I went to an all male high school and the idea of sex with men never even entered my mind. When I was away at college I had unfettered access to new porn that I never experienced before. I found myself getting bored with the standard stuff but I did notice that I was paying more attention to the big dicks.
One night I decided to search for some gay porn "just to see" The first video I found was two well built guys that were passionately having sex with each other. Not fucking, it was different. My dick got harder that I ever remember as I watched his thick and veiny cock slide in and out of the other guy's ass. It was shiny from all of the lube accentuating all of the detail.
I found myself jerking off to these two men fucking. What was wrong with me? I soon came and the wave of shame flooded over me. How could you watch these faggots fucking and worse cum to it? I'm not into guys I told myself, it's just something different.
But I couldn't help myself. Every chance I had between classes or going out to a party or the bars, I found myself opening the browser and searching for gay porn.
I loved watching guys fucking. The animalistic, raw sucking and fucking. It was so hot seeing a guy's ass in the air and his face buried in the bed getting railed by a guy with a big dick. I particularly liked when a guy would cum in the guy's ass. If I could find one where you could see the cum running out of his ass that would immediately make me cum all over myself.
Watching anal was always way hotter to me than watching a guy suck a cock but in one of the videos the guy fucking pulled his cock out and came all over the face and in the mouth of the other guy. New level unlocked for me. I found myself wondering what it would be like to fuck a guy and cum in his face and mouth.
In the building where I lived there was a guy that I found myself checking out more and more. He was masculine and there was something about him that seemed inviting. I found myself fantasizing about the things I would do with him. How I would fuck him, cumming in his mouth, and even sucking his dick. I would be fucking my girlfriend and imagining that it was his ass. Those are the times I would cum the hardest.
I never acted on my desires but it definitely made me realize that I was bicurious. When I graduated college I thought that chapter was behind. Little did I know what life would have in store for me.
