Shame Makes Me Cum
It was a usual afternoon having a drink with my friend Pablo. We had always been friends since our primary education, even when he was Leo’s boyfriend, also a friend of mine. So Pablo Gosálvez is gay, but with a very mannish look. We’re both 27 now.
I am Unai Eljas and we also work together in the same post office.
Many days I liked asking him about his sexual life and wanted to know how he was feeling now that he was single again.
-But you never tell me things about your sexual life, Unai. Is it that you feel ashamed about it? Maybe you have a little dick or something like that?
-No, Pablo, my dick is acceptably long. Well, my friend, I don’t know why I can’t tell you this. It’s just something strange that happens to me but the way I will tell you now, I have my best orgasms.
-How? I’m curious to know. Well, if you want to tell me.
-Well, Pablo, I discovered with my first girlfriend Jennifer that I cum uncontrollably when I feel shame. I should say that sexual shame makes me always cum.
-Can you tell me more?
-Ok, I will -I got totally red now as I was telling him-, one night I was fucking with Jennifer when I suddenly lost my erection. Our relationship was already failing and when my dick behaved shamelessly that night, she started laughing at me. It was then that I came in her cunt, but a really long river as my face turned scarlet.
-Well, I’ve never lost my erections again, but one night I was at a party with Dalina, you used to know her, my second girlfriend. I was talking to a transvestite with painted lips, for he had also been invited, when suddenly he kissed my lips. Alina was watching and again shame made me cum. Now I creamed my pants. We left the party and when we reached our house, I still had some remnants of lipstick, so I went into the bathroom to clean it. Alina came after me and she told me I had a sexy look being somewhat feminine that night. That made me again cream my pants, second time that night. So I cannot help it: whenever I feel sexually ashamed I cum.
-Let me ask you something: when that transvestite kissed you, did you feel any kind of homophobic sensation?
-Not that, Pablo, I’m not a homophobe. It was the surprise and the fact that Dalina was watching, a shameful situation, that’s all.
-So do you think you could also cum with a boy if you’re feeling sexual shame?
-I think I can, but why are you asking?
-I’ve never told you, Unai, but you’re a really handsome and sexy boy and I’ve often wanked over you. Well, now you kno…
He didn’t finish his sentence because he saw my reaction. Pablo had always been my main friend and I’m not gay but that did not prevent me from creaming my pants again.
-You’ve creamed your pants, Unai, don’t tell me you haven’t.
-Ok, my friend. Now you know that what I’ve told you is true. I’ve felt shame again and I’ve just cum, but you’re my best friend and always will.
-Have you heard of CMNM?
-Never heard about that, what is it?
-It means clothed male, naked male.
-And why are you mentioning it?
-Well, Unai, I think you don’t know my two friends Jonay and Sergio. Once we called a male prostitute, a very sexy twink. But all we wanted was CMNM. We were the ones to undress him and we jacked off till we came just watching him naked, that’s all. And we were all the time with our clothes on.
-I repeat my question, Pablo: why are you telling me that?
-It’s suddenly come to my mind. I lust for you, now I tell you openly, and you cum in situations where you feel shame. I was just thinking Jonay, Sergio and I could again live CMNM with you.
-I’ve been about to cream my pants again so I will at least listen to you. How would it be?
-You’ll come to Jonay’s country house, will first have a drink with us and finally you’ll stand up and will allow us three to touch everything of you. We’ll be all the time with our clothes on.
-No prejudice, Pablo, but I’m not sure I want to do something gay.
-You won’t have to do anything with any of our dicks. Besides remember that you won’t even see us naked
-So I’d stand up and you’d touch me, and later?
-We’d be the ones taking off your clothes little by little and we’d touch any nude area in your body. Finally we’ll even see your dick, your balls, your arse… and we’d touch everything. Maybe we could even jack you off, or suck your cock or anything like that but I repeat that you’ll have to do nothing with our dicks but you’ll see ours for we would be all the time masturbating. Think about that, Unai; you’re not gay but no doubt you would be as ashamed or more as when that transvestite did kiss you and you would surely cum sometimes. Remember you’ve already cum with a boy: myself, and I don’t think you repent. I still see you hard.
-The idea is somehow appealing, Pablo but anyhow I cannot tell you I would, I have to think it twice first.
He agreed with me and we said goodbye to each other then.
But at home that night I saw that I was constantly hard. I didn’t feel like being naked in front of three horny guys who would be touching me, but it was also true that the mere thought made me ashamed and inevitably I came twice that night and I never masturbated. I thought there could not be any more embarrassing situation. So the next day seeing I went hard whenever I thought of it, I phoned Pablo and told him that I accepted CMNM with him and his two friends. That phone call had been on Monday. He called me back on Wednesday and told me Jonay and Sergio would gladly receive me tomorrow in the former’s country house and he, Pablo, would pick me up and drive me there.
On the road to Jonay’s country house, I couldn’t be more nervous but thoughts of the shame I would soon be feeling made me again cream my pants so I decided I would leave all prejudices behind. Shame makes me cum and I will surely cum today too with three boys.
We got out of the car at last. The country house was not large but seemed a cozy little place.
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