Voyeur

Coming out to Our Friends and Families

Journal Entry: Coming out was painful, exhilarating and ultimately healing.

The very next day, Andrew moved his stuff in and tastefully “staged” his room to fit both our home and his own taste.

We took the rest of the week to adjust to our new life and by Friday evening, we were ready to introduce Brian and Chad to the circle of those “in the know”

They, it turned out, were not entirely clueless, as Beth had shared her thoughts with them via a phone call after my Birthday bash and Andrew had confirmed to them his own growing comfort with Beth's proposal.

Very early that evening, Brian and Chris appeared at the door dressed to the hilt, sporting devilish grins and arms filled with various “housewarming” and “engagement” gifts. It turns out that they had been thrilled when Beth told them what she was planning and as our evening warmed up, the boys became more and more affectionate- - especially as they became a bit more tipsy - with allof us as a new family- taking multiple opportunities for various group hugs and sloppy kisses on our cheeks (and lips!).

We all ate it up! The boys beamed with the realization that they had basically been the authors of this new and budding relationship by opening me up to myself. Of course, it was Beth who then cleverly and graciously put it all together.

The meal was a masterpiece- with all three of us- Andrew, Beth and me- contributing to its creation (this was a new aspect to our lives which we hadn't anticipated: the simple joy of being in the kitchen with each other and doing what we all loved – creating and then savoring culinary creations!) Beth had paired each course with an appropriate aperitif, wine (both red and white) or after dinner liqueur.

After dinner and a lot more wine, the instruments came out: Brian on the piano, Chris and Andrew on the guitar. It turned out that Brian and Chris both played more instruments than I realized. They kept going over to their house and returning with yet another instrument- flute, clarinet, sax, violin, a couple of brass instruments. They also brought a small computer device that allowed them to establish, then loop various base, percussion and rhythm lines. Impressive!!

The music was an incredible treat to my ear! I LOVE all kinds of music. But I cannot play a single instrument nor am I a very good singer. The rest of them, however, more than made up for my deficits!

Beth sounded wonderful with the three of them, as she had the other time the boys and Andrew were over together. To be honest, I was a little jealous of this bond they all had with each other through music.

I childishly consoled myself by saying, well at least Beth only sings!

That thought was smashed to oblivion moments later when Andrew, who was taking a turn at the piano as well (Give me a fucking break!! What can't these damn people do!!), suggested that Beth take a turn!

To my everlasting astonishment, Beth sat down at the piano and began to play one of my favorite Beatle tunes- In My Life. Seconds later, both Chis and Andrew joined in on guitar. Brian joined in on vocals. Once they took a couple of seconds to adjust, Beth subtlety signaled to them and they all started again. Man, it sounded as if they had been practicing for hours. But I realized that they each were improvising a very beautifully structured version of this great song.

I sat back in my chair. “Well fuck me!” was all I could say.

“Well, if you insist,” Chris grinned, putting down his guitar as if to comply. “Come on Brian and Andrew, you heard him!”

“Now boys,” Beth chided, “behave!”

“How did I not know you played the piano, Beth?”

“I don't know, David, honestly! I used to play some when you were out and about. I helped the kids with their lessons, sometimes. But then I kind of lost the drive for it. Life had become so busy and …..”

“But how did I not know!?

“I was embarrassed, David. I never considered myself any good. And you are such an aficionado of music”

“Yeah, who can't play a lick!” I retorted.

I found myself unaccountably upset.

“We all have things about ourselves that we... are waiting for the right time to reveal.” Chris added pointedly (and helpfully).

Those words immediately erased my slight, gnawing annoyance. I smiled at my wife.

“Well bravo, Beth!! You play beautifully and I look forward to spending many hours hearing you and Andrew and on wonderful occasions such as these, the boys as well” I said by way of apology.

We sang (even me!), listened and played music, talked, drank, laughed and generally had a wonderful time until around 11:30. Beth suddenly announced that she was tired.

“Why don't you guys take this party over to Chris and Brian's?” she said to me and Andrew with a wry smile on her face, “ I am sure the boys can hardly wait to get their hands on you two!”

I turned bright red.My God! Who was this woman and what did she do with my wife!... I thought to myself, realizing seconds later that she had always been that way and I had been the one afraid to face the realities of my life.

“We'll take good care of them, Beth” Chris chortled slightly, grabbing Andrew and me - his muscled arms around our necks. “And we will return them only slightly more used than they are now!” He grinned broadly and Andrew and I followed suit, rather much more sheepishly. Surprisingly, Brian leaned into Beth and kissed her sensuously on the lips; “Thank you for being you!”

Andrew and Chris, still arms around my shoulder, hustled me over for a follow up kiss with Beth... which almost derailed our plans as I found myself unaccountably exceedingly turned on by her generous and free spirit. But Beth firmly separated herself and announced that she was ready for bed. “Have fun you guys,” she said lovingly caressing my face.

After several trips back and forth, we successfully moved all the instruments and party supplies next door.

No sooner had we gotten the stuff situated and gotten drinks in our hands, Chris pulled the blinds and said: “Let's get naked!”

He didn't bother to wait for a response, but instead began undressing.

“What the fuck, why not!” Andrew said after a moment of staring at Chris and began by peeling off his shirt. Chris returned the favor, hornily checking Andrew out.

Brian and I looked at each other and shrugged our shoulders, following suit moments later.

I suddenly realized as we finally were totally naked and I was standing there in front of three gorgeously hot men, that I was no longer embarrassed AT ALL about being naked and that (as I glanced at myself briefly in the wall mirror) I was pretty damned hot myself- especially for a newly minted 57 year-old.

Chris grabbed his glass of wine and raised it, his incredible body ready for action and his cock more than semi already.

“To a night of debauchery and sexual mayhem!” he said, only half kidding.

Chris took a large swig of his wine, set the glass on a nearby end table and immediately turned to Andrew, dropped to his knees and took Andrew's cock in-hand, beginning to minister to it's every need.

Brian took one look at this action and as if a light bulb had gone off in his head dropped to his knees in front of me and began servicing me with incredible relish.

Andrew and I were standing next to each other, immediately made eye contact and reached in to kiss each other passionately, my both lust and love for him on full display.

Brian suddenly stood up and proposed that I get behind Andrew and give his ass a good working over while he did the same with Chris. We both got in place and Andrew spread his legs a bit waiting for anything I had in mind. Chris did the same thing, shifting his position so he was directly in front of Andrew, still vigorously servicing his tool, and spread himself wide so as to be a bit more inviting, awaiting Brian's arrival. I immediately began feasting noisily on Andrew's tight muscular ass and hot pulsing hole while Chris continued to suck Andrew off. Brian got down behind Chris and began feasting as well. Andrew's pink little hole winked at me as I ministered to it. My whole body shuddered with excitement at the prospect of an incredible time that lay ahead.

Both we and the two boys became more and more excited as we worked their asses and Chris sucked Andrew's cock. Of course, as always, Chris made lots of slurping sounds as saliva poured from his mouth and his eyes watered.

Suddenly Andrew turned around to me and said “FUCK US- NOW!”.

Chris turned to Brian: “YOU HEARD HIM...”

Without needing a second command, I began the process of entering Andrew's hot ass, condom-less as usual, and shuddered- overwhelmed once more with lust and love. As I penetrated Andrew, I stood behind him, holding him close to me and rubbing my hands all over the front of his body (absolutely one of my favorite positions). Chris was still sucking Andrew with great relish on his knees turning around occasionally to watch Brian's cock slide up and then into him. We relished this arrangement for a long, steamy while until Brian pulled Chris out of Andrew's mouth and stood him up facing Andrew, Brian’s cock quickly reentering him. Chris immediately began kissing Andrew deeply.

Then Andrew broke away from Chris and turned to kiss me and then I leaned forward and kissed both Brian and Chris. As soon as I finished with Brian, Chris followed up with a deep, sensuous kiss. We all hung on to each other as Brian and I established a well developed rhythm, smashing Andrew and Chris together with each thrust as they kissed and ran their hands over each other and then each turning back to us as we leaned forward; kissing us on our lips, necks, ears- running their tongues over us.

Occasionally Brian and I leaned forward over the two guys and kissed each other. Andrew and Chris took each other in hand and joined the rhythm of the fuck. We were heading to a massive explosion...

Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

“Ignore them and they'll go away!” Brian said.

Again, a knock

“What if it's Beth?! What if something went wrong? It's late and only she knows we are all here!”

Brian sighed and pulled out of Chris' ass. We all remained naked but moved just out of the door's line of sight. Brian slipped on his shorts and went to the door.

He opened the door.

“Hi” said the person at the door. “My name is Daemon. Mrs. Bennett placed an order for this condo unit, “ he said rather breathlessly, not expecting to find a half naked incredible specimen like Brian to be standing at the door.

Brian let him in and was set to deal with the transfer of the food items he had with him while standing at the door. He excused himself and went to get his wallet to provide Daemon with a tip. When he returned, Daemon added unexpectedly,

“Also, Beth-- um Mrs. Bennett-- instructed me to offer my services for setting up the food and whatever else ….. might be useful or … requested.”

Andrew and I were both listening to the exchange and were both looking at each other knowingly. Suddenly, Andrew stepped up to the door, completely naked and sporting a semi.

“Good to see you again, Daemon! I think your services might be very useful” As he was talking, Andrew came up behind Brian and stood just to one side of him.

“However, if it's not too much of a problem, I think you should get more comfortable.” You see this party is totally naked... “

With that Andrew yanked Brian's shorts off.

“Guys!” Andrew summoned the rest of us.

With that Chris and I came from around the corner. By this time we were all getting hard again. Daemon stood there stunned, his eyes darting from hot guy to hot guy.. even to me. Without another word, he started unbuttoning his shirt.

“Please take your time!” I suggested.

We could all see that Daemon was hiding (not really so well) an absolutely sizzling body under his clothes and so we watched as he slowly stripped for us.

“What do you think, Brian?” Andrew said into Brian's ear as he came up from behind him and began pulling Brian up against him and exploring his body with his hands as they both watched Daemon continue to undress.

Brian leaned back to kiss Andrew. “I assume you know Daemon?”

“Both David and I were... introduced to him by Beth. But this is the first time we will actually will 'get to..... know him!” Andrew smirked in explanation.

“Man, David, you are one lucky guy to have someone like Beth” Chris chimed in.

“Don't I know that!” I agreed.

Daemon had just about finished undressing and stood there eyeing the possibilities, already hard.

“I have first dibs on his cock!” Chris asserted.

With that Chris slid in position, grabbed Daemon's hard, at least 7 inch cock and slid it into his mouth and down his throat. Daemon gasped but in extreme enjoyment and also extreme surprise at the abruptness of this development.

“Might as well get used to Chris. He is very direct,” Brian said as he stepped up behind Chris and dropped on his knees behind Chris.

“We find that the best way of handling him is to be just direct with him!” Brian smacked Chris's ass and then without further notice, positioned himself and then sunk his cock into Chris's upturned ass. Andrew followed behind Brian and began sucking Brian's ass.

Not to be left out, I got behind Daemon, moving in close behind him, allowing my hard cock to push up against his crack, wrapped my hands around him and began kissing, licking and biting his neck.

Daemon responded within moments by turning to one side and planting a very passionate kiss on my hungry mouth.

“I want you to FUCK ME!” he breathed heavily into my ear.

I immediately dropped down to Daemon's incredibly sensual butt and began kneading it, licking it, kissing it, biting it. Daemon responded by wiggling. Up until now, Daemon's hands had been either around Chris' head, in Chris' hair or rubbing his own body.

He responded to my move by reaching back with both hands and using his hands to expose his pink, shaved hole.

I took this as a not at all subtle invitation to have my way with him and I planned to. I grabbed his buttcheeks and helped Daemon spread his ass even further. I moved forward and with my tongue darted into his hole and licked it.

Paused only a second and then licked it again. Then again. And again ... till it was totally soaked. I delved into Daemon's hot little boi-hole with complete abandon, only occasionally looking around me to look at Chris and Brian and Andrew.

Daemon was moaning appreciatively as he was being serviced on both ends. Chris's sucking became even noisier and sloppier as he responded both to my moves and to the vigorous fucking he was receiving from Brian. Not at all a novice to these situations, Chris looked back on his best friend and smiled.

“That's all you got, son?” he teased Brian.

“Well if I had a little more help from behind...” Brian turned slightly to Andrew.

With that, Andrew became an animal. He let go of Brian's ass where he had been performing a first-class rim job and positioned himself so that he could pound Brian's hole. Without further notice, Andrew penetrated Brian and grabbed him roughly from behind, restricting his breathing slightly in the process. He held Brian against his body and fucking him relentlessly. His actions had an immediate effect on Brain, who transferred this new forward motion and energy to Chris. He fucked Chris like he knew he loved it. Hard, rough and without pause. They all were moaning and grunting and talking dirty to one another.

I looked at all of this and knew exactly what came next.

I stood behind Daemon, guided my shaft into his throbbing hole and drove it in full tilt. Like Andrew, I grabbed him roughly from behind, letting my arm ride up around his neck and holding him tightly against me. I looked over at Andrew as we were both roughly fucking our charges, each slightly choking them as we pounded away.

“Is THIS what you wanted boy?” I murmured with breathless lust into his ear.

“OH YES SIR!” Daemon enthused. Nice touch, I thought, a little hint of submissiveness. Hmmmm. I decided to go for it.

“Get over here Chris and help me double fuck this faggot!” I commanded.

I could see a wry smile cross Chris' face as he immediately pulled off both Daemon's cock and Brian's as well.

I quickly let go of Daemon and got off the floor, my hard, throbbing cock standing at attention.

“Now sit on my cock boi and wait for further instructions. You boys can come behind Chris and continue fucking him!”

“I have never been double fucked Sir. Do you think I can?”

“Fuck yeah you can because I told you that's whats happening!”

That was all the encouragement Daemon needed. It occurred to me later that he was probably playing the part of a dazed newbie. Because the rest of the evening he was an amazing champ.

Daemon got into place and slid all the way down my cock. He slid up and down a few times getting himself comfortable and turning me on badly in the process. Chris wasted no time and moved behind Daemon, taking his time-- guiding his cock into Daemon's already stuffed ass. The other guys stood around stroking themselves and kissing each other.

Chris entered Daemon slowly but with a commanding presence that gave Daemon no mental room for doubt. We found a rhythm between the three of us in no time .

Once I felt we were good, I invited the other guys to join us.

“This time Andrew, I want Brian to bring up the caboose!!”

Andrew smiled and slid into place behind Chris, spreading his legs so that he could scoot up Chris's exposed ass. Brian followed suit. Within moments, the “train left the station”. We established a nice rhythm between the five of us.

“Nice and slow boys,” I commanded, “Slow and steady wins the race!”

Daemon instinctively raised himself up slightly so that I could use more upward thrust to pound into him. Chris matched my force and sent Daemon into a blissful state... talking to himself … shouting, crying, moaning; his voice, guttural at times, and seconds later, high pitched and pleading.

I grabbed his cock and stroked it in sync with our joint efforts. I could tell that Daemon would not last too much longer and I had to pace him carefully. The five of us were thoroughly enjoying our train ride with me as the conductor!! But I could tell it was going to be a short ride... some of the passengers sounded desperate to “get off”.

“Let's cum together guys!” I suggested.

“So close!!” Daemon reported immediately.

“Oh fuck, me too” Chris chimed in.

“Let's do this,” Andrew said, moving himself furiously between Chris's ass and Brians' cock.

Within minutes we were climbing the mountain totally in sync! We rose as one to an incredible crescendo, with me carefully monitoring Daemon's progress up the hill. It was Daemon who first announced the summit!

“OH MOTHER FUCK! I”M CUMMING” he shouted in a very high pitched roar. “FUCK FUCK … I'M CUMMING!!”

And cumming he was. Powerfully and copiously spraying his load all over my chest and face sending me over the top. I thrust once more, feeling Chris right behind me. We both flooded our condoms.

Brian, who had been kind of quiet compared to the rest of us, was actually next and announced it with a shout: FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!! As he shouted, he was leaning into Andrew, holding him tightly and finally biting down on his shoulders none too gently. I knew this was going to be the ticket for Andrew.... and it was. He blasted into Chris with a long, wordless moan and visible shudder.

We uncoupled the “train” and lay against each other in a pile, trying to regain our breath and our composure, hands roaming over each other, kissing each other on whatever body part seemed appropriate at the moment. Eventually, I made the round- as the “Conductor”- and thanked each one personally for such an awesome ride with a deep, grateful kiss!

We must have fallen asleep for a while but at last I heard Brian moving around his Apartment, placing the food Beth had sent us on the counter, making a light impromptu buffet. After such a sumptuous meal earlier and LOTS of liquid refreshment of every conceivable variety, I didn't think I could possibly be hungry. Yet suddenly I was famished.

Brian looked over at me, seeing I was awake, and smiled.

“THAT... was fucking HOT,” he said. I smiled back. “Yes.... yes it was,” I said in a moment of reminiscence and reverie.

“Wake up all those slugs laying next to you and tell them we need to get some additional energy for round two. Besides, Beth went to all this trouble..

“Honestly, the food was just a pretext for the Daemon delivery! But I am suddenly famished and I think all these “slugs” will be too once I use a cattle prod to wake their sweet asses up.”

I turned and smacked Chris on the ass then rolled over and smacked Andrew and then Daemon (who was laying snuggled on Andrew's legs). No sooner had I finished with Daemon when I was attacked from behind by fierce beast suddenly awoken from a sex-induced hibernation.

“How dare you awaken me from my wet dream,” Chris announced from above me. I was dreaming that I had my cock in your mouth and was about to cum!”

“Hmmmm, that seems like it could be arranged,” I said, my cock suddenly springing to life.

I felt some motion beside me and saw Andrew come into view.

“Need help with a traitor and sleep-depriver!” Andrew asked.

“Yeah, just stretch him out so I can put this throbbing cock of mine into his mouth-hole,” Chris requested.

“I think that some foot tickling while you rape his mouth seems in order,” Daemon chimed in, suddenly awake and quickly up to speed.

Soon I found myself with Andrew holding my arms down, laying behind me, kissing and licking my neck, checks and ears, Chris on top of me with his cock teasing my mouth and Daemon sitting on my feet facing them and beginning a very tortuous foot tickling procedure.

Chris took forever outside my mouth, running his cock over my face, whacking it with his firm tool, running his cock around my lips.

“Any last words?” Chris asked.

“I was just following orders,” I pleaded. “Brian told me to wake you worthless slugs.... er.. hot gentleman up”

“We'll take care of him later. And really... 'just following orders? That's what the Nazi's said!” Chris laughed as he smacked me again with his cock.

“Enough!” Chris announced. “You need a little lube for this monster,” he said and leaned down and spit several times into my waiting mouth. Then proceeded to ram his cock into my mouth and down my throat.

My cock was hard as a rock and I desperately wanted to jack it. But I couldn't free my hands from Andrew's strong grip. Between Andrew's licking and kissing, Chris' relentlessly mouth-fucking and Daemon's merciless tickling, my body was on extreme overload.

“Late night supper is served,” Brian smirkily chimed in at this moment.

“Fuck you!” Chris growled.

“Well, I certainly hope someone is planning on it.” Brian retorted. “But seriously, you finish up soon boys before your meal get's cold,” Brian added, sounding ever so much like Mrs. Cleaver on Leave It to Beaverreruns.

“The boy needs some protein first!” Chris shouted, obviously getting very close. Andrew and Daemon were servicing themselves at this point. Andrew holding me down with one hand and jacking with the other, still going to town on my neck, cheeks and ears. Daemon was reduced to tickling with one hand and jacking with the other.

I was beyond hope. All nerve endings were firing, my heart was racing, my cock aching. Suddenly Chris shouted triumphantly as he fired his load down my throat. I swallowed effortlessly, raising my body up as my cock suddenly and violently exploded, shooting cum all over my stomach and Chris' back. Andrew was keeping an eye on us all the while as he continued licking, kissing and jacking. I could feel his body shudder as he groaned with deep satisfaction and release. Daemon was last as he made some indecipherable utterances and shot is load all over my feet.

Suddenly, there was Brian.

“Ok boys, time to clean up and get to the table,” Brian said as he dropped down, kissed Daemon salaciously on the way down and then proceeded to lick up all the cum from my feet and Daemon's cock.

Chris dismounted and I watched as Brian licked my feet and Daemon's cock clean. Suddenly, Chris scooted up on his knees.

“When you're finished there you can clean this up!” he ordered, his cock glistening with his cum and my saliva. “And when you finished with me, go down and help Andrew and David out too”

Brian quickly cleaned off every drop of cum from Chris' still semi-hard-and-rising cock (the man was insatiable) and then proceeded to drop down first to me, licking up my cum as he went and then next to Andrew as he and I were leaning into a deep kiss. Brian licked up every bit of cum from Andrew's body and from the floor.

“Well now,” Brian said in a spritely tone, “ I think we are ready for supper!'

We awoke late Saturday morning, having finally called it quits some time well after three.

Daemon was still on the clock and proceeded to rise earlier than the rest of us and clean up the kitchen , then move to the rest of the boy's house with the efficiency of a professional. We had all managed to land in one bed or another. Daemon had ended up with me and Andrew in “my room”. Chris and Brian in their own beds.

Once I awoke and realized that Daemon had slipped out, I leaned over and kissed the still sleeping Andrew and stumbled into the living room. Daemon had made tremendous progress.

“Daemon, you don't need to do this!”

“We are a full service agency,” he chortled with a wicked grin.

“Well, THAT you are!” I smiled back at him affectionately.

Daemon and I spent the next few minutes preparing and serving some really high end coffee the guys found on some adventure of theirs. I am generally not into the whole fancy coffee scene but this stuff is awesome! Daemon took a tray into Chris and Brian; coffee, juice and a couple of warmed pan chocolates. I took a similar tray to Andrew.

Not sure what happened in the boys room. I know that I enjoyed a nice leisurely breakfast with my man followed by an equally nice leisurely fuck. Andrew and I took a nice hot shower together, mostly showering, and Andrew dressed and went to work. Saturday is often a work day for realtors, especially if they have appointments but he wisely made his appointments for after noon. I dressed as well and said goodbye to Andrew with a wonderfully sensual hug and kiss and a whispered “see you tonight”. Then I peeked into the guys room. The three of them were lazing around in bed and I kissed each one of them, thanking them and telling them how much fun I had had. To Daemon, I whispered that I sure hoped this would not be the last time we saw each other. He assured me (and us) that it wouldn't if we wanted to see him again and that next time he would be totally off the clock.

I finally returned home about noon and Beth had lunch ready to put on the table.

Beth was breathtakingly beautiful and ushered me onto our sun porch. All the windows were open to capture the nice breeze that was blowing. The table was set in our blue glass china, accented with yellow flowers and napkins.

Beth seated me so that I faced the ocean and leaned down and kissed me.

“Did you get my little present?” she whispered.

I kissed her back deeply.

“I certainly did.” “Brian thanks you, Chris thanks you, Andrew thanks you …Daemon thanks you and I thank you!!” echoing a line from an old classic, Yankee Doodle Dandy - the reference I knew she would understand and appreciate.

Soon she brought several dishes out; each excellent in taste and presentation. My wife knowshow to entertain! And she is a superlative cook.

We sat for the longest time over lunch talking and drinking wine. I had actually refrained from drinking too much after we left our house last night and so the wine was a welcome afternoon surprise. We normally don't drink too much during the day.

Beth asked me pointedly about my evening and I resisted the temptation to be coy and not answer her questions but looking in her eyes and seeing her genuine interest, love and total non-judgment, I relented and gave her a play by play account which she seemed to thoroughly love.

“All this sexual talk has made he horny,” she announced abruptly.

We spent the rest of the afternoon in our bed making love.

Andrew came home a bit later than usual but had called ahead so we delayed dinner until 8:00. Once again, Beth outdid herself and I helped.

We spent a pleasant meal talking, enjoying each other's company and relishing our new arrangement. Beth broached the subject of “coming out” - not just me... but our whole arrangement. We decided pretty quickly that we would come out to some folks (our kids, close friends we trusted, Andrew and my friends but not to others (Andrew's Dad, other friends we knew would not understand, and other relatives we didn't really trust.

With our kids, I took the lead since it was my change of status that predicated everything else. To say that our kids were shocked is a drastic understatement. I thought for a moment that I might have lost my son. He was always very close to Beth and viewed this as selfish on my part. “You've lived this long without coming out... why now?” I was actually speechless... I felt deep inside me that he had a point. Was this whole thing... massively selfish of me. It was Beth who bailed me out.

Greg, it was my idea. I found out about your dad's secret and I insisted that he acted upon his feelings. I love him too much to have him not able to fully express himself. Until now, he had not been physical with anyone (a generous interpretation which I gladly accepted). Once he felt safe, the other arrangement with Andrew just followed naturally.

Greg's head bowed, not looking at anyone, he finally looked at Beth.

“Mom, if you are ok with it, I guess I can be..... “Dad,” he said, looking directly at me, “ You know how much I love you and how much I kind of worshiped the man you are and the example you've always set. It will take me awhile to get my head wrapped around this whole thing... but believe me I will try not only for Mom's sake but for our relationship's sake. I don't want to lose you as a Dad!”

“You could never lose me, son!” I said and grabbed Greg and hugged him tightly and he immediately hugged back even tighter. Vanessa came over and stood by Greg, rubbing his back and then turned first to me and then to Greg for a hug. Beth came over and another round of hugs ensued.

All this time, Andrew had stood off in a corner watching. As we finished hugging, it was Greg who said to him. “Get over here and get it on this, man!” Andrew didn't need any more encouragement. Beth capped the entire thing off with a kiss for everyone..... Greg and Vanessa on the cheeks, me and Andrew on the lips. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Greg wince a bit as he saw his Mom kiss another man, but then kind of relaxed into it.

“Well, everyone got a kiss but Andrew!” Go ahead Dad. I reached over and grabbed Andrew behind the neck and planted a kiss on his lips. To my absolute shock and surprise, Greg followed suit by mimicking my moves precisely... lingering on Andrew's lips.

“No one is going to call me small minded!” he chortled. We all laughed.

Jennifer and Mike were surprisingly open minded about it. They had met Andrew and liked him. More importantly, Caleb loved him. We all went out to a really nice place for lunch and we called Greg and Vanessa to join us.

Coming out to our friends was not as difficult as I had feared. We had asked each of them to keep this matter a secret just among those who we had chosen to tell and they all, without exception, had agreed. It was not that we had any shame in letting others know …. it's just that we didn't want to go through the hassle.

After further discussion we all decided that I would come out at work. Partly we decided to do this to gauge his father's reaction. I could not believe how positively it was received! Thankfully, I was well liked by most folks and liked and respected by Richard, Andrew's dad. Andrew turned in a stellar performance as a shocked but ultimately supportive colleague.

Andrew, Beth and I settled into a comfortable routine and discovered that we had plenty to explore. I had already known that I was attracted to Beth and that we had a pretty good sex life, so I had assumed that I was bi. I had read a lot about the whole subject over the years and knew that the current thinking was that sexual preference was not binary or even tertiary but a kind of fluid sliding scale. With this image in mind, I knew that I had always been more on the gay side-- just never fully expressed. But with Beth some switch was flipped and I was very turned on by us as a couple.

I had totally fallen in love with Andrew and our one on one sexual chemistry just got better and better- even when we ventured outside the couple thing, which we often did, especially with Chris and Brian, but also with many of the “crew” in various arrangements.

What I did not see coming was that Andrew and Beth established a very intimate and loving relationship. Andrew told me that he was almost 100% gay and thus was absolutely amazed that he responded to Beth in such a strong fashion. Up until recently, their interactions were always in the context of the three of us together. Beth LOVED watching Andrew and I. She was turned on immensely by Andrew and had always been in love with me. Over time, she began to fall deeply in love with Andrew as well.

Then it happened: Beth and Andrew excused themselves after the three of us had been together rather rambunctiously. Beth announced their intention and Andrew shrugged sheepishly. My jaw must have dropped a mile and they both simultaneously and spontaneously laughed. I smiled back: “Well look at you two!” I said seductively, masking just a bit of jealousy.

Their pairing ALWAYS happened after the three of us were together; certainly not every time.. maybe ever fourth of fifth time. Eventually, I not only began to accept and cherish this further strengthening of our arrangement, I actually began to love the idea of helping to launch these events with our preceding shenanigans.

Looking back, I can't believe how small minded and selfish I had been initially, especially after Beth's endless expressions of unselfish open minded love, support and encouragement for the things I needed to explore about myself; all of it without a shred of jealousy.

Working through this helped me to be ready for the ultimate surprise: Raoul! More about him later.

Within our family, over the next year, Andrew became a completely accepted and welcomed part of the clan.

The next six months flew by. Our relationship with each other and with Chris and Brian continued to grow. Beth loved the two of them, loved their generous spirits and constant kind gestures. But for whatever reason, there was virtually no sexual content in their love and friendship. The same thing could not be said for me and Andrew with the boys. The number of times we got together as a foursome increased.

The fall of that year was a time filled with family and friends. Caleb was growing up before our eyes and would begin first grade next year. Andrew really had a way with kids and Caleb loved when he and Andrew could spend time playing Astronauts, Firemen or Undersea explorers. When Andrew was around, Caleb's imagination blossomed.

Brian and Chris' Senior year was a hectic but very fulfilling one. But they always continued to make room in their schedules to have a meal with us; often dinner but sometimes breakfast or lunch. Our bond with them continued to grow.

As I made clear, Beth graciously always made time for our "extracurricular" activities with Brian, Chris and our gay friends. Beth even had the entire crew over for a pre-Christmas party.

We sometimes invited Bernardo, Darius, Jin and Matthew as a posse, Josh and Jeremy (who had become an item after we introduced them to each other, Brad (usually by himself but sometimes with Frank), Ano and Kahil and Nohea and Carl, finally, Dameon – all by his lonesome or with others for a whole lot of additional fun.

I know it sounds like my life was one huge sexual orgy. I promise it wasn't … well not entirely. There was plenty of time in between for other activities- work, family, vacations, entertaining. But compared to my constantly vaguely frustrating life before, I was in heaven.

Beth had managed to enlist the help of one of her Aunt's grown grandsons, Paul, who was in nursing school, to provide weekend care for her so that she only had to go up to Richmond every other weekend. She paid him very well so that it made for a good arrangement for everyone, since it gave Paul a little extra money while in school and he still had time to study some.

Andrew decided to come out to his father during Thanksgiving. He told his family that my bravery in coming out at my age finally gave him the courage. It went surprisingly well. We all thought that sharing any more would be too much. I played the supportive and reassuring colleague to rave reviews. After a while and as we agreed, Andrew began dating just a bit and brought some of his dates home to meet his folks. As active as his sex life had become, Andrew was pretty old fashioned when it came to dating. So far, no one qualified, in his mind, to meet us!

Beth and I rented a cabin in the mountains of Main for Christmas and invited our family to come for whatever time they could. Andrew came before Christmas and stayed till Christmas Eve, then flew back on a redeye to be with his family Christmas Day. Our kids were able to be there for the whole time. Brian and Chris flew up for a few days as well, overlapping Andrew. But we were all on our best behavior (for the most part).

The Spring brought even more changes. Greg and Vanessa decided to get married and planned for a fall wedding. Brian and Chris were both accepted to several graduate programs but elected to stay where they were and continue to graduate school at UNC Wilmington. Everyone was thrilled with this news.

We also got to meet Brian' folks at their beach house and spent a very pleasant weekend. They were two of the most open minded, good natured, wittiest, kindest, most generous yet unassuming, judgment-free people I have ever met. They really took to both Beth and Andrew. The fact that the boys invited Ano, Kahili and Nohea took the focus off us. The twins brought a lovely native Hawaiian gift to thank them for the use of their beach house by their family.

Beth also introduced us to Raoul. I was surprised at how well I took this development. Andrew was more skeptical but entirely out of concern for Beth. When Beth and Raoul sat us down and explained that they were not interested in a relationship but just sex with no expectations or hurt feelings, somehow this satisfied Andrew, especially Beth's clear-eyed, no-nonsense delivery. The fact that Raoul was a thoroughly pleasant chap, quite handsome, younger than Beth by several years, and earnest in his explanation of the situation made it somehow more palatable as well.