My First Time Gay

I was in my mid 30's the first time I did anything to another guy although I had been thinking about it for a long time . I was a married white male about 5'10 maybe 230 lbs. with maybe a 4 in dick and  for a long time I had been jerking off to stories of younger guys tsking control of older guy but I never acted on it because I didn't know how . When we finally got a computer I started to explore the different chat rooms trying to work up the nerve to go in one .Then one day I was all alone in the house and feeling horny so I went into a m4m chat room not knowing what to expect .I was surprised how nice they were and chatted with a few guys explaining that this was my first time talking to guys about gay sex and that i have had urges to please other men . I was talking to one guy he told me to meet him at a known gay cruising spot about 20 minutes from my house ,so before i could chicken out I got in my car and drove there . I saw the van parked where he said it would so I walked over to the drivers window to introduce myself . I was very surprised to see a big black man sitting there.

I walked up to the window and saw he had his shorts down and was stroking a black uncut cock about 7 1/2 ins and uncut . He told me go to the other side and get in .When I did i couldn't take mt eyes off of his cock ,he took my hand and put it on his cock and I just started stoking him . It got bog and hard he reached over and pulled my head to it ,although I have to admit I didn't fight much .When I took it into my mouth I was amazed how hot it was ,it tasted a little bit like pee .I tried   taking him all the way into my mouth but started gagging before it got near the bottom . .The guy , I now knew as Sam , laughed told me go slow take as much as i was comfortable with . I sucked him like my wife would suck  me being careful of my teeth and i started to get a good rhythm bobbing up and down and I was loving it .Sam had his hand on the back of my head pushing it down every time my head came up .He was moaning telling me how good I was doing and how I was made to please black men .I started to get very excited  and I could taste his precum .He started to push my head faster telling me he was going to cum soon and I better swallow it He then pushed my head down and pushed his hips up and i could feel him cumming  in my mouth and then without even touching myself I came in my shorts .I realized he was still holding my head onto his cock and it was still shooting ,I tried to swallow it all but there was so much ,it started to leak out of my mouth and out of my nose .He finally stopped cumming but still held my head on his cock as I fought to breath .He then let me up ,when he saw my face he laughed told me I looked a mess .He then took his cock head and rubbed the cum all over my face then made me suck it clean. I sat up I could feel the cum dripping down my face and I could see my shirt was a mess with all the cum . Sam looked at me and laughed again ,pointed to the big cum stain on my shorts and said " I guess you liked my cock boy  "

I wasn't so turned on anymore and realized what I had done and got very embarrassed ,I asked Sam if he had anything  to clean the cum off my face he told me no I had to drive home with it on my face and to get out of his van .I had to walk about 100 feet across the parking lot with a face full of cum and a big cum stain on my shorts .I passed one guy he smirked at me and told me i looked good .I drove all the way home with his cum on me ,even walked into my house like that before I realized he had non way of knowing if I wiped it off or not . I took my clothes off threw them into the washer then took a shower .I relived what had happened and got hard again so I jerked off in the shower .When I got out and got dressed I made myself a drink and told myself that would never happen again but I did .