Friend, Foe, or Lover

It was in fifth grade when we met....we were at lunch when this boy got pushed by one of the older boys, dropping his tray full of food.  I went over to him helping him pick up the mess.  He looked into my eyes, I felt something but I didn't know what it was.  He said: "Thank you for helping me, my name is Cooper."  "Its okay, I don't mind, my name is Myles, do you want to have lunch with me."  "Sure, lets get a seat at a table."

That was the beginning of my secret desire for Cooper. I didn't know at the time, but I would fine out later how my heart ached for him. We became good friends, he was always at my house or me at his. We went through elementary school, then middle school, then onto high school. Cooper really filled out to a tall 6' 175 lbs., he was so handsome with his streaked blond hair and blue eyes, not to mention a killer body. I was 5'10 160 lbs., I was also good looking with blueish black hair and hazel eyes. We joined the football team in our first year of high school, becoming jocks with all the girls after us. I knew from the time I was about twelve that my interest wasn't in girls, but did I love looking at the boys. My special interest was with Cooper as I think I loved him from that first time when he dropped his lunch tray and we looked into each others eyes.

Cooper was after all the popular girls, we would double date, but my heart was with Cooper. He would be all over a girl making out with her and it would pain me as I knew what I wanted, but the love I felt for him would never be reciprocated. After one of our games, we were in the locker room getting ready for showers. I was becoming more and more nervous showering with Cooper....afraid of my dick giving me away.

We very rarely slept over each others house, but my parents went away for the weekend and I asked Cooper to sleep over which he did. We had fun playing video games, then we watched a movie. I asked him if he wanted a beer, in which he replied: "Hell yeah". We began messing around wrestling, being close to him was getting me aroused. I had to stop so I said: "Okay that's enough" but as I got up my dick was protruding from my jeans. "Shit Myles, your hard, is that how I effect you?" as he began laughing. I didn't know what to do so I just said: "Believe me its not you Cooper, I'm just horny." "Lets watch some porn." he asked. "Fuck Cooper I'm horny enough as it is." "Come on please". We sat at my computer, the first video we watched was a couple with her giving him head. It didn't interest me but the size of the guys cock did. It was huge, she could hardly get her mouth around it. I said to myself: "What that dude needs is a guy to suck his cock." I could tell Cooper was getting excited because I glanced at his crotch noticing a huge bulge in his jeans.

We were looking at other videos choosing one that was bi. He said: "Lets watch this one." It began with two guys and a girl. They were both doing the girl when suddenly one of the guys started sucking the other guys cock. "Myles looked at that guy deep throat the other guys cock....I've never seen anything like that....can you imagine how that must feel." "Okay, that's enough, I'm getting all horned up, I'm tired lets head up to bed."

I had twin beds in my room, so we hit the sack, but as we were laying there, I could tell Coop was playing with his cock. "Hey Myles, do you want to jerk off together?" "No....No, I don't" "Why, guys do it all the time." "Are you gay Coop.? "Fuck no, its just a way to get off, forget that I asked." We both turned around, but I couldn't sleep, there was no way I could let Coop know how much I wanted him....I was afraid it would ruin our friendship. It really hurts when you love someone, but you can't discuss it. After a long time of tossing and turning I finally fell asleep.

The next morning, Coop seemed to be a little distant, so I asked him what was wrong. He just shrugged his shoulders, said he was fine. After that night, Coop began hanging out with some other guys, not paying much attention to me....I was crushed. After a few weeks of being basically ignored, I went up to Coop. "Dude, what's going on, did I do something to piss you off, you hardly talk to me anymore." "Fuck Myles, why are you always so dramatic?" "Dramatic, what are you talking about, after the night you spent at my house wanting us to jerkoff together you stopping talking to me, making other friends....is that all our friendship meant to you?" "Its got nothing to do with jerking off, what do you think I'm gay?" "Of course not, it was just that after that night you just gave up on me." "Are you jealous, can't I have a few other friends." "Look Coop, I'm not going to do this, you want other friends thats fine, but did you have to drop me like I was nothing to you?" I walked away holding back the tears as I said to myself: "Fuck him, I don't need this."

Coop and I drifted apart, I made some new friends. I met this guy at the diner where I worked after school. He was in his late twenties, but he was funny, and I had a lot of fun with him. He was so outgoing and even though there was an age difference we became friends. My parents went away for the weekend again, so I asked him if he wanted to spend the night in which he said" "Sure, as long as we can watch some porn." His name is Josef, not that attractive, but a really great guy. We had a good time, playing video games. Then we started watching some porn, "Lets watch some gay porn." I brought up a site called Cocky Boys....I always watched gay porn but I didn't let him know. "Fuck these guys are so hot, I'm hard....oh so you now know I'm gay." "Yeah I gathered that when you asked to watch gay porn.

Hey Myles, have you ever fooled around with a guy?" "No, never" "Would you like to try, I can make you feel really good." 'Well, what did you have in mind?" "Come on Myles, lets get naked." Once we were naked I sat on the sofa, he got between my legs and started caressing my balls, then took my cock stroking it.

"Holy fuck I can't believe how big your cock is." "Do you like it?" "Shit yes" He began playing with my balls, then my cock as I felt a surge of electricity run through my body. He took the head of my cock in his mouth, deliberately enticing me as I moaned in pleasure. As he keep swirling his tongue around my cock he looked up into my eyes with a seductive grin. He then took my whole length deep into his throat: "Oh gawd damn it, yes that feels so good." He sucked me for a few minutes then he let my cock pop out of his mouth. He looked up at me and said: "How would you like to fuck me?" "I've never done it before, but I guess there's always a first time."

"Okay, then get me ready for that big cock of yours." "What do you mean?" I asked. He took a can out of his bag, opened it, it was a buttery thick substance, he also removed a rubbery sheet. "Fuck Josef, you really came prepared." "I will tell you what to do, lay the rubber sheet on the sofa." He laid down with his legs spread wide open. "Now take two fingers with the lube, insert them into my ass. I did as he said, penetrating his hole with two fingers, I moved my fingers in his ass as he said: "Yes just like that, take more lube insert three fingers, then four." I followed his instructions....what I was doing to him was blowing my mind, watching his ass open, his ass lips moving in and out was really turning me on. "Yes, your doing exactly what I love, now push your whole hand in." "Are you sure Josef?" "Oh yes, just do it." I pushed my whole hand in his mancunt, watching his hole open up just amazed me. "Fuck yeah, that's it, now twist your hand, then push your fist in and out of me." I was perplexed at the sight before my eyes. His gaping asshole was taking my whole fist....he was loving it. "Oh yeah, fuck me, keep twisting your fist, close your hand then open it pushing into to me." After ten minutes or so battering his ass he said: "I'm ready for you, now fuck me, fuck me hard."

He got in a doggy style position telling me to mount him and fuck him. I pushed my cock into his hot ass penetrating him with ease, I kept pushing in tell I was buried deep inside him....the feeling was beyond anything I had ever felt before. I began fucking him relentlessly as he said: "Yeah, oh Yeah, fuck me, fuck me hard." His dirty talk had me, I began pumping into him as he pushed his ass out meeting my thrusts. It didn't take long before I blew my load deep into him. He was stroking his cock, when I came, he began shooting into his hand. He took his hand licking all his cum. I pulled out, he rolled over and said: "Myles you have one big cock and I loved it." We cleaned up then sat talking. "Josef, you took my cock without any problem or pain, I always heard it was painful." "Look, I've taken so much cock that my hole is as loose as a whore's pussy. "Do you like fisting?" "Yes, yes, yes, I love it." Josef got up to go to the bathroom....all I could think about was Coop.

Josef and I became good friends, I guess you could say friends with benefits. I fucked him regularly during senior senior year. There were times when I would fuck him two or three times during the course of the evening and late into the night. I never met anyone like him, he was obsessed with being fucked....I loved it.

We were in our Senior year of high school....we were in biology class when the teacher said that we were going to be working on a project which would count as one third of our grade. She went on the say that we would be paired up working on the project together. She called off the names, then she said: "Cooper and Myles" I froze, looking over at Coop. He didn't look pissed, just shocked. "

I talked to Coop after class and told him we would work together just for the project. He arrived at my house and we began working. He looked at me and said: "So are you and Josef fucking each other?" "What....what did you just say?" "You heard me Myles, everyone knows Josef is gay." "Its none of your fucking business." "Oh did I hit a nerve, you make a big deal about us jerking off but you let Josef fuck you." "That's it we are done, I will talk to the instructor tomorrow requesting another partner for the project." "Fine Myles, that's just fine with me." He stormed out, as I was fuming. I still loved the asshole, as once again tears filled my eyes.

The next day at school I spoke with our instructor, but she was reluctant to make a change. I told her that if she didn't I would just take a zero for the project. Pondering her thoughts, she said she would make the change. That was just about the end of Coop and I. We basically never spoke again, he would walk by me starring, but never acknowledging me. We graduated, went to college where I became a wild man, always searching for the next hot ass. I became an expert in how to please a man.

Several years passed after graduation, moving out of state securing a position has head writer for "Men's Health" magazine. New York City was a big change for me coming from a small town, but I loved it. A city where a gay man could be himself, comfortable in his own skin. I loved my job and being very into health and fitness, it was the perfect fit for me.

One evening after work I went for cocktails with a couple of guys that I worked with. We were sitting there when I saw this guy starring at me at the end of the bar. He looked familiar, but he was a little to far away for me to totally envision his face. The two associates from work got up to leave, but I said I was going to finish my drink.

Suddenly the guy at the end of the bar got up heading my way. When he got close I began to shake, it was Coop."Myles, I thought it was you." "Coop, what are you doing in New York?" "I'm a structural engineer, working on a new high rise, consulting with architects on the project." "What brought you to the big apple?" "I'm a lead writer for "Men's Health" magazine." "Well you sure are in good shape." I have to keep a good image for the magazine. "Wow, who would ever have thought that we would end up meeting in New Your City. "So Coop, how do you like living in the city?" "I love it, I love all the hustle bustle." "Me too, there is always something to do."

"Look, I know there has been a lot of bad blood between us, but I think I've grown up somewhat, how about coming to my apartment for dinner, I've become a pretty good cook?" "I would really like that, when and what time?" "How about this Saturday at seven?" "Sounds like a good time....I'll be able to critique your cooking." "I'll text you the address."

We left saying our goodbyes, but I was in shock how friendly he was. You just never know what life is going to throw out at you. Saturday arrived, I was so nervous, I downed a couple of bourbon's trying to relax. I took a shower cleaning myself really well, which was a common practice for me. I dressed in a nice pair of tight black slacks with a white crew sweater. A splash of Gio cologne and I was ready for whatever this night had in store.

I arrived at Coop's, rang the door bell....he opened the door with a big smile, gave me a hug as I handed him a bottle of wine. " Come in, please make yourself comfortable, can I get you a drink?" "A bourbon will be fine." "Coop, you have a really nice apartment and the view of the city if magnificent."

He made Lasagna, which was absolutely delicious, salad, Italian bread, and a fine Italian wine. We finished dinner and I helped him cleanup, then we headed to the living room.

We sat talking, just small talk about our careers. I asked him if there was someone special in his life, he replied: "No, there's no one." "How about you, do you still see Josef?" "Hell no, I haven't seen him since I left for college." He looked at me: "I really want to say how sorry I am for the way I treated you, you didn't deserve that kind of treatment." "Its all history Coop." "I'm going to tell you something that I should have told you a long time ago, that night that I wanted us to jerkoff, I wanted you so bad Myles....I've been in love with you since that day in fifth grade when those guys pushed me and I dropped my tray....you were there to help me, but when you looked into my eyes, even though I didn't understand it, my love started for you at that moment." "I know what your saying, I also fell in love with you on that same day so long ago." "When you didn't want to jerkoff, you said it as if I was saying something abnormal, it crushed me Myles, I felt that you were straight and I had no chance." "I did it so you wouldn't know I was gay....ending our friendship." "So, you really love me?" "Yes Myles, I have never had feelings for anyone the way I feel about you."

He pushed closer to me placing his hand on my face: "Myles, there isn't a day that goes by that your not in my thoughts." He reached in and kissed me, a soft kiss, his warm lips, setting off a fire in me that I knew was going to continue raging. I opened my mouth as he pushed his tongue in exploring until the passion that had been burning inside us was released, then and there we looked into our souls, all the years of wanting exploded. "I want you Myles, make love to me, touch me, hold me, take my virginity." "You are all that I ever wanted....but if you keep running that hot scruffy face of yours all over me I'm going to cum before we even get started."

We walked into his bedroom, I slowly began to unbutton his shirt, I removed it, placed my hands on his chest lightly covered in blond fur, his nipples protruding, reminding me of Hershey kisses. I unbuttoned his jeans, pulled down the zipper as I placed my hand inside his naked skin, feeling the warmth of his manhood. He gasped, looking into my eyes, he was commando, so the feel of the swollen cock had me straining in my jeans. I pulled his jeans down, pulling them off along with his socks. As I was down on my knees in awe of his substantial cock, leaking precum, I took hold of his balls, catching the precum as it dripped onto my tongue. I took the head of his uncut cock pulling his foreskin back as I licked it with the gathered precum that was on my tongue. Tenderly I wrapped my tongue around his girth as more precum oozed out. The taste had me wanting him, making him mine. I swallowing his length as he grabbed my hair telling me how long he had waited for this. I reached up kissing him with a sloppy, warm, wet, kiss as our saliva mixed with the taste of his precum. He began unbuttoning my shirt, took it off, then ran his hands down my arms, across my hairy chest, then placing his hands on my ass" "Umm, such a sweet ass." He did the same to me removing my jeans and socks. He gasped when he saw the size of my cock. He licked the head as he looked up at me and said: "This is my first time sucking cock." "Your doing fine, don't stop." His mouth was so warm as he worked my cock, sending shivers through my body.

We got on the bed, I had him get on his back raising his legs towards his chest. I slid him down into my tongue, licking up and down the length of his ass crack taking my tongue deep into his quivering hole. His scent was pushing my libido to its limits. "Oh gawd, please Myles don't stop, yes baby my ass is yours." I ate his ass for sometime as my saliva ran down his ass crack. I took some of my precum on my fingers, shoving one in as his ass twitched, then two, his asshole tightened on my fingers. "Relax baby, breath in and out, yes just like that." I keep working my two fingers,hitting his prostate as he moaned: "Yeah, that feels good, oh fuck yeah." I then inserted a third finger, but he was more relaxed, accepting it as his ass moved to my penetration. Precum was pouring out of his swollen cock running down his length as I took him licking up every drop of he delicious nectar.

"Coop are you ready for me ." "Yes, please take me, take my virginity. love me." I lubed my cock, then his ass, I placed his feet on my shoulders, kissing his toes, running my hands down his legs as he wimpered, then entering him slowly, I told him to push out as I entered him. My cock slid in about an inch or so passing through his sphincter as he yelled: "Stop oh gawd please, it hurts." I pushed back out getting on top of him, our bodies soaked with sweat...I whispered in his ear how much I loved him, how I worshipped his body, that I was going to take him to a place of pure ecstasy. I kissed his neck, bit his ear lobes, down to his swollen nipples, licking them as he shivered pushing my head down towards his leaking cock. I took him in my mouth sucking hard, working him into my throat. "Fuck me now Myles, now, please fuck me." I placed my cock at his entrance, feeling the warmth from his beautiful ass, entering him again, this time sliding pass his tight muscle, stopping for him to get use to my size. "Okay, give me more." I pushed in just one inch at a time, very slowly, lovingly, as he began to move his ass. "Now, yes now, I want it all." I slid all the way in until my balls were slapping against his ass. I laid on his chest, skin to skin, our bodies wet and slick, moving back and forth to a rhythm driven by the power of love. "Look at me baby, open your eyes, do you feel my love?" "Yes, the feeling of you in me....its love that we are sharing, please keep fucking me, I don't want this feeling to ever end." I began increasing my pace as he placed his hands on my ass pushing me deep into him. Our kiss became ravenous, we were consumed with passion. "Are you ready for me to fill you?" "Yes, breed me, give me your hot cum." I came shooting in him, so much cum I didn't think I was going to stop. "Coop, I'm cumming, oh fuck yes, fuuuuuuuuuck." I could not believe how much cum shoot out of him, over his head, in his hair, all over his face and lips and finally down his chest and then pooling on his stomach. I kissed him licking his face, then his lips as we shared his cum back and forth in our mouths. We laid sideways just holding each other, out bodies stuck together soaked in cum. The air was filled with the smell of sex, that wonderful scent as Coop said: "You have taken my virginity, now I'm yours, I love you." "I love you too, yes you are mine and I am yours, tonight we are one, body and soul."

In the weeks and months that followed we spent all our time together. We were having dinner one evening when Coop said to me: "What would you think about moving in together, our rent is so expensive?" "Well....I don't know if I could put up with you" as I began to laugh. "Yes, my answer is yes, lets do it."

It took a year before I had the courage to ask Coop to marry me, which he accepted without reservation. So our life played out beginning friends, then foes, and finally lovers. It was a bittersweet journey we went through but in the end love always wins.

Quote for Thought

"Sex is like air, its not important unless your not getting any."