My Locktober Journal

I do plenty of chastity in real life, which is why I love putting it in my stories that I post here as well. I have never been able to complete a full month with my dick locked away, but I am going to participate in Locktober this year and try to reach that goal: staying locked from October 1st through the 31st. I’m planning on keeping a regular, maybe daily, journal to tell you about my experience as I go through it. Then at the end of the month I will post it all. I assume it will end up being part-tutorial on the logistics of it all, and part explaining the headspace of a pent-up, horny sub. I don’t know how much interest there will be, but I hope it’s at least slightly interesting to some of you… Wish me luck, I have a long month ahead of me!

Day 0 (Friday, Sept. 30): I locked up this evening so that I would be ready by the time midnight rolled around. My cage is from Kink3D: black plastic with an open, airy design. It is by far the most comfortable cage I’ve tried. They’re expensive, but I highly recommend it if you are looking for a good, quality cage for long-term lockups. I oiled up my dick and balls and put them through the ring. I was already chubbing from the excitement. I had to wait to put the shaft part of the cage on, so I brushed my teeth while I let my dick go flaccid. Once I finished locking, I gave both of the keys to my boyfriend, who guards them for me. My last orgasm was this morning, a blowjob from him. I plan to not have another one for the next 31 days. I use a website called Chaster to track my lockups, so I set a timer on there and hit start. It has officially begun!

Day 1: The first night is always the hardest. Your dick is not used to being restricted, and nighttime erections wake you up very easily. Eventually my body will adjust and not wake me up from getting hard overnight, so I can sleep through the night no problem, but I woke up six or seven times last night. My day was pretty easy, though. I did get a little horny posting on Twitter and seeing other subs locked up like me, but I don't feel desperately horny at all yet. I know that will set in within the next few days…

Day 2: Sundays are my chore days, and I started with the grocery run. I love wearing my cage out in public. It's like my little kinky secret that none of the strangers around me know about. When I got home, I did some laundry and cleaned the house. My boyfriend had me put on some skimpy shorts to do this in, so he could watch my ass as I worked. Tonight after dinner, I gave him a sloppy blowjob to keep him satisfied after he spent all day getting worked up. My dick was erect and straining in my cage by the time I was swallowing his load, but there won't be any relief for me in a while.

Day 3: I slept soundly last night and when I woke up, my morning wood was pretty weak. It seems like my body is already adjusting to the cage and understanding that my dick is powerless now. Today was my first day of the lockup that I have to work. I’m lucky enough to get to work from home full-time, so I spent my day in my home office. I didn’t have to fight any urges to sext, watch porn, or read/write smut during my workday. I know that later in the lockup this urge will become much stronger, though. I wonder what my boss would think if he knew his employee had a little locked up dick…

Day 4: This evening, I did my first cleaning session. My cage has decently sized openings, so normal, locked showers are pretty effective, but I still feel the need to remove it every few days for a deep clean. My boyfriend gives me a key and twenty minutes to shower and relock. If I take too long, he will add time to my sentence and I’ll have to stay locked into November. I don’t know what my punishment would be if I jerked off and orgasmed while I was in there, and I’ve never really wanted to find out. I do get hard in the shower, as my dick enjoys its brief freedom, but I touch myself as little as possible to prevent myself from being too tempted. Once I’m out of the shower, I pat the area dry and then rub a liberal amount of coconut oil on myself and the cage, to keep my skin moisturized. I slip the ring back on, and then the shaft piece. Once I turn the key, I’m back to being a good, locked fag. I present my locked nub to my boyfriend immediately, who tells me that I completed my cleaning with seven minutes to spare.

Day 5: This evening, my boyfriend had an event, and I was left home alone and horny as hell. I decided to take a long, steamy shower and use some toys on myself in there. I used my normal dildo, but quickly got more greedy and horny. I hopped out of the shower and grabbed my big boy: an eight-inch long, nine-inch around dick from Hankey’s Toys. I lubed up the behemoth and worked it into my greedy hole until it was planted firmly in me to the balls. I was fully erect in my cage at this point, and my balls were being tugged hard by the cage. I bounced on the cock a few times, slowly working my guts, and I felt the prostate orgasm welling up inside me. I remained still as a small amount of cum dribbled out of my nub and onto the shower floor. I wanted a more satisfying orgasm, so I continued riding my toy trying to get a full anal orgasm. I was not successful, though, and my hole quickly got worn out, meaning I had to quit. I’ll definitely be trying again soon though.

Day 6: I have been working on my writing most evenings this week, and I definitely feel more motivated now that I am constantly horny and unable to abandon my writing and just jerk off instead. I have written about half of the next chapter of Coercive Control, but my problem is that I have too many horny ideas all at once, and I keep starting new stories instead of buckling down and finishing CC. I currently have six short story works in progress, and one lengthy story that I plan to turn into another long saga. I’m going to try to put them all back on the back burner and finish CC before publishing anything else. 

Day 7: I had a pretty busy day at work, so I was distracted from my cage and horniness. After work, my boyfriend and I went out for dinner and drinks with a few friends. I decided to wear jeans, which sometimes have a tendency to pinch on the cage. I’ve had pretty painful evenings in the past from it. I had no issues tonight, though, so I was pretty happy about that.

Day 8: This afternoon, I mowed the lawn. I was nervous about the cage since I would be getting sweaty and walking so much. I didn’t want the cage to slip off or pull on my nuts funny. Surprisingly, I had no issues and didn’t even think about the cage while I was out there. It really has become so comfortable during the day that I forget I’m wearing it. That is, until I get horny and it yanks on my nuts as I swell up in it…

Day 9: My boyfriend and I were both very horny this evening. We began fooling around and I started working his cock. We got on Grindr and chatted with a few guys. My boyfriend found one who was super sexy and very interested in couples so we sexted with him for a while. He’s very fit and hung, and his pics made me so eager and horny. We’re planning on having a threesome at some point, but we’ll see if he ends up flaking… I spent over an hour edging and sucking my boyfriend’s cock until he turned me around so he could spray his massive load all over my ass. He fell asleep shortly after, and I stayed awake, incredibly horny and frustrated that I couldn’t get any release.

Day 15: Well, it’s been a few days… Hey, I never promised I would be on top of this thing daily. There has not been much to report this week. I was pretty busy with work, but my boyfriend and I still managed to have sex almost every evening. Most nights I have just been sucking him off before bed, but he has fucked me a few times throughout the lockup as well. I have definitely gotten over the initial hump of horniness and have settled into my chastity sentence. We have still been chatting with the stud on Grindr, and we are going to hook up with him tomorrow, so that should be fun! I spent this evening sexting him and it got me very riled up and anxious for tomorrow’s hookup.

Day 16: The hookup went really well and we all enjoyed ourselves. I stayed locked the whole time, which I was proud of. Sometimes when I get too worked up while playing, my erection cuts off circulation to my balls and I need to take a break or remove the cage until my hard-on goes away, but I did not need to do that today. My boyfriend dressed me in a jockstrap and restrained me face down to the bed before our buddy joined us. The two of them teased my body and kissed me a little, before exploring each others’ bodies. I laid there, unable to move or see the action. Instead, I listened and felt their bodies on my legs as my boyfriend sucked the guy off and then bottomed for him. It lasted just long enough to get me horny and frustrated, as well as leaking through my jockstrap pouch. They then moved their attention to me, and my boyfriend sat at my face, allowing me to blow his fat cock. The grindr guy took his place at my ass, and I was finally getting what I had been begging for, for so long. His fat cock pressed into me and I opened up, allowing him to pound me rough. He took forever to cum, but it was worth it, as his load was massive inside me. Once he pulled out, I dove onto his cock to suck the coating of cum and lube off it. He dove into my ass and ate my hole until he had taken his load back out of me and swallowed it. I wish he had kept it in his mouth and fed it to me, but he told me ‘maybe next time’. All in all, an incredibly sexy and successful first meeting. We will definitely be playing with him in the future.

Day 17: My previous longest lockup time was 17 days, so I am proud of myself for meeting and passing this milestone. I will definitely be happy with myself no matter the outcome of my lockup after this point. I obviously still want to do the full month, but if I fail for some reason, I will still consider this lockup a success. I try to always improve with each lockup I go through. I guess that means my next lock up will have to be longer than 31 days if I make it to the end of this.

Day 18:The other day, after our threesome, the boys each took one of my chastity keys and hid them around the house. I was told to stay in the bedroom and listened as they wandered around the kitchen and living room before going downstairs for a while. They each placed their key somewhere around the house, and if I want to be unlocked on November 1st, as originally planned, I will need to find both of them before the end of the month.  I have been too preoccupied with work the past couple days to look for them, but I suspect that I will not have much trouble finding them. 

Day 19: I spent my lunch break going through the house and checking typical hiding spots for my keys. I started in the kitchen, as it seemed like the area with the most nooks and crannies to stick something small. After opening up all the cabinets and drawers, though, I still haven't found either key. I went around the rest of the upstairs, opening up drawers and looking under furniture cushions. I expected to find at least one of them, but I was unlucky. When my boyfriend got home from work, I told him about my search and tried to get him to give me a hint. All he told me was that I’d better keep looking or Locktober will turn into No Nut November. I told him that he likes bottoming for me too much to let me stay locked and he told me that we have plenty of sex toys to keep himself happy while I stay locked. 

Day 20: I finally found my first key! As I began searching throughout the lower level of our house, I checked the most obvious places first. Then, I started looking in the sneakier, more discreet places. We have a little ceramic jar full of a postcard collection, and the key had been hidden at the bottom of the pile. I showed off my find to both of my keyholders, and the grindr guy was mad at himself that he hadn’t hidden it better. My boyfriend said his key will definitely be harder to find…

Day 25: The time is really flying by at this point. I have been so busy between work and spending time with friends that I haven’t even been thinking much about the chastity. My sex drive has definitely gone down as well, which I assume is my body coming to terms with the lack of orgasms and adjusting. Over three weeks with no cumshot, and I expected myself to be super horny, but I really am not. I’m disappointed that I have not been writing as much smut either. I thought I would be so horny and frustrated that I would grind through a bunch of Coercive Control and have time to write some Halloween-themed stuff to publish before the end of the month. I don’t think that’s going to happen, though. I’ll have lots of ideas for next year, I guess.

Day 28: We are throwing a Halloween party tomorrow and as we got the house ready, I took the time to look around some more for my remaining hidden key. I had looked around a bit the past few days with no luck, but I finally found it! We have a glass jar full of playing card decks, and my boyfriend had hid the key in one of the deck sleeves. I had looked in the jar, but not closely enough at the decks until this evening.

Day 29: I went as Donnie Darko for our party tonight: the Halloween party scene when he’s in that spandex skeleton costume. The one I ordered online turned out to be a bit too small, and my caged dick and ass looked hilariously exposed in it. I had to wear a pair of shorts over it or else everyone would have seen everything!

Day 31: Happy Halloween, and happy end of locktober! My buddy teased that he was going to force me to do No Nut November as well, but my boyfriend is pretty desperate for me to top him at this point, so he isn’t going to let that happen. I’m happy to be unlocked, but also proud to have finished strong and accomplished my first Locktober. I can’t wait for the cumshot tomorrow!

November 1st: I woke up early this morning and started teasing my boyfriend to wake him up. I was hoping to get unlocked and shoot our loads before he had to go into the office, but he stopped me and told me that I would have to wait for tonight. It was an agonizing long day, and work seemed to drag on forever. During my afternoon slump, I sexted my man a little, but he was too busy to reply, which just made me even more frustrated. Finally, after dinner, he was done teasing me and gave me the key to unlock myself. We proceeded to have the roughest, most primal sex we’ve ever had: I topped him raw and rough. Both of us were so desperate for it. I needed to feel his hole on my cock and he needed to get plowed good and hard. I lasted as long as I could, which was nowhere near as long as I wanted. I shot my load deep inside his cunt, breeding him with my month’s-worth of seed.

All in all, it was a really good month, and I am really happy that I have completed it, but am also happy to be taking a break from the chastity for a while. I might do another round of it as a New Year’s situation, but we will see…