The Kinksters are Alright

Chapter 16

Hurt

In his efforts to liquidate his real estate empire, Jack makes frequent trips to New York since that is where a large part of his portfolio is. On this trip he is joined by Justin and Harrison, who are doing their own business in the city. Justin wants to get out of the New York City market, but sees opportunity in sustainable buildings. He’s been teaching Harrison all about them so he can help him get several more designed and built. Harrison is very into the whole sustainable thing.

Justin and Harrison arrived separately, a couple of days before Jack. It had been weeks since Justin was with Calista. This time he didn’t even stay there. She was always so busy and it seemed like she didn’t want to make the effort to spend time with him. They fucked once or twice, but even that had lost its spark. Over the last several months, even before Liam reemerged, things had rapidly cooled between Justin and Calista. He sent her a text and told her he didn’t have time to see her on this trip. She didn’t even respond. It still bothered him that things were going this way, if for no other reason than he really loved her and wanted her in his life, even if it wasn’t as his girlfriend.

The days before Jack arrived gave Harrison plenty of opportunities to satisfy his sexual urges. He not only convinced Justin to fuck him every day, he found time to have another 13 hookups in the 48 hours between the time they arrived and when Jack arrived. Having his own room made it much easier to do. 

On the evening they arrived, after they had dinner, Justin took Harrison back to his room and fucked him. After he left Justin and went to his own room, Harrison got on his apps. He connected with an interracial couple in their 30’s first and got fucked by both of them. Later, he invited a 21 year old to his room that he fucked. Just like he’d done in Miami, he pushed out the cumloads so he could eat them. He didn’t get to bed until 4 am and had to meet Justin at 7:30.

The following day was filled with meetings. Just like the night before, Harrison had dinner with Justin and got fucked by him. Justin asked him to stay the night and let him fuck him again, but Harrison insisted he was tired and needed to get some sleep, which was a lie. Instead, he went back to his room and hit the apps. He got fucked by an older guy in a nearby apartment building, fucked a young trans man, sucked the cock of a random guy in a bathroom and invited two party boys to his room and let them fuck and fist him. They were on crystal meth and did a lot of it. Harrison tried a small amount. It made him feel kind of weird, so he wasn’t sure if he liked it, however he did like the endless energy it seemed to give him and how much hornier he was on it. He never made it to sleep that night.

Harrison managed to meet Justin on time at 8 am for their day. Justin was a party boy himself and he saw all the signs that Harrison had done something. Even though he only took a couple of bumps, Harrison was pale, clammy and jittery. He was clearly not himself.

“You seem a bit jittery this morning. What’s going on? Too much Red Bull?” Justin asked knowing full well that was not the answer.

“Uh, yeah. Red Bull.” Harrison said nervously. “I shouldn’t have drunk four cans of it, right?”

“That is only slightly fucking moronic. Are you going to be ok in our meetings today?”

“Yeah. Yeah.” Harrison awkwardly laughed Justin off. “Yeah. I’m all good.” He seemed to realize he didn’t offer his usual affirmative response, “Yeppers!” 

Amazingly, Harrison made it through the day and still performed well. Harrison insisted Justin fuck him before they went to dinner, which he did. At dinner, Justin tried to share his concerns without being accusatory.

“I’m glad you’re having fun hooking up in the big city. I just want you to be careful with who you’re fucking. Some of these dudes are into shit you don’t want to mess with. I tried a lot of stuff when I was younger, so has Jack. A little something-something here and there is fun, but you can get really caught up in it too.”

“Jesus Christ, Justin. Now you sound like Calista. Why is my having fun so offensive to everyone? I didn’t do anything stupid, ok? I’m not a fucking moron. I can handle myself. For fuck’s sake.”

“Ok, no problem. If you ever have any questions, you know you can come to me. That’s all. Sorry I upset you, Mr. Fucking Sensitivity.”

“Yeah whatever. What time tomorrow?” Harrison responded while staring at his phone.

“You get to sleep in. We don’t have anything until 11, unless you want to meet up for breakfast. Don’t forget, Jack arrives tomorrow evening.”

“I never forget anything to do with Jack. Never. I’ll skip breakfast. See you later!” Harrison chirped as he jumped up from the table and dashed to his room. He had several notifications on his phone and he knew he would be busy that night. 

The first guy that Harrison hooked up with was super hot, but turned out to be a dud. He still fucked him anyway. A very cute 25 year old Pakistani college student came to his room and spent almost two hours fucking and fisting him. After a short break, an older guy came by and fucked him. Finally, a 20-something boy came over and fucked him. He offered Harrison coke, which he tried. The boy invited a friend over and Harrison was fucked and double penetrated by them for more than an hour. He didn’t get any sleep again.

Harrison was definitely looking tired when he met up with Justin. Not wanting to irritate him, Justin didn’t say anything. Their meetings went well, though Harrison wasn’t very chatty with Justin. As soon as they were done, he went back to his hotel room and waited for Jack. Despite being desperately horny, he decided to stick a butt plug in his ass and take a nap while waiting for Jack.

Jack texted when his flight landed and asked if he wanted to go to dinner. Harrison just wanted to see Jack. He was missing him terribly.

I really don’t want to go anywhere Jack.
I just want to be with you.

OK, sexy boy. I’ll be there in less than an hour. We can just order room service.

I can’t wait to see you. I miss you.

I miss you too.

Harrison was in a mood and wasn’t sure why. He was annoyed by Justin’s comments the day before, but not enough to make him feel so different. He figured it was because he’d gotten so little sleep over the last three nights. It didn’t occur to him that it might be the drugs he tried. With his butt plug still firmly in his ass, he got dressed and ran down to the lobby to get some Gatorade and Red Bull. He went back to his room and chugged both, finally passing out. He was sound asleep when Jack arrived.

Jack cuddled up to Harrison, who was naked and curled up on the bed. His hole relaxed when he was sleeping and the butt plug was on the bed behind him. Jack just wrapped his arms around him and pulled him tight.

“Oh, hey sexy man,” Harrison said groggily. “I’m so happy you’re here.”

“Do you feel ok? I don’t think I’ve ever seen you crash so hard for a nap before. You look a little ragged.”

“I think I’m ok. I’m just tired. I had a busy few days.”

“Busy working or busy working it?”

Harrison gave Jack a mischievous smile, “mainly working it.”

“I figured as much. How much working it?” 

“Ummmmm,” Harrison held his fingers out as he counted, “thirteen? If you count Justin, fourteen.” Jack smiled back with a combination of pride and concern.

“That is a lot of work. No wonder this butt plug fell out of your ass.” Jack held the thick plug up in front of Harrison’s face.

“Jonathan Ashton Holden! That was rude.” Harrison yelled, faking outrage, “buuuut you probably aren’t wrong.”

“I have been traveling all day and I’m starved. I’m assuming you are too?”

“Definitely. I need to get my energy back up so I can rail you all night.”

“That sounds like a plan. I’ll order an old favorite, if I remember correctly - spicy chicken wings, cheeseburgers with lots of bacon, fries, and root beer.”

 “That’s what I ordered on the night we met. At the pub where Ron always took care of me.” he replied as his eyes got misty, “gee, I wonder what ever happened to Ron?”

“Oh, I don’t know, someone might have anonymously left him a pretty big check thanking him for always taking such good care of you. He may or may not have retired to Las Vegas.” Jack said as he stood up and walked away to go order their food.

***

Senator Martin and his Chief of Staff - and boyfriend - Erik, were enjoying the video that was sent to them anonymously, but were also a little worried. Why did someone send this to them and what were they planning to do?

A young man, smooth with dark hair, is on his back, sweaty and covered in cum, as one after the other, his buddies take advantage of him. His not-so-tight hole and throat serve as nothing more than a cum depository. That young man happens to be Charlie in one of his wilder scenes from Sketchy Sex. Like most of the scenes he did, it was filthy animalistic sex with guys on one mission - to fill his holes. Charlie services a never ending parade of dudes, seemingly from morning to night. Sometimes, he gets used by a few at a time, sometimes it is just one guy pounding his ass. A total of 15 guys repeatedly breed Charlie, one hard-on after another. The sweet boy is nothing more than a pure jizz dumpster, taking load after load. He’s filled with so much cum, it is dripping from his ass all over a dirty bare mattress.

Like any of Sketchy Sex’s videos, it is crass and not even all that pretty to look at. Charlie endured hours of abuse to his ass and mouth. It even appears that he’s really enjoying it. The video ends as more guys show up to fuck him. 

Trying their best to control their hard-ons, they turned off the video and called Blaze.

“What the fuck is happening, Blaze? This is kinda scary.”

“I don’t fucking know. I have a suspicion, but I’ll need to turn Wagner loose on it. His investigators will figure it out. I’m surprised it's taken this long for something like this to happen. Somebody is fucking with us.”

“Ok, thank you…” Erik could be heard in the background, finishing up a conversation with someone in their office.

“Tyler. Please tell me you are not watching that IN YOUR FUCKING OFFICE!!”

“Oh shit. Is that bad?”

“How the fuck are you so stupid sometimes? Stop letting your dick make decisions for you! Get that video the fuck out of there and just let me figure this shit out!”

“Ugh. Yeah. Sorry. Anyway, your boy is a fucking rockstar.”

Blaze had to figure out how someone would know that Charlie worked for Blaze and that Blaze worked for the Senator - and how that someone connected Sketchy Sex Charlie to assistant Charlie.

He figured it wasn’t one of the hardcore right wingers since they wouldn’t have fired a warning like this, they would have just released it to the media. His suspicions lied with two gay staffers that he knew of who worked for House GOP leadership. Blaze had successfully gotten several Republicans to co-sponsor a bill that the leadership hated. He almost has enough votes for the bill to pass. The bill was introduced by Senator Martin and already cleared the Senate. Blaze thought this might be their dirty way to try and scare them into backing down. 

After talking to Jack, he knew it wasn’t anything to do real damage. It might be embarrassing, for Charlie especially, for this to get any exposure. They discussed a plan to deal with the fallout, if there was any. No matter what, Blaze had to tell Charlie what happened.

“Oh no! That really fucking sucks! I’m so sorry, Blaze. I don’t care who sees that or who knows what I did, but I don’t want it to hurt us and fuck up our work!” Charlie was more pissed than worried, but he still had to ask, “soooooo, are you gonna fire me?”

“No fucking way, kiddo! It wasn’t illegal. It was consensual and it has nothing to do with anything on Capitol Hill. We’re dealing with people who can’t win legitimately, so they fucking cheat. Don’t worry about it. We’ll fix it or we’ll deal with it. Come here.”

Blaze pulled Charlie in for a hug. Charlie returned the hug by squeezing Blaze tightly.” You’re so awesome. I really love you. Thank you. I know you have my back.”

“With that cute little ass, of course I have your back.”

***

Jack made time to have dinner with Calista. He was disappointed that he couldn’t convince Harrison to go along. He was noticing how things were changing with his little tribe, especially for Calista. She still got along fine with Jack and Blaze, but her relationships with Harrison, Aidan and Justin were all chilling. 

She still loved her brother, Aidan. They mainly drifted apart because they were such different people and they just didn’t gel well. They still talked regularly, though not often. Her relationship with Harrison soured after the reunion and even though she tried to rekindle it, they grew apart. She had issues with his behavior and, like with Aidan, they just didn’t connect anymore. When she moved to New York, everything changed for her and she was living the life she wanted to. She had amazing new friends and was having great new experiences. She was exceedingly happy with her life and, unfortunately, it didn’t involve Harrison and Aidan anymore.

Calista’s relationship with Justin was another story. Their flame burned very hot for more than a year, then it started to dim. Calista found Kwang to be more of what she wanted in a partner. She fell in love with him and was deeply committed to him. His devotion to her was even stronger. With Kwang in the picture, she started to find little things about Justin that she didn’t like. The more she reflected on it, the more she came to the realization that Justin was perfect for her at the time she needed him, but now she’s grown and has different needs. 

After dinner, her and Jack walked back to her apartment. They finally talked about the elephant in the room. “I haven’t said anything yet because I’m nervous to tell you.”

“Calista, you have no need to be nervous. You’re allowed to change. You’re allowed to feel differently.”

“I know, but it’s been hard, Jack! I feel like I’m just pushing people I love away because they don’t fit in my life anymore.”

“You’ll sort it out. This is a whole new, amazing experience for you. You’re still so young. You don’t have to have everything figured out. Given how you started your life, you’re finally in a position to figure out who you are. Things with Harrison will work out. Give it time. He’s going through his own stuff. So is Aidan. It just so happens that you are ahead of them in finding your place. They are still working on it.”

“I feel terrible about Justin. I dragged him kicking and screaming into a relationship and now I don’t want that anymore. He’s not the perfect fit I thought he was. He’s still awesome and I still love him, but I want something else. Ugh. He’s still hot too!”

“Justin will survive. I know how much he loves you. Not every relationship is meant to be. You had something special. Don’t fret about things, just appreciate the wonderful experience you had together. I don’t see any situation where you don’t end up as best friends. It is just going to take some time to heal some wounds.”

“You always know what to say. You’re really the most amazing person in the universe, Jack. I love you so much.”

“I love you too, Calista.”

They finally made it to her building and went up to her apartment. While Jack poured champagne for them, Calista changed into an oversized plaid pajama top and a pair of cute boys underwear with some manga character on them. She joined Jack on her sofa.

“You could make yourself comfortable too, you know.”

“I know. Maybe I will. Right now I’m just enjoying how adorable you are.”

“Sorry, I didn’t go for something more girly. I had to let the boys have a little freedom,” Calista said seductively as she pointed to her crotch. Her cock was hard and poking out of the band of her underwear.

“Oh, yes, so I see. I like what you’re wearing. It tells me that you haven’t completely changed. You’re still that cute little girl who came rushing to me with her nails painted one night.”

“That was such a beautiful night. You were so kind and made me feel so good.”

“You made me feel good too.”

“I can still make you feel good. I mean, if that’s still ok between us.”

“Why wouldn’t it be?” Jack set his glass down and leaned forward into Calista’s lap. He licked the tip of her cock and then slowly pulled her underwear down. Calista was a little surprised at Jack being the one to start things, but she did kind of bait him a little. Jack slid his mouth over her slender tool and let his tongue swish all over it. He got a little more comfortable between her legs, kneeling on the floor and got into a nice rhythm sucking her cock.

“Oh, Jack…this is perfect…yesss, Jack…that’s it…mmmmmmmmm…”

Calista reached down and grabbed Jack’s shirt and pulled it over his head. She ended up tearing it and popping a couple of buttons off as she did. Jack took her cue and slipped his pants off, leaving him in just his boxer briefs. Calista massaged Jack’s head while he pleasured her. She felt in control, but not dominant. She wanted to let Jack have her any way he wanted.

Jack sucked her cock for more than ten minutes before going down and licking her balls. It was fairly easy to take both of them in his mouth and gently tug on them as he lashed them with his tongue. He sucked on her little gems for a few minutes and then pushed her legs up and slid his tongue over her ass. Calista cooed as she felt Jack’s warm tongue on her hole. He rolled it up and slid it into her tight hole and gave her the kind of tongue fucking she was known for. 

“Jack…Jack…ooooohhhhhh…yesss…”

As Calista became more relaxed, Jack slipped a finger into her hole. She let out a long moan as Jack continued to finger fuck her, gently poking in and out with one finger, then two. She was genuinely enjoying everything Jack was doing to her. It reminded her of their first time together and how special that was. Then she had a realization.

“Jack, this is so nice.” Calista leaned back, enjoying Jack’s fingering. “Jack?”

“Calista?” Jack looked up from her ass, his face all wet with saliva.

“I don’t think you’ve ever fucked me. Like, ever. Right?”

“You might be right. There were lots of drunken nights, but it is rare that I’m on top other than with Harrison.”

“Would you? Jack, would you fuck me?”

“I could. I mean, after Kwang and Justin, I’m not sure you’ll get the same pleasure from my inadequate equipment.”

“Don’t be silly, Jack.” Calista leaned forward and pretended to beg dramatically, “take me, Jack! Take me, I’m yours!”

They both laughed at the silliness of the moment. Jack got up off the floor and laid on top of Calista. He pressed his lips against hers and began to kiss her. He slowly moved away from her lips and down her neck. Calista panted heavily as Jack licked and nibbled at her neck. From there, Jack explored new territory for him. He gently caressed her tits and licked one of them. He started sucking on her and went back and forth between both breasts. That didn’t last too long, but Calista definitely liked it. Jack went back to kissing her as he brought his hands down to her hips and pulled her legs up.

“You truly are the most beautiful girl, Calista.”

“Oh, Jack, I love you more than I should.” They kissed some more as Jack slid his cock into her ass. She moaned as she felt the small dick poke its way inside her. “Jack…yessss…I love having you inside me. Fuck me, Jack. Fuck me, please.”

Jack eased his cock in as deep as he could go and pulled back. Harrison liked it when Jack went slowly, so he did the same for her. He wondered if maybe his small dick felt better going slowly. Calista pulled Jack down and kissed him while he made love to her, fucking her ever so slowly and passionately. Jack didn’t have the same stamina his younger lovers had and it wasn’t long before he was ready to cum. When he couldn’t hold it anymore, he shot his load on her hard cock. He wasn’t a big shooter, his cum just shot onto her cock and a little on her belly. He wanted her cum, so Jack went down on her, slurping up his own cum and picking up where he left off when he started. Calista held his head in place and lightly bucked her hips, fucking his face, but not too hard. She tensed up and called out Jack’s name as she pumped a load of her girl jizz deep into his throat. They cuddled up together, holding each other tightly.

“That was so nice, Jack. Thank you for that. I really wanted you.”

“And I wanted you. I’m happy we got here. It’s been so long since we’ve been together like this.”

“Too long. It will probably be forever before it happens again. No matter, I love you so much. I always think about you when I need to feel better.”

“That's really sweet. You make me happy too, you’re very special to me.”

After a few more minutes of cuddling, Calista knew Jack had to go. “I’m sorry you have to leave.”

“I know, but…um…anyway…”

“You want to be with your boy, I know. The way you two love each other is amazing and I envy both of you.”

“Your love is out there. I think he might be closer than you think.”

***

With Jack around, Harrison was able to control his urges, mainly because being with Jack satisfied him in a way no one else did. Even though he thought about hooking up while Jack was out with Calista, he opted not to. He just laid around the hotel room, waiting for Jack and thinking about him.

When Jack returned to his hotel room, he found Harrison laying naked on the couch watching one of the Star Wars movies.

“I will never tire of this sight.”

“Hehe. Of course not, it’s pretty hot, isn’t it?”

“Ok, Aidan.” They both giggled as Jack sat on the end of the couch and put Harrison’s feet in his lap. He started to massage them. “So, how many boys fucked you while I was out with Calista?”

“None.” Harrison seemed to even surprise himself, “I went on Grindr and Scruff after you left. I read a bunch of messages, there were some pretty hot guys! Then I just put my phone down and closed my eyes and thought about you. All I wanted was you and I decided to wait as long as it took for you to come back.”

Jack had a tear in his eye. Every time he heard Harrison talk like that, it made him emotional. After all of this time, he still couldn’t believe how lucky he was to have him. “I, uh, wow. You know how to get me. Fuck.” Jack sniffled and wiped his eyes.

Harrison sat up and pulled Jack in for a hug. “When you have the most perfect man in the world, you don’t need anything else.” He broke the hug for a moment, looked into Jack’s eyes with a smirk, and lightened the mood. “Now, when the most perfect man in the world is out galavanting the world, then I need a lot of anything else to replace him.”

“Wow, so it takes five guys to replace me. That’s…probably right.”

“Some nights it takes even more. And no matter who’s dick is in my ass, you are the only one I’m thinking of.”

“Wishing I had a bigger dick?”

Harrison gave Jack a playful slap to his face, “no, you goof.” He grabbed Jack’s head and kissed him, then pulled back again, “your fist always a nice touch.”

Jack rolled his eyes and groaned at Harrison’s poor joke.

Harrison didn’t get much sleep that night either.

***

The meeting that Jack and Justin were supposed to have was moved to later in the day. That left the two of them with time to kill. 

“We have more than two hours before we have to be anywhere. Do you wanna fuck or get breakfast?”

“As tempting as your beast is right now, I’m going to say breakfast. These boys have been wearing me out lately. Harrison was his usual wild self last night AND this morning.”

“Yeah, you are getting old Jack. Constant fucking is going to take its toll on you. I’m sorry my monster isn’t more tempting than bacon and eggs.”

“Is that cheesy scarf rayon? It will make it easier to set you on fire, bitch.”

“You love me, Jack.” Justin gave Jack one of those ‘bro’ side hugs as they checked in at the restaurant. “While we’re on the subject of Harrison being wild…”

“Are you going to lecture me about his sex life too? I already got the third degree from your lovely girlfriend last night.”

“Not a lecture. I just want to be sure you’re fucking paying attention. He’s rivaling you during your bender days, at least as far as sex goes. I never thought anyone could be hornier than you.”

“He has always been a horny boy and now he feels comfortable exploring some things. So he’s fucking around a lot. He told me what he did before I got here. It’s a lot, but nothing more than I did. Shit, sometimes I still do.”

“But did he tell you about everything? He was looking pretty fucking haggard on both mornings. I know he wasn’t getting any sleep and I’m pretty sure I know the signs of someone coming off a meth high.”

Jack let out a big sigh. “Yes, he told me, meth one night, coke the next. Look, he’s just about 21. Remember what you were doing when you were 21, party boy? I know what I was doing.”

“I’m not saying he shouldn’t try things. He totally should. I just want to be sure you know what the fuck is going on. Saying you went off the rails is a major fucking understatement. I doubt you want him to hit the same lows.”

“Thank you, Justin. I know you care about him. I appreciate you looking out for him. He looks up to you, so don’t hesitate to talk to him when you think you can have an impact. He might just go off the rails. I can’t prevent that. Pushing him too hard will only make him dig deeper.”

“I’d hate to see him struggle, he’s way too fucking talented to be a fuck up.” Jack shot Justin a sharp glare and Justin tried to correct his course. “I know you won’t let him be a fuck up, neither will I. The kid is brilliant. He’s going to be a big deal in the sustainable building movement. That’s all. I want to see that for him, and for you and me.”

“I know. I really fucking know. Now, it’s my turn to give you some shit. Well, at least grill you about your relationship.”

“God damn it. I knew you were gonna do that. It’s cool. I was planning to talk to you anyway. Do you know what’s going on?”

“Calista shared her side of things last night. What’s your story?”

“Jack, I fucking love Calista so much. She’s really helped me become a better person and I love being with her. The sex has always been great. Something doesn’t click though. It’s more than a year and I still feel like I’m missing something. This is the first time I showed up in New York and didn’t go to see her. I still haven’t seen her, Jack.”

“I hear you. That was kind of our thing too.”

“True, but you didn’t have tits. I know I sound like a piece of shit, but for as much as I’m into her, I’m not. I can’t explain it. There’s something that I get from fucking a boy, a boy with a boy’s body. Harrison, Wesley, you, even Kwang. I have to be creative in my mind so I can get past tits and curves. I even started to let her fuck me - me Jack, letting someone fuck me! I thought that would change things. It didn’t. She’s fucking beautiful and so fucking happy with herself, especially her body. She’s proud and god damn it, she should be. She has gotten where so many trans girls struggle to get to. I don’t see it for me though.”

“You’re not a piece of shit for feeling like you do. You two have been having an amazing time together and have so much to look back on and be happy about. Calista is flying along at light speed. She is so far from where she started. She’s loving life to the fullest. I think your age difference matters in this case. She’s an ambitious 20 something. You’re a 40 something with very different goals and a very different idea of a good time. You grew apart. That’s not a bad thing. You’re going to be best friends forever, once you get over this hump.”

“There’s one more thing. These feelings hit me even harder when I saw Liam.”

“Wait…you saw Liam? How come this is the first I’m hearing about this?”

“You know, I’ve told you more than once that I still love him. It was confirmed when I saw him. It was a very crazy, warped, incredible reunion. There’s a lot to tell you. We’ve seen each other more since then and I plan to meet up with him when I get back. I want to be with him again.”

“Is that what he wants?”

“Fuck yeah he does.”

“Then, you know what to do, Justin. Have that tough conversation with Calista. She may not believe you, but make sure she knows your feelings were changing long before Liam showed up. Honestly, I don’t know who will break whose heart first. In the end, you’ll both be better off and happier with people that are a better fit for you.”

“Kwang?”

“I have a feeling that is what she wants.”

“Me too. Thanks, Jack.” Justin finished paying their bill for breakfast. “You know, we still have an hour. Plenty of time for me to fuck you senseless.”

“Fine. As long as you make it hurt. Make it really hurt.”

***

When Justin got back to Milwaukee, he found a surprise. Liam was in town unexpectedly. They had met up in Chicago recently where Liam was suddenly doing a book signing, and Justin conveniently had to be in San Diego for business, where Liam happens to live. For this trip Liam was back at his new favorite hotel, the Saint Kate and asked Justin to come visit. Justin couldn’t resist.

They met in the bar. Even though Justin tried to dress down, he was still wearing ridiculously tight khakis, a pastel yellow and green striped button down, and tan Gucci loafers with no socks. His nails were painted yellow to match his shirt and his hair was recently colored bright blonde. Liam was sitting at the bar, a glass of bourbon and a beer in front of him, fumbling with his pack of cigarettes. He was wearing a dingy, worn out concert t-shirt from a band he’d long forgotten, a pair of jeans with frayed cuffs and a stain on one of the legs and the most beat up pair of black Vans you’d ever seen.

“Do you always look like the fucking love child of Barry Manilow and Liberace?”

“Do you always look like the fucking love child of Oscar the Grouch and Oscar Madison?”

“Touche, fucker. You have to admit though, you dress way more colorful than you did when we were younger.”

“I’m more confident in my masculinity now.” Justin said with a smirk as he sat next to Liam. The bartender didn’t even ask what he wanted, she just brought him the same thing Liam had. 

“You weren’t very masculine when I was fucking you in San Diego, or Chicago and definitely when I was here last.”

“Letting you fuck me like you did was pretty fucking masculine. Dick.”

“I guess I’m super fucking masculine considering how I let you fuck me.”

“Do I need to prove to you I can be, um, gentle? Sweet? Like a fucking Lifetime romance? Or would that be too feminine for you? Are you even capable of ‘making love?’”

“I am very in touch with my feminine side. I just don’t wear it on my sleeve. And my face. And my ass.”

“It probably wouldn’t be clean if you did.”

“Cunt. Yes. You need to fucking prove that to me. If I’m going to convince you to marry me, you’re gonna need to show me that you can treat me better than a common hooker.”

“Wow. Marry you? Your new found confidence is fucking sexy, even if it is fucking impossible. Did you get the same room since you stunk it up with your cigs last time?”

“I did. I also got that fucking bacon.”

“I’d make love to a corpse for that fucking bacon.”

“As long as it's not mine.”

***

As soon as they walked into the room, Liam turned and enthusiastically pushed Justin back against the door. He stood on his toes, leaned in, and pressed his mouth against Justin’s. He pulled back and gazed into Liam’s eyes, they smiled at one another and resumed their kissing. 

Ready to move things to the bed, Justin swooped down, grabbed skinny Liam and carried him over. As he set him down, Justin locked lips with Liam in a hot kiss that had him tingling with desire. Even as things were slowly getting heated, there was an innocence in their actions they hadn’t felt since they were teenagers. It was so intoxicating, Justin found himself floating in their embrace, just holding onto Liam, not letting him down onto the bed. Justin finally caught himself and pulled back, looking down at Liam who was breathing heavily.

"How was that?" Justin asked.

"Fucking spectacular." Liam whispered, shaking his head in amazement, “like, wow, Justin. You took me back to being fucking 17.” Liam really wanted him to repeat that kiss but instead he broke the mood and slipped away from Justin. “I ordered the same set up. Lots of bourbon and extra fucking bacon.” This time there were two jars of this incredible brown sugar bacon that they might have loved more than each other.

“I am not mad about this. That fucking bacon is life.”

Liam handed Justin one of the jars of bacon, “don’t fucking eat a single piece until I am next to you!” he admonished. Justin pretended to cower like a scared child. Liam whipped up a couple of tall Manhattans and brought them to bed. He raised his glass and toasted, “to our fucking future.” They clinked glasses and drank.

“You’re really pushing an agenda here.”

“Yeah, maybe. I still haven’t figured out if you're not going to try to kill me again.” Justin was about to protest, but Liam put his hand up, “or if I’m going to try to kill you.”

“This is going to so fucking weird.” Justin set his drink down and took Liam’s away. Before taking the jar of bacon away, Justin playfully shoved a piece into Liam’s mouth, making him giggle. 

“Gimme my fucking drink,” Liam barked with a mouth full of bacon, still sort of giggling. “I gotta wash down a whole fucking piece of bacon, fucker.” He took a big swig and passed the drink back to Justin. After Liam regained his composure, he turned and stared into Justin’s eyes, brushing his hand on his face. There was a look of lust in Liam's eyes, but he still kept things light hearted. “This is the part where somebody’s dick gets sucked. We both know it isn’t going to be your mutant fucking appendage. So…”

Making sure his point was taken, Liam pulled off his shirt and slipped his pants to the floor, kicking his shoes off in the process. He laid back and put his arms behind his head and gave Justin a seductive smirk.

Justin glared at Liam and eased his head down towards Liam’s throbbing cock. Before he put his mouth on it, he wrapped his hand around the head. His hands were cold and wet from handling the drinks, which made Liam jump. “You are such a cunt.” Justin just laughed.  

Liam was so turned on that precum just oozed from his cock. "You really have a nice dick. It's beautiful,” Justin whispered as he lowered his head down and teased it with a small kiss. He flashed a wily grin before he went down again, giving his cock head another kiss, a little longer this time. Liam breathlessly moaned, quivering at the heat of Justin’s breath as his mouth lingered over his cock. Justin was going to make this experience as loving as possible, just to prove a point. He kissed once more and then let the head disappear into his mouth. Liam moaned, gripping the sheets tightly as he threw his head back.

"Oh, Fuck! Justin! You have never done any fucking thing like this. Fuck me!"

"Be patient. We’ll get there."

With those words, Justin went down again, his eyes never leaving Liam’s until the entire length of his cock was down his throat. Liam fought hard to not blow his load right away. Justin added his hand to the base of his tool, wrapping his fingers around the shaft and mimicking the actions of his mouth.

Slowly, bobbing up and down and darting his tongue all around, Justin gave Liam the best blow job he’d ever given. He took his time making Liam crazy, getting him closer and closer to the edge. "Justin…” he barely said before Liam’s body jerked as his cock spewed ropes of cum into Justin’s hot mouth. With a mouth full of Liam’s seed, Justin leapt up and plunged his tongue and the contents of his mouth into Liam’s. He whimpered as Justin shared his load with him. They continued to make out while Justin shed his clothes. 

Mocking a damsel in distress, Liam threw his arm up over his head, "Oh Justin! Will you make love to me?"

"Liam, my love, yes. Yes, I will make love to you!"

“Good fucking grief. What a stupid phrase. ‘Make love’ ugh. Just fuck me, Justy. Fuck me like you love me.”

"Yes. That was my plan, Lemmy."

Justin parted Liam’s lips with his tongue and resumed the slow, passionate kissing they’d been doing before. He explored Liam’s mouth slowly and lazily, unlike so many times before when they were so heated they tore each other apart. He lifted his head for just a moment, looked into his boy’s eyes and then went back to kissing him. Justin gathered Liam in his arms and cradled him gently. Liam moaned, wrapping his arms around Justin and pulling him closer. When they parted again, they were both breathless, looking at each other with the love they used to years ago.  

Like an explorer looking for gold, Justin’s lips left Liam’s and began moving over his quivering chin, then along the scruffy skin of his throat, pausing, then continued down his chest. Liam let out a long, deep sigh as Justin’s tongue flicked around his nipples. Justin held Liam close, his tongue and teeth plundering both of his nipples, as Liam gasped. Both men were in a total state of bliss.

Liam grinned, lost in a trance and completely under Justin’s spell. Only this time, it was a beautiful, romantic moment and not a rough, painful battering. Justin gently rolled Liam over onto his stomach. He felt that would be an easier way to fuck him without as much pain. No matter how gentle he was, Justin’s huge cock would cause some pain. He grabbed the lube Liam had conveniently left on the top of the headboard.

As Justin let his hands softly graze Liam’s back, Liam closed his eyes, his body trembling as he waited for Justin to enter him. Justin kissed the back of his neck warmly. Liam shivered as he felt his hot breath on his neck, his hot skin against his back.

"Do you want me?" Justin whispered.

"Fuck yes. More than I ever have." Liam whispered back. Justin lubed up his fingers and added a little to Liam’s rim. As Justin slipped one of his thick fingers into Liam’s hole, he gasped loudly, his body vibrating. One finger was joined by a second, then a third and more lube to ease the fourth in. The pain was mild, it was something Liam was ready for. He shivered as Justin applied more lube to his hole.  

Justin’s huge body covered the much smaller body of his lover. He gave Liam a warm embrace as he carefully slid his giant over his hole. Justin’s weight and the head of his cock felt so good, Liam just faintly sighed. Justin shifted his weight and as Liam trembled, he guided himself in, pressing his sphincter open.

“Oh fuck, Justin. It hurts so much.”

“Do you want me to stop?”

“Fuck no! I love the way it hurts.”

The burning sensation was so severe that Liam howled into the pillow, breathless from the daggers of pain overwhelming him. Justin kept easing himself into Liam’s chute. Inch by inch, they both felt an intensity that they had been denying themselves. Justin kissed and licked Liam’s neck, whispering in his ears, “you’re amazing, Liam. You feel so good.” 

“Awwwww, god fucking damn it! This is so fucking excruciating! God, I fucking love it!”

"Tell me how much it hurts."

“It’s fucking agonizing! You’re ripping my fucking hole open. You’re fucking crushing my insides. It FUCKING HURTS!! FUCK YES! IT FUCKING HURTS LIKE HELL!!”

Even though the intention was to be romantic, their fascination with pain still drove their desire. "It hurts, huh." Liam looked over his shoulder at the look on Justin's face and broke out into laughter, nearly pushing his cock out of his ass. After they both chuckled a little more, Liam’s pained look melted into a lusty smile. 

"Just keep pushing and go fucking slow. I want to feel every fucking inch."

Justin nodded as he sank further into Liam’s body, making him shiver and moan, grabbing the sheets, pulling them off the bed. Now more than halfway in, Justin’s girth brought Liam unbelievable pain and undeniable pleasure. It seemed like forever before all 14 inches finally settled into his ass. Justin wrapped his arms around Liam, holding him tightly, their sweaty skin rubbing against each other, Liam grabbing Justin’s arms and pulling them tight. 

More deliberately and focused than he’s ever fucked anyone, Justin worked his cock in and out of Liam’s hole. His time with Calista taught him how to be more gentle. Each stroke made them feel more alive than either of them have in ages. This was just what both of them needed. The more Justin slid in, there was less and less pain. It evolved into a sharp gratification that could not be ignored. Liam gasped at the sheer size of Justin’s cock and how he’d never had it this way, and the completeness of how his being inside him made him feel.

It felt so perfect, that they both knew they could not let each other go again. That feeling overwhelmed Justin as he increased his thrusting just a bit more, causing his own heavy panting and driving the breath from Liam’s lungs. Justin let out a series of grunts as he released a torrent of cum into Liam’s ass. At the same time, Liam was pumping his cum into the bed.

For several minutes, they remained still, Justin’s cock still pulsing in Liam’s hole. 

"I love you." Liam whispered after a few more minutes of silence.

"I love you, too." Justin whispered back, tightening his arms around him. 

***

After their intense love making session, The boys were hungry. They ordered a bunch of food from room service, along with plenty of beer. Like two starved animals, they devoured french dip sandwiches, chicken wings, nachos and fries. And more of that brown sugar bacon they had become obsessed with. They laid there, naked, drinking and talking. Liam was leaning on Justin with his legs crossed in front of him. 

There was no way they were going to avoid the conversation they had any longer. 

“Danny used to tell me that reconnecting with you would be dangerous. He thought it would end badly, that someone would get seriously hurt either physically or emotionally. Danny kept me from trying to reach you. Right about the time I met him is when I started to think about contacting you. I was also trying to push you out of my head. Yeah, that didn’t fucking work. The more I tried, the more you were there. In dreams, passing thoughts, whatever. This is gonna sound fucked up…”

“What about anything we’ve been doing lately hasn’t been a little fucked up.”

“Yeah, true. But this is kinda creepy? Danny had a worthless tiny dick. It might have been four inches if he took too much Viagra. At first I was disappointed, but I was also not interested in being a bottom that much, so whatever. I’d be fucking him and thinking about you. But, that’s not the creepy part. I wanted you to fuck me. I could feel it. I needed it. I needed you to fuck me. So, I bought Danny a harness that you could put a dildo into, basically a strap on. He was so fucking horny all the time, he was really into this idea. I searched high and low until I found a fucking dildo that was as close to your cock as I could. I had him fuck me with that dildo practically daily. Every time. Every fucking time. I dreamt of you. And not just you fucking me.”

“Wow. That’s pretty extra. I don’t know if I should be flattered or disturbed.” Justin put his arm around Liam and pulled him close. “This is how we played video games and watched movies, remember? Naked, or almost naked, lying in my bed. Usually right after I destroyed you.” He kissed Liam’s head. “I don’t think that was creepy. Kinky? Fuck yeah. Creepy? No. I guess you were finally figuring out what you wanted and felt confident enough to get it. I’d say it was progress.”

“I hope you don’t get upset with me, but I’m not going to apologize for what I did to you the night we met again. I really needed to do that. It’s crazy, I know, but fuck it. I needed you to feel that pain. I needed to see that fear in your eyes, to hear you cry, to make you afraid. I don’t hate you like I said. That was just heat of the moment stuff. I had to break you, take you down.” 

“You don’t need to apologize. I was all of those things. I was afraid of how far you were going to go. I was also afraid of what I was feeling. To a point, I liked letting you take me like that. I probably don’t need to get the shit kicked out of me, but I liked aggressive Liam. It’s fucking hot, until you turn into…well, me.” Justin shook his head and sighed again. “I have really hurt so many guys. I know they all didn’t want that. Jack, on the other hand, is a fucking freak and liked getting pummeled.” Liam made an incredulous face. “No, he fucking loved it. I put him in the hospital so many times and he just wanted more. I could go to him right now and we could both beat him to a pulp and he’d thank us. But, I was bad, really bad. I don’t want to do that again, at least not that rough and violent. It’s not easy for me though.”

“I could be wrong, but we have plenty of time to talk about everything. I think we both have gone out of our way to see each other. I want us to do this right, not try to actually hurt one another. I have to be honest, it kinda broke my heart when you said you were in love with Calista. I wanted so much for you to be fucking single so that I could convince you to get back together. Fuck. I want that so much. I knew I should have ignored Danny.”

“You did what was right for your relationship at the time. I don’t know how well I would have reacted even a few years ago. How could you know he’d fly into a fucking wall?”

“Would you? You know, get back together? I mean, if you were available.”

“Liam, I don’t know how to answer that. God damn it, I don’t know if I should. I am so fucking happy to see you. I really am. I shouldn’t tell you this, but I don’t know how much longer things are going to go with Calista. I haven't been going to see her as much as I did. I’m seriously missing something that I don’t get from her. ‘Her,’ that might be part of the problem. There are weeks in between my visits. On this last trip, I didn’t see her at all. We didn’t even talk. I don’t know, it doesn’t seem to bother her. She’s living a whole new life and loving it. She fucking deserves it for what she’s been through, but I wonder if having all of these amazing experiences is…changing things…for us. To be honest, I’m not upset about it. I might be ready to move on. Moving on to you might be too much too soon. Fucking so much bullshit. It was so much easier when I was a fucking loner who didn’t give a fuck about anyone.”

Liam readjusted himself and climbed on top of Justin, straddling him over his waist. He brushed his hands through his hair and then rested them on his shoulders. He took a deep breath and then leaned in even closer. “Justin Kramer. I fucking love you. So. Fucking. God. Damn. Much. I’ve spent all of these years missing you, thinking about you, dreaming about you and now here you are. I’m not going away. I’m not gonna fuck up your relationship. I’m not gonna cause you trouble, but I’m not gonna just give up.”

“I have no idea what to tell you other than I’m still in love with you. I know it now. I knew it when I heard your voice. Fuck, I knew it when I was recalling us to Calista. Fuck everything. This is way to fucking much. Do what you have to. I don’t want to lose you again. I don’t know how, but I want to have you in my life.”

“Maybe this is crazy or fucking…whatever. We were meant for each other. Have you ever heard about two people who are, like, bonded? More than soulmates, more than lovers. Two people who absolutely have to be together, who are inseparable. There’s like some cosmic thing that holds them together. I think that’s us. Why else would we be here right now? Why else would we still have each other on our minds all these years? Why else would that last fuck be so absolutely fucking earth moving? Do you have any idea what I’m talking about?”

Listening to Liam describe this ideal relationship between two people who belong together, who were made for each other, gave Justin chills. He knew exactly what he was talking about and knew it was a reality. It was Jack and Harrison. This was too much for Justin. He thought he was committed to Calista. He thought he’d never see Liam again. Now it was all upside down. He never bothered with emotions and now he was drowning in them. 

It was getting late. Between all the alcohol they’d had all night, the amazing sex they had and this incredibly intense conversation, Justin needed a break.

“Liam, I can’t anymore. I need to sleep. I need to just shut everything off and try to fucking process all of this. We have plowed through a whole fucking lot tonight. Can we just forget everything for now? I just want to go take a really intimate shower with you, come back to bed and make out. Tonight was the most intense, amazing sex I’ve ever had. That means something. We fucked like people who don’t hate each other. Wow, we can do that?”

“I really like fucking you, Justy. And holy fucking shit, no one has ever rocked my fucking world like you did tonight. Maybe this Hallmark scenario involves us living like a real couple.”

“It involves anything and everything that you want that doesn’t hurt, Lemmy.”

“Oh come on, you know we still want to hurt each other. Maybe just a little more, uh, civilized?”

“Ha! Nothing about us is civilized.”