When dad caught me fucking

[Disclaimer: this post only describes events from when I was over 18 years of age.]

I was sexually active from a young age and had only ever been with girls. I've slept with more girls than most my friends. I've always been fairly confident about my body around friends and guys in my team, (being into team sports, we see each other naked quite regularly in changing rooms and showers.. And occasionally on the pitch). Yeah Ive always liked to look at my male friends but I figured that's probably normal, as we all do it and all comment on each other... it's just appreciation and I definitely didn't want to engage in any sexual acts with them. We're all about the honies, not the homies! In my whole team only 2 of us are uncircumcised (including me), I'm pretty much used to seeing circumcised dicks.

Well, this is where my dad comes in. He's a good guy, a bit rough round the edges but a heart of gold, and I would say that we have a good relationship. He is perhaps your average working man but he had great ambitions and he's doing well for himself. I have been working for him with his own business and we have never been closer. We spend so much time together now and I see him more than anybody else. I live with him whereas my older brother lives away. My dad is in his late 40's, I guess he's no mona lisa. He's usually got paint, sawdust or oil on his clothes because of working on his cars or fixing up the house, he's bald and has some stubble on his chin. I'd say he's pretty much your stereotypical manly bloke. He is barely literate, but he is smart in other ways. He has always been a bit of a tough guy. We usually joke about him being like Fred Flintstone. Partly because he looked a bit like a neanderthal and because liked walking around barefoot a lot of the time. I was somewhat intimidated by him when I was younger, but now I'm older, and I work out I'm a bit bigger than him. Well.. In most areas but two. There's his belly/beer gut, and... Well let me describe the whole thing.

I was super horny one night, chatting to a hot girl who lives round the corner. I sent her pics of my dick and she was gagging for it. I was desperate too but she said theres no way she could have me over, so I decided to invite her over instead. My parents were asleep so I had to be really quiet. I went downstairs. I saw her through the window as she arrived so I pulled down my underwear and quietly opened the door, with my rock hard cock cheekily on display. My dicks a good size and I do love to show it off, especially when our cards are already on the table. She was so wet for it, she came up to me grabbed it and began to work it and began making out with me right in the doorway. I shut the door, walked her over to the couch and she pretty much pounced on me and she rode my cock. She still had a skirt on but I pulled her top down to let her tits out. It was fucking hot and we were having wild sex! However she wasn't as discreet as me, and she was gasping quite loudly as I pounded her pussy. I should have got her to quieten down but I was so fucking lost in the moment, my meat was aching to blow. And then I heard footsteps down the stairs, fast and heavy. I quickly pushed her off and jumped up to get some clothes... only to see my naked dad looking down at us from halfway up the staircase. I think he thought there was a break-in or something! And I saw his dick hanging there between the bannisters! Even from downstairs I could see that it was bigger than mine, chunky as hell! I guess I'd never expected it to be so big, I had not really thought about it before so I was really surprised! It was a big chunky dick with a thick foreskin over his head, unlike any dick I'd seen. And I was busted. Dad was furious, he could've killed me! But in a moment of self awareness I could see he was a little bit shy and he covered up his cock with his hand but he was bellowing, the entire household was woken! The girl was so red faced, she quickly put her shoes back on and ran out apologising to my dad (whilst trying not to look at *it* directly) and I was in serious trouble with my parents for weeks!
But there was something about that night that stayed with me. Seeing my dad naked like that, and I guess him seeing me with a hard and wet cock, something I never expected him to see... it triggered something in me. A few months later I started seeing a girl and within weeks of dating, the sex was already getting a bit boring, but she was a good girl and I had already officially called her my girlfriend, so I kept it going because I had no real reason to break it off. .. But during sex I needed more stimulation, and eventually I found it. I found myself thinking..about dad watching me fuck her. It was weird but it actually got me more turned on to imagine him being there in the room. Initially I tried blocking out the thoughts because it seemed sick, but when I was struggling to maintain a hard on, I just let myself entertain those thoughts, and I found my cock was tensening harder the more I focused on those thoughts. 

Over the following weeks, my fantasies developed and they became about me and dad spit roasting her together and more... Because we were dating, my parents couldn't say anything about me sleeping with her under their roof besides be discreet and have some respect for everyone else in the house. Dad said he liked her, and told me that I'm punching above my weight with her because she's a looker. Although I wasn't head over heels over her, I really liked to hear my dad say this and I kinda wished he'd steal her from me. Kinda strange right?
There were occasions when I knew my dad was upstairs and I started to do some sexy stuff with my girlfriend, and hoped that my dad was listening in or would "accidentally" walk in or something. I even teased her about how my dad might walk in, and I joked about how he might try and steal her. I know it sounds kinda gross, but I obviously didnt make it out like I was being serious. It was just a joke and she found it funny and said "shut upppp" and giggled. But it genuinely got me hard saying it to her. I wanted her to seduce him so bad. I wanted to see him get hard over her and watch him fuck her.

Over time, those fantasies were what kept me going, and they got more and more intimate in my head, and when alone, I found myself watching videos of double penetration. I imagined me and my dad's cocks rubbing against each other inside her pussy, then dad pulling out and me jerking him off to completion. But I got so lost down this rabbit hole that it got to the point where my girlfriend suddenly didn't even seem necessary in the equation anymore, I started to see her as an obstruction. One day the rest of my family were out and pure curiosity brought me to go through the dirty laundry and look at my dad's underwear. He had a pair of white briefs, (which from the sounds of things is what all older dad's wear). I do not know what I was hoping to see, but I was pleasantly surprised to see a slight impression from where the fabric had been stretched around his big cock, and I felt kinda excited, if a bit uncertain. I put them on, let my own cock fill the pouch. After I shook away my initial shame, I got so hard from being where my dad's dick had been. Normally this wouldnt have even crossed my mind but now it was like the most amazing discovery. I was so turned on that I jerked off inside the briefs, then lay them on the floor and started to grind my cock against them. I let my big hard cock slide against the cotton as I thrust. Right at the last moment I turned over and shot jizz all the way up my chest, even hitting my chin! I couldn't remember the last time I had shot like this. Because I enjoyed it so much, I did it time and time again, like a hobby. Before I knew it, I was sniffing them too. Then my next discovery was jerking off in his dirty socks as well, turned out that turned me on too, then I was fucking his sneakers, then I was going through the family photo albums and finding any pics with dad by a pool or on a beach, looking at his bulge and jerking off to that. I tried to justify it to myself that it was just curiosity, just a phase, just fascination...

It was shortly after I broke it off with my girlfriend that I started to admit to myself that I had some homosexual feelings for my dad. Trust me, I still find it weird and I question myself all the time.

I started Google searching about it to see if there were more people like me and that's when I found reddit and gay incest pages and it all felt so relatable to me. I couldn't believe how much of this stuff I'd done other people had done too. It's inspired me to write up all my experiences.

If you have any questions please feel free to ask em, just understand that some personal details I cannot go into.

While at work with Dad, alone together, he told me I'm mad for breaking up with her, I joked that if he likes her so bad he can have her. He joked "I might have to take you up on that offer". "You dirty old man!" I laughed. "Well she told me that she thinks you're cute so you may have a shot" I said. Dad laughed. And then I said "you missed your opportunity to show her your bits like you did that other girl I was seeing". To which dad said "I'm not sure she's ready to see what a real man looks like". I jabbed dad in the ribs and said "hey what's that supposed to mean?!", but I felt my dick beginning to grow just because of dad making a lewd remark. Dad didn't answer so I commented "I still can't get over the fact that you showed that other girl your cock and balls". And dad was like "Yes but I don't think it was my actions that were most shameful that night" he said sternly. "Point taken" I replied.