Journal Entry: My Straight Cousin Fucked Me Yesterday

My cousin fucked me yesterday. Yes he's my cousin through marriage but nevertheless, I've been wanting this since I was 17 and I can't believe it happened to 26 year old me. My cousin, Isaac, is 8 years older than me and I've been infatuated with him ever since I could remember. The first time I knew I wanted to fuck him was when he got dressed in front of me at my mom's house. I was gonna leave the room but he suggested that I stayed, and that it was cool because we were both guys. I remember him taking his pants off and seeing his dick through his underwear. They were too small for him so the weight of his dick made his underwear droop, revealing pubes covering the top of his shaft. I tried my hardest not to look but I was rock fucking hard seeing all that meat stuffed into tiny underwear. I jerked my dick every morning and night to the thought of it for months and since then, I had no experiences seeing him naked, other than him taking his shirt off occasionally at family functions while playing basketball, or catching a glimpse of that big dick anytime we went swimming. I'd catch strangers staring at it as he exited the pool, his head bouncing around in his almost see-through trunks. I couldn't help but be hard when I was around him because he exuded sex and I just knew he was fucking amazing in bed.

He was a ladies man, standing 5' 10", bearded, with a perfect mix of fat and muscle. His stomach and ass was my favorite part about him, I dreamed of him allowing me to worship his body but I knew it would be impossible, he was my fucking cousin. His girlfriends were always bat shit crazy over him and I absolutely understood why, he fucked the life out of each and every one of them. I wanted that. I wanted him to man handle me like he did them, but I knew it would never happen. 

Years passed and I came out of the closet to my family. I found my fiancé and even though we are extremely happy in our relationship, I still found myself thinking about Isaac everytime my fiance fucked me. I always pretend it's him and I shoot buckets of cum everywhere imagining it's his balls slapping against my taint every night. 

Yesterday my family gathered for a birthday celebration. My fiance was on a business trip and couldn't make it so I went alone. At family gatherings I make it a point to stay as far away from Isaac as possible for my own sanity. I decided not to yesterday. I saw him as soon as I walked through the door and he gave me hug, squeezing me, and telling me "what's up" in my ear. I could smell the beer on his breath and by the looks of it, he had been drinking for a couple of hours already.

As the party continued, I caught him staring directly at me on multiple accounts, making eye contact and quickly looking away. My stomach dropped every single time, hoping it wasn't my fault this was happening. It was nerve wrecking but also so fucking hot, him giving me that bit of attention I seeked. Even if it was a coincidence, I pretended it was him giving me signals for us to get out of there and go fuck. I sat on the couch hiding my dick as I fantasized about a man only a few feet away. 

Hours passed, the party was over, and decorations were being taken down. Isaac asked me if I could help take some of the equipment to his place. Of all the men at the party, he chose me to help? Yes, I'm a bit stocky but there were plenty of guys he could've asked. My heart raced as I said yes to the opportunity of seeing him just a bit more tonight, watching his perfect ass as he carried the equipment to his truck. I got in the passenger seat and tried to act as "normal" as possible while we took the 3 minute drive to his house. He asked me if I wanted to check some of his photography out once we got there, he just needed a second opinion. I couldn't pass up this opportunity to be around him longer, my dick was already growing in my pants from the suggestion, I quickly agreed as we pulled into his drive way.

We placed all of the equipment in his garage and he led me into his livingroom. 

"Want a beer?" he asked, walking into the kitchen and opening the refrigerator.

"Sure" I said, nervously sitting on the couch. 

He handed me the beer and popped his can open, sitting down right next to me.

"Great party right?" he asked, taking a sip.

"Yeah, it was great" I said, rubbing the material of the couch, trying to stare anywhere other than the gorgeous man next to me.

"Yeah, it's crazy...I was actually supposed to be fucking this chick tonight, but she fucking canceled on me...it's cool, I have my little friend here to help me out...no blue balls tonight" he chuckled, lifting his right hand and wiggling his fingers. 

I laughed nervously thinking I would never cancel an opportunity with him, I'd be over waiting for him to get home every night to do what he wanted with me, have his way, dig me out. 

"Chicks man, I tell ya...you're lucky you don't have to deal with this shit" he said, taking a few more gulps of his beer and nudging my arm. 

"Gay guys are pretty willing to do whatever" he announced, spreading his legs wider and sinking himself into the couch a bit more. 

It was my opportunity, my heart pounded through my chest. I needed to make a decision, a decision that would lead me to potentially embarrassing myself and getting my ass kicked or getting out of there, leaving him with himself and his massive hand. Fuck it, just see where it goes, we're both drunk and can blame it on that.

"Yeah, I agree, it's a bit easier with guys", I said taking a sip of my beer. The room went quiet, and we sat there finishing our beers, his pants hugged his thighs so tight I could see his meaty bulge from the corner of my eyes. 

He chuckled, "man I knew you'd understand, I think we kinda understand each other" he said, putting his hand on his bulge and closing his eyes. The bulge was a bit bigger, a lot bigger, was he...hard? My dick immediately stood at attention and I quickly shifted my body, trying to hide it.

My cousin lifted his head and smiled at me, looking down at my crotch.

"Hey, we're both guys, it's cool...sometimes our dicks get hard right?" he said, rubbing his fat dick fully erected in his pants and staring at me with his beautiful green eyes. I couldn't see it but loads of precum spat out of my cock, I could feel it covering my head. 

"Hey relax...it's just me, no one else is here" he said, grabbing my leg. "no one else has to know...plus, if I don't get rid of this thing soon I'll go crazy", he said, gripping his cock and winking his eye.

I watched him unzip his pants revealing his cock tucked inside his underwear. "This ok?", he asked as he took my hand and put it on his cock, forcing me to grip it. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would have a chance to even see him naked, now I'm holding his fucking dick through his briefs? Something happened in me, something I've never even felt with my fiancé, the uncontrollable urge to tear him the fuck apart. I launched at him and our lips connected, he stuck his tongue down my throat and grabbed my ass, slipping his hand into my jeans to feel my hole. He was so strong, he was a man. "I fucking wanted this my entire life" I moaned, as he licked my neck and tore my shirt off. 

"You have an eye for good dick don't you?" he asked, staring at me with a grin.

I nodded, as he undressed, standing over me, revealing his thick muscular body I loved so much. His dick was super fat and uncut, his balls hung freely behind his shaft, bouncing against his legs as he shifted his body. 

I laid back on the couch, opening my legs, ready for him to shove his dick in me, ready for him to give me what I deserved. "Fuck me good!" I demanded as he put the tip of his cock to my hole, our eyes connecting as he slid his dick in me, both my hands grabbing the back of his neck. He was twice the size of my fiance and I loved the feeling of being stretched more and more as he went deeper. I screamed and moaned with every thrust finding it's way inside of me. I pulled him closer, whispering in his ear, "fuck me like a woman I can take it...fuck me hard". He wrapped his arms around my body and pulled me closer, his face sunk into my neck, licking and kissing it. I held him tight and watched his ass come up and slam down into me over and over again. I couldn't help but scream in ecstasy, it felt so fucking good, I had no idea my body could produce such intense waves of pleasure. My eyes rolled to back of my head as he whispered in my ear, "yeah, you wanted it, so fucking take it *slam*...fucking take it *slam*....take it! *slam*" with every thrust into my ass. 

I held on so tight, I never wanted it to be over, I could feel him tearing me apart but it was the best feeling in the world. His breathing got heavier and his strokes got longer and harder. "I'm fucking cumming!" he said and as he bit his lip, shooting gallons of cum inside me, I felt the warmth of his cum fill me and the pulsation from his cock as he released his seed.

"Please keep it in me" I begged as I grabbed my dick, stroking like my life depended on it. I clenched my ass around his cock so he wouldn't escape, the fullnest of my ass along with my hand rubbing his belly and chest made me explode everywhere. I tossed my head back, as he put his fingers in my mouth, my body clenching and squirming as I released years of waiting for this moment, hoping for this moment, needing this moment.

He slowely slid his dick out me and sat on the couch breathing heavily, his greasy cock laying flaccid between his legs. 

"Fuck...I can't believe that just happened" he said, staring blankly at the wall in front of us. I didn't know what to say, I was in his house, we just fucked. I immediately got dressed and without a word, I left and walked back to the party. I could tell he needed his space and as much as I would've loved him to fuck me again, I didn't want to ruin it. 

It's been less than 24 hours since it happened and I can still feel my ass aching. I came twice this morning just thinking about it and I could tell he enjoyed it as much as I did. Hopefully we can make it a regular occurrence but until then, I'll see him at the next family function and maybe he will finally show me those photographs.