very hot. As we were all talking I started to think… he could have ANY of these guys, but instead he’s with me. The scruffy little nothing. How long could I keep his interest? Sooner or later he was going to have enough of me and move on. Oh god, who am I kidding… I’m not good enough for Alec. I gulped my drink and went to get a fourth.

I stumbled to the kitchen, poured my fourth drink and stood there drinking it. Like the others it went down fast. What the hell, I was till at the bar, so I poured a fifth. I was sipping it as I found my way down the hall to the bathroom and relieved myself. I washed my hands and took a look at myself in the mirror. Every insecurity I ever had was back. I thought about all the guys I let take advantage of me in college just, so I could feel wanted. Now there was Alec, like I said… it was just a matter of time before he woke up. I grabbed my drink and left the bathroom.

When I stumbled into the hallway, there was the scraggly looking guy from the kitchen waiting for me. “It looks like you could use a little help” he said.

“I’m fine” I said, my speech slurring a little as I downed number five and leaned against the hallway wall.

“You sure are” he said as he moved in close to me. He went right for it, groping my crotch then moved in for a kiss. I was drunk and didn’t rally react. My cock was flacid and my lips stayed still as he kissed on me. Then I started to kiss him back. I have no idea why! I wasn’t even attracted to the guy, but he wanted me and it felt good. He pulled away and looked down the hallway and said, “I’d invite you to join, but gingers aint my thing.” I looked over and there was Alec. His face dropped, and he just stood there as the guy went back to kissing me.

“C’mon Alec we’re going home” he said as he moved towards us.

“Maybe he doesn’t want to go” said the scraggly guy

Alec looked down at the smaller skinny man and calmly said “You really sure you want to fight me for him?” Then he took a step closer. They guy instantly backed down and quickly went down the hallway back into the main room and got lost in the crowd. Alec put his arm around my waist and wordlessly walked me to the elevator. When we reached the bottom floor we opened the door for me and sat me on a bench outside. “Wait here while I get the car” he said and left me. I sat there drunk and thinking I fucked up. I fucked up bad. It seemed like I was alone with my thoughts for hours, but it was probably less than three minutes before Alec pulled up to the curb. He jumped out, opened the passenger door then grabbed me and poured me into the front seat. He even fastened my seat belt before he shut the door and went to the driver’s side and jumped in. We drove home wordlessly.

When we got to Alec’s house he helped me stumble in and put me into his bed, then he shut the door and left the room. Not a single word was said. It wasn’t even midnight and I already fucked up the new year.

The next morning the alarm on my phone went off at 8AM, Alec must’ve set it. I got up and went into the kitchen. The coffee was made but Alec was gone. He left a note on the fridge “I had to go to work. Leave an hour earlier than you planned so we can talk at the airport before you get on the plane. Text me when you get there.” My flight didn’t leave until one o’clock, so I had a few hours before I had to leave for the airport. I poured myself a cup of coffee and sat down in the kitchen. I really fucked this up. After I finished my first cup of coffee I packed up my stuff and loaded dad’s car then headed to his house. I had tears rolling down my face as I drove. Shit! I fucked it all up. Everything was going great, and I fucked it up.

When I got to Dad’s I left my bags in the car aince he was going to drive me to the airport. I got out and walked up to the door and let myself in. Dad and Brendon were sitting in the living room drinking coffee and watching TV “Good morning sunshine” Dad sang out in a cheerful voice, then he looked at me “You look like death warmed over… did you guys have fun?” I didn’t respond. Dad and Brendon exchanged looks.

“uh oh. What happened?” Brendon asked. I just walked into the kitchen and poured myself another cup of coffee. When I came back to the living room I sat down silently. All eyes were on me.

Dad broke the silence “Do you want to talk about it?” I shook my head no. They exchanged glances again. “We’re here if you change your mind” he said as he took another sip of his coffee.

We all sat and watched TV in awkward silence for about a half hour, then I quietly said, “I fucked up.” They both looked at me waiting for more “I fucked up” I repeated looking down at my coffee trying to muster the courage to speak. I looked up and then I spilled my guts. It all came out, with tears rolling down my cheeks I told them everything. They sat there and listened not saying a word.

After a few minutes of silence my Dad said “So, what do you want?”

“I want Alec.” I said

“Do you? You had him, and you fucked it up… seemingly on purpose. What do you want, Chip?” He asked again.

“I want Alec” I repeated “I really do.”

“Then it’s time to grow the fuck up” he said almost angrily. I looked at him a little shocked. Dad always took my side and supported me, but now… What the fuck? I thought. “You did something stupid only you can fix it. You need to own your mistakes and accept the fact that the only one who doesn’t think you’re good enough is you. Grow the fuck up son.” He repeated. I just looked at him, then I nodded knowing he was right. I caused this, I had to fix it.

“Let’s go” I said. We grabbed our coats and got into the car to head to the airport. Dad and I talked the whole way there… well I talked, and he listened. I went over what I wanted to say to Alec. Saying it out loud helped a lot. Dad dropped me off at the terminal and we hugged goodbye.

“You can fix this. He’s worth it and so are you.” He said wiping the last of my tears away “Call me after you talk to him.” I nodded and gave him one last hug. He watched as I walked through the door and into the terminal. I had already checked in on-line, so I texted Alec, “I’m here and I hope you still want to talk.”

“Of course I do.” He responded, then he sent me directions of where to meet him. When I got through security he was standing there waiting for me in full uniform. Dammit, he’s so perfect I hope I can save thisI thought to myself. He escorted me to a small room down the hall with a desk and three chairs. “Have a seat” He said.

We just sat there in silence for a few seconds and I looked him in his beautiful green eyes, maybe for the last time, and humbly said “I am so sorry, Alec. You deserve better.”

He just looked at me, expressionless and said, “better what?” I looked back at him with a confused look on my face and didn’t answer “Better what, Chip?” He repeated.

“A better guy” I said.

“Fuck that” He said slamming his fist on the desk getting my full attention “I’m not looking for better, you’re the BEST guy. But I absolutely deserve better treatment.” I sat there stunned, looking at him. I didn’t speak “I don’t know what got into your head but get it the fuck out of there” I just stared at this beautiful man and listened to his words. “One day you’re interviewing for a job and talking about moving here and pursuing a relationship with me, the next day you’re making out with some dude at a party in front of my friends.” He paused for a while “I want to be with you, but I refuse to be the guy you’re with until someone better shows up. You’ve got a couple hours alone on the plane. I want you to think about what you truly want. You say you want and adult relationship… that takes work and sacrifice. If you decide you want us, call me. That’s all I’m going to say about it. This is a Chip problem and you need to figure it out.” That was all he had to say. I nodded He stood up and hugged me goodbye while he whispered in my ear “I hope you choose us.” Then we left the little room. He went back to work and I went to my gate.

I still had over an hour to kill so I called Dad and told him what happened. He just listened and said “He’s right. This is a Chip problem. Only you know what you need to do, and lucky for you it sounds like he left the door open. You’ve got some decisions to make, son.” We said our I love you’s and hung up. I just sat there and waited to board my plane lost in my own thoughts and pissed at myself for my own stupidity.

This week had been awesome, and this is NOT how it was supposed to end.

To be continued…