Sissy Hypno Vids ... how I've changed

This is a true story.  It's a story told to me by a very close friend of mine.  I've known since childhood.  

I've always been curious about sex.  Snuck out to look at my brothers porn magazines when I was younger.  Hid them in places that I thought no one would find.  I was fascinated by women.  What they looked like.  How they dressed.  

I loved feeling the silky panties and nylons.  One day when my mom was gone I was digging around in her dresser drawers.  Feeling her slips and other underwear.  I don't know why I ended up trying on a slip.  

The silky feeling felt awesome against my skin.  So I ended up putting on some nylon hosiery.  I felt something feminine inside.  I liked the feeling.  The way it pressed my cock as I had tucked it down and back almost to my ass cheeks.  Almost like it wasn't there.  But those feelings would subside and go away.  Only getting curious enough to act on dressing up about once or twice a year.  

Then I went through several years that I wouldn't even think about it at all.  Porn was still around.  Once in a while I'd find a magazine or something.  But I wouldn't ever buy one.  One day I saw a picture in a porn magazine (realize that these were the days before the internet where it's EVERYWHERE).  

It was a woman on her back with long slender legs.  She was wearing thigh high stockings and high heels.  Her legs were tucked up next to her sides and her hand were reaching down to squeeze the ass of a man on top of her.  She had a look on her face of such ecstasy.  It fascinated me.  To the point that I almost came just looking at it.   I hid that month of Playboy away in my secret spot.  Looking at that picture a lot.  

One day I was able to steal some old hosiery from the trash.  It only had one run in it and otherwise was perfect.  I loved the way it fit really tight on me and kept my cock really tucked up nice and tight.  I wore them under my jeans for a couple of days.  One day almost all day walking around and trying to feel what it would be like to be a girl.  That night I went to bed with them on.  

As I laid down I pulled my legs up like the woman in the photo.  I laid my big pillow on top of me like it was the man.  What happened next took me by complete surprise.  I didn't realize how horny I had made myself all day by wearing the nylons.  

Apparently it had me in a really aroused state that I didn't know since my cock was so tightly put away.  As soon as the pillow landed on top of me and I felt it pressing down on where my cock should have been I came.  I came hard.  So hard I could barely catch my breath.  I felt cum dripping down between my legs and into the crack of my ass.  Then down across my ass hole.  

Oozing everywhere down there.  It was such an awesome feeling and one that I will NEVER forget.  Anyway, those days "came" and went.  I tucked the fantasy away (like my cock) for many years.  When the internet was in full swing I started watching more porn again.  You know, the regular stuff.  

Pretty straight stuff, BUT I had a little fetish for bondage.  So I watched some of that as well.  Much of the bondage that I was watching had to do with men being tied up.  Since that's what I wanted to experience.  

However I noticed that many of them would have dildos up their asses.  Some had butt plugs, but most would at some point have something up their ass.  I remember the first day I tried that.  I used a broom stick with a rounded end.  I was kind of getting into self bondage anyway, so one night I tried tying myself onto a chair and pushing my ass back onto a home made "dildo" that I had fixed to the chair.  It worked.  With LOTS of grease and some slow going it slipped right in and I tied myself down nice and tight.  

When I couldn't take it anymore I got my hand free and jerked myself off.  OH MY!  That was intense.  And it reminded me of the intense orgasm I had when I was wearing those panty hose.  I experimented with this for a while. About once a month or so I'd be horny as hell and I'd do something to work it up again.  

I ended up getting more and more advanced with my bondage.  I figured out better ways to tie myself up to a bed.  I would tie my "dildo" to the headboard and tie up my legs and body nice and tight.  Then I would use ratchet straps to pull myself back (doggy style) up to the waiting "cock".  

At the time, I didn't think of it as a cock.  It was just a stick I was using to make my orgasm more intense.  The thought of submission or being "fucked" wasn't even in my brain at all.  I had no thoughts or desires to be with a man at all.  Fast forward to a number of years later.  

I went through a long season of not doing any bondage or anything for a long time.  I had a smoking hot girlfriend and she satisfied everything I could imagine with regard to sexual satisfaction.  The only thing that made me a little curious was how she actually felt when I was pounding her pussy and making her scream my name.  

She was so beautiful while we were fucking, and she seemed to enjoy it even more than I did.  Made me curious a little.  During that time I think I even let some guy suck my cock off.  Just because I was away from her for a while and he was willing do do it with no recip.   

Well then one day I stumbled onto some hypno vids on YouTube.  Innocent enough.  They were just relaxation vids.  Some of them had some "hands free" promise of masturbation that never really worked.  But that didn't stop me for looking for some that might.  

I was kind of getting to enjoy the hypno feeling.  And little did I know that some of the background suggestions were leading down a different path all together.  I started listening more and more to sissy hypno porn.  Then seeking it out.  Then watching it almost exclusively.  

During this time I started picking up the dress up play again.  I started watching more and more on a regular basis.  And dressing from time to time.  It would usually be waves of wanting to do it. Then it would go away and I'd have it out of my mind for a while.  But then I ran across some very powerful hypno vids.  

It seemed that there were some new ones coming out that were much more powerful and better done.  I started watching them almost every day.  My curiosity grew.  My desire to suck a cock became real.  I started posting on Craigs list.  Putting pictures of myself dressed up as a CD sissy.  

I got lots of offers.  But never had the courage to act on it.  I kept watching the vids.  One night I actually even dressed up and drove around in my car.  Parked at a Walmart for an hour and watched people.  It was hot.  I felt so sexy.  Finally after all the on and off interest.  Something snapped inside me.  

I don't know if it's the influence of the hypno vids or if it was just the desires that finally were accepted by me.  I've actually gotten to the point that I put some of them on loop and listen with earphones all night long.  But none the less, I'm so obsessed with cock now that I can hardly think of anything else.  

I mean, you need to understand.  I DON'T WANT to think of anything else.  I want cock.  I'm so hungry for cock.  I NEED IT. I WANT IT.  It's truly an obsession.  I mean ... I'm almost scared for the man that I get to suck for the first time.  I have a feeling that once I have a real cock in my mouth I may never let it go. 

 I have several dildos now. REAL dildos.  Not as good as the real thing I"m sure, but much better than anything I've ever had so far.  I LOVE having a cock in my mouth and one in my ass.  I've worked hard to get rid of my gag reflex.  In fact gagging actually makes me almost cum.  I love it in my throat.  It's like a better feeling than stroking my little clitty.  So I write all of this for this one reason.  

If you're "playing" with those hypno vids, be careful.  There is a point of no return.  I don't think anyone could talk me out of going back.  I want cock.  Period.  I won't stop until I have cock in my mouth and my ass.  I know it is probably insane.  

But I'm at a point I don't care.  My desire to have a cock is greater than food or water now.  Cum dripping down my throat and on my face ... down my chin ... OMG ... I'm so horny right now just writing this.  I can hardly contain myself.   So all that said.  I should go now.  

I need to suck my dildos for a while and watch some porn.  I'm wearing lipstick right now and wearing some sexy clothes.  Wish I could be tied up and fucked really good right now.  Oh my.  YES.