Used by friend after breakup

I am an out gay guy and I’m 32 years old. I was in a serious relationship with my now ex boyfriend for 7 years. I took the breakup exceptionally hard and cried a lot and when the holidays rolled around it was even worse that year. My friend Scott that I had met in high school we’re just friends and never nothing more than that. On New Year’s Eve I didn’t want to be alone and his roommates were gone  so he said for me to come over and watch a movie and just chat. Well we were watching a Christmas movie and I began crying and Scott took me off guard on the couch and started kissing me and I tried to stop but he was persistent and he took my hand to his crotch and said feel that hard cock? That’s waiting for you and he undid his belt and unzipped his pants and took his pants and briefs down to his knees. He whispered please suck my cock, I heard you are great at it, I was still upset but he grabbed my head and nudged me down to his fat cock that was 7 inches long and thick as a can, my ex wasn’t that big and I hadn’t sucked a thick cock in a long time. I opened my mouth and took his mushroom head into my mouth and I proceeded to go further down and before I knew it I was sucking his cock with ease  and he was leaking precum like crazy and he was telling me how awesome I was doing and nobody had ever sucked him that good. I kept bobbing up and down on his cock and next thing I knew he was telling me he was going to cum and I don’t swallow but he refused to let my head up and he exploded in my mouth what seemed like a ton of cum. He released my head and when I sat back up he kissed me again and said that was awesome and began unbuttoning my shirt, and he unzipped my pants and pulled my cock out and I am medium thick but 8 inches long and he started stroking my dick and I was getting hard and he moved and kneeled in front of me and began sucking my cock and he was doing a good job and he said let’s go to his bedroom so we proceeded to his room upstairs and we got on the bed and he started sucking me again and this time he started to rim my asshole and was really getting his tongue in there and I was worried it wasn’t clean but he said it tasted amazing and kept on sucking my asshole and I’m a total top, but I let my ex fuck me on occasion but he had a little cock, Scott stuck a finger in my ass and was telling me how tight my ass was.Scott said your ex didn’t fuck you enough we can fix that  He then got us into a 69 position with him on top of me and I began sucking his soft cock and it was slowly getting longer and fatter in my mouth and he was face fucking me and moaning like crazy. He said I would have to stop before he was to cum again and he pulled out of my mouth and reached over to his nightstand and grabbed a bottle of gun oil lube and I said I don’t want to be fucked nobody that big has ever been in me but he refused to take no as a answer and he lubed his finger and stuck his finger in my ass and got me lubed up and he lubed his cock up and put my legs on his shoulders and proceeded to push his fat cock into my barely used hole and the pain was excruciating but he did manage to get all the way in and I could feel his balls hitting my ass everytime he would thrust in me and he was moaning and telling me I had the tightest hole he had ever been in and he wasn’t able to last long at all and he exploded a ton of cum into my ass and rolled off me and he had blood on his cock, his cock ripped my hole enough that I was bleeding and extremely sore. We cuddled for a bit and his roommates came back home and they are a married gay couple that play with others. Scott went to talk to them in the hallway and I could hear him bragging how good my mouth and ass is and they should come try me out! Next thing I know Trenton and Will are in the bedroom and taking their clothes off and Will says you want to put that mouth of yours to work again? I said I guess and he got up on the bed and lowered himself over my head and put his cock on my face and said suck this dick now slut and I began sucking him and he was getting really hard his dick was really long but not thick at all and I was gagging a little as he facefucked me and kept pushing his cock into my throat and he was telling Scott that I had an amazing mouth he then told me to get up and bend over on all fours and when I did he put his cock in my sore hole and began pumping away and he was grunting and moaning and saying how tight and wet my ass was and he wouldn’t last long. Meanwhile his husband had gotten in front of me and I was sucking his dick and it was a short cock maybe 5 inches but extremely thick and uncut and I was struggling with my jaw a little but I kept sucking meanwhile Scott is sitting in a chair watching us and stroking his cock hard. Will then let’s out a loud grunt and collapses on me and says that was a fantastic hole. His husband Trent mounts me and just uses spit on his cock and he enters my used sloppy hole and he’s saying wow and holy fuck this is a hot tight ass and he blows his load. Will and Trent thanked me for the great sex and went to their own bedroom and I was getting up to get dressed to leave and Scott pushed me back on the bed and put his cock to my lips and said suck this cock again and I was so sore both my jaw and my ass but I reluctantly opened my mouth and I took his cock into my throat and sucked him and again I could feel the precum leaking into my mouth and he pulled out of my mouth and flipped me over and pushed my legs apart and got on top of me and rammed his fat cock into my ass as hard as he could and told me I was much more loose now and he could take his time and enjoy my hole, he fucked me hard for a good 15 minutes before he grunted that he was going to cum again and he exploded deep in my hole and after he pulled out a bunch of cum was on his cock and he asked me to lick his dick clean and I sucked all the cum off his cock and I licked his fat balls clean and he told me to get in the shower and clean up but I got dressed and left and went home. I never let him fuck me again and I felt utterly used and was disgusted with myself. I do bottom more now though. I also ended up playing with Will and Trent on a regular basis I loved sucking their cocks and feeling them in my ass! I always made sure I was loud so that Scott would know I was being fucked in the next bedroom but the door was shut and he wasn’t welcome anymore.