Intelligence

Under Stress

I’ve had my doubts whether I should write our story or not for it might seem that my brother Gavin had been taking advantage of me because of my disease, and he was not. It was actually me who did almost everything. He was 30 when all of this started and he worked conducting audits.

My name’s Damien and I was 28 then and I’ve always been an autist. I don’t wanna say autistic person. People like me also have the right to have a substantive defining what happens to us. I think the noun autist is little by little entering dictionaries.

It’s hard to be an autist. My parents and my brother often had to help me in my many crises. We autists hate noises, especially strident and many times we break down but my relatives managed to make me relax whenever it happened. And it’s difficult for us to socialize and of course harder it is to have sex. I was almost a virgin, for girls tend to think that we are gullible people and we are not. In fact I have been at university. When I was 20, I lost both my parents but I won’t talk about this or I might break down and have another crisis. Since Gavin had a job, he soon was in charge of me. Well, I appreciated his taking care of me, but I also wanted to study, so I went to university and studied economics and at 27 I was hired in a company dealing with cereals. I won’t tell its name as I won’t mention our family name.

So I think I’m moderately intelligent. But what is intelligence? It must be something more than knowing by heart a lot of data like poems or geographical names. You need intelligence to admit the good and bad things that come to you in life. My intelligence told me when very young that maybe I would always need someone taking care of me but also that I could be independent and even study and find a job later if I tried hard. Always feeling lonely in my social life, at least I was surrounded by a lot of people who really loved me, my brother Gavin being the most affectionate person with me.

One day I was fired from my job due to a stupid thing but with my scarce or not so scarce intelligence I managed to find a job the same day in a company we had also worked for which dealt with fruits instead of cereals. I was sitting on a couch and was under stress knowing the very following day, I’d start working in a different place, with a new computer, different workmates, etc. it was a hot day and all I was wearing was my sweatpants.  And just then Gavin entered and saw me about to cry and break down. So he sat next to me and started talking to me.

-What’s up, Damien?

-I’ve been fired today, Gavin.

And then I told him the whole story of what had happened this morning.

-I confused two companies with two very similar names and changed the documents. It was nothing that couldn’t be solved but my boss only thought that I’m an autist and even if I’ve always been a conscientious worker, he feared I did stupid mistakes after now and has fired me. But I’ve found another job the same day.

-Of course, you’re really intelligent, Damien.

-Are you saying that out of pity or do you really think so, Gavin?

-I really think so, Damien. You studied, found a job and the very day you are fired, you manage to find a new job. When I entered I saw you about to cry but also saw you hard. Maybe talking about sex could take your mind off your problems. Would you mind if I asked you whether you’ve already had sex?

-Of course I wouldn’t mind, Gavin. I’m not as dumb as people think and sex is also a usual conversation I have with my friends and you are my friend. Well, I was hard because I was thinking about Julia, you know her, a very good girl she is. But I’m almost a virgin. I’d fucked no girl and only Julia gave me a blowjob one day but just one. I was talking about sex with her and she told me she could help me a bit. You see, Gavin? She said help and it was a very good blowjob that she gave me, but I think it was more out of pity for she knows the problems I have hooking up girls, none but her and only for a blowjob. My problem in sex is I never see desire in a girl to have sex with me. They think I’m shit for brains.

-You’ve always allowed me to help you. This is not out of pity. My dear brother’s sexual needs have aroused me, so somehow this is desire, Damien –and saying that, he stuck his hand under my sweatpants, grabbed my hard cock and simply started to jack me off.

-Hope you’re not shocked, Damien and hope you allow me both to take away the stress you’re under and help you in your sexual needs.

My response was taking off my brother’s T-shirt and moaning a lot. I also told him.

-If it weren’t because you’re not gay, I would kiss your mouth right now, Gavin.

-You can do it, Damien, please.

So there we were, my brother jacking me off and both of us kissing ravenously for I intuited Gavin was enjoying this kiss as much as I was enjoying.

-Pull down your pants, will you? –he asked me. But it was him indeed who took them off. I said then.

-I’d also like you to take everything off, Gavin.

So never stopping his jacking me off, he managed to remove then the few clothes he still had on. It was so good to notice my brother was a really sexy boy.

-From very young, Gavin, we were told this stupid lesson that a boy must look for a girl but since I am considered stupid, I’ll say something stupid now –and in that moment I also grabbed Gavin’s cock in my hand and with real lust started wanking him, so there we were, both happily masturbating his brother-: a boy doesn’t have to necessarily look for a girl. He can also choose another boy, if he is as handsome as you, as sexy as you, as sweet as you’ve always been my whole life and are being with me right now.

-What we’re doing is so sweet, Damien, and I am feeling lust and what you’ve just said isn’t stupid. A boy can also look for another boy, even two brothers can help each other out as we’re doing in a really sweet way –and in that moment, Gavin shot a first load with me but continued jacking me off. I didn’t wanna cum so soon now I was living sexual fun with someone I appreciated so much, so I started touching him compulsively everywhere and noticing my affectionate hands down his body, he felt the desire to do the same to me. He kept on masturbating me and it was me then that made the next advances, cause I wanted to prolong this sweetness and I did not care anymore that it was a boy or that it was my own brother. I wanted to go further and now I really wanted to drive that hot boy crazy and try a pleasure I’d never thought about and suddenly when I still had not cum, I took Gavin’s dick into my mouth and started giving him my first blowjob.

-Oh Damien, are you sure?

-For the first time in my life, Gavin, I’m living both sweetness and lust and I’m having sex with someone who wants to have sex with me and not out of pity. So I will go on, if you allow me, brother. Oh, you’ve always helped me in everything and now I am de-stressed thanks to you. Oh tell me you allow me, Gavin, I love the taste –and to make my last words clearer I shot my first load just then.

-If you’re having fun, Damien, you can go on.

So there I was, for the first time sucking a cock, feeling that I needed intelligence now to accept the gifts life sometimes gives you. I was reveling in the taste. He’s my flesh and blood; the only one who’s always cared for me so my lips continued enjoying his manhood thanking him for everything he was.