With only half my mind

Reading in Bed

I went to my bedroom half an hour later. I remembered we had just had lunch, but so horny we were that we didn’t want to waste time to cook and we’d eaten fried eggs and nothing more. Of course Silas was as naked as I was. When I had seen him stripping, I had got totally hard. I’m sure I liked his body but I was still in the afterglow of those wonderful orgasms that he’d given me. Remembering he’d fucked me and I had sucked his dick, the vision of my stepbrother getting naked made me desire a new cum but again I didn’t jack off for I stupidly thought I would not enjoy if I gave him gay sex  with my full mind.

So after lunch was ready, when we sat to eat, Silas started to touch me and told me I could be doing the same. I started then to think of something that could distract me, hardly aware that I was touching my stepbrother with desire but thinking of an incident that’s happened today at school, something related to a wayward girl. And I was telling him all this, when he suddenly grasped my dick and started to masturbate me.

-One day you must give me your entire mind, Byron. I’m sure you would enjoy but so far I’m sure you’d allow me to wank you when you are scarcely aware of what I’m doing. And you have felt my cock both in your ass and in your mouth. I’m sure you can use one of your brain hemispheres to jack me off too. It will be nothing to you.

I continued telling him what had happened today but grasped my stepbrother’s dick at once and there I was, masturbating my naked Silas. We were reciprocally having fun as we continued touching each other and kissing. Of course my mind knew by now I should not fear his dick anymore. After all it had already occupied both my holes and not only I had never complained but was sure that after now, it would enter me very often, so using my hand was easy, more when his hand was also giving me fun. And he decided to kiss me at the same time. Oh, I should give him my entire mind one day, I thought, for I was having a lot of fun watching his naked body, touching it, kissing him and with his hot cock pumped by my hand. So much fun that I unexpectedly came and he said “good” and came soon after me staining my hand as I had stained his. As I already knew the taste of his “salt”, I took the remnants of his semen to my mouth and tasted it. Silas was doing the same.

-We’ve finished lunch. I’ll watch some porn in my bedroom and later will get dressed and go out for a stroll and enjoy this beautiful day, with the colours of spring.

-Don’t get dressed so far, Byron and leave your bedroom door open. I’d recommend you today to search for boys blowing boys and if you do, I’ll enter your bedroom and we could 69. I’m sure you want your cock sucked again and sure too that you’d like a new chance of blowing me.

So I instantly went to my room and after an hour or so of sex, I’d go out for a stroll, maybe I needed to meditate. I heeded my brother’s advice, well almost. As I still thought I would enjoy anything with only half my mind, I could divide my thoughts now if I chose a bisexual movie, and this way half my mind would focus on hot girls and the other half would focus on boys.

I managed to find a bisexual movie where a boy was sucking a different boy’s dick and meanwhile he was being fucked by a girl, who seemed to be his wife, or that’s what I understood and probably she wanted to make him a cuckold and apparently the husband was enjoying his new reality. I was beating off quietly when Silas came in. He took a seat beside me and started to touch me. With a boy’s hands on me, I started looking at the boys in the movie and getting horny at their bodies, so horny that I also started to touch Silas again. Only five minutes again till I saw him arching his body and swallowing again my hard cock. Oh I’d spent hours desiring to get a new blowjob from him. So there he was, sucking my dick again when I heard him say.

-Delicious, as yesterday night. But you admitted you’d also enjoyed the taste of my cock, so I think the deal was that we’d 69, and you’ve already shown me you’re brave, Byron, so why don’t we please each other at the same time?

What the fuck? Was I lying to myself? Half my mind had been for an hour looking forward to suck my stepbrother’s scrumptious dick again, so I didn’t think anymore and took it into my mouth again and reveled in the perfect taste it had. I should give him blowjob after blowjob now and I also wanted the blowjobs he gave me. Oh how he moved his tongue! In that moment I desired to learn the same motions he was doing to make it perfect for my dick. Maybe a boy sucks cocks better for unconsciously he’s giving a dick the same fun he wants to get. So I should learn to make it perfect for Silas, for that way my cock would always be treated in that perfect way no girl had ever sucked it. And 69 was perfect: this way half my mind would relish Silas’ taste as the other half would focus on the heat of his tongue on my virility. My volcano melted again and I only awaited now his fire. Maybe I was going crazy: what had tasted like salt in my first blowjob, now had the flavor of ashes. My stepbrother was burning with me, but obviously he was making me ashes too. We were both now at the stake like Joan of Arc.

-I love it with you, Silas, but now I’m going out for a stroll. I surely need to reflect a bit what it is that’s happening to me. But don’t worry, I’m not angry at you, on the contrary, I’m really grateful. So kiss me again, bro.

I affectionately kissed his lips first and then I got dressed. I’m sure Silas did not understand me and was astonished at me. That’s why I had to stroll and think. I didn’t want him disappointed at me. I really loved my stepbrother now. It was real fraternal affection. I left him there, naked in my bedroom and left. Now I should walk for hours or stop somewhere to have a drink.

I spent the whole afternoon walking and thinking. Maybe I needed to be strolling for hours so that my brain knew how to choose the landscapes I should walk on now. First I reached the conclusion that I really enjoyed sex with my brother. I really liked the taste of his dick and it was a big surprise for me that I even enjoyed his dick up my butt. I’m open-minded and was quick to admit what I really liked and having sex with him my mind just made me more lucid. After so much walk, I decided to stop in a bar with a big terrace and have a coffee.

Now I had to think whether I would not need girls anymore. Sex with Silas was ok, but I’d need more girls, wouldn’t I? Shit! It didn’t take me long to see that no girl would ever treat my dick and my sexual life the way Silas did. So what did I miss? I didn’t know. There was something in his own words that worried me. I was adding two and two and it never made four. I couldn’t see yet that so far with him sex was an imperfect three but I needed four. But after all I reached the conclusion that I wanted sex with my stepbrother to continue. Better if I still gave him half my mind, for I intuited I couldn’t give him my entire mind till it wasn’t four. Four, what was four? Worried about all this, I finally reached home.

Silas was sitting on the kitchen table with a dish full of paella. He told me all I had to do is warming up my dinner in the microwave. I did and later started to shamelessly strip and I told him I’d like him to do the same and we could dine naked, with no sex now, I added, for I was exhausted.

-So, have you reached any conclusion, Byron? –he asked me.

-My mind is a mess, Silas. All I’m sure about now is that I love it with you and would like to continue. I’m worried about something but I cannot put a name to it. Nevertheless, I love being naked in your presence and seeing your nudity at the same time. I’ll sleep with nothing on tonight.

-Leave your bedroom door open for even if you’re exhausted, I could enter and surprise you.

-Ok, Silas –and after having finished dinner, I stood up and kissed him and carrying my clothes on my hands, I didn’t lock my bedroom door and grasped a book and naked, I started to read.

After ten minutes, Silas did really enter my bedroom.

-What are you reading?

-Foucault’s pendulum. It was you that recommended me this book.

-Yes, I’ve read it five times. When I like a book, I read it over and over again. Where are you now? –And unexpectedly I noticed that he was sucking my cock again.

-They’re talking about the Paulicians, the Old Man of the Mountain and the Assassins. I really love all this part of the Templar Plan.

-The Paulicians, the fifth group.

-I like how Eco can use the whole history of humanity to make a really large conspiracy.  But he laughs at all that and scorn conspirators. You did a spoiler to me. I know now there’s no plan and it’s all a laundry list, isn’t it? I still haven’t reached that point.

-It’s a laundry list. By the way, Byron, my aim was only making you really hard for the next move –and then he withdrew his mouth from my dick and unexpectedly impaled himself on it.

-Fuck me, brother.

There I was with my dick in that wonderful hole. I’d never fucked such an arousing cunt. The fact that it was my brother’s ass gave it a plus of arousal. And when I was deep inside Silas, I yelled like crazy.

-I’ve found my four!

-What do you mean, Byron? It hurts like hell, by the way, but since I wanna fuck you constantly, I know I also have to surrender my ass.

-That’s it, Silas, you talked about give and take and I couldn’t give myself to you till it was four. Four movements, as if we were playing an erotic game of chess. Number one: you suck my cock: number two: you fuck me in the ass; number three: I suck your cock. I needed number four: I needed to fuck your ass. Now if you want me, you can have me provided we always have the four movements very often.

-Now it hurts a bit less. Being fucked is not my dream; I prefer topping but you can always have my ass provided I always have yours.

-Fucking an ass is wonderful; no, not an ass, fucking my cute and sexy brother. You know what, Silas? I wouldn’t like you to leave later. I’d like us both to sleep together tonight, with no clothes if it’s the same to you. –And I started kissing him again, and he told me my lips were the right balm not to feel any pain now. He still preferred fucking me, but he could now properly give me his ass to fuck too. But he asked me.

-Did you mean it, Byron? I mean, do you really want us sleeping together?

-I certainly mean it, Silas, what do you think?

-I like it and I don’t like it.

-I don’t understand you.

-I mean I wouldn’t like to sleep with my hot brother tonight not to sleep with you tomorrow.

-We can both sleep together every night, if that’s what you wish. So I guess this is something like an engagement. But do you love me, Silas?

-Don’t know, brother. I’ve never been in love, but I know I wanna sleep with you and have sex only with you.

-I wouldn’t even mind to become your boyfriend, now you know. After having known you carnally, I need no girls and no other boy either, just you, sweetheart. I’m gonna cum inside you.

How I liked to fill his ass with my juice. I was gonna ask him whether he had enjoyed after all, but I needed no answer; his dick was the answer. I saw it as crazy as my dick had been this very afternoon, and he also shot gallons of semen into our sheets.

-Now I want you to sleep here with me. No more sex today, Silas, please, it’d be very difficult for either of us to cum again. But now you have what you wanted: my full mind, brother. After now I wanna be conscious of whatever sexual act I have with you. Let’s cuddle together and try to sleep. I know it won’t be easy after having become somehow engaged.

So that night we slept together for the first time. Difficult to believe that both brothers had started the habit of sleeping naked and having sex, but that’s how everything began. As far as we are studying and sharing this flat we will be lovers, or boyfriends for I tell Silas that so far we are boyfriends and I don’t want this state of things to ever finish. I don’t know whether now, when time has passed, love has reached either of us but I always say the same. Maybe love is not necessary, but the strong brotherly affection we both have for the other, and the fact that love could reach either of us is a risk we have to face, but liking each other so much, I think it would never be a problem for the one who’s not in love can continue being his brother’s boyfriend. At least I’m willing to continue to be Silas’ boyfriend if it is him who falls in love with me.

So every day we have sex with each other and share the same bed at nights, now with our full minds implied in what we’re doing, but both of us say the same: it’s one better way to learn if we only put half our minds when we study.

Freedom can move your life and it can be seen even in the hardest conditions, together with love and friendship, happiness and beauty. Have a look at the life of eight beggars who live together at: https://luces-delatierra.blogspot.com/ or in English at: https://lightsoftheearth.blogspot.com/