Is that a boy or a gurl

"ok so how do I load it?

..my friend talked with me for hours, we had been though so many similar things. Finally the words started running together like water colors down the sink. The silence in between started getting uncomfortably Awkward. I suddenly felt a presence in the room, like how some people are a tuned to the feelings of those souls are no longer attached to a body. Then I realized it was her , not her my friend. But me her, she even sounded like a woman's voice in My head. I lifted one arm up around my girlfriends waist. She turned to me and her eyes were so big. I saw this other woman, even though she didn't put any makeup or clothes on. I felt a connection like a string of golden wire from me to her.i laid her back gently and rolled my upper body over hers . I looked at her lips,  her eyes, her face, then it was like mystical,  but all the sudden she did have all those things on, she looked just like how I saw her at the diner today!!. I blinked...and then my eyes caught back up to reality. But yet I could still see her,  I held her head in my hands and lifted her face up slightly to meet my mouth. I softly pushed my lips up to hers. My tounge was pressing at her lips like someone that loses the door key tries to force the door open. Then it did open. I tasted every second of every day I had been teased, all the hurt that I tried to pretend that wasn't there. She put her arms around me and pushed all that hurt and pain out of me!!!. I only felt love. This was that moment that only a few lucky people have!!!. When they get to have a second chance. A second chance not to change the past, that's not what I wanted, but a second chance at finding that path that I was SUPPOSED  to be on the whole time. I melted in her mouth, not in her hands. " OK!!. Sorry I couldn't stop that from getting out"..I realized my eyes were closed,!!. I opened them and I was in my bed!!. I sat up in the darkness. Where was she?..I was confused and I became dizzy. When I took the sheet off and stood up, I blacked out and fell to the floor, my last memory was of that beautiful woman that smiled at me from the mirror.

The music...it was thst song by the Cars. DRIVE..I LOVE THAT FUCKING SONG.then I felt warmth on my cheek and shoulder.....FUCK..it was my alarm °.I tried to jump up but my feet didn't get that message from my brain 

..I couldn't get up off the floor!!."" Ok" I said outload.  " calm down"  " take a breath, let's figure this out"                      I looked down and saw both feet were wrapped up in the sheet. Then I heard someone say, " call your company secretary and tell her your going to be late"." Yea!!!. What she said. " I thought. I got untangled and remembered I lived alone!!!. There was nobody else here...What was happening to me!!???. I got up and walked into the bathroom.  I jumped out of my skin when I saw this woman in there. " wait ..thats me"..

I stopped and looked at myself. Then i felt like my feet came off the floor, I was floating, and I was happy,  I looked back at her. And outloud I said  " ok what's your name then?"  I never opened my mouth , or she never opened my mouth, or ..well you know what I mean. I heard , " Jess " as in Jessica"  I landed back on the floor and began to cry , as I said hello to her, " I love you Jess" is all I could say. She smiled back at me from whereever the other side of mirrors led to. " I love you too.baby. now wipe our tears away,  we have a lot to do today""    

I made the call to work, and I easily made the secretary tell me what the day was going to be like. Then!..she.out of the blue. Reminded me I had a week of vacation days . I didn't ask her about that??. I responded with, " right just do me a favor and write it down in your worksheet that I told you yesterday and that you forgot to update the log.   "Of course " she said

I said ok goodbye "  she said " ok you enjoy your day off , Ms. Jess" and hung up the phone. ." What.just happened I thought , then the answer came back. " we just Influenced her a little bit my baby now get in the shower "

After I got out ,when I walked by the mirror. I got a sinking sadness fall on me. I stopped and faced the mirror. But " she wasn't there anymore!??. It was if she had flown away, I felt so alone!!. I walked to my bed, and laid back.." well" I said . What now?. Then it hit me..and this time it was me not Jess.  " I'll call my girl and ask her.....fuck I thought she's at work!!.now what.  I went and quickly put on some sweat pants and a t-shirt and got my wallet and my keys and shut my door behind me. " I can do this Jess, and your gong to help me". 

I got in my car and when I cranked it. I HEARD IT.. THAT SONG BY THE CARS...DRIVE!!!..