Is that a boy or a gurl

I guess I looked the part..

When I was still living at home, my dad and his friends would give me a hard time about my looks, yes I had long hair, and yes I kinda looked queer. But it wasn't on purpose. I was the only son, and I had 4 sisters. It didn't really bother me but that was then. When I moved away from home I had noticed a lot of men taking longer than " normsl" looks at me. I mean I could practically feel them looking me up and down. Well by this time I also had tried Meth. And I won't blame it but I had gotten into transgender porn. Tyranny porn. Well there was a guy at my job that seemed nice at first. But then whenever I was around any of my female associates. He would make it a point to point out how feminine I looked. It got me. I started getting pissed off, so I stopped eating lunch at work and started going to a small diner. Well I kinda had noticed there was a girl that always ate there at the same time I did..One day as she was leaving, she paused at my table and said" I'm sorry but I  simple must tell you how attractive you are" I almost spit my tea out I was drinking. She laughed and asked if she could sit. I stood up and pulled the chair out for her. When I sat back down she leaned in to me and said," you are fucking hot". What are you doing tonight?'..I didn't need to check my social calendar to know I never had plans.  " not much..?.."  would you come over to my house and hang out,?" ...ok,ok..

So I showed up and knocked. This guy answered the door. " Fuck I don't know this girl's name".

.i suddenly realized..I kinda stuttered and he laughed and invited me in. I walked in an paused. He walked around in front of me.." its me..he said...I just looked at him with a blank stare.. " huh"?.. then all the sudden I saw him. Fuck Jesus it was the girl or the guy. Wait wtf is happening.  He went to a closet and pulled out a wig holder and put the wig on.. Fuck!! Fuck@@. I started laughing ..what is going on?. She..I mean he ..I  fuckn don't know ..told me to sit next to them...after a 10 minute speech I totally forgot he was a she..I mean their life sounded similar..getting teased ...looking like a girl. ..he told me, that about 3 yrs ago , he met a guy at a party, and went to get high with him In another part of the house..he said .I mean she said..that the guy was so nice and actually very gay. But he didn't want sex. He wanted to dress me as a woman!!. I mean makeup..all of it. So I went to his house..he didn't take a long time.. he said " go look in the mirror "I took a couple of steps and I gasped. That was me.,??? Me ..??.I was just staring..I was beautiful..I never thought I was much to look at...but as a woman I...I 

.started crying from the emotional rush of seeing myself.  He walked over and looked over my shoulders and pulled the skirt I had on over to the right a bit . I walked up to the mirror...it was me!!.. am I a woman?. I said outloud?. He put his arms around me in a comforting manner and squeezed me   " Baby girl you should have been" he gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. I sat down and we talked.  He asked if I had ever had sex or any thoughts of being with a guy.. No I never really had much sex period.  He held my hand " I bet the girls you asked even then could see you were already prettier than they were. That's why you didn't have much success baby" ..he was so kind and I believed him. So fast forward...I've slept with 5 men total.  She or he said.. it's the most amazing experience I've ever felt. She grabbed my hand. " I've always wanted to share a fantasy I've had, to be with another crossdresser. You have to let me make youover?.. please?.. if you aren't blown away like I was, I'll never think anything bad about you. Well a couple glasses of wine and a bowl of meth later I was sitting at her make up table. She had put a dress on me and a silky blouse. Which I have to admit. Did turn me on. She turned me away from the mirror and towards her. She said " you don't need a wig" as she brushed my hair so gently. After about 30 mins she backed up a step and simply glowed at me. When she smiled I saw her face as a woman. OH my God your so beautiful!.!!..she had tears in her eyes.  I said are u ok?. She helped me up and we walked over to her closet door.  She couldn't stop smiling. I thought I must have looked ridiculous.. she said " ok,"?.." look at this hot bitch". She flung the door open all the way . There was a full  length mirror. I.. i. was in shock..that was me,?..  I got weak kneed , I thought I was going to collapse. She pulled me back and she sat me down on the end of her bed and turned on the overhead light. I couldn't speak..I couldn't hardly think she sat beside me as we looked in the mirror.  She flipped my hair over to the side  and then got the brush abd kept adjusting it. " How"??.was all I could say. " When I saw you the first time at the diner, I saw her' as she pointed at the mirror.!!. I started to smile looking at the girl in the mirror that was staring back at me. Then she started smiling.. I felt a wave of emotion run me over. I started crying..my friend sat next to me and put her arm around me and pulled me to her.. " Hey...Hey?.. it's pretty overwhelming isn't it? . I buried my face in her chest." I can't tell you how many times I got bullied or teased about looking so feminine. She pulled my head up and took a tissue and wiped my tears.  " well I promise you won't ever be teased again and she stood me up and walked me back over to the mirror..I loved me ..for the first time in my life ...I loved me....