Personal Experience

Happened years ago. Names have been changed.

I planned my Grindr hookup with two fwb I saw often. Everything was the same as always, smoked a little, skinny dipped in the hot tub, and then made our way to the bedroom. I'm your typical bottom twink twig. Mike was a big brute top with a thick dick. I enjoyed his company but had never taken him anally. His girth was way too big (dick pic below) I'd try, but I would stop when it hurt. However, a little pain is nice. Alex is your average guy with an average dick. Vers. I had told them once before months ago of my fantasies about being forced, used, abused, and possible rape fantasy, though the practicality always scared me.

We spent a good amount of time making out, playing with each other. When I gave Mike head, Alex would be behind me fucking me, he wasn't the best top. They toss me around and Alex starts to give me head while Mike is behind me, as always, trying to get it in without hurting me. It becomes too much and I stop him.

Now I'm giving head to Alex while he lays back. Mike is behind me fingering me. He's really going to town, stretching my hole trying his hardest to gape me. Next thing I know, he's positioned himself behind me.

(For context Alex sitting with his back against the headboard. I'm in doggy with my hands pinned under his thighs gripping them, Mike's on his knees behind me)

Alex quickly pulls me down on his cock. His eyes roll back with his head while both hands firmly clamp down my head on his dick. He's not looking at me. My nose is smashed in his pubes and throat full of cock. I couldn't speak, only moan and mumble. Mike takes this opportunity to shove, hard. He's pushing his fat dick and stretches out my hole. It hurt like a bitch. I squeeze Alex's thighs hard, I was in pain and moaning loudly. He lifts his hands but it was too late, Mike was already able to get fully inside of me.

I always wanted to be fucked by Mike, but I never thought I could. I felt light headed. The pain, my high, and lack of air got to me. Mike starts fucking me hard. All the while I'm having an internal debate. "Tell him to stop! But isn't this what you've always wanted? To be nothing but a hole for big rough guys to use to get off? But it hurts. Sex always hurts for you, just take it. This is your ultimate fantasy. It's finally happening!" I struggle, because that's always been a part of my fantasy, but I never explicitly say no or stop. I let them continue to have their way with me. (Being my fwbs for a while, they already know I like to be pinned and struggle underneath their weight. We did it every time)

I'm flipped onto my back (missionary) and Mike grabs my thighs and fucks me even harder. Alex just watches masturbating for now.

Mike wraps his strong arms around me and rolls on to his back. I'm on laying on top of him. I'm lightheaded and laying on his with no energy left in my body. He's grabs my head and starts ferociously kissing me while he continues to pound me. I feel a sharp pain. And pull off his mouth and yelp. My hole was stinging. He wrapped me in my arms tightly and holds me down. Alex says, "my what a slut taking two cocks" at first I was confused, I wasn't getting spit roasted. Then I said "no, no I can't be double penetrated. I can barely handle Mike's cock." He just leans down and say "you already are, I'm already inside you. You've got two big dicks fucking your tight little hole. Give my your hand I'll let you feel" he was right. I was already being fucked by two cocks and I was horrified, but it fit my fantasy. How the hell did both of them fit? They both continued to fuck me. It didn't take long for them to get off. I came just from being fucked.

I left. I loved it. Being completely used by these men for their pleasure. I lived my fantasy, I got what I asked for. I never told them to stop, but was conflicted internally, scared even. Almost as if I was helpless to fight the invasion. But, I truly had fun. I bled the next day, that's what frightened me more than anything so I never spoke to either of them ever again. That was my decision. I still fantasize about it all the time.