Stud16

Hi, I’m Nicholas "Nick" Ongko — 22, Chinese Indonesian, and the so-called “perfect son.” USC Business grad, tall, athletic, clean-cut with golden skin and a sharp jawline that makes aunties pinch my cheeks back home. I wear the silver cross, smile politely at family dinners, and speak fluent “good boy.”

But almost no one knows the truth: I’m gay. For a few wild months in LA I lost control completely — secret hookups, Grindr marathons, and a body count I’m still ashamed of. Now I’m in Beijing for six months of Mandarin classes, trying my hardest to bury that side of me and become the obedient son my parents expect.

So far… it’s not going very well.