Secret #1

I never thought I'd be sharing these stories with anyone but I figured it's worth a try. Comments and feedback are always appreciated!

Chapter 1

March, 2012

Me (B): 5ft 8in; 130 lbs
Cousin (S): 5ft 10in; 180 lbs

I had just moved into the same city as my cousin. It was like we were on summer vacation all the time. Things were going great. One day my brother and I went over to my grandmother's house where my cousin was staying for a couple days while his parents were out of town. My brother went out to meet the neighbors and S was on the computer. I was in the kitchen getting in a snack when S asked me to join him in the room and bring two sodas.

S: What do you know about sex

B: Literally nothing. We've talking about it in school but I don't really get it

He moves the cursor and the screen comes to life. There's a woman on her knees sucking this huge white rod coming out of a guy's crotch. My eyes instantly widened and I could feel my heart quicken. I did not like what I was watching but I was curious.

B: Why the fuck is he being so mean to her?

S: She seems to be enjoying it.

B: Yeah... I'm not sure.

We browsed through a few more videos and each time the cocks caught my attention. I kept asking more questions.

B: Are penises actually that big?

S: I think so. Mine isn't that big though.

B: Yeah mine is tiny compared to that. It looks pretty good.

S: What about the girl's tits. They're fucking hot.

B: Oh yeah. They're impressive.

My brother knocked on the door and that was that. The rest of the day we kept looking at each other and laughing a little - we had a little secret and it was intoxicating.

We all decided to sleepover at my grandmother's that night but then my brother decided to go home and sleep next to our mom. S and I set up sleeping bags in the guest room because the bed was small and kicked back with the lights off and the radio on. We were quite for a little while but then he broke the silence.

S: You know, there are lots of people who actually masturbate together.

B: Huh?

S: I think it's called circle masturbation, when guys get together, watch porn and jerk off.

B: But what's jerking off?

S got up and looked at me. I could tell his mouth was open even though the lights were off. He gave me his phone and pointed to the door.

S: Go watch something like what we saw earlier today. Search for whatever you want and put the word porn next to it. Once your dick gets a little hard, start rubbing it. If you're not sure what to do just google masturbation porn. Make sure something white comes out of your dick. It'll take like 10/20 minutes. Don't come out of the bathroom until then.

I was super confused. I had no idea what he was talking about and honestly was kind of scared. He sounded so excited, like I was about to get the best Christmas gift of my life. I went to the bathroom and locked the door. I turned the phone on and sat down with my back against the door.

..........."porn" - enter

I was honestly a little lost so I just clicked on some random videos and started watching. There was something happening in my body for sure. I could feel a tightness growing in my stomach, my breathing getting faster, I felt a desire for something but I just didn't know what. I watched the guys touching their junk and acting like idiots. I found it a little funny, yanking on their dicks like that, making faces and sounds that just weren't normal. But at the same time I wanted to be in the room with them. I wanted to do it with them, and be a part of the whole thing. I set the phone against the shower door and leaned back, paying more attention to the growing member between my legs. It was a good 5 inches long now and I could feel lit aching a little. I started to stroke it like the men on my cousin's phone.

The first stroke was a little painful. The head of my cock was a little dry and the foreskin didn't really glide, but steadily scraped back and forth with the motion of my hand. But it felt different. My legs were moving involuntarily and I let out a little gasp. I wanted more. I didn't know what it was, the expression on my face was one of confusion and utter desperation. I started going faster and faster. At this point the phone could have died and I wouldn't have noticed. All I could think about was my hand, my dick, and this feeling! 5 minutes into the rage I started shooting this weird slime all over my chest and face. I started gasping and heaving at the same time - partly in extreme pleasure and partly in shock that my body could do something like this.

S: Shut the fuck up I can hear you from the room!

B: Huh?

I felt spent. I had no idea what was going on. I tried to move but I couldn't I was just stuck there.

S: Are you okay?

B: I don't know

S: I'm coming in

He took the little stick we kept above the doorframe and shoved it into the handle. There was a little click and he came in. He saw the cum all over my face and chest and smiled.

S: Looks like it worked.

He got a towel from the cabinet and threw it to me. He went over to the sink and got me a glass of water.

S: It's totally natural, don't worry about it. How do you feel?

B: Amazing. But what the heck was that? How?

I cleaned up and went back to the room. S picked into our grandma's room to make sure she was still asleep, and then came in.

B: That was so amazing. I felt like I was the king of the world for a second. I never knew I could feel so much at once! Got me thinking about what it might feel like to have your dick sucked or to fuck someone. If I can make myself feel so good alone imagine how amazing it would be with another person.

S: I know man I've been thinking the same thing since I found those sites. I don't know what to do. You can't just go up to a girl and start talking about this kind of stuff.

B: But I really wanna try it!

Silence. Pin drop silence.

I got up and turned the light off, the fan on, and the radio off. We just laid there for a while.

B: So if guys can masturbate together, do they do other things together?

S: What do you mean?

B: Well do guys suck other guys' dicks?

S: I mean, I don't see why not? But that kind of seems gross. Why would I want to suck a dick?

B: I would try it. It doesn't seem that bad.

S: Hahaha

B: What do you say?

S: WHAT? I'm your cousin!

B: Yeah you're right. Fuck sorry I got carried away. First time and all.

S: Hmm

Silence.

At this point I honestly think both of us knew where this was going. I could feel it from within, I wanted to do this. I was hungry. It was instinct. I kid you not, as a 13 year old I never really engaged in the dirty talk at school and my parents made me fast forward all the kissing scenes. I never thought about sex as a concept. After busting a load and watching porn, it was like I had changed and my body was seeking all these new things. I just wanted to have that look of fulfillment on my face like all those pornstars.

S: I think we can still try jacking off together.

B: Okay so how would that work?

S: Don't over think it let's just watch something and masturbate next to each other.

I didn't really get why he was getting so annoyed but I went along with it. I really couldn't see anything in the dark. I could hear him breathing harder, he was moving weird under the blanket, and his hands were definitely doing something fast. I was hard as a rock and I was slowly stroking myself. The only thing I wanted at that point was for the light to be on. But I kept quiet. We were persistent for about 10 minutes.

S: I think I'm close!

I still regret it to this day but as soon as he said that, something inside me took over and I just grabbed his dick. I flicked his hand aside, grabbed his dick and kept going. He gasped in shock and gently pushed my shoulder, but then he gripped it tight. He was literally gasping for air and I could feel these warm strands jetting out of his dick all over my arm and the sheets. It smelled horrible and I couldn't get enough. It was the first disgusting smell that made the hairs on my neck stand. I wanted to bathe in it.

As I slowed down the pace, I realized how much bigger his penis was compared to mine. For some reason the harder I gripped it, the harder I got. It was so veiny and much thicker than mine too. I gulped and got nervous at the reaction I was having. The porn was just an after thought. Eventually I came too.

Both of us wiped up and just went to sleep. Not a word.