COVID really did change my life but not in ways I ever expected. I had moved to NYC in September of 2019 for a job at an accounting consulting firm. I was 24, had no friends in the city or even within 1,000 miles but I was excited for all the possibilities. I’m a classic “pretty boy” as I’ve been told; 5’10 blonde hair handsome with boyish features and a very lean muscular body, not a twink but not jacked either. I had also been told I had a great ass by many women and for my life up until then I had only been with women.
the start of my job I was on a travel project for 2 months so I was almost never in the city to make friends. By the time the project ended it was deep into winter and soon the world would shut down thanks to covid. The project I was on required me to be on this client for 40 hours a week, but truth be told I was able to complete my work in a few hours and basically have nothing to do all week. With all the free time and nowhere to go I ended up splitting my time between video games and porn (typical 24 year old).
after a couple weeks I found porn wasn’t really exiting me anymore and was going through Reddit reading more erotic stories of people’s sex lifes. I don’t remember how it exactly happened but one of the subreddits that day had an influx of men posting about being with other men, like non stop, and I guess my curiosity got the best of me and decided to click on a story about a young guy being seduced. I had only been with women before this but to say I’d never thought about sex with a man was a lie, though I hadn’t explored it in away up until this moment. But something about this story of a straight young guy who described himself just as I am started to stir something in me. His telling of how he started to suck a man’s cock before being fucked and how amazing it was started to turn me on in a way I couldn’t explain. After that I found myself almost exclusively reading gay sex stories and eventually even messaging men about it, typically bottoms asking about their experiences. They all told me how much they loved it, the feeling of sucking and slobbering on a cock before he fucked them and how amazing it felt. I couldn’t deny I wanted to try it and was told I should get some toys to test on myself, a couple even coaching me on what to do exactly.
I ordered a few anal toys lots of lube and waited for them to arrive. After what felt like weeks they finally did and within minutes I was naked in bed fucking my self with a dildo. Over the next few weeks this was a daily practice working myself up to an 8in dildo even watching gay porn. As I started to explore more I found what really turned me on was watching boys like me be used by older more dominant masculine men. I was never much of a dominant person, not even with women, so the idea of submitting to a bigger older stronger man felt so natural.
It’s now June places are starting to open up and people are less strict with restrictions and I began to wonder if I could actually do this. One of the guys I talked to told me to download Grindr and finally experience it for myself. I was nervous as I downloaded it, created a profile with pics of my body but not my face, the bio saying gay virgin looking for a masculine man to use and train me. Even typing that out felt so erotic but I wanted whoever saw my profile to know exactly what I was and looking for.
the next few days were kind of a let down, my of the messages I saw were unattractive men or blank profiles saying things like “looking?, hosting?, now?” Never anything more and for my first time I wanted someone I was not only attracted to but to also say more. The conversations were dull or short and I was starting to lose faith until on Friday night my luck changed.
“Looking for a new faggot to train and be my little cum slut. Come over tonight or your blocked”
I was shocked at how straight forward he was and with an ultimatum like that I started to really think about it. I clicked his profile and the first pic was him shirtless chest up, he was handsome bald with a thick beard and chest tattoo, he looked like such an alpha. His other pics showed the rest of his body, jacked like huge shoulders pecs biceps and tattoos all over his body. I explored the rest of his profile: 38 6’1 220 with a bio that said “Dom hung top daddy looking for submissive faggots to fuck and breed when I want”. I knew I wanted someone more dominant but never expected this and I was shocked at how rock hard I was at the idea of being with this man. I had to respond
“hey, hot profile, definitely interested “ I didn’t know what to say, I’d never talked to a man like this before.
“I don’t want interested. I was a hungry eager faggot to come take my big dick. And you will call me daddy, got it faggot?”
I couldn’t believe how much being spoken down to like this turned me on. My heart was racing in a mix of fear and anticipation
“yes daddy I’m sorry. I’m very eager to finally take a real man’s cock. Please use me daddy” I couldn’t believe I typed that out but it came out so naturally.
“good faggot, you on prep?” Luckily I had recently gone on it thanks to advice from a reddit user.
“yes daddy I am”
”Good faggot. Here’s my address (address) come in one hour”
my heart really began to race as I jumped in the shower cleaned myself out as instructed by others and quickly made my way to his place. The subway ride my heart was pounding “am I really doing this? Am I ready for someone like this?” These thoughts shit through my mind as I approached his building and made my way up the stairs. Still questioning of I should go through with it until I reached his door that had a folded note on it. I lifted it open “doors unlocked, come in strip and crawl to the living room” I couldn’t believe what I just read, this was my last chance to leave and find someone who may be easier to start with but my cock was rock hard and I couldn’t lie how bad I wanted it.
I opened the door immediately stripped and jumped down to all 4s and began to crawl into this apartment, I couldn’t believe what I was doing. As I turned a corner I saw him completely naked on the couch and froze, his pictures didn’t do him justice but what shocked me most was his cock, not even hard it looked so big and meaty. My mouth began to water looking at this alpha completely jacked holding the biggest cock I’d ever seen in person just starring at me. I was in a complete daze in awe of this stud but he snapped me out of it.
“get the fuck over here faggot and suck daddy’s dick”
I crawled as fast as I could over to him and before I could take his cock he grabbed my face and bent down looking me right in the eyes.
“For now on your my faggot. When I say something you do it. When I want you over here you come over and do exactly as I say. I’m going to use you as my own personal cum dump. Got it faggot?”
“yes daddy! Please let me be your faggot cum dump, I needed it so badly. Can I please suck your cock!” These words just flowed at of my mouth, I wasn’t even trying to talk dirty. They were the exact feelings going on in my body. Without even being with this man I was already completely his and wanted nothing more than to be used by him
to be continued
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