A lack of willpower and a surprising result.
(24 Hours Later)
That next night I lay there in the darkness of the tent, hearing his breathing start to slow and regulate, then become that familiar soft snore. I knew he was asleep. Again, the sleeping bag had been tossed back and this time he was going “commando”. Sleeping naked.
I thought to myself. “DON” T DO ANYTHING JUST GO TO SLEEP” But the lust of an 18 yr. old is a powerful thing. As he snored slightly louder. Again, as if controlled by an invisible force my had reached over and my thumb moved slowly over the head and down the exposed shaft…
I took a deep breath bent down and put my face close to his cock smelling the musky scent. I leaned in farther opening my. mouth and taking the head and about a quarter inch of the shaft into my mouth.
I watched his chest rise and fall steadily. as I moved my tongue over the smooth skin of his cock. Again, I felt him harden between my lips I glanced back up, his eyes were still closed but his breathing increased in speed. I wondered if he was dreaming. then slowly took his entire length into my mouth as he became rock hard. I eased his cock deep into the back of my throat and tried to move up and down. I looked back up again, his eyes were still closed. but there was slight smile on his lips. I figured this will end one of two ways. He was dreaming of some chick blowing him … or he was awake but not stopping me… either way. I wasn’t going to waste the chance.
I started sucking faster and deeper… as I reached up and gently brushed my fingers across his pecs… feeling the nipples harden … His hips arched up slightly and I worried I had gone too far. and I jerked back and killed the light. I lay there, the only sound was His breathing…
I reached over and eased the top of his sleeping bag over him, and I leaned back and lay there in shock over what I had just done. Then the silence is broken by the sound of his voice…
“That was nice….”
I froze there in the dark, my mind raced with the hope that maybe he was just talking in his sleep to whomever he was dreaming of… I turned and looked over … my eyes had adjusted to the dark…thanks to the moonlight outside. I saw him, eyes open. Looking right at me with an odd smile on his face…
“I…. I…” started to stammer, trying to think of something to say. Horrified that I had just destroyed our friendship because I couldn’t hold back my own teenage lust.
I sat up… and looked anywhere but at him. Then oddly enough I felt a sudden calm come over me. If this was in fact the end of my life at least I would go out honestly. My feelings were out in open. No use pretending this was anything other than what it was.
So, I turned to face him. “So… I guess you see… that I’m… well …. Attracted to you “. I took a deep breath, in for a penny in for a pound, I looked him in the eye and confessed everything.
“I have had it bad for you for years. all those backrubs were just an excuse to touch you. what happened tonight is unforgivable, I couldn’t help it. And I don’t imagine you can forgive me. and I totally understand that you obviously want to at the very least change tent partners. You need to know that I never would do or say anything that would. …I mean....”
I realized I was babbling at this point and stopped talking. He had not said a word.
I stared down at the floor of the tent. He looked at me. I closed my eyes and brace for the words of shock, anger, and disgust that I knew were coming. Resigned to whatever happened next, as I was totally responsible for what had happened.
He cleared his throat. I glanced up. He had this odd expression on his face. Like he knew something I didn’t.
Finally, he broke the silence; “So… yeah, I know. How you feel I mean… I’ve known for a long time… I mean, the whole backrub thing was kind of a hint. Plus, it was really
obvious when I could feel… how excited you are when you uh... straddle me…”
I sat there. Feeling the burning sensation of intense embarrassment in my face, thinking if there ever was a time for giant sinkhole to open and swallow me. now would be a great time.
I finally met his gaze. all I managed to say was “…Sorry.” This odd half smile crossed his face. He looked at me and said; “Really? I’m not.”
The hard drive of my brain crashed…. My head snapped up; “Wait…what?”
He moved slightly closer to me. And I felt the body heat radiating off both of us in the cool night air inside the tent. He continued; “Since we are telling the truth now, I’m going to ask you something. And I want you to answer completely honestly. Ok?”
I swallowed hard and nodded. Not sure what to expect. He moved even closer to me, practically nosed to nose. His eyes locked on mine. “So, if you had known for sure that there was no chance of me waking up and you were free to do whatever you wanted with no consequences…… what would you have done? The truth now…."
I looked at him and took a deep breath; “I’d never do anything that would hurt you or put you in any danger. I…. I...” my eyes shifted back down the floor. I knew there was no choice but total honesty at this point; “I’m…. I think I’m in love with you “.
He smiled, and leaned in closer; “I know… But I am asking, if you had total free reign to do anything you wanted tonight… what would you have done?” My mouth went dry, and I stared at his lips… and then looked him in the eye and whispered “…Everything.”
He smiled what I can only describe as the evillest smile I had ever seen. Then he leaned in, his mouth is right next to my right ear…. I shivered as he lightly slid his hands down my back. and whispered; “Then tomorrow night…. Do everything.” He then abruptly pulled away lay back down and cheerfully said “good night!”
I fell back on my camping pad and sleeping bag stunned by what just happened. And finally, exhaustion took hold and I fell asleep.
In the morning he wakes up and with an evil look and says, “Hey, you, ok? You look tired, more trouble sleeping? “I can’t believe we are having this conversation but fine, I’ll play along. I say that I had some trouble getting to sleep. But feel fine. He replies that he slept GREAT. I raise one eyebrow at that, but he clearly is going to act like nothing happened.
He smirks and stretches that damn sexy body and then leans in close and whispered; “Yeah, I find I can sleep really well in this tent… in fact I am pretty sure I will sleep more soundly tonight than I have EVER slept…” Then he has the nerve to WINK…. Cheeky bastard!
The day that follows is sheer hell.
It is like the day is one long exercise in how he can drive me insane. Our main activity that day is Lifesaving Skills, and we are practice partners. I get down the Swimming beach early, but he is there ahead of me, wearing those green speedos.
Somebody just kill me…
Of course, today is the water test to complete the badge. The first test is the cross-arm water carry where we must pull someone to safety by wrapping an arm around their chest and pulling the other person out of the water.
It’s our turn, we jump in the water, and he begins to feign drowning. I swim up behind him, wrap my arm around his chest and start to tow him to shore. When I notice he is GRINDING his ass into my groin. I immediately sprout a raging hard on. He leans his head back and with that evil smile says “Gee…water must not be that cold today.”
The urge to dunk him is almost overwhelming. But somehow, I get through the rest of the class.
Thankfully at this point our schedules diverge and I don’t see him until it’s that evening, at the closing campfire. Our group does two skits and afterwards we are busy packing up the campsite for check out and the trip home tomorrow.
Finally, around 11pm I head back to the tent. He was already there in his sleeping bag. I notice his green speedos are nowhere to be seen in the pile of clothes. He then remarks how he is going to “sleep like the dead:” and turns off the light and with that same evil smile saying, “good night!”
I lie there in dark not sure what to do, when I hear the clear sound of a sleeping bag unzipping and the top cover being tossed back…
It feels like time as slowed down, the silence in our tent is deafening. I look over and see him silhouetted in the dim moonlight shining through the canvas of the tent. I see his chest rising and falling in a clearly exaggerated manner as his hand slides down across the bulge in the clearly visible green speedos.
He actually makes a “snoring sound” which the sly smile on his face clearly gives away as fake… he then hooks his thumb into the waistband of those briefs and slides one side down as his hardening cock pops up.in full view.
My brain basically shuts down and I slowly sit up. I know if I do this there is no going back. This is essentially admitting to myself what I have always known but desperately tried to avoid facing the truth of. I’m gay and I want to have sex with my friend.
I take a deep breath and think, “Well if this all some kind of sick joke and he beats the crap out of me, at least I’ll have died happy.” I stand up slide my shorts off, freeing my own painfully hard erection. In the dim light I see what looks like his eyes slightly open but clearly, he is still going with the whole fast asleep act. I whisper very quietly: “Ok then... let’s see just how far you are willing to hike down this trail…”
I crouch down and my face moves within half an inch of his cock. I allow my hot breath to move slowly along the shaft. The effect is obvious even in the dark I can see him getting hard. I figure it’s now or never. So, I move up and position my body over his in a push up position. Hovering over him by a few inches.
He shifts just slightly so his cock is aligned with mine and I lower myself down. The moment my cock touches his we both become rock hard. It feels like my cock just connected with a live electric wire. The sensation is nearly overwhelming. I feel him slowly start to move. Thrusting up grinding his cock against mine. We both let out a simultaneous moan.
That is the final crack in my wall of caution I crush my body into his grinding furiously against him. I feel his hands move up my back pressing the back of my head forward. My mouth connects with his and my tongue slides past his lips has his tongue wrestles with mine. I let out a slow deep moan.
The feelings are so intense, and I don’t want this to end too soon. So, I break away and move down his toros with my mouth stopping at each pec licking, sucking, and gently biting each round tanned nipple. He arches his back and groans; “Oh shit…. That’s amazing!”
I move down to his groin and run my tongue long the shaft of his cock easing it into my mouth. I slowly move up and down taking him deeper each time until I can deep throat him. His hands move to the sides of my head. and I hear him whisper. “Wait…. I want yours.”
He shifts position, so his head is at my crotch and mine is at his Then in perfect synchronization we take each other's cock in our mouths.
Time stops as we 69 each other. I motion for him to stop as I am getting close. He waves me off and speeds up his oral attack on my cock. The sensation of pre-orgasm begins to build I keep indicating he should stop, but clearly, he had other ideas.
He doubles his efforts taking my cock faster and deeper down his throat as I grip him harder to let him know that if he doesn’t want what is about to happen, he should stop, I hear him chuckle… as he takes me balls deep down his throat.
I lose vision in both eyes as I only see stars while the most intense orgasm in human history tears through me and I erupt in his mouth. As I return to my senses, he is lying next to me propped up on his elbow [with a very smug smile.
He is about to say something. I stop him and push him back down on to the sleeping bag taking his cock into my mouth and sucking as he gets fully hard again.
I reach over to my pack and pull out a travel size bottle of baby oil and cover his cock with it while I attack his mouth with mine. Then I roll sidewise so his cock is pressing against my ass. And I whisper “No holding back, I want this. I want you. So don’t stop until you are empty”
He rolls over and slowly slides his cock into me and starts gently thrusting in and out. I squeeze down on his with my glutes in a pulsing action. It is the most incredible pain-to pleasure feeling I have ever felt. I hear him moan “Oh…Fuuuuucck!”, and I am instantly rock hard again
He speeds up. I Squeeze harder and pulse faster I feel his breath begin to get ragged I know he is getting close I push hard against him and feel him bite down on the nape of my neck, this causes me to have another orgasm as his own load explodes deep into me.
He rolls off me, and we lie there panting. I look over at him and chuckle. He smiles and asks what was funny. I smile back running my hands over his back. “I wonder what merit badge this would be."
He laughs and presses his cock against mine. And I feel his mouth against my neck as he whispers…. “Let’s consider it a …. Mutual research project.”
I looked forward to more research. But after that night, we never spoke of it again, and over the weeks that followed an awkward distance developed. To the point we didn't even say goodbye after graduation.
(To be Continued)
