My Hidden Desire

Hi everyone, I have submitted an old story, making some modifications and it is one of my favorites.  I have also added a pic of Grayson and Seth in the comment section.  Hope you enjoy this story as much as I did writing it.

I guess you could say I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth.  My Dad is an attorney, owner of a prestigious law firm.  Growing up my Dad was extremely strict, I always had to out perform in everything I did whether is was school, sports, even the girls I dated, he would always have to have the upper hand....they had to be beautiful, smart, from an upper class family. I graduated high school with a 3.9 GPA, then left for college to study law.

I graduated law school then went on to the pass the bar, beginning to take my place at the firm. I knew at an early age that I was gay, but I was so repressed in the closet with fear of my Father realizing my life style. Looking back on my life I guess I just did whatever he said, never questioning him, but in the midst of all that somehow I lost myself. I had everything, money, clothes, a hot sports car, but all the luxuries didn't change how I felt.

My name is Grayson Hamilton, I'm 27 years old, tall, dark hair, blue eyes, also a body that I'm proud of from my regular workouts at the gym. I understood my sexuality at an early age, but I didn't experience my first sexual encounter until I was eighteen. Later in years, I would drive out of town to visit gay bars, engaging in sex, but after I would always feel guilty then empty.

I had been working at the firm for a year with the work load increasing. The firm was growing exponentially with seven attorneys with two more being added. My Father called me to his office: "Grayson I'd like you to meet Logan Parker, Logan this is my son Grayson, he will be handling civil litigation, also family law." "Give Logan a tour, introducing him to his paralegal and the rest of the staff. He will be in the vacant office adjoining yours. I did as instructed, then got him settled in his office, going over the clients he would be following up on. I couldn't help notice how hot he was, tall, dark complexion, hazel eyes, great body but he also had a great personality, very outgoing and friendly.

A few days later, he asked me if I would like to go for a drink. "Sure, I'd love to" We headed to the Pub where most attorneys congregated, sat at the bar ordering two beers. Our conversation flowed as if he had known me for a long period of time. "Grayson, are you married or dating anyone?" "No to both questions, how about you?" I don't do much dating, but I see a lot of girls mainly just to fuck them, I don't mean to be crude but I have an extremely high sexual appetite." "How about you?" " I'm so consumed with the firm that I have no time for dating, but my hand is my best friend." We both laughed continuing our conversation.

Logan and I became friends, occasionally going for a run, or going to a sports event. He became an asset to the firm handling much more than what was expected of him. Logan was in my office when my Father called: "I've got to go see what he wants." I walked into his office as he said: "Grayson I want you to meet Seth Thomas, he will be the new Bankrupcy attorney....Alex Smith will be working with Seth until he leaves in three weeks." "Seth this is my son Grayson, any concerns you may have you can address to him." With that we left as I escorted him to meet his paralegal also the rest of the staff much as I did with Logan. Now I had two new attorneys one on either side of me.  Seth was hot, tall, blond hair, perfect blue eyes the color of the sky on a sunny day, also a body that deserved to be on the cover of "Men's Health Magazine".

Almost a month passed as they fit in really well at the firm. "Seth popped in asking if I wanted to go to the Pub for a few beers, which I readily agreed. Logan had a client in his office, so we just left. We had quite a few beers when Seth said: "Shit, it didn't even occur to me that I have twenty five miles to drive home." "Why don't you just stay at my place tonight." "Are you sure its not an imposition." "Of course not, in fact I'll enjoy the company." "Let's head out I only live a mile from here, we can order a pizza and chill out." With that we left heading to my apartment.

We walked in, I got us each a beer, ordered the pizza then told Seth that I always take a shower before bed, if he wanted to take one he was welcome to. He said that would be great so I gave him a pair of sweats and a T-shirt showing him where the bathroom was. I leaned against the kitchen counter thinking....he's so hot and I have to ask him to sleep with me. He didn't take long, then I popped into the shower, letting the water cascade over my body taking the stress of the day away. I was feeling pretty buzzed from all the beer. I came out of the bathroom just as the doorbell rang, the pizza had arrived.

We ate, drinking our beer along with good conversation. I said: "Look you can sleep here on the sofa which I don't think will be very comfortable or you can sleep with me, I have a king bed." He looked at me concerned then said: "Okay since its a king bed I'll sleep with you even though its pretty weird."

As much as I wanted Seth, I wouldn't let that happen out of fear. We awakened the next morning as I said: "Well it looks like we made it." "What do you mean" "Well, I didn't attack that hot body of yours." He just looked at me, as I grabbed him, wrestling for fun." "Okay hot shot, lets take showers and get our butts to work." He had a smile on his face, an innocence that rocked me. It was comforting to have someone with me, something that I longed for. I wanted a life partner, but I believed that would never come to be.

Seth popped into my office standing in the doorway: "Hey, what are you doing Saturday?" "I have nothing planned, why?" "I was wondering if you would like to go for a run....I could bring a change of clothes, then I'd like to take you to dinner, there is a great Italian restaurant about fifteen miles from here." "Yes, that sounds fantastic, come to my apartment in the morning, about ten, we can get our run in, then we can come back to the apartment, shower, lounge around, then get ready for dinner." "I'm there" He left my office....I was mesmerized when he was standing at the doorway of my office, his tall stature, his beautiful face, the piercing blue eyes, suddenly I was hard. Wow, he is getting to me.

Saturday arrived with my doorbell ringing....I opened the door to Seth standing there in his very brief running shorts with no shirt on. A light dusting of hair on his chest, his amazing pecs had me speechless. "Come in, just through your bag in my bedroom." "Let's head out, I'm ready for a great run." We did a five mile run which invigorated both of us. As we walked into the house, sweat pouring off our bodies: "Let's get in the shower, do you mind showering with me....my walk in shower in the master bath is huge?" "Okay, let's do it" We stripped our shorts, walking into the shower. "This shower is incredible, with multiple shower heads." "Yeah,  I had it especially designed." "Let me wash your back for you." I took the loofah sponge slowly washing his back. I became semi hard, as Seth turned around, our bodies almost touching, I could smell his sweet breath. I took my hand touching the side of his face as he leaned into my hand. I moved closer, our lips almost touching, then they met, our bodies touched skin on skin and fireworks went off. The kiss became titillating as our mouths opened accepting our tongues. At this point we both had full on erections. I reached down taken his cock in my hand, its length and girth was impressive. I looked at him and said: "Nice" He did the same to me saying: "Ditto".

I looked at him, all I said was: "Bedroom" We got out of the shower, toweled off, never taking our eyes off each other. We went into the bedroom, I took his hand as we laid on the bed. Our kisses were hot, passionate, our bodies melted together. Our foreplay continued until I began kissing his body from his neck to his nipples, down his stomach, his hard abs, down to his balls, taking each egg in my mouth, gently working them as he gasped at my touch.  I went from his balls, sliding my tongue along his perineum methodically using my tongue as he moaned with salacious desire, whispering my name.  I continued my craving for his huge balls, then took his mushroom head into my mouth, licking around its girth as large drops of pre-cum came spewing out of his slit. Eagerly I sucked every drop, continuing as more came gushing out. I was in heaven as he said: "Oh fuck Grayson, yes, mmmm." I then began a sexual journey taking his cock inch by inch into my throat. My own cock was dripping pre-cum like an open faucet. I continued my worship of his cock, loving his smoothness and texture. Suddenly he said: "Please stop" "What's wrong?" "I'm going to cum if you don't stop." I pulled off his cock as he reached down taking me....a man full of desire. He worked my cock like a pro sending waves of pleasure through my body, massaging my balls. He gagged a few times with the size of my manhood, but continued till he had all of me in his throat.

We got in a 69 position, swallowing our totally engorged cock's, he placed his hands on my ass pushing my length deeper into his throat, I followed his manover. All you could hear was mm, mm, mm, as we both reached our limit, I felt my cum churning in my balls as it shot its way through my cock, exploding in his mouth, as I also felt his cum shoot into mine at perfectly the same time. We sucked each other with all that cum in our mouths, then swallowing the sweet nectar, then kissed sharing the remnants of cum still in our mouths.  We laid back, our eyes locked, our hands touched: "Seth, that was incredible, I've never experienced anything that intense." "Me too" We fell asleep, our arms wrapped around each other.

The next day, Logan came in my office asking what I was up to. I said that Seth and I were hanging out going to the gym, also getting in some running. "How are you doing Logan?" "Well, you know me I'm not the relationship kind of guy, but I met this girl, been seeing quite a bit of her." "I'ts about time to commit yourself to someone.""Hold it Grayson, I didn't say anything about commitment." "Alright, what ever you say." Just then Seth walked in looking totally hot sporting a new haircut, also a new suit that fit him like a glove. "Good morning, how is everyone on this fine day?" "Aren't we chipper this morning" Logan asked. "I looked at Seth, he looked at me as we got lost in each others stare. "Okay, I'm leaving, see you both at the staff meeting." As Seth stood at the doorway I couldn't help but notice how his cock snaked down his pants leg.

"What would you say if I came over tonight, I'll bring Chinese?" "Sounds great" Seth arrived, we chowed down on the food along with a few beers. We sat on the sofa, close to each other, talking, laughing, just enjoying each other. Seth reached over kissing me....taking my hands carresing his face. The kiss became fierce as our saliva mixed....our desire consuming us. "Fuck me, I need you inside me." In a flash we were both naked, I got the lube, buttering my cock and his waiting ass. I entered him, passing his tight muscle as he gasped. Slowly, I pushed forward slipping into his depth. "Yes, mmm, that's it, fuck me." His warm tight ass muscles took hold of my cock sending waves of incredible sensations though out my body. I began rapidly thrusting into him as the sofa was banking against the wall to our rhythm. "Oh baby, your cock is rock hard sending chills through me." I sucked, then bit his nips, making him scream as his cock was pooling pre-cum on his stomach. I began a slow steady stride into him, each stride rubbing against his prostate driving him over the edge. He grabbed my ass pushing me into him as he yelled: "Baby, I'm cumming, fill me now" At the same time cum blasted out of me filling his inner depths with my jizz. He began shooting without touching his cock. His load was very impressive, starring at him with a grin as I ate his sweet thick white batter. I reached up to him snowballing a huge wad of cum in his mouth, sharing his essence.  We laid on the sofa, coming down from the most incredible mind blowing sex. "Grayson, something is happening to us, a feeling that is scaring me." "I have the same feelings, lets just take it one step at a time and see where it leads."

Over the next several months or relationship grew....I knew in my heart that I was in love with him, I also thought that he loved me, even through we never told each other. We were going for dinner, but I didn't know that our relationship was going to take a different turn.

Seth and I met for dinner, as we sat talking, sipping on a glass of wine, he looked at me speaking softly: "I have never been so happy, I feel in my heart that your the one man I want to spend my life with, I love you." "I love you too, I've wanted to say that for a while now." "How do you feel about marriage Grayson?" "Immediately I froze, not knowing how to reply to him." He just looked at me hurt that I didn't reply to his question." The rest of our dinner was quiet also uncomfortable. We left the restaurant arriving at my apartment. I asked him to come up, he said he was tired and heading home. He gave me a kiss on the cheek then left. I knew that I caused damage to our relationship by not answering his question about marriage. How could I ever marry another man, my Dad would disown me.

The next day Seth came into my office closing the door. "This is just as good a place as any to say what I have to say to you." I'm not going to see you any more as you made it very plain to me by not answering my question about marriage, that your not interested in a commitment, so I'm going to begin to check other firms for employment, it will be too hard to remain with this firm." He got up and walked out. I just sat there beginning to tremble as my world came crashing down.

I couldn't loose him, it was time for me to confront my Father no matter what the outcome would be. I phoned him asking if he was available that evening as I urgently needed to speak with him. He told me to come by any time during the evening. "Do you want to have dinner with your Mom and I?" "No, I just need to talk to you."

On the drive to my parents I was anxious, the thought of telling my father that I was in love with another man just shook me to my core. I realized I couldn't continue living a lie, so what ever will be will be. I just knew that I couldn't loose Seth.

I arrived, rang the doorbell, my Mom answered, wrapping her arms around me. "Hi Mom, how are you?" I'm fine son, your Dad is waiting." She looked at me and said: "It's going to be alright." Didn't quite understand what she meant. I walked into my Dad's office, he was sitting there, getting up as I approached him. "Grayson, how are you, it seemed urgent that you wanted to talk to me." At this point I was shaking, beginning to sweat. "I have something to tell you, this is not easy for me but there is no soft way of putting it....I'm gay Dad." My father looked down, not saying anything as I squirmed in the chair. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes: "I know I have been hard on you, but I only wanted the best things in life for my only son." "I think your Mother and I have known for a long time that you had no interest in girls....I have noticed the way you look at Seth, is he the one?" "Yes Dad I love him." "I can't say that I'm happy, but I love you gay or straight." He got up from his desk and hugged me, something he very rarely did." "I love you Dad." He wiped his eyes then said: "I want you and Seth to join your Mother and I for dinner one night of your chosing, just let your Mother know. With that I left, kissing my Mother on the way out as she said: "I told you everything was going to be fine."

As soon as I left my parents I felt this huge burden lifted from me. Now I had to call Seth which I did before I left my parents. I rang his phone he answered: "Hello" "Seth its Grayson, listen, please pack a bag and get to my apartment as soon as you can, no questions asked." "What's going on?" "Just get here". "I'll be there in forty five minutes." I stopped at the jewelry store we did business with, told the associate that I was in a hurry, but I needed matching men's wedding bands. I got a set of platinum bands that were elegant, manly, as my heart skipped a beat at the thought of proposing to Seth.

I wasn't in the apartment ten minutes when the doorbell rang. I opened the door and wrapped my arms around my man. "Come in, I have so much to tell you." He dropped his bag looking at me: "What's going on Grayson?" "Let me get us a beer, then we can talk." We sat on the sofa, I took his hand: "Seth, I love you more than I have loved anyone in my life...I met with my Dad earlier this evening, I told him I was gay, that I was in love with you." "His whole demeanor changed, his eyes lit up as I kissed him. "There's more" I got up getting the black velvet box from my bedroom, sitting back on the sofa. I handed the box to Seth: "What is this?" "Open it" As he opened the box tears began to flow like the gates of a dam had opened. "Oh, does this mean?" "Yes, will your marry me Seth?" "Yes, yes I love you." We embraced, not wanting to let each other go." "Make love to me" he pleaded.

We went into the bedroom, getting naked in record time. I kissed him tenderly, running my tongue along his lips as he opened his mouth, I savored his essence, the warmth of his breath. "I want you in me." I buttered his ass, then my cock, placing myself at his entrance. I penetrated him, as he grabbed onto the sheets, with a soft whisper of "Yes". I pushed into his depths, as he lifted himself up driving my cock deeper into him. The warmth of his channel had me in a fog of lust, my shaft awakening every nerve in him. We made love slowly for a long period of time, consumed in sexual bliss.  "Oh baby, breed me, make me yours" "Yes honey your mine, let me empty my love into you." "Fuck, I'm cumming, fuuuuuuuuuck." "I'm cumming too, oh my God, yes." There was cum all over his face, dripping down his chin, all over his torso, it was incredible. I reached up licking the cum off his face, kissing him sharing his seed. We relaxed as he said to me: "I'm so happy, I love you so much." "I'm happy too, I love you with all that I am."

I became a different person, free from all fear I had thinking I would never be able to live my life as a gay man. My Dad was wonderful, understanding, and accepted Seth without hesitation.

A year later, it was on a beautiful warm June day when Seth and I spoke our vows to each other in matrimony with our parents and friends present. It was the beginning of our lives together forever.

Quote for Thought:  The most terrible loneliness is loving someone completely, deeply and without reserve, knowing that you're not loved that way in return.