Is it just me?

This is chapter 3 

Of my fictional 

Fantasy.

I had met Sonny before I started my transition.  He was introduced to me by a counselor I was seeing. Sonny was bigger than life. He also was bigger than most men. In the sense of how he had worked so hard to transform his body. He worked out , he swam , ran and also boxed. I never really Iiked boxing. Even when I looked like a guy, ( sorta).,it was way.to violent for me...your thinking ( what a minute, 13 hours earlier you let him pummel you). We'll get to that. The cabin door opened briefly after we were airborne. A hand motioned at us.  Sonny said " bsby I'll be right back in a few". Again he kissed me softly on my busted lip. The cute little girl showed up with some glasses and a bottle of  champagne and Sat on the other side of the isle. She paused as she got a clear look at my face, I leaned over," Baby girl I like it on the rough side. She sighed and smiled,  " ok , I was just concerned.". She was so cute, my left over male personality suddenly rose his head, I realized I wanted to fuck this adorable little thing. " is there a powder room..on..the plane?." She jumped up. " come on," she almost pulled me out of my seat belt, then she knelt down and leaned over and with one hand she was able to unbuckle me . Then as she stood up.her other hand landed right on my cock. She looked stunned for a second. " so where is this powder room bsby"?..she helped me up then continued to hold my hand as we walked to the back of the plane.  We walked around the small galley and she said " watch your head" and pushed open a small door. A light came on automatically.  As I went in I saw a nice little hideaway bed, a small table with a mirror behind it. She reached behind it and turned on a small over head light.Then she walked behind me and unfolded a little bench sit and made me sit. As she opened some drawers,  I saw a complete makeup kit," Baby can I get you anything"? She gave a sorta half evil half angelic smile.

" I'd like you to help me with this"?..I pulled my hair back so my whole face was  revealed.  She sat on the corner of the bed.  and a sad smile slowly resolved on her face " your so beautiful " she said as she gently pulled my hair our of my face and then pulled it up in a bun. " can I ask you a personal question " "  if its none of my business..ill..."  " sweetie, I get off when I get roughed up, I don't know why, really " but I do".. she made me pull the little bench I was sitting on up closer to the vanity. Then she looked at me in the reflection of the mirror with a long gaze..." I'm sorry, I just don't understand " " I hope you'll forgive me if I overstepped my boundaries " she said,  I looked in the mirror,  while she took a make up.brush and blended some foundation on my face. The Planes PA pop and  crackled, " hey baby are you ok"? ..my young girlfriend pushed a switch in on the wall and looked at me and nodded.  " yes hi baby " I said. " Were just back here doing girl stuff" " ok " he replied " so you don't mind if I sit up here for a bit?" " wr will be landing in about 50nmins and I'm gonna fly the plane some ".." oh dear" I said and started laughing.  He laughed and said "ok"  " Roger out". I tilted my head up as I felt her brush my hair, she was such a sweet girl. Then she let her hand slide down my back and began lightly caressing it as she bent down and gently kissed on my neck. I was so fuckn turned on by this girl.  I thought I was totally over females, I reached my hand back behind my neck and wrapped my hand around her soft silky hair. I coaxed her around and had her straddle my lap. Then I tilted my head up as I brought her face to mine, she slowly opened her delicate young mouth. I slowly slipped my tounge in her mouth, that tasted like Raspberry,  I swear. She embraced me with her arms and began making little noises as we continued to kiss.  Her hips began to slowly grind on my crotch. My cock immediately got hard..I was going to pull it to one side because it was getting bent sideways inside. But before I even moved one hand from her back,  she reached down and lifted her hips up and pulled my cock out. Then she pulled her panties to one side as she looked me directly in the eyes and  said " I want you so much". She held my cock and held the base of it as she lowered her pussy around it. I fuckn gasped so hard!!!.. she rocked back and forth on me ..leaning her head back and pushing her firm breasts up to my face. I couldn't belive how fuckn hard I was,  this was a girl!..I wasn't turned on by girls anymore I'm gay!!!..  I hadn't had sex with a female in a dozen or so years..she tilted her head down and as her hair spilled down she began alternating between kissing my lips and then softly bitting them...I suddenly felt myself cumming!!. I was absolutely unprepared for any thing like this. I instinctively pushed my cock up in her and pumped my cum in her...she moaned and arched her back ..I had to hold her tight as she almost fell backwards..she was almost whimpering,  I pulled her to me and held her tightly.  I brought her mouth to mine and kissed her with as much passion as I could remember feeling in such a long time..she looked at my face and I could see tears!!!. " what's the matter baby"? I asked as I continued to squeeze her. " that's the most passionate, sweetest thing I've ever felt before " she took her finger and lightly caressed my lip. I wiped her tears, " Baby your absolutely beautiful "!!.. I squeezed her and kissed her again. Then she composed herself got to her feet,  adjusted her skirt and her hair. Smiled at me and said" ok let's finish "..I felt a strange feeling come over me, yes it was that feeling you get after you have sex, but there was something else,  like a new emotional level to it?..