Our system failed

Riley shut the door. I was still half asleep and pretty stunned I had never looked at Brendon that way before yeah I had seen him a few times and all of him once this afternoon when I caught them but I was paying to much attention to Riley and how I wanted to be the one he was kneeling in front of. I closed my eyes and the image came flooding back only this time I was looking at Brandon his physique was stunning like he had been carved out of some ancient Greek marble his smooth muscular body and tight well defined abs would make the straightest of men lust if only for a second. I was getting lost in my dream when I felt pressure on my lips.Riley was starting to kiss me. I opened my eyes to find Riley in front of me full on naked and all my thoughts turned to the god stood in front of me.

We kissed softly at first I didn't push wanting to enjoy the moment I put my hands on his biceps and started to explore his body. His smell was intoxicating not sweaty or overpowering with aftershave but I could smell it had been on him for a while. We were kissing pretty heavy now and I got lost in the moment I had wanted this for so long needless to say my cock at this point was so hard and wanted to  to join the fun. We broke from kissing and Riley said "shall we pick up where we left off this afternoon?" I looked at the man of my dreams then looked at his throbbing cock I was about to take hold of it as I reached over Riley swatted my hand away "oh no you don't not yet." I looked at him confused but only for a second "this is your dream your fantasy your answers so just let me show you." He fell on my knees pushing me so I was on my back laying on my bed with my legs over the edge my cock leaking pre cum like some one had turned a tap on. I felt his breath on my glistening head hot at first then cooling cause of the liquid erupting from my slit. I knew it wasn't going to be long before he made contact I took a deep breath and closed my eyes tight another image of Brandon's statue like body filled my head I was confused until my whole body froze and a million jolts of electricity filled me I did well to fight off blowing my load there and then as Riley slid his mouth over the end of my cock and started working my head with his tounge.

Some kind of animal instinct took over and before Riley settled into a rhythm I pushed him off still out of my mind being touched by another in this way. Riley looked stunned and was about to say something when I picked up my legs and screamed at him "give me my answers you fucking god." Riley just looked dumfounded "FUCK ME." I screamed "FUCK ME FUCK ME." A massive grin appeared on his face he moved forward and put his hands on the back of my knees and pushed my legs further up exspossing my cherry for him to pop. He moved his head upto my hole and gently blew on it. His breath was gentle however the effect on my body was not I shivered as my body went into uncontrollable spasm."stop fucking around I want you in me." I screamed but it had no effect he was going to take as much time as he wanted. I thought I was going to die when his tounge gently brushed my opening my heart was jumping out my chest I was breathing heavy as he slid his tounge in my I gave out a massive moan arching my back and squeezing my eyes closed tight. Brandon flashed in my head again only this time his face was all red and blotchy like he had been crying. I was conflicted the guy I have dream of almost every night since we fist met the guy I want to fuck my brains out was working his tounge in my ass getting ready to just as I want and I can't get his best mate out my head. Had I fallen for Brandon I thought but I want Riley so much and I am about to get my prize. My body tensed as I felt his wet finger go through my hole and make contact deep in me. "Fuck me stupid you fucking stud." I screamed pretty sure anyone awake in our dorm could hear maybe even waking a few up but I didn't care I just needs Riley in me. He stood up and drizzled some spit from his mouth on my exposed hole moved his cock over and started rubbing his spilt with the tip of his cock on my hole.

This sent my head spinning and my body was taken over by orgasmic shivers I gabbed my covers tight and arched up again squeezing my eyes shut and again Brandon appeared this time looking sad and shacking his head and I couldn't ignore any more I screamed "STOP." Just as I am sure Riley was about to enter me. Looking stunned he stepped back a little I looked at him the confused look sent me over the edge. "What is it?" He asked I didn't answer he moved forward but I put my hand up.

"What the fuck is wrong?"

I wanted the ground to open and swallow my up ii felt my self burning and guilty that I had brought the man of my dreams close twice now and couldn't go through with it.

"Cole what the fuck is wrong?" Riley snapped the fact he used my name snapped me back to reality he never uses my name.

" I I I cccccan't" I stammered

"Why? I thought this was what you want?"

"More than anything I do."

"Then lay back and enjoy."

"I can't." I replied

"Why the fuck not." Riley asked looking disappointed and deflated.

I needed escape my face was burning I started looking around anywhere but at Riley's sad face I could feel my emotions building up I just wanted to jump up and run away as fast as I could. I couldn't find the words.

"Cole talk to me please. You gone off the idea of guys?"

"No" I replied

"Is it me then you gone off me?" A tear appeared in the corner of his eye

"No I fucking love you." The words came out before I knew what I was saying a stunned look appeared on Riley's face. Now I really wanted out of there.

"Yyyyyyou what? Llllllove me?" Riley gulped

"Yes." I said lowering my head not wanting to look at him

"Then why can't I fuck you?"

"Cause." I said

"Cause what?" He asked

I said nothing Riley stepped forward "cause what Cole?" He asked in a stern voice it was now too much for me and I snapped

"Cause I love you I want you so bad but I can't get Brandon out my fucking head and I am so confused."

Riley took a step back stunned I took my chance jumped to my get and bolted out the door and down the corridor out the fire door to the bottom of the fire escape punting heavy not sure if anyone else seen my it wasn't until I sat on the bottom step and the cold metal touched my ass I realize I was still naked and hard.