Jax's Journey

Hiding more than feelings?

Tay walks across to me and puts his arms over me as we begin to kiss and my arms run down the side of his body as we start making out. “I’m glad that you didn’t tell me the end of the story because we can make our own” I smile as he says that because that was my plan once I saw him so hard and horny.

The two of us move back to my bedroom as he pushes me onto the bed as his frame presses against me and our hard cocks rub together both leaking as we moan loudly into each-others mouths as the separation between us proves how much we are into each other.

Even though I know that Tay is “Straight” and he always emphasises that fact, I know that the feelings are probably there right now as many say absence makes the heart grow fonder.

We keep kissing deeply, both moaning loudly as his dark brown eyes stare into mine as I can sense his urge to say that he loves me as much as I could say it to him right now.

Instead, he just smiles and kisses down my body as his tongue swirls around my right nipple as I moan loudly as his tongue goes to work. My head goes back as I just lay there letting Tay do what he wants to my chest as he moves across to the left one.

I throw my head back again in pleasure “Fuck you do that better than anyone” I say as he keeps going running his tongue over them before going over my abs which is a new feeling for me but one that I am definitely enjoying right now. Tay continues down my body as my cock twitches with each movement down my abs with his tongue.

Tay starts to move his tongue over my cock head, still remembering where all my spots are especially just between the head and shaft of my cut cock. My body shudders as Tay’s hands massage my balls and around my hole, as I lift my legs so he gets more access.

Going even further down my cock, I didn’t think that I could be this horny but being with Tay always draws it out of me. Tay goes slowly down further as my shaft disappears down his throat as he gags on it. Tay stays down on my cock as I feel his nose hitting my skin as I moan.

Picking up the speed, Tay begins to move his head up and down as he takes all of my cock down his throat, deepthroating me with almost no gag which amazes me considering when he first took my cock down his throat, it was very little that would make him gag rather than the full 8 inches of my cock.

I flip Tay over so that it’s my turn as I massage his balls and grab hold of his cock and start to lick up his shaft, swirling my tongue around his cock going from base to tip and then down again as I continue to run my tongue around as he moans loudly.

Teasing his cock for a bit longer before I slowly start licking on the cock head before I take it into my mouth, starting slowly with the top before going down further. I start to pick up the speed of sucking on his cock as I get deeper and Tay grabs a hold of my head and starts to throat fuck me.

The speed that he goes at makes me gag as I feel his balls slap against my chin and he starts leaking onto my tongue. “Fuck you suck me so well” he moans loudly as I keep sucking him deeply as he keeps going hard on my throat.

I keep going down on his cock as I feel his cum starting to flow out now like the leaking tap in my brand-new kitchen. “Fuck I’m going to bust” he says as I want him to do it and it doesn’t take long for him to blow a huge load of cum down my throat.

The loads continue to blow down my throat and there are plenty of them as there are at least 5 or 6 right now and then a load onto my face as I smile and he kisses me. Tay goes back down onto my cock as I’m leaking. Even though I have drained the cum out of his body right now, I still want to suck on his cock even deeper as we are stretched out on the bed sucking each other.

“Mmm fuck” he moans as he can taste my pre leaking out from my cock. The two of us suck deeply as I continue to leak and then blow a huge load down his throat as my balls are drained and I am totally exhausted.

I lay there panting as Tay looks across at me “What happened to your stamina?” he asks as I punch his arm. “I definitely could say the same about you” I look at Tay as he just shrugs and his cute smile tries to con me into letting things go.

“Some of us went on a plane ride today remember” I look at him knowing that it’s not an excuse that works for him. “Excuse me but I seem to remember you pounding my ass and not having an issue the same afternoon we got to the Gold Coast that weekend when went up there for the footy,” I say thinking back to last year and realise how much time we spend together and why people like Mum think we are a couple.

“Yeah, I know that BUT you have to remember that I didn’t have work that day” I shake my head at him knowing that his excuse doesn’t cut it with me.

We lay there both just enjoying being together again as I look at him and decide to say something that’s probably dumb but I want to press him on what our situation is.

“Look this is probably dumb but now that we are so far apart living-wise and you coming down here so soon, I just wondered where we sit,” I say as I realise that this is the first time we’ve seen each other in months so probably not the time to spoil it.

Tay looks at me confused as I just wish I could take the last sentence back and just not have said what I did. “Just forget that I even said anything please?” I say as Tay puts his arm around me.

“Why? It is always to talk things out, especially with you Jax” I nod my head as me not talking things out always leads me to bad places. “Plus I know how you feel about me and that will never change anything between us because I love you too Jax although just not in the same sort of way that I know you want” I nod my head and feel Tay put his arm around me and kiss me on the cheek.

“Anyway if we did hook up as a couple then how’d you get away with 1 am shower fucks in the gym,” he says with a smile as I shrug and admit it’s true.

Both of us sit there not sure really what to do because it is still early so we decide to get dressed and wander the Docklands area of Melbourne.

The Docklands area of Melbourne sits to the west of the main CBD and once upon a time was the main port for 1860’s Melbourne and beyond for the next 100 years. Modern shipping technology meant that the industry had moved away from the area leaving a large part of Melbourne’s western CBD vacant and derelict.

Things sat that way for 30 years until plans were developed for the revitalisation of the area which began in 2000 with the opening of the Docklands Stadium which was Australia’s first and still the only retractable roofed stadium in Australia which for some reason after being sponsored by a bank, the biggest phone company in Australia, a Middle East airline is now for some reason sponsored by Marvel.

Tay and I get dressed and we head out for a walk taking in the night like we do almost anywhere we go. It is just after 9:30 when we go for a walk around Docklands heading out as there is plenty of nightlife at this time.

“This is nice, can see why you wander around here at night” Tay says to me as I nod and we walk along the esplanade as we stand out looking at the Yarra River and the lights on the West Gate Bridge.

“Yeah, I just like to come down here and sit and appreciate everything that I’ve been through and how it got me here” I say as Tay puts his arm around me and gives me the concerned look that he always used when he sensed that I was in a bad way mentally.

“You’re not in that bad place again are you with all this again are you?” Tay says as I shake my head having no doubts about this at all but I get his point.

I shake my head “Nah, I’m absolutely perfect at the moment, this is the best thing that I’ve ever done you know, there’s only one thing that I miss” I look at Tay as he smiles knowing about what I’m missing.

“But let me guess that thing you miss is with you right now?” he says as I nod my head and feel stupid again for saying that even though nothing is stupid when we are together. “That is only natural because I would miss me too,” he says with his cheeky grin on his face “But I miss you all the time, I said that”.

Sitting by the water, we look back towards the lights of the city as neither of us really say anything for the moment as Tay grabs my hand and squeezes it. I look across at him as he kisses me but this one feels different but I can’t really put my finger on why.

“That was unexpected” I say as Tay nods his head at me with no real explanation as we get up and start walking up further finding the dessert place and straight away I know that there is a Bubble Gum flavoured Gelato on the menu which I know Tay would order.

I wander to the counter without needing to look at the menu before ordering because I know what we both would have. “Can I get a double bubble gum and one scoop of Coffee and one chocolate in the same cup?” I ask for and pay the server as I give Tay his ice cream as he looks at the cup and smiles.

“Could you at the very least ask me what I want before you just… order for me?” I’d take his whinge more seriously if his sentence wasn’t being interrupted by his ice cream eating.

“I can see that you are really annoyed by what I got you,” I say smirking as Tay winks at me and continues to eat his ice cream.

Docklands is a unique area with the once derelict area filled with TV studios, Major Company HQs, the stadium, apartments and the notoriously unreliable Melbourne Star Observation wheel.

As we walk further around Tay notices a large building that dominates things in this part of the area “What the hell is that” he says as I just laugh not because of the great architecture but just how this stands out big time.

“Maybe you could actually read what it says on the side,” I say as I look and point, shaking my head as Tay’s choice to not read what is in front of him and always ignoring the obvious makes me laugh.

“Costco,” he says as I nod and laugh that this high-end area of Melbourne is ended by a massive discount wholesale Supermarket.

We finish off our ice cream and head back as Tay holds my hand as I start to think that he has more of a reason to be here than just trying to get away from his crazy ex Chelsea. As we wander back to the apartment, I don’t say anything as Tay takes everything off bar his sleep shorts and he climbs into my bed as I tell him that I want to check my E-mails.

Instead of checking my emails, I have a look at Twitter (I refuse to call it X) and Facebook to see if I can get any sort of idea of what is going on in his private life that he isn’t telling me. As I keep looking at things, nothing really jumps out at me until a couple of posts make me realise why he is acting the way that he is.

Tay told me that his ex had hit town again which is partly true but as I scroll through Facebook things suddenly get so much clearer as I run my hands over my face.

I close my laptop and head to bed “Hey” I say before that Tay is already asleep and snoring away so I just get into bed next to him and fall asleep with so much exhaustion.

The next morning, my alarm goes off and Tay is still there snoring as I get up and choose not to get to the gym because I want to talk to Tay about what I found last night.

As I do most mornings, I sit on the balcony and look at the view and have breakfast for a bit before I hear footsteps with Tay wandering out. “Morning,” I say to him as he smiles before helping himself to a slice of my toast as I look at him as he sits down across from me.

“When were you going to tell me?” Taylor looks at me acting confused but I know that he knows what I am talking about because I can see it on his face.

“This toast is good” he says trying to change the topic to avoid the situation which I can understand but at the same time, I want him to talk about it.

Sitting there I just glare at him “What? I told you about her coming back” he says as I shake my head at him and then stand up and put my hands on his shoulders.

“When did you find out?” I ask as he looks at me and wipes his eyes as he knows that I found out when he didn’t want me to. “About 2 days after you left, I know I should’ve told you but I didn’t want you doubting anything about this to be with me”.

I nod feeling both loved that at this point he is still thinking about my happiness but also offended that as his best mate, he never told me. “I know that you’re my best friend but you already were having enough dramas on your plate with the move, I couldn’t add anything to it that would have you regret being here,” he says as I look at him.

Tay stands up and hugs me tight as I smile “You know I would have been on the next flight back to Sydney just to be with you through this” I say as Tay looks at me sternly.

“That is exactly why I didn’t tell you, you’d have left all this and lost this opportunity” I don’t understand what point he is trying to make right now because I should be there for my best friend like he was there for me for so long when I relapsed into my major battle with depression.

“Why wouldn’t you want me there for you, like you were for me?” I say to him as I look across at him as I can’t read his attitude right now.

“Of course I’d want you around with me BUT at the same point, I want you to be happy which is more important to me Jax” he says as I still don’t understand what things are right now. “Don’t look at me like that Jax, You are happier than I’ve ever seen you which makes me happy and that is what I want most in my life” he says as I smile and hug him tightly again.

I check the time and see that I’ve got plenty of time before work so I sit back down with Tay to get a better idea of what is going on. “Tell me everything,” I say as he looks at me. “If you want to of course, I don’t want to push things,” I say as Tay shrugs his shoulders.

“My Mum is dying… that’s pretty much it” I nod as he doesn’t show that much emotion as I quickly realise that this trip was a lot of this trip is to get away from the stress of everything going on at home right now because I can see it is taking a toll.

Tay nods his head as I feel bad and rub my face regretting bringing it up. “I shouldn’t have kept pushing and don’t say it is okay because it’s not and you would have told me when you were ready” I say as we both agree not to argue and act as if nothing happened.

“So what are your plans for the day?” I ask Tay as he shrugs not really saying or holding any real plans about what he wants to do other than visit the expo either tomorrow or the weekend. “Well whatever you do today, we will get lunch whether it’s in my office or somewhere, I always have 12:30-1 p.m. blocked out, you have the address,” I say as I grab my bag and head to the office as I don’t know whether I should be going but Tay is insistent that I go about my normal life.

I head to the office early to catch up on some work from the afternoon before as Abby the other main office assistant/receptionist is in early. “You are here early” she says as I look and it’s not even 8 a.m. yet as I nod my head.

“Yeah, I left early for an appointment yesterday so need to catch up” I tell her.

“No worries Jax, also love the hair” she says as I smile and appreciate the comments about my hair.

I’m sitting there going through emails of stuff that I don’t fully understand but I just need to essentially just tick a box and say that everything is ok for them. I sit there trying to think about how I somehow got to this level of management without even applying for it. There is a knock on my door and Abby pokes her head in “Jax, sorry forgot to tell you that the APAC meeting has been pushed forward to 1 pm”.

I look across at Abby because that is a meeting that only the highest levels of management attend and the fact I need to be there perplexes me. “Why do I have to go to this meeting?” I say still confused as I thought that someone else would be looking after that.

“Well you are the Regional Manager for TravelMax in Victoria” she says as that title doesn’t sound or feel real given it is one that I never expected when I moved here but seemingly I’ve got permanently.

“Don’t remind me, it wasn’t what I came here to work as” I say laughing as I realise that I have to wrap my head around so much information in just a couple of hours.

My day just becomes overloaded with me studying everything that I think that I need to know that I lose track of all time as my phone rings on my desk. “Jax, your 12:30 appointment is waiting for you in reception” Abby says as I forget all about Tay meeting me for lunch.

“My 12:30?” I don’t remember having anything on my schedule because I’ve always got it blocked” I say as Abby tells me that I’m expecting the guy as my confusion over the files and all the information blurs anything else. “Yeah, his name is Taylor and he said you are expecting him” as I remember that Tay was meeting me for lunch.

“Oh fuck yeah, lunch with Tay, send him through to my office” I tell Abby as she reminds me not to be late for the APAC meeting because it’s vital that I’m there.

I’m sitting at my desk with files covering just about everywhere as he gets shown into my office “Did your blonde dye seep into your brain? Forgetting about lunch?” he says as I stand up and clear some space.

“Sorry I only out found this morning that I’ve got to be at the APAC Managers' meeting at 1 p.m.,” I say as Tay looks at me with confusion as I nod my head. “Yep, apparently as Regional Manager for Victoria I need to be at these meetings” I say nodding as Tay has a smile on his face.

“Wait, so you’re apparently running the show here?” he says as I shrug not really knowing what is going on.

“To be honest, I just found out about the exact title this morning” Tay looks unsurprised which working as a contractor for the NSW government on a major project so it doesn’t really surprise him at all. “Well you know enough about my morning and what my afternoon is going to be, what are you up to?” I ask Tay.

“I’m doing the MCG tour and the sports museum so that should take me all afternoon” I can see on his face that Tay is like a kid at Christmas looking forward to that as I know that like me, sport is a religion for him and that MCG is the Vatican of Australian sport.

I look at him “Damn, I wish I could come with you on that” I say as Tay nods. “I know that you do but you’d be a distraction trying to give me every bit of sporting trivia that you know… and yes I know it helped us win $1000,” he says as I try to bring up the story of the Sports Trivia night where I single-handedly helped us win rather than the night I cost us a win.

“I love how conveniently though you forget about when you lost us the trivia night” I shake my head “You will never let me forget that” I say as he laughs and shakes his head as I go back over the information getting absolutely nowhere.

“This is going to be an absolute fucking disaster, as I realise that I know nothing about what is going to be needed in this meeting,” I say as Tay gets up and closes my office door and looks at me with a smirk on his face.

I shake my head “No, if you’re thinking what I think you are just no, not now” I say as Tay walks around my desk and hits me hard on my shoulder.

“As much as I’d want to give you a relaxing blow job, I’m not going to risk your job” he says as he stands behind me and rubs my shoulders to relax me. Tay continues to massage my shoulders as I calm down a bit “If they didn’t have faith in you then they wouldn’t have trusted you with that position and remember that if something goes wrong then it’s on them for not putting in someone that was experienced in this role”.

I nod as Tay keeps massaging my shoulders and I look at the time “Shit, I better get to the meeting room” I get up and grab the pile of folders. “Remember, you got this in the bag and just show off and show interest,” he says as I nod my head and hug him.

“So you heading to the G now?” I ask as Tay realises the main thing that he wanted to ask me while he was here. “Oh, nah I was hoping to get your key because I want to change before I head there” he says as I realise that I didn’t give him the code or the spare key.

“You just wanna go through my stuff while I’m not there don’t you?” I say as Tay shrugs his shoulders. “Want to? Yes. Will I? No… ok Yes” he says with a smile as I shake my head and I give him the key.”

Giving him the key “Can you drop my key back, the spare is in the shoe drawer next to the front door” I say as he nods. “Give it to Abby at reception cause I’ll probably still be in the meeting”.

Tay reassures me that everything will be fine as I head to the meeting forgetting to even give him the code to get back into the building. I head to the meeting room and see one of the big bosses Steve standing there as I stop him.

“Steve, I know the meeting is in a few minutes but can I talk to you about my position” I ask as he nods.

“Sure, how about after the meeting we can go downstairs and grab a late lunch and coffee” he says as we go into the meeting room. I wander in and sit down and join the video conference with people from offices in Sydney, Japan, Hong Kong and other places right across the Asia Pacific. My nerves are taking control of me as I sit there but thankfully Steve is there to take most of the control of the meeting which I am grateful for because most of the people I am in the meeting with are double my age and in the case of one, triple.

The meeting takes just over 90 minutes before it wraps up and I look at Steve laughing “That was an interesting shemozzle” he laughs as I say that and shakes his head.

“You think that was a shemozzle? That was a good day” he says as I laugh and my confidence about these meetings being simple completely disappears as we head down to the Café for a coffee and a late lunch.

As we sit down Steve looks at me “You’re probably wondering about the role and everything like that aren’t you Jackson” he says as I nod my head and wonder what happened for me to get promoted so far up the chain so suddenly without even doing my original job that I was hired for.

“Yeah, I got passed over for the job in Sydney that was at a lower level than this for not being experienced enough but then once I got down here for the same level it turns out that suddenly I’m a manager and then this morning I get told that I’m TravelMax regional manager for Victoria”.

Sitting there, Steve isn’t giving too much away as he nods his head “Yep, I wasn’t involved in the direct hiring in Sydney but I know that they were very impressed with you because when I asked if they had any candidates to recommend for down here, they sent me a couple profile” he says as I’m surprised that they thought much of me considering that I didn’t think much of my interviews.

“They sent your name down and I was impressed but when I saw that you had Julia Harris in your references and that she had actually given you a letter of recommendation, I knew you were the only target that I wanted.

I sit there impressed that Steve was so impressed with me but I still don’t understand the big promotion especially when he had never seen me work. “That’s good… I guess but I’m still kind of figuring out why you put me so far up the chain” I’m probably not doing myself any favours as I ask that and probably lowering my chances of staying in the job.

Steve and I keep eating lunch “Yeah, it was meant to be a long-term project because Julia and I have a long working history and are good friends and she called me personally to push for me to take you on in this role because she saw that you had a long term future.

My confidence is getting boosted big time listening to the positive comments from Steve because Julia is a formidable taskmaster and didn’t take to people easily but for me, we just seemed to click and she was always so supportive of me when I had all my mental health issues and instead of closing the door on me, continued to be flexible when I know others wouldn’t get that luxury.

“I know that you have been pushed up the chain and it’s probably a lot faster than we had intended but we kinda got forced into this situation so if you do find it too much then you can step back but you don’t need to worry because I’m not going to come down on you if things aren’t working but just support you”.

The chat with Steve is good because it actually made me feel stronger as a person because it wasn’t that I was just the last man standing to fill the gap but was based on my skills, abilities and expectations from some important people.

“I don’t just hire anyone, Jackson, so if you're being pushed forward it’s because I trust you and have faith in you” he says leaving me for another meeting as I finish my lunch.