My colleague Roberto

Chapter 4

Lows and Highs

 It is Saturday evening, I couldn’t sleep properly last night, I went out and got myself a bottle of whiskey and brought it back to the apartment. I was supposed to only have one, maybe two glasses to both calm my nerves and help me to sleep but I think I overdid it and almost finished the bottle, something I never do. I woke up in the early afternoon and did not find Roberto here, so I spent the rest of the day out of the apartment trying to distract myself from the event of last night. I feel stupid, I ruined a great friendship. I probably led him on and all this happened because of me! Roberto dropped me a few texts throughout the day saying that we should talk and that he is worried that I am avoiding him (which I am).  I decided to head to Soho to a sports bar.

 *

 It is now 9:40pm and I have been here for almost 3hrs. Mary On A Cross plays which agitates me now, so I head over to the toilets to take a piss; I go to a urinal and relieve myself and as I do another man approaches the next urinal.

 “You look like crap man; do you want something to make you feel better?”

 I’m a mellow guy who is not put off from the casual rare smoke here and there, so I considered it.

 “How much?”

 “£20.”

 “What the fuck that’s expensive??” I say.

 “it’s some really good shit my G, I promise you that you won’t find any better anywhere else.”

 He takes out a bag and proceeds to show me 2 single square pieces, using some hard sale tactic.

 “Oh… I thought you were selling weed?”

 “Naww man, this is the real shit. Weed is cool but this stuff will fix you right up!”

 “Oh err… I’m ok.” I say as I walk away.

 “Ok listen-listen, I can tell you are a first-time user, I will do £10 for you. I will lose here but if you like it take my number and I can get you more…”

 I hesitate but proceed to walk up to him as I take out a £10 note.

 “Take one and keep it under your tongue for about fifteen to thirty minutes.” He says as he takes payment, gives me the drug with his card and walks away.

 I take out the tab square and stand in front of the toilet mirror as I reluctantly place it under my tongue. It has no taste. I feel no effect so I go back out and take my seat at the bar.

 *

I walk out of the bar finding my foot, stumbling over some rubbish on the street, laughing like a lunatic. The lights are alive, pouring and twinkling; spinning and glimmering. My visualisation is blurred, sometimes whirling. I continue walking towards Piccadilly Circus, one guy throws me off of him and others stay clear as I walk through. I fall and stand again using the building to guide me. I cross the road when the green happy man begins to walk out of the traffic light, this makes me laugh. As I cross, I find some steps and take a seat. I look up and I am surrounded by several large boards, as if I am in times square. I feel a vibration in my pocket and take my phone out. Roberto is calling me.

 “Zaher, where are you, it’s past midnight and I’m worried.”

 “H..Hu..hahahaha Robertoooooo, Roberto.” I say huskily in a high tone.

 “Zaher!? What’s up?”

 I whisper, “The lights… the lights Roberto, they twinkle and dance and... and… and the lights”

 “Zaher, where are you? Did you take something?”

 “Why are we on this earth Roberto, what’s the point of life…. I mean… they show us Coca-Cola, Nike and Cars but what for? Why do lights and screens want to make money, why are screens working to make money?” I say goofily, I then laugh slowly. “Hehehe ahahahaha ahh ha ha ha, they don’t have family or homes… HAHAHA”

“Lights, screens!? Are you in Piccadilly Circus?”

 “You know Roberto,” I now whisper in a serious tone “I have always liked you, since day one. I always wanted to kiss your lips, every time when were worked together in the classroom. I really like you. But Shhh don’t tell Roberto, He’s with Manuel and… and” I now begin to speak in a sad tone “I don’t want to lose my friend, he can’t know otherwise he might stay away from me.”

 “Zaher stay there, don’t move, you hear me? don’t move!”

 *

 “ZAHER.” Roberto shouts from across the road.

 “Roberto, you came. You came!!” I say.

 “Come, I have a cab waiting, come on.”

 Roberto takes my arm and puts it around his shoulders, holding me up by waist as he walks me into the cab.

 “Are you mad at me?” I ask.

 “Of course not, now just lay your head on me, we will be home soon.”

 “I can’t believe you came...”

 **

 My mouth feels dry and my head feels a little heavy. I attempt to open my eyes and the golden peaks of the morning sunlight crack through the blinds into my room. I feel empty for some reason, and then as I turn to my left, I see Roberto crouched up beside me laying asleep. I turn to my left side and lay looking at him, peacefully asleep. I feel inside and notice my trousers are off and I am in my boxers and T-shirt only, did Roberto undress me? I cannot remember much from last night.

 “Hey you’re awake.” Roberto whispers as he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand.

“Yeah.”

 “We need to get some more sleep, so try and sleep a little more, ok? I’m going to go back to my room, do you want anything before I go?”

 “No… wait., don’t go.” He sits back down on the bed.

 “Please stay with me.” I ask.

 He climbs into the duvet now and asks me to turn around, as I do, he spoons me from behind. It makes me feel warm and protected.

 “I’m sorry about Friday…” I say, “it’s just, I got scared.”

 “It’s ok.” He says.

 “No, it’s not.”

 “Do you remember what happened last night?” He asks.

 “No, oh gosh what happened!?”

 “Don’t worry.”

 “No tell me!”

 “Don’t worry about it I said!”

 *a small pause of silence*

 “You know back when we used to work together…” Roberto says.

 “Yeah?”

 “I knew you liked me.”

 I turn around swiftly and face Roberto with wide eyes.

 “Wh…what do you mean?” I ask in panic.

 “I liked you too Zaher, I…I still do.”

 I exhale softly not believing what I am hearing, Roberto leans in and kisses me and then rolls on top of me and we begin kissing passionately.

 “Why are you crying?” He asks as he wipes away a tear from my eye.

 “It’s just… I’ve, I have always wanted you Roberto and I was afraid that I lost you forever years ago. You don’t understand how much I have longed for this, but now I’m…I’m scared. What if this doesn’t work, I don’t want to lose a friend like you.

 Roberto scoffs “Don’t be silly, we will always be friends no matter what. And besides…” he begins to kiss me on my cheek, nose and lips slowly as he talks “We” *kiss* “will” *kiss* “never” *kiss* “really” *kiss* “know” *kiss* “unless we try.”

I wrap my arms around his neck and nod as I smile, we kiss again passionately.

 Roberto places his right hand up my t-shirt and rubs my body with his large warm hand, he retracts and then takes my t-shirt off followed by his own, the duvet is pushed to the side of the king-size bed. He lays beside me now as we kiss again. I bring my hand down towards his cock, I rub my hands over his briefs and feel his bulge grow, I then slip my hands into the band of his boxer briefs and take Roberto’s shaft in my fingers as wrap around it, this is the first time I am feeling his cock which instantly makes me hard. He exhales into my mouth as I do this. I begin stroking it slowly. I feel Roberto take his left hand and rub my ass cheeks slowly before pulling down my boxers and exposing my now bare ass, he takes his firm hand and continues squeezing whilst teasing me with his fingers, I can feel his middle finger enter teasingly which makes me squeal with joy.

 Roberto comes down and turns me on my stomach, he spreads my ass cheeks and begins to eat me out, licking and wetting me with his saliva. His - now possessed - tongue enters me and licks every part of my tight pink hole which makes me squirm, I can feel the precum coming out of my tip.

 “Awh aaah ahhh fuck me Roberto, fuck me please!” I say, words I have held in for several years.

 Roberto kneels up and asks me to lay on my back, he brings two pillows and places it under my lower back.

 “There’s some lube in my nightstand draw.” I say.

 As he reaches over to bring the lube, I can now see his erect seven, maybe eight-inch cock. Precum dripping low from it. His large balls look full and he is groomed around. He takes the lube and begins to rub it upon his thick shaft as he looks into my eyes, we both smile at each other. He then takes some more lube and fingers it into me slowly.

Roberto takes my legs and places it over his shoulders, he slowly enters my hole with the tip of his cock and with a pop it goes in, as he enters halfway, he drops on top of me and begins to slowly penetrate, his arms wrap around under my own and my hands sit around his neck.

 “Awh fuck yes! Yes, Roberto yes!” I say In pleasure.

 I can feel his pulsating cock ram into me hard and good and as he does his shallow warm breath is upon my neck, he grunts slowly with every other push. I moan loudly as he fucks my tight hole, feeling the tip rub and massage my prostate.

 “You’re a dirty little boy aren’t you.” He says huskily which surprises me.

 “Aren’t you!”

 “Yes, I am.” I squeal.

 “You wanted this for so long huh. Beg for it, tell me to give it to you.” He says as he continues to thrust.

 “Give it to me Roberto, Give it good.”

 He then begins to slam harder which frenzies me for wanting more.

 “Yes, YES FUCK! Give it to me harder, harder!”

 Roberto slams harder and faster, he lifts himself up slightly and kisses me on my lips, as he pulls away, he grabs my legs and holds onto my calfs pounding harder now. I look up and see him looking into my eyes and I stare back in pleasure.

 “UH Aaahh I’m cumming!!” he yells.

 As soon as I felt it, I grabbed Roberto’s ass cheeks and firmly pushed it into me, holding him in place, I can now feel his cum gushing into my hole. Roberto makes growl like grunt sounds with every pump he breeds into me. He crashes upon me and I begin to massage his damp hair with one hand whilst I hug him with the other, he slowly recovers and looks up and kisses me once more.

 “I have always loved you, Roberto.” I say.

 “I know, I love you too.”

 His cock slides out of my hole and I can now feel his cum oozing out slowly. He rolls back to my right side and takes me into his arm as I lay upon his chest. A moment I have always longed for.